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24 | she/her | recover_relapse_repeat | TW: lots and lots of self loathing, a shitty attempt to cope.

[alooha]

by grif

[girlwill]

"i could fix him" good for you. im gonna join him in his insanity

[studentlifeproblems]

[the-middle-eastern-feminist]

[justsomeonesdrama]

Said the girl who successfully avoided to stay in therapy for more than 3 sessions ever 🤡

[mothvhs]

the fact that time passes and things change and people leave and you can only go back to a place physically and you will never be 14 15 16 again………….. i don’t understand how we are meant to endure that

[justsomeonesdrama]

I always feared that I will become invisible, once I become happy. The continuous experience of suffering mental health relapses deeply ingrained the idea that being damaged is as an institutional part of myself. I build a whole concept of self consciousness around my trauma and unhealthy coping mechanisms. I created an aesthetic of suffering, pain and tragedy, wore my wounds as an armor. Consequences were irrelevant, when I was focused on surviving day by day, but eventually the sun came back into my life and I found reason. I fell in love with love (hmu in 1-2 years for the usual bitter realization that love is no healing but an anesthetic). Unfortunately as I got better, I lost myself along the way. What is left of me, once the illness becomes silent for a while? Suddenly I have to make plans for life, when in the first place I didn't even intend to live to this point in time. It's tempting to fall into old habits. Suffering is a purpose in its own, it fills your days, your mind and everyday's mission is to ease the pain for a while no matter what. Death is less terrifying, when life is a burden. And let me tell you, death is FREAKING terrifying, once you found joy in life. Am I really about to sabotage myself?

[opalcrow]

[sakrogoat]

Maéna Paillet - The Drowning

[hazy-october]

source

[justsomeonesdrama]

lonelieness and confusion take up big parts of my brain again. brain fog makes it hard to focus on studies. i don’t want it to be bad again, i don't want to lie awake at night, wondering how to keep on. i dont know why i got better in the first place but whatever it was, it’s wearing off. maybe being in love numbed my pain for a while, but apparently it kept on growing like a tumor, which is now taking me down. how many times am i supposed to go through the same shit again and again and again. it’s madness.

[bpdshan]

exfoliator but for my brain so I can scrub out the trauma

[politijohn]

[robins-gay-suspenders]

[cumaeansibyl]

I’m the girl with the extremely knowing smile in the foreground

[unwelcome-ozian]

[halibellecter]

Oh, oh no.

[homopower]

This post is incredibly loud.

[justsomeonesdrama]

[estrellablogg]

Adına Gülümsediğim .. ✨

[asterosian]

Do y’all know where the phrase “eat the rich” comes from or do you just repeat it cause you heard it elsewhere?

It’s not a bad thing, I just saw someone say “we never said who would eat the rich” and realized a lot of y’all might not have heard the full quote

It’s from Rousseau and it’s “When the people shall have nothing more to eat, they will eat the rich"

And, well, there’s a lot of people with nothing to eat…

[insanitysscribblings]

The poor cried,

"We are starving. There is no more bread, and we have nothing to eat."

The rich man said,

"Not my problem you don't work for your bread,"

as if he did not snatch away the grain by his own greedy hands and create filling bread for his own overflowing mouth.

The poor cried,

"We are dying. There is no more medicine, and we're all ill."

The rich man said,

"Not my problem you don't take care of yourselves,"

as if he did not buy all the medicine and raise prices so high

the gods themselves would not

be able to reach.

The poor people

stopped crying,

and the rich man was satisfied...

Until they came knocking at his door one night;

their faces were sunken,

their flesh decaying,

their eyes sightless.

They were monsters

of the rich man's

own making.

As they devoured his flesh,

the rich man cried,

"Please, spare me!"

The ravenous zombies said,

"Not our fault

you fattened yourself

for slaughter."

[therestlessforest]

A lot of us have indeed seen the full quote but it's nice to have it written down like this for those who haven't