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@justtryingtooperate-blog
I have a school friend who's become one of my best friends. He's leaving for Hawaii on the 17th and I honestly don't know what I'll do without him. How does one just tell their guy friend that they have become a big part of their life and that they really care for them as a person? He's legit become a brother.
Am I just complaining, looking for real advice, seeking validation, or asking for attention?
Why is everything so difficult..
Cleaned my car today!
I went to my parent's house last night for the first time since having a big blowout with them a couple months ago. Very much needed and felt amazing. They were extremely loving and understanding with everything. Reminded me of why I work so hard: so I can take care of them someday.
This morning felt better. Woke up and spent 20 minutes in bed dedicated to relaxing and browsing instead of ignoring the world. Took a shower (one of my goals is to shower daily. Taking the time to take care of my physical body helps my mental self), and then cleaned out my car for around half an hour. I threw away 2 garbage bags of stuff and trash from that short time. I've been ignoring my mess for way too long. That bit of life care definitely helped to start my day right.
Headed off to campus (full-time student and I work there as an office assistant), and my only class is statistics. I got a better score on the tests handed back than I thought I would, 68 out of 77. Boo-yah! About to meet with my group from stats to go over our quarter project and solidify some numbers and junk.
Today was a really hard day. My psychiatrist had to drop me as a patient because they are expanding their practice with their partner and I no longer fit the criteria. I started as a patient with this person 5 years ago. I moved away for a year and when I moved back, tracked them down at their new practice. All I received was a letter. Waiting for that call back with some referrals and to see if I can have my medications refilled while I search for a new person. I absolutely hate starting with new psychiatrists for the simple fact that I hate going through my life story. Change can be good sometimes, but this really hurt. (I think I place too much of my own worth in other people's hands)
I almost broke down constantly today as well. Just trying so hard to hold everything in. Had to excuse myself for a moment from the project I was working on to go breathe and shake in another office. Came out of absolutely nowhere.
I'm home now. All I look forward to everyday is to sit outside of my home, stare at the trees or my phone, and chain smoke.
Here we go
I decided that I needed some sort of outlet. An anonymous outlet. Tumblr came to mind because I have friends who use it and also from what I've seen on facebook. I really just feel I need some sort of space to publicly vent even if no one sees it. Absolutely no clue how to even operate this site yet, but decided to just dive right in. I have been having such a hard time just getting out of bed lately. Sure, I do have friends that will listen to me and junk, but I've started to feel like a burden. And it's probably an unfair assumption that they won't understand, but sometimes I just feel so alone. I know I'm not the only one who struggles or has these sort of feelings, but sometimes I really feel like I am.