Hello everyone!!! And welcome to my selfship tumblr blog!
♡ My name is Jaydon (or you can call me Jay if that's easier for you), I am in a non-sharing, soulbonded, relationship with the "One Winged Angel" himself... Sephiroth from Final Fantasy 7 (all versions).
♡ This blog will be a dedication towards him and the bond we share. I may post my own digital art (under the tag "SephiJay"), or I may reblog art of himself, anything that makes me think of him, or relateable selfshipping things I come across. It will also be the space for me to make new friends!!!
Make sure to read my DNI before following or interacting with my posts!
♡ Pssst, I also have a 18+ account too here! (adults with age in their bio only pls ♡)
♡ I also have a commissions page as well, for those of you curious to receive some art from me as well (especially other selfshippers)
♡ I am in my mid twenties and also a neurodivergent user who has been diagnosed with autism since I was around 2 years old.
♡ My pronouns are she/her and my sign is an Aries (My birthday is April 6th)
♡ Besides being chronically online, I have a lot of fun hobbies. Some of my favorites include making candles, gaming (both on playstation and nintendo), creating digital art on my phone, crocheting, and listening to music.
♡ My other favorite things include animal crossing, coffee, corgis, going shopping, ren faires, fairycore aesthetics, memes, anything to do with my f/o, and vibing with friends. :3
♡ One more fun fact is that I have a partner IRL, and he is fully supportive of my selfship habits hehehe, because of this, I'm actually a semificto!
♡ In August of 2024, my IRL partner introduced me to the series one day while he was playing Crisis Core Reunion. And I was immediately drawn to Sephiroth. He looked so pretty...so ethereal. And I had to know more. At first, I thought "Oh cool, he's a pretty amazing character" and thought that was it...until....
♡ A few months later (November), he reached out to me for the first time. Now, this was interesting because with previous F/O's i've had in the past, I always seemed to reach them for a soulbond, to work for it. Him? No....he saw me, and he wanted me.
♡ Since that moment, we started slowly being around eachother more, they led to dates, and feelings developed...hard. He immediately knew that I was the one for him, it just took me a bit of time to truly realize these feelings were real and not just an infactuation.
♡ Then that changed months later, when I finally told him that I too was having these strong feelings for him, of wanting to be by his side, to be eternally his. And he welcomed me with open arms. And we have been insepreateable since.
♡ Me and Sephiroth have officially been together since March 23rd 2025 ♡
♡ As of Janurary 1st, 2026... the two of us are now engaged. Wedding date TBA ♡
CW: vent about Selfshipping in general, i'm scared for myself...
Y'all, I've just been crying and spiraling for the past 30 minutes because of that one blog in the selfship tags as of lately (if you don't know who, I reblogged a post about the account). And... Idk, my headapace is already not too great and those just... made me feel really upset? I'm already feeling so fucking guilty over how I think as of lately, I don't need this either.
And it's sad because lately I've been wondering if I'm feeling like I'm too stuck in my own delusions to be percieved as a good person. As a soulbonder, aka, a person who feels a "connection" with said fictional character, it makes me feel scared for my mental health. Like, I know they are fictional at the end of the day, but at the same time, am I going through psychosis? Is something wrong with me? It brings me great comfort in the moment and makes me very happy, however I truly wonder if I'm okay, you know?
I worry too because I've wanted to try streaming as a png tuber and playing games for others to watch, but I worry of people finding this account or myself being "too cringe" for selfshipping or pretending characters are here with me in real life. I should keep that hidden, but he means so much to me and I've been like this since I was young, I don't think it will go away that easily. I can never let go of the love of any of the characters I've loved in my life. Whenever I'm upset and alone, I feel like he's there, helping me. I don't hear or see him, but a presense IS there, so idk what that means for me, other than the fact that it brings me great comfort and safety. That or he really show's whenever no one else is here, so I end up talking to myself, whether it's out loud or within my own head. Would that be so strange of me? I'm not hurting anyone, at least I don't think I am.
I know this is a whole lot of nothing when it comes to this rant, but idk, I just want to not be judged for the way that I am, I want to be comfortable talking about my selfships without being viewed as delusional. And I don't want to delete this account out of fear like I've done with Discord in the past. Just....
Imagine your evil f/o admitting to you that you're the only one that they trust, the only one they ever let in on their rawest of emotions.
They become a big softie around you: resting their chin atop your head, snaking their arms around your waist. Maybe even unexpectedly taking hold of your hand, caressing it with their thumb.
Try as they might to remain stoic and uphold their villainous persona, they visibly melt every time you come into view. You are their safe space, their be all and end all. Without you, there is no them.
Your f/o doesn’t wish you were better at masking. They don’t wish you acted “more normal” or blended in more with everyone else. They know that sometimes you stand out without meaning to, and that it can leave you feeling awkward or like everyone is judging you. But when they look at you, they don’t see someone who needs to change. They see someone who’s genuine, lovable, and worth being proud of. They’ll always be happy to stand beside you, hold you close, and love you exactly as you are…never asking you to become anyone else.
Aaah, it's one of those moments where I wish my f/o was here. Suddenly im weak and shaky af, and my heart is having strong palpatations. I think it's just dehydration but idk
