Kay 🌻

Texas Forever. 22.

[hayley-studies]

12 12 15 • “People on the pen pull the trigger for accolades.”

Had a productive evening writing my essay for my Bilingualism module. It’s not due until January 12th but I’m hoping to have it finished next week as I have another assignment due on the 11th!

[jkh2001-deactivated20200320]

I love how she leaves space in the margins for any notes she may want to include!

[hayley-studies]

I’m glad you like that! I use the Cornell method when I’m notetaking but I transferred that technique to essay writing too because I can add little afterthoughts in the margins when I re-read my work instead of squeezing in my comments and running out of space :)

[thearialligraphyproject]

Photos from 03 November 2015: Short org chem review session this morning so I don’t forget the lesson when I go back to uni!

[thoughtsandstudying]

handwriting goals

[scissorspider]

yknow if romeo had just Cried on juliets corpse for a couple hours instead of drinking poison Right Then they would have been Fine

[persephonesidekick]

The moral of the story is: always take time to cry for a few hours before making important decisions.

[thexfiles]

“What I didn’t realize, back when I was this twenty-five-year-old pinup for geeks in that me myself and iconic metal bikini, was that I had signed an invisible contract to stay looking the exact same way for the next thirty to forty years. Well, clearly I’ve broken that contract. Partly because, in an effort to keep up my disguise as a human being, I had a child at some point. And then, in an effort to stay sane for said child, I took pounds and pounds of medications that have the dual effect of causing water retention (think ocean, not lake) while also creating a craving for salad—chocolate salad. So yes, in answer to your unexpressed question, sanity does turn out to come at a heavy price.” — Carrie Fisher

[buttermybooks]

sassiest author award goes to….

[loquaciouslyliterate]

Tbh I think my favourite character in LotR is that one ent whose hair catches on fire, so he dips it in the water when the dam breaks

Gets me every time

[antstepsbooks]

Yeah I see your thinking about that story huh

[weiszrachel]

[whiskeywrites]

And refill my glass…

[weloveshortvideos]

[vergen]

me as hell

[4am-reflections]

Bruises covered with makeup. Dark sunglasses and too many lies. Drunken fights and sober apologizes. Blaming yourself, hating every inch. Needing to leave and loving them still. Broken vases and hospital trips. Never getting better, it never stopping. Lying to everyone, lying to yourself. Thinking you deserve it and crying. Wishing you could die but being scared you might.

Diary of the bruised// 4am (via 4am-reflections)

[4am-reflections]

Screw the poets there are no beautiful suicides.

A lyric from my friends song, it will always mean something to me// 4am (via 4am-reflections)

[4am-reflections]

voicemail one 11:47am// Hey dude, it’s me. Are you on your way? If not, can you stop by McDonald’s and grab me a burger? I’ve been craving one all morning and I really don’t feel like getting out of my pjs. See you soon! voicemail two 1:15pm// Where the hell are you? You were supposed to be here at 12 and it’s after one now! Get your ass over here dude! Call me back! voicemail three 4:21pm// Tell me this is a joke! I swear to god this better be a joke! Your mom just called me… You have to be okay, please be okay… I’m on my way! voicemail four 11:55pm// Its been a week since you left. I didn’t get there in time to say goodbye.. I hate myself… I haven’t been able to leave my room since.. My mom, she’s worried about me. And… I don’t know how to tell her that I’m not okay… that I can’t be okay without you here.. Please just come back… It doesn’t even really feel like your gone. I keep waiting.. waiting for you to walk through the door. But your not… and you never will again….. I miss you… voicemail five 3:10am// Soooo… I’m drunk annnnd I cut my hair. Don’t really know why, but I did. I think you’d like it. You always used to say that I’d look good with short hair… Fuck my moms gonna freak. Her angel of a kid, drunk… I just can’t deal with this anymore… I don’t know how I didn’t notice, I should have noticed.. Why didn’t you talk to me? I could have helped, I could have done something… Was it my fault?.. Di-did I do something?… Why would you ever do this to yourself?! There are so many better ways to deal with things! Why just why! - I can’t do this… I can’t… I don’t know what- *beep* voicemail six 1:42am// Why the hell did you do this?! Did you not think of me you asshole! What this would do to me! Did you really think I’d be okay? Well surprise I’m not okay!… What about your parents? What this would do to them?… I just need to know why… I can’t, I can’t breathe.. Just please come back. I’ll do anything, I’ll never leave your side… Just please come back… voicemail seven 12:03am// I finally know how you felt.. The overwhelming sadness… Your funeral was today.. When they lowered you into the ground I broke down.. I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t think, I couldn’t see… My brother had to carry me out of there… All I want to do is sleep… It doesn’t hurt then… I just can’t take it… If you felt like this before…. I am so sorry… I honestly don’t want to do this… I miss you… I need you here.. voicemail eight 8:17pm// I actually got out of my bed today. I got a cup of coffee and sat outside. It was so nice to feel the wind against my skin. It reminds me of you, the wind. It’s so free, I hope that’s how you feel now. I hope that you aren’t in pain anymore. I don’t even know why I keep calling. It’s been over a month now… I know you’re not gonna answer… I hope you know.. that you’ll never be forgotten. I’ll always remember you. voicemail nine 6:12pm// My mom’s making me see a counsellor. I know what you’re thinking. I’m turning into the people we used to make fun of. It turns out that not all people who go to shrinks are crazy. I actually think that it’s going to be good for me. You have to work to get better and I know that’s what you’d want for me. voicemail ten 10:17am// So I’ve realized that I’m gonna be okay. Maybe not now but eventually. I want to feel better, not feel this sadness anymore. I’ll always miss you and I’ll always think of you, but i will get through this. I hope you know- *beep* voicemail eleven 10:20am// *This number you have reached is not in service. This number you have reached is not in service* voicemail twelve 10:21// This number you have reached-

4am (via 4am-reflections)

[sacetcendre]

from dusk till dawn

[xxcats-eyesxx]

[evilrashida]

BITCH YOU THOUGHT

[eclipsebykimlipmp3-deactivated2]

YESSSSSSSSSSSSs

[commongayboy-deactivated2018082]

[wordsnquotes]

I had a love affair with books, with the characters and their worlds. Books kept me company.

Marya Hornbacher, Wasted (via wordsnquotes)

[studyst]

I…may have stayed up until 5am to do it, but I’m done! Reading this again was…an…experience.