“you know me, teags” she mimicked her again under breath, rolling her eyes at the girl. all she wanted to do was gush about the engagement with sam before he had to sleep, but it seemed like kaia had other plans for the girl. she thought she thought she had made it clear that they’re barely even friends, but it looked like the girl never got the message- or knowing kaia, refused to understand the message. “he can’t really be your replacement when we’ve been close with sam since before our falling out, but whatever you want to think, lim.” she waved her off, closing her door before sitting on her bed with one leg dangling on the edge and the other folded. “what ‘i dont know you’ act? kaia, i told you that i didn’t know you anymore. we’re cool and all, but i just don’t know you anymore. it’s as simple as that.” she shrugged, her expression showing how unimpressed and uninterested she was at the current conversation. “you apologized and we are good, but that doesn’t mean we’re friends again? i told you that we were nothing, i don’t get what’s so hard to comprehend?” she questioned. “am i missing something? did you not understand anything i told you that day? i don’t know you, kaia. theres no bad blood and i’m not mad at you, i just don’t know you.”
confusion etched across her expression, teagan’s words just made everything even more complicated. “huh ? what does that fucking even mean ? how can you not know someone ? what, do i simply just not exist in your life anymore ? is it like we never met and became friends in the 2nd grade ?” she shook her head, completely dumbfounded. exhaling a deep sigh, she lifted her head. “what do you want me to do then ? do i need to prove something to you ? because if you want to hear how much i need you back in my life, then fine, i need you, teagan. i fucking need you, alright ? if there’s anything this whole silent treatment of yours has proven, it’s that i needed you more than you ever needed me. i miss having someone to go to for all the good things and bad things in my life. i miss being able to pull stupid shit with you and having someone i can just mess around with. i miss our movie nights. maybe i have a habit of acting like i don’t need people, or i try really hard to not get attached to one person and rely on them, but i rely and i depend on you more than you know. when i apologized to you all those months ago, i should’ve fought more. i should’ve told you that i need you in my life, that i want you in it and that i wasn’t gonna go anywhere unless you forgave me and took me back.” maybe she was going overboard this time around, but she was willing to say whatever to get teagan to finally talk to her again. cupping teagan’s face in her hands, trying to put emphasis on every word to show that she meant everything she said. “and for that, i’m so sorry, teagan. if you wanna hear a real apology, this is it. i’m sorry for sleeping with graham even when i knew how much he meant to you, even though i knew that you were still in love with him and that you never stopped. i’m sorry for not telling you about it after it happened, for hiding it from you for weeks on end and pretending like everything was fine and continuing to lie to your face. i fuck up a lot of the good things in my life, but if there’s something i never wanted to screw up, it was our friendship. we only have a couple months left in hawaii, and we’re all gonna have to go back to our own lives and go on our own paths. but i don’t want the trip to end if you’re not gonna be in my life after this. i want my roommate back, the same roommate who i experienced all my firsts’s with. our first kiss, our first boyfriend, our first love — i wanna keep doing that. i want to be there in your life to experience so many more firsts’s with you. i want to be there to see you go off and fulfill all your dreams, to see you become an aerospace engineer for nasa, to see you walk down the aisle with some rich guy that may or not may be graham, to see you buy your first house, and have your first kid. i don’t want to keep pretending like we don’t know each other, i don’t want you to keep acting like you don’t know me. because if there’s anyone that knows me, it’s you, alright ?" she paused for a few seconds, dropping her hands to tuck a strand of teagan’s hair behind her ear. “so please, can we just start over ? hi, my name is kaia. i’m an aquarius sun. our signs aren’t really compatible but you put up with me and you love me anyways. the stars have been against the two of us from the start, but you love defying them and proving them wrong, even if there was a set path for the two of us, you don’t want the stars to define our future. you want to write a new path for us, one where we’re best friends and where we’re actually compatible, and where no matter how many times we fight and get mad at each other, we make up anyways. you probably forgot my name at this point, but i’m kaia. nice to meet you.”
