graham gripped at the island counter and sighed, āwhat. milk. kink.ā he said through gritted teeth, lifting his gaze to her and raising a brow. he wiped his hands on a towel before taking the drained pasta and throwing into a pain with the cut up meat and waiting for the milk, āwhereās my milk why are you kissing me after you insulted me?ā he teased back poking out his tongue. he thought back to that memory, it was all too fresh in his mind. his legs pained him in that moment.āi remember, you almost broke my legs.ā he turned around to cup her cheeks, āweāll have tiny sips not enough to get you drunk. if you get drunk off of two sips then.. what are we going to do for our wedding?ā
she looked at him as if to say āwhat are you talking about?ā when he questioned his own milk kink. unlike the other kinks floating around the pythons and their individual reputations, graham was the one who created this on his own. or actually vivian was the one who created the Ā kink for him, but it was his nonetheless. āi told you i dumped all the milk, baby. i wasnāt kidding.ā she told him, halting her kisses to look at him. ādo you want the kisses to stop? we can wait until after the wedding if youād like to kiss.ā she asked him, raising an eyebrow at him challengingly. she hopeād heād say no to her offer, the idea of having to wait even a day to kiss him sounding too miserable. ātwo Ā sips and iām drunk? iām not a lightweight, you know. i drink a lot for a reason, dumbo.ā she pushed him off her, taking his ears and stretching them outward so he could resemble the big eared elephant. āyou have such big ears when you stretch them out.ā she said as she pulled on them more. āwhy are Ā your ears so stretchy? are ears supposed to be elastic?āĀ
ābaby, hey.ā he snapped his fingers before her to get her attention,Ā ācan you grab me the milk from the fridge?ā he drained the water from the pasta before tossing in some herbs and spices for the pasta he was cooking for the two. it was a window into their possible lives in the future, after graduating school and settling down. graham felt comfortable and at peace with the love of his life for the first time in this house. it was a shame, he often thought, that it was happening at the end of everything.Ā āyou want wine with dinner?ā he leaned against the counter as he stood beside her and leaned down to pepper her cheek with kisses, often breaking to see if any of the other pythonās would interrupt.Ā āyou know, once upon a time in this kitchen you were complaining about not having any food and then we went out and almost died, do you remember?ā
confusion etched across her expression, teaganās words just made everything even more complicated.Ā āhuh ? what does that fucking even mean ? how can you not know someone ? what, do i simply just not exist in your life anymore ? is it like we never met and became friends in the 2nd grade ?ā she shook her head, completely dumbfounded. exhaling a deep sigh, she lifted her head.Ā āwhat do you want me to do then ? do i need to prove something to you ? because if you want to hear how much i need you back in my life, then fine, i need you, teagan. i fucking need you, alright ? if thereās anything this whole silent treatment of yours has proven, itās that i needed you more than you ever needed me. i miss having someone to go to for all the good things and bad things in my life. i miss being able to pull stupid shit with you and having someone i can just mess around with. i miss our movie nights. maybe i have a habit of acting like i donāt need people, or i try really hard to not get attached to one person and rely on them, but i rely and i depend on you more than you know. when i apologized to you all those months ago, i shouldāve fought more. i shouldāve told you that i need you in my life, that i want you in it and that i wasnāt gonna go anywhere unless you forgave me and took me back.ā maybe she was going overboard this time around, but she was willing to say whatever to get teagan to finally talk to her again. cupping teaganās face in her hands, trying to put emphasis on every word to show that she meant everything she said.Ā āand for that, iām so sorry, teagan. if you wanna hear a real apology, this is it. iām sorry for sleeping with graham even when i knew how much he meant to you, even though i knew that you were still in love with him and that you never stopped. iām sorry for not telling you about it after it happened, for hiding it from you for weeks on end and pretending like everything was fine and continuing to lie to your face. i fuck up a lot of the good things in my life, but if thereās something i never wanted to screw up, it was our friendship. we only have a couple months left in hawaii, and weāre all gonna have to go back to our own lives and go on our own paths. but i donāt want the trip to end if youāre not gonna be in my life after this. i want my roommate back, the same roommate who i experienced all my firstsās with. our first kiss, our first boyfriend, our first loveĀ ā i wanna keep doing that. i want to be there in your life to experience so many more firstsās with you. i want to be there to see you go off and fulfill all your dreams, to see you become an aerospace engineer for nasa, to see you walk down the aisle with some rich guy that may or not may be graham, to see you buy your first house, and have your first kid. i donāt want to keep pretending like we donāt know each other, i donāt want you to keep acting like you donāt know me. because if thereās anyone that knows me, itās you, alright ?ā she paused for a few seconds, dropping her hands to tuck a strand of teaganās hair behind her ear.Ā āso please, can we just start over ? hi, my name is kaia. iām an aquarius sun. our signs arenāt really compatible but you put up with me and you love me anyways. the stars have been against the two of us from the start, but if you love defying them and proving them wrong, even if there was a set path for the two of us, you donāt want the stars to define our future. you want to write a new path for us, one where weāre best friends and where weāre actually compatible, and where no matter how many times we fight and get mad at each other, we make up anyways. you probably forgot my name at this point, but iām kaia. nice to meet you.ā
āitās not like we never met, it just means that i donāt know you anymore currently. like, our memories from 2nd grade to graduation still exist in my head, but everything after that is just a blur, you know? out of sight, out of mind type of situation? do you get it or should i explain it to you some more?ā she said almost condescendingly. teagan sat there and listened to everything kaia had to say, nodding every now and then to show that she was listening. kaia was saying all the right things, but it was a couple months to late and she was stuck on whether or not she should let her back in or keep her at a distance like sheās doing currently. hearing kaia say āi miss having someone to go to for all the good things and bad things in my lifeā made her glance down at her engagement ring, sheād been unconsciously playing with it since she came in. maybe it was for comfort since graham wasnāt here to hold her hand while this was happening, maybe it was because she didnāt want kaia seeing the ring on her finger and knowing the engagement happened with her only involvement in it being the ring and not the actual proposal because while teagan loved the unexpected proposal, she always imagined kaia being the one beside her when it happened. the rosales and choiās were the first ones to hear the news, but teagan always imagined kaia being the first one to hear if she were to ever get engaged. teagan always imagined kaia being there to experience it with her, but instead the proposal was marked the first significant moment in teaganās life that kaia wasnāt apart of nor present for. the minute her hands cupped her face, teagan felt her heart plunge a little, maybe this would be when sheād crack and let the girl back in. her entire apology hit her like bricks, they did only have a couple months left in hawaii until theyād go their separate ways. they still had their apartment back in pennsylvania, but teagan had yet to tell kaia about having to move to dc for her internship with nasa. she had gotten the news a couple days after dubai, so she never had the chance to kaia and as far as the other girl knew, theyād be living together when they get back from hawaii rather than being miles apart. with kaiaās hand stuck out infront of her for teagan to grab it, teagan looked at the girl while she had an inner debate on what to do. do i let her back in? do i keep her at a distance? she looked down at her fingers and saw the ring again. it glimmered in the sunlight and her heart fluttered as she thought back on the moments after the proposal happened. she thought about the blissful feeling that stayed with her for hours, but then she thought about the small portion of her that felt sad because someone wasnāt there for it. she was happy, teagan was on cloud 9 for the most part, but a part of her knew that there was a missing puzzle piece that was needed to give pure bliss. looking up, teagan smiled at the missing puzzle piece and grabbed her hand with her left. āiām teagan choi-- almost choi,ā she said hesitant ānice to meet you.ā
āoh, just drop that bullshit already. you know me, teags. youāve known me since we were 7. and i know youāre still mad at me butĀ ā hold up, are you in a call with someone right now ?ā kaia furrowed her brows, hand quickly reaching out to turn teaganās phone to see who the other person on the line was. at the sight of samās face, the grimace on her face became more visible. she let out a deep sigh, scoffing,Ā āso what, is he my new replacement now ?ā watching as teagan end the call, she placed the stuff she brought on the floor and crossed her arms.Ā āi want you to drop this wholeĀ āi donāt know youā act. i thought it was just some kind of payback or funny little joke at first, but i guess youāre still upset at meĀ ā which i donāt blame you for. you have a right to be mad, and i get it, i do. but if you are, then just fucking tell me, teags. i thought we were okay after i apologized for everything ? i thought we were good again ? i donāt get it. i apologized. what else did you want me to do ? was i missing something, is that why youāve been acting this fucking way since february ?ā
āyou knowĀ me, teagsā she mimicked her again under breath, rolling her eyes at the girl. all she wanted to do was gush about the engagement with sam before he had to sleep, but it seemed like kaia had other plans for the girl. she thought she thought she had made it clear that theyāre barely even friends, but it looked like the girl never got the message- or knowing kaia, refused to understand the message.Ā āhe canāt really be your replacement when weāve been close with sam since before our falling out, but whatever you want to think, lim.ā she waved her off, closing her door before sitting on her bed with one leg dangling on the edge and the other folded.Ā āwhatĀ āi dont know youā act? kaia, i told you that i didnāt know you anymore. weāre cool and all, but i just donāt know you anymore. itās as simple as that.ā she shrugged, her expression showing how unimpressed and uninterested she was at the current conversation.Ā āyou apologized and we are good, but that doesnāt mean weāre friends again? i told you that we were nothing, i donāt get whatās so hard to comprehend?ā she questioned.Ā āam i missing something? did you not understand anything i told you that day? i donāt knowĀ you, kaia. theres no bad blood and iām not mad at you, i just donāt know you.āĀ
despite kaiaās attempts at repairing their friendship over the past few months, it seemed like trying to get close to teagan wasnāt enough. after the apology, she thought everything between them had been fixed and that they were back to normal again. but every time she tried to get closer to teagan, teagan would only push her away - as if their years friendship was nonexistent. although kaia was a straightforward person, she avoided a lot when it came to actually talking things out. but after months of putting up with it and failing with her other methods, talking was the only thing she could do now. standing in front of teaganās door, she held a plethora of miscellaneous items she had scrapped together at the last second in an attempt to bribe her way back into the girlās heart if all else failed.Ā āteagan, open up ! i know i gave your boobs an 8/10, but you canāt alwaysĀ avoid me !ā
still high off of the unexpected proposal, teagan was on facetime with sam gushing about everything that happened and jokingly telling him that the chances of head when they meet up next was no longer on the table.Ā āi canāt believe he got diego to say yes. i knew my parents and pres would give their blessings right off the bat, but diego? i thought he wouldāve made him wait at leastĀ two ye-ā she was explaining, but stopped when she heard a familiar voice with some banging. getting up with her phone still in her hand so sam could see, teagan opened the door and raised her eyebrows as she stared kaia.Ā āiām not avoiding you if i donāt know you, kaia.ā she said unamused.Ā ālisten, sam, i gotta go. kaia or whatever wants to talk and it looks like she has some junk with her.ā teagan said to sam, hanging up after saying bye and that sheād call him again in the morning and then staring back at kaia.Ā āwhat do you want?āĀ
āgetting stranded this time with you and finding our way back to the villas like real men and woman..ā grahamās shoulder rose and fell, āitās nothing big. look, gas? full. battery? i donāt know if itās okay. wheel? fine. breaks, gas pedal, all fine. weāll be fine. now stop worrying.ā he slid the keys in and started the car. āno, weāre not taking an uber. iām driving. stop being scared.ā his eyes were focused on the rear and the side mirrors as one hand slipped behind her seat and the other worked the wheel as he carefully pulled out with ease. āoh, what? you donāt like when i compliment you now?ā a smile tugged at his lips as the car pulled out into the street and on way to the restaurant. āyouāre going to jump because i called you beautiful? jesus, what do you prefer ms. rosales? youāre ugly?ā he looked away from the road for a second to glance at her before looking straight ahead. the smile was still there. āitās just dinner, weāre going slow remember?ā he said, he thought about going further with his plans and doing the most with his ideas but he didnāt want to scare her or put her in a position that makes he want to rethink this entire thing. graham wasnāt for that. the restaurant he picked out was thought of though, he looked for all the best spots in maui and this happened to be the best place. after the careful drive, zooming through lights just so theyād make their reservation. he parked the car at the four seasons where the restaurant was located. āand weāre here.ā he called out in a sing song voice as he turned off the car.
she looked at him amused as he listed off the things as a way to reassure her that they wouldnāt end up stranded like their previous car ride.Ā āyouāre the worst at reassurance you know that?ā she informed him, a questioning look on her face with furrowed brows and a small smile.Ā āshut up, you know i love your compliments, but iām not trying to show up at the restaurant as red as a tomato. weāre there to eat, remember? not look like a fruit in their kitchen.ā teagan removed her hands from her cheeks, opting to look out the window with her hair acting as a barrier between the two of them.Ā āand donāt call me ugly. itās mean.ā she mumbled childishly, the crimson color coming back to fill her cheeks. as teagan looked out the window, she tried to decipher where they were or where they were heading, but she had no clue. their year in maui was almost up, but teagan felt like a newly arrived tourist whenever they drove around. as they got closer to what teagan assumed to be their destination, she was in awe with the view.Ā āiāll never get tired of ocean views.ā she thought to herself, sighing in content before unbuckling her seat belt and exiting the car.Ā āgood location, good view, good restaurant. iām impressed.ā teagan nodded approvingly, walking over to him and latching her arm around his.Ā ābut a restaurant and a resort?ā she said, looking around.Ā āthought this was a first date, but you decided to take me somewhere with rooms available? think youāre gonna get lucky tonight or something? is that your tactic, choi? hmm?ā she questioned him teasingly.Ā āitās our first date and you think iām easy. i canāt believe this. disgusting.āĀ
teagan: what if someone did something and i know the person did something but i never said something because if i said something then the person who did the something would be upset because the person who did something did something involving another person who did something and THAT person doesnt know that the other person knows that they did something but the something the person did actually caused this person to do the something they did
teagan was born on may 16th, 1996 at 11:28 am in hampton, va, usa. for the most part, her natal chart perfectly aligned with who teagan is except for her jupiter and north node alignments. i italicized the parts that perfectly described teagan and striked through the parts that didnāt fit teagan at all.Ā
rising sign is in 09 degrees leoĀ
you love to be the center of attention and you want to appear strong, confident and dominant. you are very proud of yourself, sometimes quite vain even. when all around you are bedraggled and falling apart, you look like a million bucks! very dignified and honorable, you enjoy the power and privilege, but not the responsibilities, that come with leadership. you are very idealistic but can also be quite stubborn. others impress you only if they have integrity (but wealth, power and influence can also turn your head). you prefer rich, elegant surroundings and possessions, and will try to acquire them as your budget allows. physically, you are very impressive - - at your best you have a regal, charismatic demeanor and bearing. try not to be such a showoff!Ā
sun is in 23 degrees taurus
you are known for being patient, slow moving and careful -- you love to prolong and savor enjoyable times. you appreciate and need comfort, ease and warm surroundings. be careful of a tendency to become placid and self-satisfied and to overeat (especially sweets). you require strenuous situations in order to grow and mature properly, even though you try to avoid them. affectionate, even-tempered and slow to anger -- when you do become emotionally upset, you are also slow to forgive and time must pass before your calm returns. you demand real results from any situation -- abstractions are very difficult for you to comprehend. very artistic, your hands love to mold and shape things. you portray an earthy, physical sexiness that others find quite seductive.Ā
moon is in 06 degrees aries
high-spirited and courageous, you are a fighter when your emotions are aroused. the degree of force and drive that you can bring to any effort sometimes surprises others. you have hair-trigger reactions to specific stimuli and tend to "let it all hang out." you sometimes act before you think and do things on the spur of the moment, and that sometimes gets you into trouble. your moods change quickly -- you have quite a temper, but you don't hold grudges. very independent, with an extremely strong and forceful personality, you are known for being impulsive, careless, reckless, foolhardy, rash and daring.Ā
mercury is in 25 degrees taurusĀ
a slow and careful thinker, you like to present ideas visually and concretely. abstractions are quite difficult for you to understand. for you, everything must be practical and useful in order to merit your attention. you are a perfectionist -- you enjoy being skillful enough to handle the dexterity required of fine craftsmanship. cautious and conservative in your thinking, you are very slow to change your opinions. you are more apt to respond to an appeal to your feelings than to an appeal to logic or reason.Ā
venus is in 27 degrees gemini
you are friendly, warm, open and tolerant toward others. you love variety in relationships, indeed you may even prefer to maintain more than one relationship at a time! very witty and humorous, you have the ability to amuse and please others. this makes you quite popular. you love to play the field and thus find it difficult to settle down and make any deep emotional commitments. your innate charm and vivacity makes you welcome most everywhere you go.
mars is in 08 degrees taurusĀ
careful, slow and thorough about all that you do, at times you are also willful and stubborn when others try to alter your course. you are definitely not a quitter -- you will work long and hard to get what you want. your possessions are very important to you. one of your continuing problems is that you tend to regard the significant people in your life much the same way as you do your possessions -- you become overly attached and much too jealous. you repress your anger when you get upset and that is not healthy. try to learn to show your anger immediately in order to avoid painful explosions later.Ā
jupiter is in 17 degrees capricorn
you tend to feel that the only results that are worthwhile are the results that are concrete and demonstrable. you distrust abstract solutions and appreciate measurable achievements. an excellent organizer and planner, you are optimistic as well as practical and realistic about what can and what cannot happen. very responsible, you consider it a personal weakness to be wrong about anything. this makes you appropriately cautious. you are very efficient but you tend to be cool and detached.Ā
saturn is in 03 degrees aries
you are aloof, independent and standoffish. this is mainly due to your fear that others might inhibit or restrict you and, quite frankly, you feel that you can govern your life by your own standards. be careful not to associate with those who are overly critical of you or you will withdraw so deeply into your shell that you will become very lonely. you have the ability to stand on your own two feet and to make up your own mind -- albeit very carefully and cautiously. but you are known for your circumspection and therefore are respected and admired.Ā
uranus is in 04 degrees aquarius
you, and most of your peer group as well, are reformers at heart. you want to make positive changes that will benefit society as a whole. you are willing to devote your time and energy to see that they come about, especially if the proper group support and combined purpose of will can be found. be careful that your devotion to group goals does not produce too much friction or neglect in your own interpersonal one-on-one relationships.Ā
neptune is in 27 degrees capricorn
you, and your entire generation, will idealize work, practicality and the ability to attain reasonable goals. but, because you will also stress the need to be selfless and giving, you may find it difficult to attain your goals unless you have lowered your expectations on all fronts.Ā
pluto is in 01 degrees sagittarius
for your entire generation, society's cherished beliefs and totems will be radically changed. many traditional concepts will be totally altered, if not completely destroyed. the rights of individuals to pursue their own course in life will be reasserted.Ā
n. node is in 16 degrees libraĀ
you find it very difficult to be comfortable being alone -- you would much prefer to be in an environment where many people are working together toward common goals. your charming and sincere approach to others assures your popularity -- you have the gift of being able to ease tensions just by your mere presence. you're the perfect "team player" willing to sacrifice your own importance so that the group goal can be accomplished. be careful, however, not to become overly dependent on your interactions with others -- you have personal private needs that should not be neglected.Ā
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