K.A.Mc

"If they wanted you to write fondly of them, they should have behaved better."

[kamcblog]

Stop looking at me with those 'Come Here' eyes...'

KAMCxo

[blossomfully]

Is it so incredibly selfish,” she thought, “to want to be someone’s favourite person?

Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #56 (via platinium)

[ifthenightcouldtalk]

His actions said he didn’t love her anymore but his words lied and said he did. She knew but she stayed anyway because she’d rather live a lie than live alone.

A sad truth. (via ifthenightcouldtalk)

- Living a good lie

[kamcblog]

39 weeks

So close, yet so far, How these last few days drag, You’ve taken your toll on my body, But it’s the best burden I’ve ever had.

I’m terrified to birth you, But excited for what’s beyond, To be referred to as a mother, From that moment on.

I know I’ve got to teach you, To eat, sit and talk, But you get to teach me, What it feels like to be complete.

KAMCxo

[kamcblog]

The facade will follow you to your grave

Once in a while, I’ll allow myself to look at your Facebook page, The main reason I couldn’t block you, Just delete. I like to look - because sometimes when the doubt creeps in, That I’m perhaps being too harsh on you - It reminds me that I’m not. Your page is old photos, newly uploaded. Captions of your ‘pride’ in kids that you don’t know - in fact they’re not even kids anymore. You throw down your memories online, Like you used to throw down your fist. A facade for your Facebook 'friends’ The ones that don’t know the man behind the screen. How sorry they are for you, for the man who lost his family. How sorry would they feel; For the girl that cowers any time someone raises their voice? For the boy who had to become a man overnight? I hope you pray forgiveness, in your darkest hours when your soul reminds you who you really are. Although I don’t know how much comfort that forgiveness will bring - as you’re asking for it in the wrong place.

KAMCxo

[marleyworld]

You will never be alone, because I’ll always be here.

10 Word Story. ((What We All Long To Hear.))

[kamcblog]

29weeks

It’s a feeling that cannot possibly be put into words, To grow a life; to love that life before it’s really begun.

To look at the man that helped make it, And feel this emotion for him, Beyond lust; beyond love.

To feel so vulnerable yet so open, So willing to sacrifice anything for this child, And for her father.

Nothing else matters.

It’s not like a new chapter starting, It’s like a new book. The other books are irrelevant now, Three main characters, Fast approaching their happily ever after.

KAMCxo

[kamcblog]

The greatest lie

The greatest lie ever told, Is that people will treat you the way you treat them.

How many times will I learn this lesson?

Be respectful, Be kind, Be mature… Love.

Just don’t expect anything in return.

KAMCxo

[kamcblog]

Remember that feeling

Blue eyes, literally piercing, Causing actual flutters through me. I told myself then; remember this feeling, This is how you deserve to feel. I couldn't stop watching you; watching me. You'd walk past repeatedly, on purpose, I could barely breathe. I told myself then; remember this feeling. The excitement of something forbidden, Of something that would never happen, Would it? You breathe words into my ear, Cause pulsing between my legs, Your fist in my hair, your hands on my chest. 'They're watching' You pull my hair a bit harder 'We're outside' You kiss me a bit deeper. I told myself then; remember this feeling. We stumble home in the early hours I unbutton my blouse as we go I'd never been so confident You literally make me glow I told myself then; remember this feeling. Your weight on top of me in the living room I was all too eager to strip; too easy. You wouldn't take off your clothes, Probably saved me my dignity. I told myself then; remember this feeling. I think that's when we knew this wasn't just a fling, There were things to be done before we could go ahead, How honourable of you, to have so much restraint and respect. Confirming you were just the right man for me. Euphoria. That was the feeling. I needn't have worried so much about remembering - you still give me these feelings every day. To spend my life with you, for always. KAMCxo

[fawlliams]

I never understood the phrase “fall in love”. It didn’t make sense to me. How could you just fall in love with someone, without meaning to? Without trying? I didn’t see how it could be that simple, that straightforward.  Then we happened.  And I understood.  Because I did not grow to love you over weeks or months. I did not slowly develop a passion for you. I fell.  I fell hard and I fell fast. And my heart felt light and my head felt dizzy and there was adrenaline surging through my veins. And in that moment I understood.  I understood what it felt like to “fall” in love.

f.a.w (via sinfull-saintts)

Best fall I've ever had.

[kamcblog]

Memory lane is dirty

Why is it that you only realise what you Had when it’s gone? Does it help you sleep at night, To pretend that it was only him in the wrong?

Jealousy is like a trick of the mind, You pretend you don’t care, But you can’t help but rewind, Memory lane looks dirty these days.

You weren’t even happy, just getting by, So when you hear of his new life, You get so ferocious; why? Keep telling everyone you don’t care. Lie.

They only feel sorry for you; Buy they’re happy for him.

KAMCxo

[kamcblog]

D Day

Four years later; finally free, I’ve witnessed first hand, how something sacred ends, But It’s you that’s gone through it, not me.

Was there a flashback of memories, Wedding bells and confetti, First dates, first kisses, first ‘we’

Or did you truly feel nothing, The end of an era, The end of a title; husband, Was it that easy; just to stop loving?

I know you have no regrets, I know you’re happy, I hope this hasn’t put you off; one day… Would you do it all over again, with me?

Oh, to be your wife.

The brutal reality; Every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end.

We’ve barely started; I won’t let us end.

KAMCxo

[kamcblog]

Us three

You have fulfilled my every dream, Completed me, made my life whole. Step one was the man; you, Step two was the family; our baby. I know how hard it must have been for you to choose, You’ve done it twice, your whole life lay ahead of you. But you choose me. Over freedom, travelling, money… (Over being alone.) You still choose me. And what a feeling, to know you’re so loved, That someone would change their life so drastically. You underestimate how much I love you. I know now that I underestimated how much you love me. I can’t wait to spend my whole life with you. Well; us three.

KAMCxo

[kamcblog]

Nine Weeks

I find myself with hands on belly, Soothing circles, gentle squeezes, Even though you’re barely there, I like to think that you can feel it.

How I’ve longed for this time, A child to call mine!

KAMCxo

[kamcblog]

I hate to see your heart break. I hate to see your eyes, get darker as they close, but I’ve been there before.

Paramore.

-I’ve been there before because of you. But I still hate to see your heart break and watch as you pathetically try and piece it back together.

KAMc xo

[kamcblog]

Real men don’t hurt the people they love on purpose.

KAMc xo

[difficult]

Before I met you, I never knew what it was like to be able to look at someone and smile for no reason.

(via difficult)