Crystal Clear

' I'm a new day rising, I'm a brand new sky to hang the stars upon tonight ‘ 「Mori Akira」Bassist & Fashion Disaster. But an all around good guy. We should hang out sometime, I know a good hangout. 🍑 OC RP. Para Literate. 21+

[oldwinesoul]

“Charm me. Furiously. Torment me. In detail.”

—Hermann Hesse

[manga-meow]

[kanisuru]

[leneemusing]

more misc memes

“  change isn’t easy.  ” “  i just wanted to say i’m sorry.  ” “  i guess being angry was/is just easier than being sad.  ”  “  what did you want to tell me?  ” “  it was supposed to be simple.  ” “  you’ve got blood on your shirt.  ” “  you can stay with me.  ” “  what did you want to show me?  ” “  i miss ____ more than i thought i would.  ” “  i don’t like to talk about it, but i wanted you to know.  ” “  shut up. please.  ” “  fuck off.  ” “  hush, i’m trying to kiss you.  ” “  you’re lucky you’re cute.  ” “  i fucked up.  ” “  i just want to take it all back.  ” “  i can’t sleep.  ”  /  “  can’t sleep?  ” “  we should get a pet.  ” “  if you have something to say, spit it out.  ” “  i’m allowed to be angry.  ” “  she/he aint even that cute.  ” “  just hold me.  ” “  do you want me to go?  ”   “  i just need time.  ” “  i already made my decision, you’re not going to change that.  ”   “  nothing you can say will surprise me.  ” “  everyone leaves, eventually. either they move on or they die. they leave and i’m left behind.  ” “  death is a part of life. i accepted that a long time ago.  ” “  i don’t fear death. i fear anonymity.  ” “  listen to me, please.  ” “  i’m not even sure what to say to that.  ” “  that should probably shock me, but honestly it doesn’t.  ” “  am i supposed to care?  ” “  i do care.  ”   “  you make me happy.  ” “  you look beautiful like this.  ”   “  if this is your idea of fun, i don’t know what to say to you.  ” “  it terrifies me.  ”   “  just let me show you how i feel.  ”

[durianquotes]

I’ll never forget how the depression and loneliness felt good and bad at the same time. Still does.

Henry Rollins (via durianquotes)

[kanisuru]

This has been one of the absolute best, most fulfilling and hardest months for me. I can’t even really put into words all that has been going on inside of my head, and in my world. I’m not sure of all that was real, or what I had imaged was going on. It gets that way sometimes. Foggy. Dark.  I’d apologize, but my sister says I don’t have to apologize for my feelings. That’s also a terrible habit of mine too. Making myself smaller to fit into whatever role I feel people want from me. I don’t like that person. I don’t want to be that person. My future doesn’t deserve that. My child doesn’t need that example to follow.  So here I am. At the very end of the month, attempting to piece my self back together. Spring is here, and as nature blossoms and begins again.  So will I.  That’s it.  See you on the other side. 

[iesuuyr-deactivated20210106]

Kyoto, Japan | RunnyInHongKong

[kanisuru]

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Chloe pauses, her eyes narrowed at the male. “No!” She denies way too quickly, cheeks taking on a telling hue. “Pay attention, I don’t like him.” She stressed the four-letter l word. Though it was obvious she liked the male in question. “Go away, Akira.” She wasn’t in the mood to be teased when her feelings were quite conflicted.  

With a smack of her lips and a hard roll of her eyes, she slumps in her seat. “Why? So you can tease me? No thank you! He’s annoying that’s all you need to know.” The bright-haired woman knew talking about the guy would further prove Akira’s point and that was not happening. She lived for making Akira’s life a little difficult and this was no exception.

A knowing, annoyingly smug smile curls at Akira’s lips as he watched Chloe attempt to control herself. The bassist knew a crush a massive crush when he saw one. He’d been guilty of a few, and had watched is friends tumble head first down the proverbial rabbit hole. His dear friend might as well have called herself Alice. “I’m paying close attention.” He teased. She was too damn cute.  “Of course!”He exclaimed before breaking into laughter. That was all part of the fun. “I need to know details. How else am I supposed to help, hm?” Setting his drink back on the table, Akira once again leaned in closer. His smile was still present on his face. “Come oooooon, ChloChlo. Be nice! Share the deeetails.” He sang, “How annoying? I need more than that. What does he do that’s got you all pink cheeked.” 

[art-notart-blog]

just wanna find the softest grass i can find and lay down in it and look at the sky for a very very very long time

[theneonfairy-blog1]

[theneonfairy-blog1]

Today I married the most amazing person I have ever known for the second time. Could I be any luckier? Our ceremony in Japan was a bit more formal and a way for us to celebrate with our friends and family that couldn’t be with us in the US the first time. I cried a lot, kissed my husband even more and didn’t quit smilin’ for a single second. Now we’re gonna dance and party until the sun comes up. Thank you to all the unbelievable people in our lives for being with us and showing so much love. To my husband, my heart and soul @kanisuru - you’re my whole world. My inspiration, my best friend, my solid ground, my fire, my sun, my moon. You make my heart race and bring me happiness I never knew possible. I love you more than words. I love you, I love you.

[kanisuru]

3.9.19

If I were asked what I thought my future would look like two years ago, or further back, I don’t think I could have given a straight answer. I knew what I hoped for, but more than that, I knew what felt right at the time. I merely wanted to be away from the confusion of my present, and to have my feet on solid ground.

I never thought I would ever have what I wake up to every day. 

I never thought I’d have you. My home.  My everything.  I met you had a confusing period in my life. I was still trying to figure out what to do with my life. If I should press forward and grab an opportunity with both hands, or back off and stay where it was safe. Even worse, my heart was being pulled in so many directions, yet there you were. Standing still, in my corner, giving me that smile I could never turn away from. You were like sunlight after a raging storm, and whiskey in a teacup. From the moment we first spoke, I knew we’d be damn good friends. I was right. What I hadn’t counted on was how hard I’d fall in love, and continue to over the years.  I try to say it all the time, but I’ll repeat it, now, thank you. Thank you for all that you do, whether I’m aware of it or not. Thank you for never giving up on me.  Thank you for allowing me to be authenticly myself, tears and all. But most importantly, thank you for loving me so genuinely, and for letting me love you, too.  I made a promise to you in front of our loved ones, and whatever is up there listening to the deepest wishes on our hearts that I’d take care of you. I meant every word. Life is going to be hard. You’ve already experienced more than anyone could’ve imagined, but as your husband, I promise to make this next leg of the journey easier to endure. I’ll be your partner in crime. Your biggest cheerleader. Your punching bag when you need it. (And I hope you do. wink-wink. nudge-nudge) The safest place to land, and your fiercest protector. There are no words in any language to express how much I love you with every inch of my being. So, I’ll keep trying and hope that one day something will come close.  Mrs. Mori, you've made the luckiest fucker on the planet.  Sexy science now and forever, always. You and I, my Penny Lane.  Mahal na mahal kita.

[kanisuru]

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ครู่หนึ่ง┆　 Momo had still not uncinched his eyes. He heard every protest his brother’s body made as it was flung helplessly into the hardened earth. The crumble of dirt breaking loose. The shock of joints desperately trying to hold themselves together. You could feel the ache in those sounds alone. “You sure? I shoulda asked if any your brain was broken instead? You look pretty spacey right now Stilla. It’s not fillin’ me with much confidence.” He peered down into Akira’s eyes before taking the seat next to him, dutifully checking for any visual ruin. The water bottle he carried across the field now rest gingerly in the younger’s hands should he need a sip or something cool to dull a pain. Only Stilla and his misguided sense of self could pull a stunt like that. He’d been born too small for his head, while Amory was constantly unfairly giant in comparison.

Akira’s laughter was soft and a touch self-deprecating as he shook his head. “No. I’m fine, really.” He protested. Fine as one could be for just making excellent friends with the ground. His hip did sting a bit, and maybe his pride too. The bassist had been having such fun! Bringing the bottle of cold water to his lips, Akira took a long drink before passing it back. “It’s been too long. I think I’ve forgotten how to play?” Funny. Years ago it had been a fantasy. Music or soccer. Whatever came first. 

[qhio]

Chloë Sevigny.

Self Service (France) - issue #26, Editorial 7.

[memeuplift]

[kanisuru]

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@kanisuru continued from here  

The softest chuckle escapes her as she gives a small shake of her head. “I don’t HATE him but I hate him, you know?” She paused briefly for confirmation that she made some sort of sense. “I just.. hate how irrational I get. It annoys me to no end! But no you do not need to roll up on anyone.” She giggled, rolling her eyes. Leave it to him to lighten up her cloudy skies. 

“Aaaah! Okay.” Akira mused dramatically and nodded in agreement. He knew that feeling well. Or at least, he thought he did? Women were complicated creatures he’d come to learn over the years. They said one thing and meant the other. It was best to proceed with caution with them. Chloe was no different. But! That still didn’t stop him from pushing her buttons. “You like him don’t you.” He grinned, leaning in close as if he was spilling some deep, dark secret.  “That’s why you got your panties all in a knot! it’s that whole fuck him, but fuck him school of thought.” Nodding again, Akira picked up his mango and strawberry smoothie to take a long sip. Just enough time to give Chloe some time to think or smack him. Whatever came first. “Tell me about him.” 

[theneonfairy-blog1]

Added some 🍯 to the 🔥.