Karrots

[karrotsthedemon]

I might make a second account just so I can vent my feelings out. That sounds good. But I’d feel like I’m bothering people too much.

[karrotsthedemon]

I’ve just been having a tough time guys. I’m in a really dark place right now and I feel like I can’t tell anyone. I feel so unloved even though I have a girlfriend who I know loves me. I think for the last week or two weeks, I’ve cried every single day. I cried yesterday, I cried today, and I will cry tomorrow.

My words are falling on deaf ears since no one looks at my tumblr. I just really need a place to get my thoughts down on something that isn’t my own skin?

I just feel so unwanted. I feel like I’m not enough. I’m not doing enough for the people I care about. I barely eat. I’ve lost so much weight. But it’s not enough. It’s never enough.

Even worse, my father is refusing to get me a psychiatrist because “nothing is wrong with me and the only problem is my attitude”.

I know I will regret posting this, but I need an outlet. I need a place to speak.

[karrotsthedemon]

With this whole virus going around, and how it’s gotten rid of so much pollution and other environmental issues, I have a proposal.

Once a year, the world has a mandatory lock down and self-isolation period. People still work from home, and those who NEED to work in other places (like restaurants) get paid leave—because I know all our politicians can afford it—and we all take a few weeks to a month to let the planet breathe. And then we go on our way.

It won’t be hard to help the planet, it’s just greedy rich men who don’t want the world to know becaue they’ll lose a fraction of the cash they adore so much.

[karrotsthedemon]

One day, if people actually start paying attention to my account, I will tell the Yugoslavia story.

Today is not that day.

[karrotsthedemon]

Do you ever hear someone you care about talk to you about all the bad things that have happened to them? It just makes you feel so hollow and sick inside. Like this wonderful person has been through so much pain and suffering that they truly don’t deserve. It kills me.

[karrotsthedemon]

My girlfriend: ....

Me: Shut the fuck up and hit me with a car.

[karrotsthedemon]

I don’t think I’ve ever seen an IHOP that isn’t like slightly in the middle of nowhere. All the IHOPS I’ve seen are like on a highway on the line between wasteland and civilization. Just like... placed there as if it was a random thought out there last minute.

Is that just me?

[karrotsthedemon]

Just gotta keep this straight act up at my dad for a couple more years.

At least I’m not the only one.

[karrotsthedemon]

Omg I’m at this furniture place with my father and my sister and the lady helping us asked if we were his kids. My dad replied “Yes.” And she was like “Okay, I didn’t wanna assume”. To which my dad said “I’m not one of those guys.” And she immediately panicked and tried to explain that she thought I could have been a friend or something and that she never would has assumed. And I related to her so much in that moment. Like I bonded to her panicking so fast omg.

[karrotsthedemon]

Ya’ll I think Pinterest is worried about me after I die. I’m so gay and like impossible to redeem but it keeps recommending me all this Jesus and religion stuff.

Like. No. I’m too far gone, guys. Thanks, but no thanks.

[karrotsthedemon]

Yooooooo I want my gf and I to be chatting and I suddenly decide to be bratty and she just pins me down out of no where.

Like.

Yes please.

[karrotsthedemon]

:)

Random person: Wow you try so hard to not be an asshole of a human being and you are always worried that you could be bothering someone. That’s so considerate! And somehow you still manage to be kinky af. How??

Me: .....

Me: *looks at family and first relationship*

Me: “It’s the trauma. :)”

[karrotsthedemon]

Wtf

Y’all why does the like button do that whole dramatic heart break thing when you unlike something? Like?? Now I feel bad cause I broke your heart.

I don’t??? Know what??? To do?????

[karrotsthedemon]

Just There Friend

Is anyone else the “Just There” friend?

Like the friend that doesn’t get outwardly invited anywhere unless they’re in the room while people make plans, or they make the plans first.

The friend that talks and at first people listen, but eventually gets tuned out?

The one that exits a group call or leaves a conversation, only to have no one notice?

The friend that wants to hang with someone but doesn’t make plans because they feel like they’re being annoying, and if they really wanna hang with them—why would they?—they’d reach out first?

The friend that, like the name, is just.. there?

[karrotsthedemon]

I’m low key sad that my gf doesn’t call me Babygirl very often. She never remembers and I get sad 🥺

[karrotsthedemon]

Yo I’m so gay. I high key wanna be just walking around with my gf and she suddenly decides “why not?”, and shoves me against the wall just cause she feels like it.

I’m sorry.

[karrotsthedemon]

I’m a lesbian

I just really want my gf to walk into the bedroom after showering with a towel wrapped only around her waist in the butchest manner possible.

Is that too much to ask???