My most toxic trait is fully believing that I could get a Vulcan to like me
If I lived in a universe with Vulcans it would hit all my worst self-defeating trauma response behavior buttons, specifically the one that make me look for approval or fondness from the people who are least likely to give it. The 'my therapist laughed now I'm winning at therapy' button, the 'getting an A from the tough teacher is the only A that counts' button, the 'this person I just met is so emotionally withholding actually and now I need them love me' button
Me: *explains my reasoning behind a particular action or opinion*
Vulcan: Your logic is sound
Me, internally: omg they think I'm logical. I'm going to get an A in Vulcan-ing, which is both normal to want and possible to achieve












