ā II Closed for @katrinkcā II Two Wolves and a Dagger
āāāā The morning lent itself to thought, snow dusting the ground, the land wearing a mask of purity. Yet, his mind was plagued with cynicism, taking over every fiber of his earthy being, as though it was the only thing of note he had learned in his youth. Enjoyment should have been found in the cracks of the summit, yet the picturesque confines of his dwellings brought nothing besides conflicting notions that tore at already tattered seams of composure. He was not built nor accustomed to the life by which he was meant to lead in the coming months. Though successful at most diplomatic things he was assigned, there remained a difficulty in such tasks that often seemed insurmountable. More worthy to sit among fellow men of war, the pursuits of those closer to his stature seemed so far-fetched, they did not contain his full comprehension. He was understanding of their quest for power only if it aligned with his own - for the betterment of their society and not in spite of it. Could these things exist within these men who seemed so audacious and wily compared to those he normally shared his time with? These musings shoved him in the direction of company that would quell his persistent anxieties: his sister, Katrinka.
Compelled to be in her presence, which possessed the fiery spirit of Russia paired with all the refined nature of a true princess, he had invited her to the training yard. She was what he needed to mirror if he were to make significant strides in his current pursuits. He dare not divulge such things to her, however, as she was still likely aligned strongly with their elder brother and would not shift her support to him so easily. This was his feeling towards the bulk of his siblings, their loyalties to him only extending so far. He attributed such wavering ideals to his lack of presence within their lives as they grew. He had been walking his destined path since a very young age, one bred of solitude and conformity, which did not lend itself to forming notable bonds with his family. A traveler without a real home, destined to capture souls of those deemed disposable to accomplish the whims of leaders, he had no claim to their devotion. Thus, his siblings and newfound family rarely acquired the luxury of his time, finding Ivanās far more easily accessible. It was only natural that they should support Ivanās claim over his because he was little more than a stranger who donned the Rurik crest.
Even if he understood that his deeply-rooted affections for them were unrequited, he maintained them. He was concerned about the state of affairs Katrinka had been wed to, the tumultuous opinions the English held of the Russians a dangerous arena for a woman without real power. Out of all of his sisters, she provided the most perturbation to his frame. His other sisters were more weathered by time, having dealt with more intense pain than she. But she was beginning her journey as the heir to the English throne with a partner Rudolf did not see as her equal. The man seemed weak, a mere boy who did not wish to support his wife but rather control her - and who would not defend the Rurik name with proper vigor. Rudolf had seen the hatred of Russia in many a face, brought them to their demise, and no matter how many he killed, they continued to sprout like lilies in the spring.
So, he wished to ensure the safety of his sister if her husband was unwilling to do so, providing her with knowledge of things only the men in their time were made aware of. He had taught her from a young age to be the wolf that she was and to be unrelenting in her strength, despite the world demanding her fire be stomped out. Her ability to protect herself would placate his uneasiness and allow him a good nightās rest. His large frame towers over the weapons rack provided by the French king, eyes dashing over the craftsmanship with scrutiny only he could muster. They seemed well made, yet the elaborate designs distracted from the true purpose of it all; to kill. Perhaps it was reflective of French society in general, that they cover their poison in lovely designs so that they seemed less threatening overall. Just as such notions crossed his mind, the crunching of snow beneath delicate feet catches his attention. He turns and is greeted with the image of the little wolf.
Katrinka had grown into someone he barely recognized, her stature filled with such poise it seemed she was merely a woman who resembled the girl he had known. Her raven hair was of longer length than the last time they had met, her brown eyes piercing as though the pain had shifted her. It was astounding to see her a woman grown, but the strings of his heart tugged with embedded disappointment. Not in his sister, but in the system that had clearly provided her with such agony that the light had drained from her soul. He crosses the courtyard towards her, opening his arms in an offer of affection. It is not often he would reach out to her, but he had yearned for her company far more during this past battle than before, so he is acting a bit out of turn. āI have been thinking of you recently, I hope your difficulty in getting leave was naught.ā He reaches towards her, pulling her into his chest and releasing her a few moments after.
āCome, let us spar.ā He offers, extending his hand which wrapped around a dagger he had acquired during his travels. āI am sure you have some frustrations that demand to be absconded, let me assist you and then we may talk of your life in England.ā Rudolf always attempted light conversation around his sisters, unwilling to trouble them with the tribulations of the life he led. Why should women fill their heads with thoughts of war when he was unsure these things were even fit for men? He wished only for them to have lives filled with happiness and freedom from the restraints that bound him - thus, he often avoided speaking about the issues in his own life in exchange for issues in theirs. He only hoped he could provide her with the same peace that she did him.
Cleanse with rosewater, adorn in gilded trinkets, swaddle in latest over-gown, furs, only for Katherine to venture to one who never minded presentation. Careful to be discreet with her venture, she insisted to spare time for such a reunion, allowing daylight to tease their corner of the world before she was alert, awake, restless to train. Despite occasional clumsiness she couldnāt shake, Katherine knew how to tread nearly undetected against scant snow, ice: soft-footed, with gentle padded paws until the target was within range, ready for her to lash, grip, claw, ruin. He taught her so⦠and though French spring aged, wrinkled and died against the ground, she could wet her lips here, inhale a sting of morning air, peer across the land to catch the outline of her brother- his copper curls like embers that blind her when the early sun crowns behind him- and she was transported to wild forests beyond Moscow. When Katrinka could barely grow up to Rudolfās waist, struggling to hold up her bow and arrow in the frost whilst he curled over a shoulder, their motherās steadfast glare inherited in shared gazes tracking prey. Never look away until the deed is done.Ā
How long had it been since she saw such a face? A question stuck on the tip of her tongue throughout her life. Rudolf was nearly eleven when Katrinka came into the world, shifted battle hero at only fourteen, fluttered in and out of her own mundane existence like a seastorm that she envied- until she couldnāt differentiate him from Achilles, Odysseus or Beowulf in her early years. Fawn-eyed, she marvelled at tales of his triumphs, tripped over her feet chasing after him, shifted green over his fate, and how she could never truly share his accomplishments. How she swore she saw him catch stormwinds, suspend mid flight a split second, then evaporate into thin air with an echoing crack. She hated him for it. How the wind and sky would swallow him whole and leave her behind to contemplate the limitless mystery of wherever he ended up. Juvenile jealousy died as expectations cemented, and calmed into love fostered through memories such as this. Chasing adrenaline, learning tactic. Pulling him in for an embrace, her laugh ragged from the chill in the air and evaporating sleepy haze against his chest, Katherine mused, āYouāve thought of me, Rud? What part? The little sap crying, insisting you comfort clumsy wounds? Have I aged you before your wonderful new daughter has the chance to? Wait- I spy a grey hair!ā She teased, nearly plucking a red curl out from his scalp to present him like a flower, stifling another chuckle as he released her.Ā Ā
Ā She eyed him a beat, hardened smirk fading as his words sank in, rang true. She reached forward, hesitant to divulge in a spar and allow her doubts to fall forth and reveal themselves with each step, grabbing the intricately detailed blade, allowing a curt nod as she swiped it once, twice, through the air. āI warn you, itās been a while... I donāt want to end up breaking your skin with a foolish mistake.ā Swaying slightly, before stepping forward as theyād practiced so often before, a huff of a sigh escaping her as blade cut through the air with more conviction. āHow is fatherhood, life with your budding family? Are you finding happiness in it all? Are you allowing the world to stop a moment, to enjoy it?āĀ