🍓Strawart 🍓

A manga lover/ a Berserk and SNK addict / multishipper but mostly Erehisu/jeankasa

[odioart]

ベルセルク (Berserk)  Vol. 1  c o l o r f u l  In this world, is the destiny of mankind controlled by some transcendental entity or law? Is it like the hand of God hovering above? At least it is true that man has no control; even over his own will Kentaro Miura  x Odio  オディオ  O D I O

[jeanandthedreamofhorses]

Eren’s Choice: Mikasa and Historia, Between Selflessness and Self

So. Mega EH vibes this chapter.

Eren trusts Historia with a secret he wouldn’t impart to anyone else close to him, because (as I predicted >:3) the moment she chose him over the world left an indelible impression on him.

When Historia realises how important that moment was to him, she begins to look at what he’s told her in a different light.

Afficher davantage

[katyichigo]

Angsty erehisu might be one of the best thing ever

In here, they remind me so much of the beauty and the beast

[katyichigo]

Bringing it up once again, because it hasn’t truer that EH is an angsty ship after chapter 130

[brickme]

Major misconceptions about Banana Fish debunked by Yoshida Akimi, the writer

(spoilers)

“Ash dying in the end was editorial meddling because Yoshida wasn’t allowed to write a story where gay people survive and become happy, so actually Ash should survive and move to Japan and live happy ever after with Eiji.”

Sato (Yoshida’s editor): “If I wasn’t your editor, I’d probably have thought a female Blanca [who hooks up with Ash] would have been fun to read too. I don’t remember what I said at our meeting [to change Yoshida’s mind], but I probably looked like I wasn’t pleased with it.”

Yoshida: “Did you think that Ash having sex with a woman wouldn’t fit?”

Sato: “Not really… I wonder what I was feeling?”

Yoshida: “For me, you know, there’s no sex scenes with women [in BF]. So I felt like I’d like to show that hey, Ash is a guy! Since Ash isn’t actually gay.”

Yoshida: “I had Ashita no Joe in mind [when I wrote the ending].”

Sato: “Yeah, you talked about that back then.”

Host: “In HIkari no niwa, it says directly that Ash died.”

Yoshida: “I said he died! (laughs) There were people who kept writing to me saying Ash has to be alive and that he has to come to Japan, kept saying ‘He’s actually alive, right?’“

Host: “They insisted he’d use the ticket he got from Eiji and come to Japan?”

Yoshida: “Nothing that specific, but I wonder why some girls think of happiness in that sort of context. They kept saying, ‘He’ll come to Japan and the two of them will be happy, right?’ and I always wondered, why would you insist that coming to Japan will make him happy? What is happiness?”

Host: “Do you think fans will get mad when you say that?”

Yoshida: “I do wonder. I always worry about how to deal with my protagonists who are criminals. Obviously they’re hurt by killing people, but still. […] They kill because otherwise they’d be killed, but they’re still murderers. I feel giving a proper ending to people like that is very difficult, and in the end in Banana Fish I decided that he shouldn’t survive.”

Fujimoto: “Why did Ash die?”

Yoshida: “I was conflicted about that. I had two endings in mind, one where he dies and another where he doesn’t, but I’d decided a long time ago that he would die, so I felt I couldn’t change that.”

Fujimoto: “What was the ending like where he didn’t die?”

Yoshida: “Nothing special, he just doesn’t die (laughs).”

Fujimoto: “Nothing happens between him and Eiji, they just part ways and…”

Yoshida: “Yes, like that. But I felt that the ending I’d thought of first was the most fitting.”

Fujimoto: “So when you started this series, your plan was that Ash would die.”

Yoshida: “Exactly. To say the truth, I only became conflicted about whether he would die or not quite late on in the serialization.“

Fujimoto: “When was it exactly?”

Yoshida: “When River Phoenix died (laughs). I began thinking this wasn’t a joke. But my original theme for this story was that there’s something fascinating about people who die young, like how this person lived his full life in 17 years rather than the 70 years it takes for normal people. But in reality, people dying young is a terrible tragedy. So I thought maybe I shouldn’t go there. But when it comes down to it, Ash is a killer. I feel that regardless of what might have been behind the killings, people who take another person’s life need to make up for it with their own life. So that’s why I wrote that ending. Also, I didn’t think Ash would get to live long anyway (laughs).”

Fujimoto: “Some writers say it takes a lot of energy to kill off their characters. How do you feel about killing off your characters?”

Yoshida: “Me? That’s not really an issue for me. I’d killed off a lot of characters before, and it wasn’t a big deal. The only thing was that River Phoenix died young in real life, so I thought ‘This is bad.’ If that hadn’t happened, I wouldn’t have felt anything about it. I don’t think dying young is an unhappy thing. Whether people were happy or not doesn’t depend on how long they lived. I always wonder if people were happy just because they had a long life.”

“Banana Fish is actually shonen manga, and if Yoshida had her way or if it had been written today, it would have been shonen or seinen (or BL).”

Headline: “I like shojo manga because anything goes”

Fujimoto: “Don’t you get a lot of offers from magazines aimed at men?”

Yoshida: “I do, but I think writing for boys is boring. Their wants and desires are too obvious (laughs). And I feel they’re conservative… or how should I say it, they refuse to believe in magic? They don’t believe in magic and instead believe in their own sexual desires (laughs). I’m envious of how simple they are (laughs). But girls aren’t like that. They’re confusing and complicated and I don’t know what they’ll react to and how, and on the flip side that means anything goes.”

Sources: Shojo manga-damashii, Banana Fish official guidebook

[aella-a]

Yoshida: “Nothing that specific, but I wonder why some girls think of happiness in that sort of context. They kept saying, ‘He’ll come to Japan and the two of them will be happy, right?’ and I always wondered, why would you insist that coming to Japan will make him happy? What is happiness?”

Ahahaha.  Ahahaha.  Ahahah….

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Ash and Shorter in Angel Eyes

So, I just finished my read through of Banana Fish.  Yes, I cried my eyes out.  I then finally got around to reading Angel Eyes all the way through for the first time, and man, what an awesome side story.  There’s so much to talk about from it, and so much to explore, but there’s something really specific I noticed, which I think ties into my other post about other people’s perceptions of Ash, and which also relates to the last conversation we see between Ash and Blanca.  

In the first three quarters of Angel Eyes, Ash comes across as very cold, as very unfeeling, and even frightening.  Even Shorter at one point is so scared of Ash that he doesn’t want anything to do with him.  Of course, by the end of the story, we realize his cold demeanor was, again, a total front.  A wall put up to keep people away from him, including Shorter, because he seriously doesn’t know who he can trust.  He’s wary of Shorter precisely because Shorter’s being nice to him, and nobody’s ever been nice to Ash for no reason.  Ash is only going by his experiences in life to inform his decisions.  His experiences tell him that anybody being nice to him is doing it because they want something from him.  This, coupled with Frankie essentially submitting to Shorter’s demand that he stop harassing Ash at the beginning, and Ash’s having already pegged Frankie as an assassin, naturally makes Ash even more suspicious of Shorter.  Eventually of course he realizes, after talking to Shorter and asking him if Frankie is part of his crew, that that’s not the case.  But he still doesn’t trust Shorter.  He still keeps him at a long distance and doesn’t tell him anything about himself.  Well, why would he?  He’s just met him a week ago and Ash’s life experiences tell him he can’t trust anybody.

Well, the thing I wanted to really talk about here, and I think this is a prime example of how it is that Ash was never this ruthless, cold-hearted killer, is the moment directly following the fight between Ash and Frankie, where Ash very nearly kills him.  He only doesn’t because Shorter shouts at him as he’s charging Frankie with the pool cue and distracts him enough with that that Ash messes up his aim.  Shorter runs after Ash afterward to thank him for “going easy” on Frankie, and we see Ash start to laugh, seeming almost demonic in his reaction as he explains to Shorter that he didn’t “go easy” on Frankie.  He meant to kill him.  Of course, when we later realize that Ash knew Frankie meant to kill him, his own intent to kill makes more sense.  But there’s a very important bit of dialog between Ash and Shorter afterward, which speaks volumes about who Ash really is inside.

He thanks Shorter, and then starts saying “So that’s it.  Deflect it slightly at the last second.  I didn’t DECIDE to go easy on him.  But now I finally know how.”  He says I “finally” know how.  

Now lets take this back for a moment to Ash’s last conversation with Blanca in the park, when they start talking about how Blanca never taught Ash how to go easy on an enemy.  He says to Blanca “”Never let your enemy escape alive.”  You’re the one who taught me that.  I never learned how to go easy on someone I’m fighting.”  And then Blanca replies, while smiling fondly, “That’s because I was told there was no need to teach you that.”.  

These two pieces of conversation taken together tell us everything about Ash, and his attitude towards the idea of having to kill, even for reasons as justifiable as self-defense.  

Blanca taught Ash how to kill with the efficiency of a professional hit man.  He taught him how to react and kill in the quickest, easiest and most efficient way possible.  He never taught him how to hold back once he was in the midst of a fight.  Once he got going, he would become a killing machine, so to speak.  And we see this from Ash throughout the series.  Once he starts fighting someone with the intention to kill them, he goes through with it with frightening precision and effectiveness.  Blanca never taught Ash how to simply incapacitate an opponent using a deadly weapon, he never taught Ash how to only maim, instead of kill.  All of his lessons were geared towards showing Ash how to take the life of an enemy, nothing more, nothing less.  Dino didn’t want Ash to carry out threats or warnings.  He wanted him as a hit man.  But Blanca’s words to Ash, that he was told he never needed to teach Ash how to go easy on an enemy, tells us that someone, Dino most likely, told Blanca that Ash was already too soft-hearted and too merciful, and that he shouldn’t bother with teaching Ash anything but how to kill.  Dino wanted to use Ash as a weapon, to carry out hits for him.  He didn’t have any use for Ash’s own ambivalent feelings about killing.  He didn’t care how Ash felt.  He needed to mold him into the most effective weapon he could.  We see Dino remind Ash, early on in the series, and in a mocking way, about how Ash always used to cry over every job Dino made him do.  Ash never wanted to kill anyone, and it was an upsetting enough experience for him that it used to reduce him to tears.  He didn’t want to do it, but Dino forced him into it, like he forced him into prostitution.  

But let’s go back to what Ash says to Shorter.  He says “But now I FINALLY know how.”  What this tells us about Ash is that he WANTED to know how to pull back while fighting someone so that he didn’t kill them.  He wanted to know how he could stop himself from always taking someone’s life if he happened to get into a physical altercation with them.  He’s happy that he’s learned how to pull back in just this one way.  He’s been trained only to know how to kill, but Ash hates killing.  He only does it because he has to.  And we know Ash never would have even tried to kill Frankie if Frankie hadn’t first tried to kill him.  Even later on, Ash let’s Frankie go, when he could have killed him.  Even here, we see Ash show mercy, despite this asshole and his crew just trying to murder him.  It’s the same as Ash only seducing Ricardo as a means of getting Frankie to make a move and show his hand.  Because Ricardo made clear his own intention to try and rape Ash.  So Ash uses Ricardo’s intention to his own benefit in forcing Frankie’s hand and to find out who sent him to kill him.  I don’t think Ash ever intended to “set Ricardo on Frankie and let him do his dirty work for him”, like Shorter accuses Ash of.  Ash saw Frankie beat Ricardo’s ass earlier, when they got into a fight over him, so he knows Ricardo can’t take out Frankie.  Ash wouldn’t ever send someone to do a job for him like that anyway, as we see in the main story line of Banana Fish.  He takes care of his own business when someone’s after him specifically.  He never sends his own boys to do it for him.  He acts dismissive of Shorter’s accusation because, again, he’s putting up a front of cold-hearted detachment because that’s the only way he knows how to protect himself.  By showing no emotion.  Even Shorter basically tells him to utilize a form of this earlier in the story, when he advises Ash to let himself be raped if he gets caught, and to be as quiet and passive as possible.  Ash already knows those sorts of tactics, obviously.  By this point in his life though, he’s been raped so many times, he’s got more sophisticated means of getting through it. So he uses Ricardo as a mean of sussing out who it is that’s gunning for him on the outside.  He’s using sex as a weapon, because it’s one of the few ways he has of defending himself.  I think Ash starts crying and is so upset when Shorter says if he keeps manipulating people like that, he’ll be just like the assholes who try to hurt him, because that was never Ash’s intention.  He was just trying to protect himself.  He never wanted to control anybody, or hurt them, or dominate them.  He only uses tactics like manipulation to try and keep himself from getting more hurt.  He starts shaking and crying and gets so upset, because the last thing he wants is to be like the people who hurt him, and because he never did the things he did for the same reasons.  It hurts him badly that Shorter thinks he could be like them at all.  That he could be like that, or have that kind of twisted mindset.  He doesn’t, and he never did.  It’s just he was brought up in such an unforgiving and cruel world, that those sorts of things were the only means available to him of staying alive.  Like Ash later explains to Shorter, because he’s so good looking, guys are always trying to force him to have sex with them, and he only figured that it would make it easier on him, if he took the lead when guys made passes at him like that.  If he takes the lead and makes these bastards happy, he can control what’s happening to him, at least to some extent.  Shorter wonders then where Ash learned to do that.  Well, the answer is obviously Club Cod.  Ash HAD to learn to do that to keep himself from getting killed eventually.  To keep himself from getting hooked on drugs and used up and destroyed, like most of the kids that ended up in that club.  You can easily imagine that many of the “patrons” of that place were violent on top of their twisted sexual perversion, because those two things often go hand in hand.  A lot of them probably physically hurt the kids there, were probably extremely violent with them.  And we even see that happen to Ash in Private Opinion, when Blanca finds Ash in that motel room after he’s been raped by Marvin.  His hands had been tied to the bed frame, and he had bruises all over him.   He’s been beaten up on top of being raped.  Ash obviously had to learn to “play nice” and be seductive just to keep the physical harm he suffered to a minimum.  If he could make the men molesting and raping him think he was liking it, they were probably less likely to hurt him.  Like Ash even says to Shorter, the guys who rape you aren’t doing it because they want to get laid.  They’re doing it because they want to hurt you and dominate you and control you.  The more you struggle, the angrier they get that you aren’t submitting to their will, the more violent they then become.  It’s truly horrific.

But anyway, back to the scene between Shorter and Ash after the fight with Frankie.  Shorter takes Ash’s laughing and words as a sign that the kid is crazy and dangerous.  He thinks Ash is laughing because Ash is a lunatic who gets his kicks killing people.  It’s a misinterpretation from Shorter.  It’s after this interaction with Ash that he starts worrying that Ash is Arthur’s assassin, come to kill him.  Ash is confused by Shorter’s sudden anxiety around him, as we see in the scene of them at night in their cell, when Ash gets up in the middle of the night to get a drink of water.  Shorter tenses up in fear, thinking Ash is going to kill him.  Ash smiles at Shorter and asks why he’s so tensed up, and then jokes, asking “You think I’m gonna rape you or something?”  Ash then smiles at him again and says, in the friendliest tone we’ve seen Ash use on Shorter so far “G’night Shorter.”  

Shorter looks completely confused, because it just doesn’t jibe with this picture he’s formed of Ash as this cold hearted killer that’s just waiting to pounce.  

We see Shorter again later in the library, still worried that Ash might be the assassin, but then he realizes that he just doesn’t get that vibe off of Ash, and doesn’t sense that he’s got anything to do with Arthur.  Which of course is true, and Shorter gets his first real glimpse of who Ash actually is, when he finds him in the stacks, sitting up on a ladder and just reading.  It’s the first moment Shorter realizes that Ash looks just like the angel on his Christmas card, and we start to see Shorter’s fear of Ash dissipate in that moment.  

The thing is, Shorter’s perception of Ash gets skewed for a while by the fear mongering of the other inmates.  Nico, who we eventually realize is working with Frankie, is the first to stir it up, to start disseminating the idea that Ash is some kind of devil or demon, and that people should be wary of him.  He spreads this ridiculous story that he claims his grandmother told him about this evil woman who came to her village and drove all the men insane and eventually drove them all to kill each other.  Everyone laughs at first, because it’s an absurd story and Ash is just a kid.  But after what happens with Frankie the first time, Nico doubles down on his fear mongering and won’t shut up about how Ash is the devil, and how he’s evil.  He’s trying to turn the other inmates against Ash, because he’s with Frankie, and Frankie is working for Arthur.  And eventually, even Shorter starts to get effected by all this talk, and starts to be afraid of Ash to a paranoid degree.  Eventually Shorter realizes it’s just bullshit, and Ash really IS just a kid who’s just struggling to survive, and they become friends after that, and Ash no longer seems like this cold, emotionless and frightening devil, but just a cool kid he can shoot the breeze with and really talk to.  By the end, they’re real friends, sharing jokes and laughing together.  It’s only at the end of Angel Eyes that both we the reader and Shorter himself finally see the real Ash.  Again, just this sweet kid who’s surviving in an uncaring and brutal world. 

It also tells us everything about how it is Ash became the boss of his gang on the outside.  Shorter remarks how, after the fight between Ash and Frankie’s crew in the library, everyone in the prison started treating him like a “Capo”, and that it made Ash really uncomfortable.  We see again here how Ash never had any desire to become a boss, or to have any power over other people.  Je never had any designs to that effect.  Never any schemes to take over any gangs or territory on the outside.  He’s even confused when Shorter starts talking about how clever Arthur was, in trying to nip the threat of Ash in the bud, because Arthur could see that Ash was the kind of kid that would naturally draw others to him and gain followers just by being there.  So he gets Ash sent to reform school and then tries to have him killed there.  Ash doesn’t even know what Shorter is talking about because he never had any intention himself of becoming a gang boss.  He fell into it because of his natural abilities, and when he got out of reform school, he obviously had a whole group of street kids who saw him as their leader and wanted to follow him, and it obviously just snowballed from there, with Ash taking over Arthur’s territory, etc…  But again, it stands as testament to how Ash never wanted this life at all.  He never cared about money, or power, or control over the street gangs.  Like he eventually tells Eiji, him being exceptional wasn’t something he ever wanted, because his gifts are what led him to eventually being thrust into a life of violence and crime which he detested and never wanted.  

[katyichigo]

Well, you noticed something really interesting there

Ash, in the end, was trapped inside a body which could only kill, like a robot, a real killing machine. But he was able to get free, and be more humane.

He was only a boy, surrounded by admirers, when the only thing he wanted was to be able to love and mostly to be loved for who he was.

Such a great character.

[gricefalco]

”Go!”

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Translation of Max Lobo's Notes (1998)

This is an extra published in 1998, that contains Max's memoirs of Ash and the future lives of all characters of Banana Fish.

(Translations credit to @enta_jinnai and @nakimooshi on Twitter, posted with permission. Edits / corrections are mine.)

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That Last Moment between Ash and Dino

As I read tonight the last moment between Ash and Dino, the moment after Dino kills Colonel Foxx, and we see him facing off against Ash, as we see Ash push Sing behind him, his face a mask of resolve not to let Dino near him, not to let him hurt him, and then we see Dino falter, and stumble, and fall, when we see Ash’s face change into shock, and then what seems sadness… I found myself crying.

Not because Dino was dead.  No, fuck Dino, the guy was a total piece of shit.  But I cried because of what that moment was for Ash.

Ash’s expression of sadness as Dino falls into the flames below would seem contradictory to everything we know about his relationship to Dino, to all of the hellish abuse and cruelty we know Dino subjected Ash to as a child, and to how much Ash despised him for it.

But I think, in fact, this moment, this expression we see on Ash’s face, is such a deeply profound and moving moment, such a heavy and meaningful moment, as he watches the greatest tormentor of his life, the one man who singlehandedly made Ash’s life the worst living hell imaginable from the time he was a ten, eleven year old boy, to that very instant there, as an 18 year old young man,  finally die.  As he watches Dino fall to his end, and it’s over.  It’s just… over.  Finally.  The man he could never escape.  The monster who would forever have Ash in his clutches, and would never let him go.  The monster who Ash, I think deep down, never really believed he could actually be free of.  And suddenly he just… is.  Suddenly, Dino is gone, and Ash is free from him at last, after almost a decade of enslavement to him.

I think Ash’s expression of sadness, of grief even, is not because he’s sad to see Dino die.  I think seeing Dino die, I think seeing the tormentor whom he’s struggled SO HARD to escape from for SO LONG, finally perish, must have left Ash feeling hollow inside.  Empty.  Lost and confused.  To think his own struggle was finally over, to realize it in that moment, in seeing the architect of his torment and pain at last wiped from existence, after so much endured anguish and so much struggle, how would that feel?  How would that make anyone feel?  After all of that, after all that suffering and struggle and sadness and loneliness, and suddenly it’s just over.  Suddenly it’s at an end, after wishing and fighting so fervently for it.  

This moment, this scene, I thought, was just devastating in it’s sadness.  For Ash.  It’s hard for me to even put into words what I mean.  Dino’s death is so anticlimactic, in a way.  Ash doesn’t kill him.  He watches him die from wounds inflicted on him by another abuser of his.  That’s how Ash finally escapes from his greatest enemy.  That’s how Ash finally escapes from the hold of a monster.  The abruptness of it, and the bizarrely unintentional way of it, I think leaves Ash feeling sad.  Heartbroken, even.  Again, not because he’s sad for Dino, but because it’s like watching the one reason Ash even had to keep struggling himself finally fall away.  It’s like watching a dream he’s had for so long unfold before his very eyes, and it’s nothing like what he imagined, or hoped for.  It isn’t some great, defiant moment.  It isn’t some dramatic “Fuck You!” to Dino.  He’s just standing there, ready to take a bullet for Sing, ready to stand between Dino and another child, and then Dino just dies.  And that’s it.  Ash has nothing to do with it.  He has no part in Dino’s death.  It isn’t an act of revenge.  It’s just simply an end to his enslavement.  I think it must have left Ash feeling directionless, and purposeless.  After the entire struggle of the story, fighting against Dino, trying so desperately to break free of Dino.  The entire length, from beginning to end.  And that’s just it.  Dino is dead, and Ash is left standing there.

It’s such a momentous moment, Ash’s freedom from his worst abuser, and it happens so quietly, so softly even.  It happens without fanfare.  Without drama.  Without any anger even.  Ash’s expression in the seconds before it happens was only one of grim determination to protect Sing.  Like he didn’t even feel hatred towards Dino.  Only that he recognized the monster and wouldn’t let him hurt his friend.  Like Ash knew, for him, it was too late, for him, Dino had already destroyed his life, but for Sing, it wasn’t, it wasn’t too late, and Ash would do everything in his power to keep it that way.

And then Dino dies, and it’s still too late for Ash.  It fixes nothing.  It gives nothing of what was stolen from Ash back to him.  His childhood.  His innocence.  All those years of being trapped, all those long years of suffering, of anguish and pain, of feeling so utterly alone.  All of it is still with Ash, all that pain and sadness and damage, even as the man who robbed him of everything, and left him with scars that will last and burn inside him forever, for the rest of his life, is gone.

Something about this entire scene and the way it played out was just so poignant, I thought, and so sad. 

I’d love to hear everyone else’ thoughts on this moment as well.  It just affected me so deeply.

[katyichigo]

My little review of Banana Fish

a poetic and absolutely heartbreaking masterpiece.

After watching the whole season, and reading two extra chapters that give us some kind of closure about what happened years later , and while listening to the so amazing Endings “Prayer X” and “Red” while crying my eyes out, I couldn’t not share my thoughts about all the different kind of emotions this manga made me feel. (in this review I will solely focus on Eiji and Ash's relationship)

 So the story starts as we delve into the lives of Ash and Eiji, two guys who are the complete opposite of one another, one being an emotionally broken american guy, and the head of some gang in NY, and the other an innocent warm and kind japanese guy, living a completely normal life. Together they will try to uncover the secrets of that drug called “banana fish” used to brainwash and control its victims, and try to stop its traffic.

The anime being well paced, with a good bunch of interesting characters, good OSTs, quickly grabs the viewer’s interest, as we can see both MC bonding together, experiencing something new, finding a new purpose to their lives, thing they had lost over the years: Ash being an unloved killing puppet and a sex toy to Golzine, and Eiji who wasn’t able to do pole vaulting again due to his injury, but found in Ash a reason to fight, the one for whom he would take risks and trust his life in.

 Ash and Eiji’s relationship is interesting in many points. At first, when we generally seach about the manga, what comes the most is “shounen Ai”, so I was expecting to see that...when in the end, it wasn’t really the case. Nothing romantically ever happenned between them, and they bonded on a deeper level. It’s no mere love story, or friendship. They call each other “friend” or “greatest of friend” throughout the whole story, but I think the one who explained their relationship the best, was Sing in the extra chapter “Garden of The light”, when Akira asks him if Ash and Eiji were lovers, he replied:

“connected to each other, soul to soul” (Well, we could easily say they were soulmates) 

 At the beginning of the story, we can notice how easily they connected; Eiji didn’t show any trace of fear when meeting Ash, which was surprising for the latter. He immediately noticed how pure and innocent Eiji was, almost like a child,-when Eiji was somewhat older than Ash, even if he didn’t look like it.

I like to think that Eiji represented Ash’s lost innocence (when he was 8), and that he wanted to protect it at all costs. Ash didn’t want Eiji’s soul to be stained by killing people or even holding a gun, and after Eiji ended up being involved with Ash’s cruel and deadly world, he couldn’t prevent it anymore, and got obsessed with protecting him, thus turning Eiji into Ash’s Achilles heel.

As for Eiji, Ash represented all he ever wished to be: a charismatic, confident and fearless guy. He was able to defy people, to survive painful injuries, while Eiji felt like a burden to him at times, making a bunch of mistakes and unable to endure the same things.

But despite all that, Eiji was the only one who could see Ash’s true pain and suffering, and the only one who could appease it with his warmth and care. So that led to Ash experiencing for the first time the greatest feeling: to love and be loved. To find someone who truly cared about him as a person, who viewed past his flaws, his past and his sins. 

I could write for hours about how their relationship was the best part of the anime, how well developped it was,...How Ash went from the untrusting, cold guy to a man who found a new hope and purpose for his life, and most importantly: freedom and happiness. 

I’ve watched a few animes since 2020 has started, and this one, sure did left a big mark on my heart, alongside “Devilman crybaby”, “91 days” and “Neon genesis evangelion” of course. 

[justacynicalromantic]

[erehis]

“I’m still waiting for you.”

[katyichigo]

Literally Reiner in the past few chapters

[asya-207]

The beginning time of their relationship. Probably they're in the orphanage and Eren can't stop flirting.

[katyichigo]

Little headcanon:

When Eren had to find a way to save both Hisu from sacrificing herself and ELdians, he felt completely lost, desperate and lonely; so he went to see Hisu (or she found him) crying, and she would hug him and reassure him.... And that's how baby Ymir was made

[kurohistoria]

A lot of “do you believe in the father theory” asks in my box lately.

The short answer is ; yes.

Percentage? 99%

My reasons are not so different from others , you can check more professional metas to understand the theory.

Long answer ;

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Cutest babies ever!

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An Erehisu -childhood friendship AU- HC thread

- Eren knows Historia from the farm his father always visits.

- He never spoke with Historia, even after his father told him to play with her. Once he tried, but for him, she was pretty strange.

- One day, he noticed that other kids threw stones at her. He started a fight.

- After that she thanked him and looked at him intensely with her big blue eyes so that he blushed.

- Historia: "Do you want to be my friend?" Eren nodded and scratched his back head embarrassed. "Thank you for being my first friend! I'm Historia!"

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- Eren and Historia started to play every day. At the beginning he picked her up and showed her the small town inside the wall. She was so fascinated and Eren wondered why she never left the farm before.

- He is also pretty reckless with his words. "Are you an idiot? Everyone knows that!" "Sorry, no one told me about it," she responded nervously, so he regretted his words every time.

- One day, Eren brought Historia to his home because they were hungry. When Historia met Carla she was surprised about her kindness. At the dinning table, she observed Carla's and Eren's relationship and began to cry.

- "Historia, why are you crying?," Carla asked and hugged her. "Are mothers always that nice to their children?," she asked.

- For the first time, Eren learnt about Historia's family issues and felt sad for her. Watching her sleeping in his mother's arms, made him smile.

Ofc, this stubborn brat is secretly in love with her but he wouldn't admit it, because girls are annoying.