Kai Loses It

We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us. The old skin has to be shed before the new one can come. - Joseph Campbell SW 158.4 lbs GW 155 lbs 150 lbs 145 lbs 140 lbs 135 lbs 130 lbs 125 lbs 120 lbs 115 lbs 110 lbs 105 lbs 100 lbs !!!

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"I always find beauty in things that are odd & imperfect- They are much more interesting." -Marc Jacobs #fbf #seattle #washington #chihuly #garden #blownglass #art #travel #wanderlust

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Venture into the unknown. #photooftheday #nature #grass #greenery #photography

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"We travel not to escape life, but for life not to escape us."

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"The best things in life are free." Drove to the beach to start off our weekend. I love moments like these: just me, some good company and a good time! :D www.jess-marie.com

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Will Grant’s booty fitness tips!

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*drool*

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oh. dear.

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INSPIRING! You just gotta start with 100 days. Start with small goals, they lead to long term results. ^_^

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MUCH NEEDED BREAK

I received the bad news today that there's a company-wide lay off and I was one of the "lucky" employees to get cut. This is no surprise since this is the 4th time that they've laid people off... The industry is just not doing so well and it doesn't look like its getting any better. 

I already assumed my time will come soon so it was not a shock...and I'm surprisingly taking it well. I am taking this as a gift from God. I have been waiting for a breather for sometime. I have been so overwhelmed with my full-time job, full-time school, my photography business, and being a new wife. It's hectic and at times I was too drained.

It can also be that I am just a very positive person and nothing really phases me. I'm still pretty lucky compared to others and I know that there will only be bigger and better things to come. I'm just glad I will have some time for me, to blog again (I haven't been since 2011), and to take care of business...business that I actually want to take care of that is.

Well I'm just excited for whats to come. I'M READY FOR MORE 2014!! :D

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First time juicing! I put half a banana, mixed berries, spinach and arugula. The taste is not bad, I think I put too much water though and not enough of the banana/mixed berries in there. Oh well, we'll try again later. :D

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FOOD LOVERS PROGRAM : DAY 2

Day 2 was about learning how to make a FAT LOSS PLATE. So pretty much it teaches you how to make a well-balanced, small portion meal. I know to some people this is like common sense, but the way they explain it helps me really understand how and why it works. In summary, a fat loss meal have PROTEIN, FAST CARBS (foods that digest fast) and SLOW CARBS (foods that digest slow). The reason being is to make sure that you have a consistent amount of glucose so that your body have enough to burn (as normal) but not enough to store. FAT BURNING MODE!!!

Today's thing to do was to have one meal that is a FAT LOSS PLATE. I wasn't as prepared as I want to be but tried my very best anyways. I had Chicken Katsu for lunch (from the office cafe), and it came with white rice and salad. So just like the plan showed me, I portioned everything appropriately. I ate half of the chicken because well everything here is portioned BIG, 1/3 of the white rice, and all of the salad. It was yummy and I after I ate it, I didn't feel FOOD COMA. Probably because I didn't eat the whole thing like I usually do. I felt energetic and didn't feel the need to take a nap (like I usually do).

My mess up was after work. I had errands to run and I wasn't prepared for food (dinner and snacks). So I got so hungry and just ate,  I don't even remember when. I just ate junk. I know I can do much better. Making a grocery list right now and hopefully I can run to the store later. I'm getting excited!

That's it for now.

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Today's lunch! Salmon, brown rice and brocolli. FAT BURNING MEAL indeed!

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STARTING (MOST DREADFUL PART OF ALL)

So I’m going to jot down my measurements and my goals for this program. I didn’t get to take the starting pictures yet. I guess I’m trying really hard to avoid it. It sucks because I use to love taking pictures, now I’m too embarassed to be in front of the camera. Oh and all the pictures that I take are only of my face. (LOL) Anyways, down to business.

MEASUREMENTS Starting Date: 4/11/2013 Neck = 15 in Chest = 43 in Biceps = 14 in Forearms = 10 in Wrist = 6 in Waist = 37.5 in Hips = 40.5 in Thighs = 25.5 in Calves = 14.5 Body Weight = 154 lbs % Body Fat = 29.9% Fat Weight = 46.05 lbs Lean Body Mass = 107.95 lbs GOALS I will lose a total of 40+ pounds. (long term) I will fit into size 3 jeans. (long term) I will look and feel great this summer. (short term)

What motivates me? I want to lose weight because (1) I want to lengthen my life span. With my current lifestyle, I am slowly cutting my life short. I have a history of diabetes, and heart problems in my family and I am heading in that direction if I don’t change anything. (2) I want to live a more fullfilling life. I am a newlywed and I am restrained in doing all the things that I want to do because of my health. I want to travel with ease, see sights, explore all the possibilites and try new things WITHOUT LIMITATIONS. (3) I want to lose the weight to love myself more by taking good care of me. (4) I want to be confident and show myself off because I am AWESOME inside and out.

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FOOD LOVERS PROGRAM : DAY 1

I started this yesterday, and already learned a lot. So based on what I've read so far, the program is about teaching the body to have a fast metabolism, just like when we were younger. It starts you up with a 21 day Metabolism Makeover, and each day they teach you one thing that you alter in your day to day life. The thing about this program is it teaches you ways to eat healthy that you will use for the rest of your life. Not only that, it tells you that you can eat foods that you love and still lose weight...as long as you follow their plan. Sounds good to me!

Day one is just about eating constantly, making sure that your body doesn't get hungry enough to bring you to "STARVATION or FAT STORING MODE". I have known to do this from other fitblrs and weight loss blogs so that wasn't a surprise. It says to eat every 2-3 hours enough to power your body but not too much where it will store the food that you eat as fat.

My first day was good. I didn't feel hungry at all. I still ate all the food that I normally eat, though I could've had healthier foods but I'm taking it one step at a time. I had to weigh myself and my starting weight is 154 pounds. I also calculated my body fat and it was 29.9%, which means that I have a total of up to 46.5 pounds of fat in my body. That is sickening! That is really motivating me to do something about my life and get healthy.

Anyways, that's it for now. I'll do a follow up blog to post my current pictures, write down my goals and other things. :)

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Adult Life

I am at a standstill. I hate to think that any decision I make at this age will change the course of my life forever. A simple job change can alter the whether I become successful or not. A simple failing grade can determine that I will not earn a degree. I am just at a crucial point that ONE SINGLE THING can make or break my dreams. 

Honestly, I don't even really know what I really want to do. If I could, I would wander around not worry about things. Not worry about bills, school, or work. Just do as I please every single day. I would just stay on tumblr and write or even draw until the sun goes down...and do the same thing next time.

I just wish I can switch jobs and not think about the job security. I want to just WING IT for once. If only I didn't have any bills to pay for.

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Chest Pains D:

So I was down with a fever last week and my hubby had to leave me at home to go to work. All through out the day while I was lying on our bed, I felt tingling all over my body and my it was getting harder to breathe. I was so scared but was able to calm myself down and made myself breathe slowly making sure that my body got enough oxygen in case it was something bad.

It was so bad that it got me thinking. I am 23-effing years old, and I felt/thought I was having a freaking heart attack. WTF? I felt so bad because I know for a fact that I don't take care of myself and have been letting myself kill my body slowly. All these excess weight is just killing me and not allowing me to live.

...and whose fault is it? ME.

I need to work on this...FAST!