Apr 27
hi. i’m sorry for falling off the face of the earth. i wanted to come back in january and really thought i’d be able to but it’s been extremely difficult to fight back against anhedonia & fatigue, and i think being as engrossed in social media as i used to be was an incredibly bad influence, both on my health & on how i interacted with people. but please know that i’m sorry and that i still love and appreciate all of you who have shown me kindness and support and reached out to me and i wish i knew how to give it back properly
#i wish i was saying this because i could honestly follow it up with a promise#that i’m 100% all better now and will be able to go back to being social asap#i can’t though. and i’ve made too many promises & commitments that i’ve failed to keep already. so i’m just sorry.#and especially sorry to everyone i hurt in 2025. i was genuinely horrible and deranged and i owe people more direct apologies#i just also don’t know if i’d be reopening old wounds or smth if i did. last thing i want to do is keep making things even worse#so. sorry. i hope i can speak more clearly one day. that’s been my biggest reason for taking a step back though#for now im just trying to get through my irl life. but i truly wish you all the best#🪽#ashewinters -> cartwings -> kelasai btw. back to the original url though i can’t see myself being active on here#as im trying to lock in on my jobs so i can hopefully afford therapy & stop being so poisoned & unreliable
