Life is just about doing it. Not watching TV, not eating excesively, not making excuses. Life is not about wearing make up, doing things for the boys, doing things for the girls.
It does not require you to live for someone or something else other than your own consciousness. You will only see things from your eyes and mind. You can chose to empathise but it is not required. Life does dictate that if you do not do the best for yourself, nothing great with come of it. As life has shown luck is a big part of it.
Live for your own mind, not for someone else's ideas. Dont care so much about those who you have no attachment with. Do not care for something that doesn't care for you. Live for your own ideas, passions and thoughts. Have high expectations, and try to reach them. Dont settle for anything. But dont be surprised when humans are humans. As a human make mistakes, but dont make them again. If you fall, pull yourself up, the longer your down, the longer you are down.
Laugh at the absurd. Your existence is nothing, so why not really push yourself hard to make it feel as real as possible. Own your personality, because its only neural connections. Own your decisions because they are yours to make. Excuses are just that and you have the choice to make them.
Live life, not through social networking. Go out and actually have a coffee with them. Make eye contact. Firm hand shakes, honesty and a confident mind do wonders. Dont make that excuse again. Remember you wont like everyone, not everyone will like you.
These are my words, this is my rant. I am happy because all this has clicked. I think I could take on Atlas's job on without a sweat, but I don't want to, so I wouldn't.
And I have no remorse for not carrying a team I do not like or want.
I am happy, a female not trying to be a male. I love the differences in everything but I dont have to like them all.
I am going to live life, catch me if you can.
