a wannabe fan artist

[CURRENTLY INACTIVE, I don't really have energy for anything rn] ★instagram.com/sothiac★

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With @kelvotonvetelys

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You wake up. You feel something warm and wet dripping on your foot. You look down, and see this fish-eyed fellow. It says "I want candy." But there is no candy. You are suddenly very aware of your toes.

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I'm playing Skyrim again. 🖤

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My friend from the graveyard 🖤

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Little My and her little friend 🐞

My art block is super bad. Drawing little things like Little My helps a little.

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The Moomin family surrounded by flowers.

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I was just gonna practice drawing Isa, but Lea (I think Isa calls him Lea and not Axel) wanted to join. 🤷‍♂️

Saïx/Isa has been my favorite character since KH2 (I have a thing for long-haired bluenettes), I dunno why I never drew much fan art of him. I mean sure, I tried, but my doodles were never good enough. Just can't get his face right :/

He's pretty much the only KH character I feel I can relate to, so I was super worried if he could make it through KH3. When he admitted he was jealous, I literally screamed "I KNEW IT!!!". Some years ago I was having some bad jealousy-ridden issues with my dearest friends, so after playing 365/2 Days I assumed he was going through something like that as well.

Oh well, seeing how he can fix his friendships and all maybe I should try that too. I miss my old friends. I wonder if they can forgive me. Maybe I should start with buying everyone ice cream.

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Happy Valentine's Day!

edit: took a better pic in daylight. Damn I wish I owned a better camera. Or scanner.

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Trying to inspire myself with butterflies.

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Just posting tits.

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Touching someone’s hair without permission is weird.

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Me vs. coat hangers. Gaaaah I wanna do more comics!

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“WOWIE!! ARE WE GOING TO HAVE A SECOND DATE?”

I found an app called 8bit Painter, and decided that I want to try out pixel art with my phone. Here’s my first try~♡ ^_^; … … … welp, I learned that my smartphone’s screen is way too small and my fingers are way too large, but it was quite fun… eh, maybe I’ll stick with more traditional art for now. Ohgawd Papyrus was so hard to draw~ ...I think I’ll have spaghetti tonight.

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Some time ago I woke up from a super-scary nightmare, and felt really happy that it was only a dream. But then I realized I couldn’t move my body at all. At first I thought it was just another case of sleep paralysis, but then my body started acting on its own, screaming and squirming and it was clearly in pure horror and still having the nightmare I thought I just woke from. It wasn’t really an out-of-body experience but felt a bit like that, like somebody had just cut the connection cord between my mind and my body. I could see clearly though so I think my eyes were open, but my body didn’t register that I was just lying on the bed, it was still asleep and living that nightmare I had. I couldn’t control my actions at all. While my body kept screaming and trying to get away from something I just kept telling IT’S A DREAM WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP. I was really afraid that I had finally gone mad, literally lost my mind and couldn’t connect it back. Then at some point my boyfriend woke up (he was sleeping next to me so I probably wasn’t screaming too loud, well you probably know how people usually sound when they’re asleep and trying to scream). I remember him shaking me and telling me to wake up, and then my mind and body slowly “merged” back together and I must’ve fallen asleep again.

Now I’m really unsure if that really happened or was it all a dream. Or sleep paralysis, I usually see giant spiders but nowadays I know they’re just hallucinations. Maybe this time my scumbag-brain just made up something different. Maybe even night terrors? My boyfriend says he doesn’t remember anything so no help from there, hah. I’m so confused right now. Creepy pasta material. I wonder what I was trying to escape.

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...and here’s a Spongebob I drew last night. A scene from the first movie. He kinda looks like how I feel.

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Sometimes when I can’t sleep I start watching Spongebob Squarepants and this happens.

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Uhh... I’ve been feeling so down for the past few months that I... well, haven’t done much anything. I try to see friends and have fun but in the end I still feel like I have a thing like THAT eating me from inside. I call it my inner potato :) Or it could be a diseased pear as well, I dunno. Meh.