Haha, hey all. This is something of a massively sporadic update post, so, itâs under a Read More for dash-ease.
I know Iâve been remarkably inconsistent over the past few... years, really. Iâve been going through a lot, and while this blog has never exactly been a hub of The Hot Shit, I still feel the need to apologize.
Iâm hoping to turn a lot of things around, regarding myself and my outlooks on life/people/myself. Iâm hoping to get back into contact with people I never really got to connect with. Iâve made a lot of mistakes, really, but I want to see what I can do about being a better, more positive person who has a better, more positive presence.
I plan to actively start doing commission work. Nothing too big or too grand, since Iâm obviously not the most reliable person in the world. But I am in an immensely bad place right now and I want to pull in money as quickly as possible to get out. Iâll be releasing a helpful commission guide soon enough.
Recently, Iâve kinda come to terms with a lot of things about myself. For a good few years, I was the Token Cis Friend of many queer-centric friend groups, because thereâs always just that one guy. But with time, with exposure to people I came to trust and converse with on deeper levels, I think Iâve come to the conclusion that I am trans.
Itâs a soft decision. Iâm not quite sure who I am right now, so thatâs just one of a million possibilities. But itâs the one Iâve felt the most strongly about so far, so that shit might be a winner. So. Yeah, thatâs a thing.
Iâve made some peace with my brother, now that heâs kind of figured out who he wants to be, and thatâs cool. I might talk about him more some other time.
Met some wonderful people (one of whom has managed to be the singular deciding factor in a lot of my positive development), some horrible people, made some crazy decisions. I thought about taking up a few habits and thought better of them, and thought up a few safer habits that I might actually go through with. Time will tell.
Iâm working to lose weight and better myself. I want to learn Spanish and ASL. I want to throw out my whole wardrobe and become someone entirely new. Itâs going to be a long time in getting there, I know. I have a lot of bad habits to break. I have a lot of people to make amends to. I have a lot of situations to pull myself out of.
But, hey. At least I draw decent porn!