cheque

my.escapism.

[keyboardrant]

30 and lost.

[awed-frog]

I must have seen this hundreds of times: a toddler runs around the park like a happy dog and it’s clear he’s having fun and he’ll never get tired, but as soon as it’s time to go home, he’ll ask to be carried. Cue frustrated mom who’s all YOU WEIGH A TON AND YOU CAN WALK YOU WERE RUNNING JUST NOW and all that. And TIL the child can’t help that behaviour at all. Apparently it’s a monkey instinct: until a certain age, baby monkeys and baby humans know that if their mom walks away, they simply can’t keep up with her. They’re not strong enough or fast enough, and if they try, they’ll get left behind. So they ask to be carried, and if the mom ignores that and leaves, they’ll sit down and cry because they think she’s abandoned them. So this is not a tantrum: it’s how little humans are wired. Apparently what you’re supposed to do is either take a stroller with you until your child is around three or just carry him the first time he asks and avoid an argument you can’t win.

[seutaikataku]

Doa banyak-banyak. Hati manusia Allah yang pegang. Kuasa doa itu hebat. Tertunai atau tidak, itu hak Allah. Yang penting kita yakin dan kita sudah usaha. Doakan yang terbaik untuk orang lain juga.

[keyboardrant]

Zapp tepat ke batang hidung sendiri. Tolong kuat semangat sikit ya diri sendiri. No one's gonna help you. You're alone in this battle. Because you made the choice.

[keyboardrant]

This is another moving on story.

I never thought I can feel this way, but here it is. I got a heart broken in a way I never expected.

From this I got to learn, love don't always end up together.

So I'm letting you go.

My own #tragedioktober

[keyboardrant]

Don't be sad. Don't be so weak. You can get through this too. Bleed or broken. You will get through this.

[keyboardrant]

Farewell, sweet memories.

I cried watching you go.

[keyboardrant]

Sunset in my heart

[primulaceas]

Eileen Myles, "Writing" from I Must Be Living Twice: New and Selected Poems 1975 - 2014

[keyboardrant]

Calm.

Sad.

Furious.

Exactly how it feels right now.

[anxietyproblem]

[keyboardrant]

Taylor Swift ft Bon Iver, Exile

[keyboardrant]

Just like the other stories, it ended before it even have a chance to begin. This too, is going to break my heart. I hope you will meet someone better soon.

Surely you will.

I'm sorry.

[keyboardrant]

In the end, I'm the one who's going to hurt the most.

[keyboardrant]

MasyaAllah. I was blessed with the goodness of people around me.

In this dark time, He appease me with things I never thought I deserves to get.

[keyboardrant]

This is getting out of hand. This is going to hurt me too.

[keyboardrant]

Sky. Approaching 29, I become a coward.

I like to stare at the sky every time I have the chance to. I wanted to fly high in the sky. Like used to be. I want to worry less and just do everything with confidence.

[keyboardrant]

A word that will never be spoken. I hold myself from doing what I am supposed to do, tell what I really want to, because I don't want to make things worst for you. Somewhat I think it's the wrong decision.

Anyhow, I hope things will become better for you.

Crdt: Mr. Sunshine.