keyboreddiaries

my safe space 💭

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I want to go back to the times where I did nothing but starve. It was everything for me. And it wasn't so tiring. It was euphoric. Kinda miss it

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It's getting difficult to distract myself with Instagram. But at least I see funny things, it gives me hope. Or rather , illusion

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Some one else feeling guilty for not being able to go deeper?

[pup-purgatory]

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The only time I was talking stage with a girl I didn't knew myself and it all went wrong... Fck love fck love life

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Time for nightly depression tumblr

It's the usual for me, sir

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I feel weird but not like ctting myself which is an improvement ig

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Gonna ctt myself again in the evening because I can't take it anymore and I hate it that everyone is normal and wants the best for me . It's all a lie it's all a lie I can't believe it why won't you let me self destruct why don't you want to see me do my worst??? I can't stand you assholes you always want everything to be perfect but nothing is perfect everything is just lies and fucked up shit everything is going to shits. Nobody really likes me nobody takes me seriously nobody nobody nobody fuck this world

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I wish I wasn't proud of my thin body

I wish I wasn't scared of weight gain

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I'm aware of how thin I am and I hate how proud I am of it

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I feel a lot better actually

Just wanted to update something positive because I'm always being so negative

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I've never even been assaulted, why am I so sad? I don't have the right...

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I want to do something with this account , turn it into a meaningful diary or something, but what if I fail...? Weird thing to be scared of, and yet...

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Unpopular opinion but I miss 2020 tiktok I think the style and dynamics were a banger and I really miss it

[braaainwaaash]

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I'm so tired iykyk

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Ngl I feel a bit better by not giving too many fcks but it's difficult to integrate this principle in my identity. Not giving fcks? That still feels a bit wrong. What's the point of it all if I don't give a fck? I guess I just have to accept that some things are pointless...