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Darcyverse’s Epistolary Event Roundup Post!

September has ended and so has the Darcyverse Discord Epistolary event! Thank you for everyone who participated - here are the fabulous fics that even more fabulous authors posted! 

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Letters to Becca by cupofnoobles

A series of letters received by Rebecca Barnes over the course of her life, and some after. 

I Just Want Your Texts in the Morning by Dresupi, thestanceyg

One misdirected email, two losers in love, three little words. It’s quite the journey as Bruce and Darcy navigate from acquaintances to something more in this story told through emails, texts, and social media.

AKA

The one with her emails

Homesick At Space Camp by myracingthoughts

A series of emails in which Darcy Lewis somehow ends up in space, but at least has wifi?

Dear Ms. Lewis by Fraulein

What happens when a feisty intern starts emailing an imperturbable SHIELD agent? Blackmail to start. Sparks fly when they discover they each worship the god of coffee and have more in common than one would expect.

Texts After 2 by VisiblePetrichor

Darcy finds out that texting after 2am isn’t always a bad idea. Even if it’s to the wrong number.

Tony, Get the Memo by Meilan_Firaga

Some parts of working in the lab and office settings of Avengers Tower require some adjustment. Like understanding that having coworkers means not treating your lab space like a private party anymore. Or that if you do decide to science naked that there could be consequences.

Dear Cap by Artemis_Day

Dear Cap,

Hi, I’m Darcy Lewis. I’m writing to you because I’m drunk.

One Little Post-It-Note by keznik

A loose post-it-note causes a Norse God to get really mad at admin tasks.

Locker Notes by keznik

Swapping notes in the locker room can be a fun activity

Bucky Barnes, Cat Dad by AnnieMar

Darcy is texted a very strange request from Bucky Barnes.

Mark My Words by amidtheflowers

What starts with a request to the new tenant to forward Darcy’s mail to her new address becomes something far deeper, crossing time. For Bucky, it’s the first time he’s felt this alive…and all from a letter.

[bettycooper]

George Floyd and the Dominos of Racial Injustice

The Daily (Social Distancing) Show with Trevor Noah

[aspergersprincess]

Auditory Processing Problems

• *someone says something* “what?” *repeats themselves* “sorry?” *repeats themselves again* “pardon?”

•"hey, y'see the red thing at the top of the shelf, will you get it?“ “Sorry, what?” “On the sh-” “oh yeah sure, I’ll get it.”

•*doesn’t hear teacher because someone’s pen is making a scratchy sound at the back of the room*

•*replays video 10 ten times to figure out what they’re saying*

•teachers asking, “why do you always stop writing in the middle of a sentence, just write down whatever I’m saying,” followed by the response, “I’m just processing it,” rebuked by, “we’ll stop processing it and just write.”

•*gets really focused on staring out the window and goes through four songs without hearing a single on*

[jaspurr]

someone is whispering to their friends in the library, you don’t even know who this person is but you know their major, what state they grew up in, and their hobbies during high school. you just wanted to find a quiet spot to do your chemistry homework.

wanting to chime in on other people’s conversations all the time, but don’t, because you’re not suppose to be “listening” to them.

being the only person in the house that can hear that awful buzzing sound certain electronics make

hiding in your room because everything is too loud. 

motorcycles were invented by satan

being told that you have dog-like hearing by friends and family

being yelled at for “not listening” by friends and family. 

[ossuariies]

God. God. God. God.

[milliecoyote]

This entire post is so fucking relatable it hurts

[winterwombat]

“You just need to learn to tune it out.”

Forgetting how to think because ambient noise is drowning out your internal monologue. 

“No, I don’t need the volume up, I’d just really like to put on subtitles. No, I don’t need to move closer, I just…”

Leaving the room whenever someone starts talking on the phone. 

Pausing your video whenever someone starts talking but trying really really hard not to seem passive aggressive about it. 

Struggling to explain why this one sound is the most horrible thing in the world while other very similar sounds are fine. 

[vibinwitch]

you’re trying to listen to what some very important person is trying to say, but you can only focus on the conversations of the ppl around you

[cupcakeslushie]

sitting in a restaurant and thinking the people sitting next to you are being SO loud because you can hear everything they’re saying, but when you mention it you get weird looks so obviously you’re just overreacting.

not being able to handle the little keyboard sounds as your mom types a text from across the room, but when you ask your mom (who is a quadruple texter) to put her phone on silent you get a murderous look, like you’ve asked her to kill her cat.

turning on ambient noises and trying to relax, only to end up turning it off because it’s not actually helping you fall asleep.

“the speakers are making this high pitched noise”

“what the hell are you talking about?”

“THE SPEAKERS ARE PRACTICALLY SCREAMING HOW DO YOU NOT HEAR THAT??”

“Just ignore it, and focus on the show.”

[run-on-lightning]

people telling me “how the fuck can you hear the wall clock ticking but not understand a word im saying when im talking to you??” (i swear i’m not ignoring you, i just can’t process your words)

[runaon-deactivated20200126]

and the absolute kicker:  it took me nearly three decades of life to realise that all of the above meant I had an auditory processing disorder because, quite frankly, it isn’t discussed enough.  and by enough, i mean at all.

[the-kitteh]

I… experienced way too many of these not to be stunned right now.

[bertie-w-wooster]

i have… most of these??

[keznik]

I have Irlens Syndrome ( a visual processing issue) and definitely understand this post. I also struggle with touch. Some materials I can't hold because it makes me crawl up and die.

[clutchwokeup]

the autistic ping

Look, we’re not actually narcissists

When you talk to us about an emotional issue

And we respond with a personal experience or anecdote

We’re not trying to make the conversation about ourselves.

Most times (at least with me), I have to find an experience within myself that is similar to what you’ve described

So I can furnish an appropriate emotional reaction to what you’re experiencing.

It’s sort of like when you ping an IP address to fix a faulty Wi-Fi connection.

It’s not personal, it’s just how I navigate Feelings™.

[snakedance]

This is how many people on the Autism spectrum express empathy.  We don’t say things like “You must have felt so…” like neurotypical people are used to.  To us, that comes across as presuming to know.  We look to when we felt something that seems similar, and offer that experience.  That lets the other person decide whether we truly know how they feel.

[swirlymind]

When I do this I am trying to show you that I really do know how you feel, and not just saying something arbitrary to make you feel better. Since I’m not good at showing and expressing emotions or even knowing exactly what it is I am feeling, I barely know what others are feeling. But by relating situation to situation, I’m acknowledging what they are feeling now and that I felt a similar way once, so that any advice I give can sound like I’m feeling the right emotion.

[spiroandthelacktones]

Oh I had no idea this was an autism thing I always respond to people by talking about situations where I felt similarly

[13faeinapenguinsuit]

Literally this is so common they test for it during the diagnostic process.

[keznik]

This and other little things make me feel that I'm squarely on the spectrum.

[keznik]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/10 Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Darcy Lewis/Loki Characters: Darcy Lewis, Loki (Marvel), Jane Foster (Marvel), Thor (Marvel) Additional Tags: Post-Thor: The Dark World Summary:

Darcy feels like shes losing her mind and losing her reflection.

[keznik]

Darcyland Drabbles

Ooh Child

"Someday, someday soon."

Darcy whispered down, caressing her swollen belly.

"Things are going to get easier, I promise"

Once she finds Steve, explains what happened, explains how somehow she fell pregnant. It was just a drunken mistake, a crazy fumble after Bucky vanished.

Steve was beside himself and so was she. Cue a bottle of whisky later and Steve was being his wonderful self by comforting her. She hadn't meant to lean in, to press her lips against his, to seek warmth and strength in his chest. He must have needed her just as much as they joined together, easing their pain, their torment by drowning in each other.

But now, 5 months later, after spending as much time in the lab as possible, staying away from the team, she couldn't avoid that conversation any longer.

Her phone felt heavy as she swiped to his contact, finger poised over the green button.

[keznik]

Darcyland Drabbles

Moonage Daydream

1.

For the third time this week Buck woke dropping in sweat, heart hammering in his chest. He could swear he still felt the gun against his temple.

The moon shone brightly through the blinds illuminating his chest, sweat beaded like diamonds. Glancing quickly at his alarm clock and back to the moon he could have sworn it had grown. Pulling the sheets away Bucky staggered over pulling open the sash window.

Was that music he could hear? A strange buzzing instrument but a melodic voice penetrated through the fields beyond.

Was he still dreaming?

Surely he was as he watched, transfixed by the most beautiful brunette sweeping through the field. A cloud of ethereal whisps buffeted behind her as she came towards him impossibly fast, drawing a silver weapon aimed for his head.

2.

Darcy put her Spotify on random as she wrestled her hair into a bun.

"Hmm David Bowie, awesome"

The electric guitar swept her imagination away as she moisturised her face. Closing her eyes to the reflection in the mirror she swayed transported by the voice surrounding her.

Warmth spread through her body as she stroked the moisturiser down her neck, gently massaging her aches away. Lower she applied the soft silky liquid, across pale shoulders and behind her necklace.

She could feel herself stiring as she rocked on her stool, sinking deeper into the music she smoothly covered her breasts with more of the moisturiser.

[squirrelstone]

and I assure you I will ship it until my dying breath (x)

[anniemar]

I want you back

“It was crazy wasn’t it? Half of the world gone,” she says. 

Steve turns towards Darcy in bed, the light of the full moon creating a silver splash of light across her face. 

“Yeah,” he says. “It’s like it was all a bad dream.” 

She reached out to touch his face. “And now we can do whatever we want. We can retire and just watch Netflix all day for awhile. We can go mountain climbing. We can see all the things we never had time for before. We can get a cat.” 

Steve laughs. “A cat?” 

“Yeah, we can take care of Fury’s cat while he’s off doing his new thing.” 

“New thing?” 

Darcy shrugs and leans over, she seems ghostly and pale in the moonlight. “You’ll see. Come find us,” she whispers. “Don’t give up.” 

Just as her lips touch his he opens his eyes and Steve shoots up in bed. Another dream. He looks over to see the empty bed … another nightmare. Half the world was still gone.

“I want you back,” he says softly, to no one.

[keznik]

[leftennant]

Darcyland Drabble Race

Darcy X Nebula

“Does it bother you that I’m not…I’m…”  Nebula paused, eyes looking everywhere but Darcy’s.

“Not what?  Because I can tell you what you <i>are<i> is everything I have ever wanted. I’m kinda hooked on you, you know?  And anyway does it bother you that I’m a weirdo who comes home with a new plant rescue every single time I leave the house?” she asked.  When Nebula remained silent, eyes still cast down, Darcy slid closer on the bed and laid her hand over Nebula’s.  It took a moment, but Nebula smiled.

“Do you truly mean it?” she asked.

Cross my heart and hope to die,” Darcy replied.  “I know I wasn’t there to hear the shit Thanos fed you for all those years, but I’m here now, and nobody is going to make you feel like anything less than amazing from now on, okay?”

Wintershock

Bucky was whistling.  In the shower.  Loudly.  Darcy stood outside the door listening as the notes tripped up and down the scale.  Nothing made her smile like the sound of Bucky so happy and relaxed.  It had been a long road for him, and then a slow road for them as he learned to trust and love again.  

The taps shut off but the whistling continued right up until he popped out of the bathroom, rubbing a towel over his wet hair and sending the strands everywhere.  He saw her and a grin broke out over his face.

“I didn’t know you’d be home yet, Doll.  Thought it was gonna be a long day at the embassy.”

“Let’s just say I decided to take an extended lunch at home,” she replied with a suggestive wink.

Bucky stepped towards her, grin widening by the second. “An extended lunch, huh.  That what they’re calling it now?”  

“Something like that,’ she said, fingers on the first button of her blouse.

He closed the distance between them entirely and dipped his head to give her a kiss.  “Well, in that case, call me ready for lunch.”

[keznik]

Ah all the feels! Got to love your Wintershock 

[keznik]

Darcyland Drabbles

Hooked On a Feeling

His breath was hot against her cheek. Hot and heavy. Charged particles surrounded them, streaming around like gold star dust.

The lights whirled like a tornado, lifting their pressed bodies up slightly.

Darcy pulled back and looked up into his green eyes – “What are you doing?

“Merging, now shhh mortal and enjoy it”

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Darcy threw her head back with a loud snort of laughter. Slapping the bar she downed the shot in front of her and let Bucky pull her to the karaoke machine.

“When we’re all alone….” Bucky pulled her into dancing with him in front of the crowd.

God this boy was full of surprises!

“I’m hooked on a feeling”

Singing and laughing together, a moment so special, so needed. She reached up and caught him in a kiss, one she wished would last much longer than the song.

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Loki ran his long slender fingers across her perfect soft skin. Her back arched as a smooth rumble came from her throat.

Not quite awake yet, his mortal girl. Out of all of the Midgardians she was by far the most interesting. Not only gifted with that skin, but her mouth, her sass, it was all good.

If I continue to do this, he thought, he was going to be well and truly hooked on her.

[keznik]

Home

She’d been dancing all evening, moving from one hungry body to another, drowning out the screaming in her head with the beat of the music, the flashing of the lights, the pressure of others flesh.

His last words echoed around and around. His frame walking away from her, without hesitation, without a single glance over his shoulder.

She should have ran after him but fuck him, he didn’t deserve her. Anger flushed over her again and she ground harder against the nearest guy. He responded, smoothly grabbing her ass as a familiar scent washed over her.

“I’m sorry doll, you’re my home now”

[thegingerpowers]

[aww-so-pretty]

Autumn lover

[keznik]

I can't even....

[pedrc-pascal-archived]

#YOU ARE THE DANCING QUEEN

[keznik]

[ampervadasz]

[ofkindnessandchaos-deactivated2]

OMFG.

[all-aboard-the-bane-train]

Very curious doggo

[castle-engineer-deactivated2019]

Reminder that puffins are extremely social and like to fit in with their friends, so they will adopt mannerisms and interests of the group. So there is a good chance this little guy is trying to be friends with the photographer by showing his interest in the camera.

[willow-wanderings]

TIL photographers are a lot like puffins, cuz we also make friends by showing interest in your camera XD

[dykelliewilliams]

Reminds me of the time researchers were trying to get puffins to land in a specific area so the put decoys up to draw them in but the decoys only had 1 leg and

[keznik]

Soo cute

[nohaijiachi]

Freedoooom! (Or: 6000 years of catching up done in a single sitting)

(this is very long I’m sorry ekldds)

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