You know, looking back at my young days living in a Christian home and going to a totally-not-an-evangelical church every Sunday, I never realized how much my church and my Christian summer camps were grooming us to be Christian nationalists when we grew up, because we were told that every Sunday, we had three pledges of allegiance that we needed to say...
The first one was the pledge of allegiance (not sure if this is an exclusively American thing, but that's cute I'm a big dumb American lol) which goes
I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America, and to the republic for which it stands, one nation under God, indivisible, with liberty and justice to all
The next one was the pledge to the Christian flag. Yes, this is a thing. No, I didn't grow up in the South, but you'd be amazed how much there's crossovers... And this one goes
I pledge allegiance to the Christian Flag and to the Savior for whose kingdom it stands. One savior, crucified, risen and coming again with life and liberty to all who believe
The last one I had to say was the pledge of allegiance to the bible. Yes, this was/is a thing, and it's just as cringe as you might be thinking...
I pledge allegiance to the Bible, God's holy word. I will make it a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. I will wear it's words on my heart so that I might not sin against God.
Yes, these were actual things that I had to say on a regular basis, I had to keep a Bible next to my bed so that I can do the Bible pledge every morning when I woke up and the flag pledge was said at school. Of course, I was also "encouraged" (told) to participate in the national flagpole day, where all Christian children were supposed to do their duty as good Christian soldiers (eye roll) and go out and pray at the flagpole for America because apparently Christians are *SO* oppressed...
It's only looking back from the perspective of a former Christian and current skeptic that I can see just how much I was groomed from childhood not to follow the teachings of Christ, but to put nation first and to bend belief around politics. I suppose that many of these teachings were responsible for how I was when I was younger, but when I started to pay attention to everything happening, the veil of extremism slowly left me. I wish it would happen to others.
@renstrapp is THE goat of butch4butch comics and also the very first Pink stan the world has ever seen (besides me). Ren's stories and art really feel like love letters to butchness to me. There's a really special grasp and, like, meditation of what is sexy and beautiful about being butch. Thank you, Ren, for being excited about this book with me, it really means the world. And thank you for drawing a hot Pink!!
You can find this art and more printed in the compilation of butch4butch, anthro action romance comic Agent Izzy Bunny Ch1-4, out for pre-order now! This is 91 pages of LESBIAN. SECRET AGENT. BUNNIES. It's fun, it's funny, it's sexy. It's $22.
scientists in the 1990s, putting a Get More Purple gene attached to a harmless plant virus into an already purple petunia: please get more purple
the petunia, sensing an apparent honest to god Get More Purple Disease, using the previously undiscovered RNAi antiviral ability to shut down all other purple genes along with it just in case: you put VIRUS in petunia? you infect her with the More Purple?? oh! oh! her children shall bloom white! jail for mother, jail for mother for One Thousand Years!!!!
You know, looking back at my young days living in a Christian home and going to a totally-not-an-evangelical church every Sunday, I never realized how much my church and my Christian summer camps were grooming us to be Christian nationalists when we grew up, because we were told that every Sunday, we had three pledges of allegiance that we needed to say...
The first one was the pledge of allegiance (not sure if this is an exclusively American thing, but that's cute I'm a big dumb American lol) which goes
I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America, and to the republic for which it stands, one nation under God, indivisible, with liberty and justice to all
The next one was the pledge to the Christian flag. Yes, this is a thing. No, I didn't grow up in the South, but you'd be amazed how much there's crossovers... And this one goes
I pledge allegiance to the Christian Flag and to the Savior for whose kingdom it stands. One savior, crucified, risen and coming again with life and liberty to all who believe
The last one I had to say was the pledge of allegiance to the bible. Yes, this was/is a thing, and it's just as cringe as you might be thinking...
I pledge allegiance to the Bible, God's holy word. I will make it a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. I will wear it's words on my heart so that I might not sin against God.
Yes, these were actual things that I had to say on a regular basis, I had to keep a Bible next to my bed so that I can do the Bible pledge every morning when I woke up and the flag pledge was said at school. Of course, I was also "encouraged" (told) to participate in the national flagpole day, where all Christian children were supposed to do their duty as good Christian soldiers (eye roll) and go out and pray at the flagpole for America because apparently Christians are *SO* oppressed...
It's only looking back from the perspective of a former Christian and current skeptic that I can see just how much I was groomed from childhood not to follow the teachings of Christ, but to put nation first and to bend belief around politics. I suppose that many of these teachings were responsible for how I was when I was younger, but when I started to pay attention to everything happening, the veil of extremism slowly left me. I wish it would happen to others.
So itâs 2020 and Iâm drawing Hannah Montana again but like what if She Ra AU. Miley Stuart finds a magic microphone to turn into Hannah Montana ok. No I donât take constructive criticism.
BESTIES IM SO ELATED i thought i lost them all while moving but i just found one of my Yajima charms i drew and custom made for myself long ago pre-covid while i was still doing artist alleys
my scrunkly Yajima..... you're my phone charm now, chu-chu (â Â â Ëâ Â â Âłâ Ëâ )â â„
Taking a little break from all the tinkering involved in making a game to stretch my prose-writing muscles - and explore a couple of the characters in the game a bit while I'm at it, why not.
It's Pan and Ty from @fawnduu's Big Cats comic! Love these two.
This is shortly after Ty was uh... 'recruited'... I guess? Are we calling it that? She's still completely green and useless here - and utterly pissing Pan off for it. Worse is the way Boss looks at her. Worse even still is the way she looks back. So Pan decides tonight's the night she oughta set the idiot straight about a few things if she's gonna be sticking around.
Nothin' At All - A Big Cats Fanfic (AO3)
Ti-ger.
Smilinâ like a damn idiot.
Ainât no Big Cat on Earth smiles that stupid.
But there she was, smilinâ away fer the Bossâs kindness, light in her eyes that she couldnât hope to hide, fallinâ stupid and soft fer the woman who saved her.
Panther kept her own eye glintinâ in the eveninâs fire to hide her watchful gaze, tippinâ her bottle back, countinâ with mouthfuls of whiskey just how many of Bossâs fingers touched on that soft baby Tigerâs coat â a playful rufflinâ of the hair â a hand on a thigh that squeezed so assurinâly â a clap on a shoulder that turned into a little grabbinâ at the scruff of the neck. Thirteen, Fourteen, Fifteen, Sixteen â on and on until sheâd gone through a whole bottle-and-a-half, and the others had all stumbled away laughinâ and sayinâ good-night through drunken smiles.
Then, at last, only a Panther and a Tiger remained â with low, cracklinâ embers between âem, and a canopy of milk and glitter watchinâ above.
âYer awful quiet tânight,â called the Tiger across the circle, still wearinâ that childish blush on her cheeks Bossâs attention had put there. Barely any whiskey in her to justify it, too. Embarassinâ fuckinâ child of a woman. Canât drink. Canât ride a horse. Canât tie a calf. Canât barely start a fire. Sure as hell canât cook â whole camp nearly threw up from all the salt she put in the last breakfast she did.
And she surely sure as hell donât know how good sheâs got it, from that stupid look in her eyes fer Boss. Fawninâ. Fawninâ ainât gratitude. It ainât reverence. It ainât respect like the Bossâs owed.
As Bossâs number one, Pan had a sworn duty to keep her from makinâ a mistake thatâd hurt the girls, and this Tiger was fixinâ to be just such a mistake.
Panther grinned to herself and stood, swayinâ, teeth bared and mean, to round the circle and settle in next to the newest member of the family, slinginâ an arm âround her neck and over her shoulder, lettinâ her hand dangle there over Tyâs heart.
She shoved her half-empty bottle in Tyâs hand and told her to tip it back â and if she had the stupid idea to stop before Panâs say so, sheâd be lickinâ boots clean until the sun came up â âHeel-to-toe,â Pan added, with her fangs bared.
Ty didnât see the danger in it. Just did as she was told. Such a good girl. No wonder Boss loved her so much, despite how much of a mistake she was.
Just as Pan figured, Bossâs newest acquisition here sure as hell wasnât used to takinâ liquor. Just a kid, wasnât she?
When Ty was about to give up â tears wellinâ in her eyes from the fire in her throat â Pan curled her fingers âround the back of Tyâs head to hold her still, and wedged the tip of a finger under the bottle to keep it tipped high.
âGood girl. Swallow it all fer me now. No chokinâ.â
Ty was practically whininâ for Pan when the last few fiery drops crawled down her throat.
While she was coughinâ and gaspinâ fer air, recoverinâ after takinâ the whole bottom half of the bottle in her all at once, Pan admired the empty glass in the firelight.
âHowâs it feel?â she asked, lazily, meanly, puttinâ the squeeze on Ty with her arm âround the girl, hard enough to get a little groan outta her. ââHer hand takinâ the scruff aâ yer neck like that?â
ââŠHow dâya mean?â Ty asked, hoarse and dis-orientated.
âWhat ainât clear? Iâm askinâ ya how it feels to be caged, Tiger. Howâs it feel havinâ the most powerful woman in the Great Basin tyinâ a leash âround yer neck and smilinâ the whole time doinâ it?â
âDidnât say it was a trap. Just wanna know if you appreciate it. What it means to belong to a woman like that. To have her eyes on ya â tâhave her care fer ya.â
âPan whatâer you goinâ on âboutâŠ? You had too much tâdrinkâŠâ
âHey.â Pan grabbed Tyâs chin and forced her to face. âHey. You shit. You look at me when Iâm talkinâ. âIâm the boss when Boss ainât around. Got it? You watch yer tongue, or Iâll put it to work polishinâ my leather.â
Tyâs face turned flush a breath when Pan said it, before she replied, real soft and quiet and like she knew she had to: âYes, boss.â
âGood girl. Now answer the question.â
ââŠFeels⊠nice. I guess.â
âNice.â Pan laughed hard at that: âHa! Feels nice. That all ya have ta say?â
Ty blushed and looked away. âAinât got anythinâ else tâsay on it,â she said, like a liar with plenty more tâsay on it.
Pan squeezed her again. âLie to me again and Iâll put yer tongueââ
ââWhat dâya wanna hear, Panther?â
âI wanna hear what that stupid look in yer eyes fer her is sayinâ.â
âSayinâ thanks!â
âThat ainât thanks. Watched you all night lookinâ at her and I didnât see one breath aâ thanks in ya.â
âWell thanks is what it meant. How the hell elseâre ya supposed to look at the woman who saved ya like she did?â
âShe saved all aâ us, Ty. You ainât special. Sooner you realize that, sooner youâll start fittinâ in âround here instead aâ lookinâ like an idiot every time she says yer name â and lettinâ everyone down doinâ it.â
Ty scowled and swore at Pan, askinâ, âFuckâs yer problem?â and rollinâ her shoulder hard enough to knock Panâs arm away.
Pan wasnât to be knocked away though. She dug a tight set of claws curled âround the back of Tyâs neck to remind her that, then explained it real fuckinâ clear:
âMy problemâs I got a spoiled brat on my hands who ainât pullinâ her weight â who thinks sheâs gonna ger her dick wet just âcause her Boss is beinâ kind to herââ
ââI ainât! âItâit ainât like that!â
Pan gave Ty an incredulous deadpan glare to tell her how goddam obvious a lie that was.
âYerâ red as a tomato, Ty.â
âFrom⊠From all that⊠that bourbon!â
ââŠThat?â Pan lifted up the bottle. âThatâs plain whiskey. The weak shit, too.â Pan paused a breath before she sighed and asked Ty to scold her. âWhat dâya thinkâs gonna happen, Tiger? You look at her soft enough and sheâs gonna spread her legs fer ya?â
Ty stood up in a rush and scowled at Pan. âI ainât gotta listen to this⊠Iâm goinâ tâbed.â
âSit yer ass down. I ainât done fixinâ you.â
Pan wasnât sure if it was obedience or just because Ty was suddenly stumblinâ drunk and stupid, but the girl did have the sense to sit back down when commanded.
She went on pokinâ at Ty to try to put some good sense in her head:
âYou think yerâ the first one sheâs ever smiled at so sweetly?â
Tyâs eyes fell when Pan made the obvious clear for her. Her fingers started fiddlinâ. Her gaze wandered over to Bossâs tent and back.
Then she asked a damn stupid question:
âShe⊠She does that fer everyone?â
âAw damn, Tiger, you really did think you were special, didnâtcha? No one ever touched you all nice and soft before?â
ââŠShe was that close with you?â
Panâs grin faltered a breath, rememberinâ just how close and tender Bossâd been with her when she was first brought on.
Maybe âniceâ was right â the way it felt, beinâ hers. Maybe there wasnât a better word for beinâ touched with kindness fer the first time in yer life.
Boss made her scars feel like treasures, when Pan was laid up and recoverinâ from that first bullet she ever took fer the gang. Was like she was tracinâ a curious map, tenderly crawlinâ her fingertips over the rough and ugly landscape of the hills and valleys carved into Panâs back and shoulders. Boss blessed âem all, and swore vengeance for each and every mark with that silent, bitter, tooth-grindinâ fire in her eyes.
Close.
Could call that close.
âŠCould even call it close when Pan got a chance to drink in the perfume of the tequila-sweetened-sweat of Bossâs bush, from her shovinâ Panâs nose in it fer hours, that one good-and-reckless night â that one good-and-reckless night that turned into a⊠good-morninâ with a clap on her shoulder that meant, âThat was a fun nothinâ-at-all.â
Before Pan could answer the question about just how close sheâd been, Ty seemed to take an answer from the silence, and kept on askinâ more â soundinâ soft and sweet and wary in a way a Tiger never oughta sound:
âDoes she ever get⊠closer?â
Pan grinned at her. âWhy ya askinâ so scared like that?â
âDonât wanna disappoint the most powerful woman in the Great Basinâs all. After all sheâs done for me. âŠI want to⊠to pay her back⊠To make her⊠smile nice like she does. She deserves that.â
Pantherâs grin broke then. She rested that empty bottle on her thigh. Her eye took that earnest Tiger in, lookinâ softer after her than a Panther ever oughta look at her prey.
âYou can disappoint me, Ty, the way you fumble and fuck around. Disappoint the other girls, too, if ya ever run scared, if ya ever make âem carry yer weight when you oughta do it yerself. And ya sure as hell oughta disappoint yerself if yâever let any of us burn to save yer own ass from the fire. But you ainât ever gonna disappoint her. That ainât how she is.â
ââŠYou know that ainât what I meant.â
Panther clapped Ty on the shoulder again with a chuckle. âYou meant howâs a useless fumblinâ virgin like you ever gonna make a queen like that moan yer name. That it?â
Ty looked away, blushinâ and frowninâ. âAinât a⊠a damn blushinâ belle, PantherâŠâ
âYerâ blushinâ though.â
âAinât been with a womanâs all. Itâs⊠different.â
Pan laughed and jabbed at Ty, âHow dâya know itâs different if yâainât tried?â
âI know I ainât ever heard a man complaininâ âbout a lady in his bed. And I donât fancy beinâ complained about like all the ladies do of them in return. âAnd howâm I sâposed to try, huh? Canât exactly put a sign up sayinâ Iâm lookinâ to find a woman like⊠like that. Get strung up fer it. âŠAnd never mind even findinâ one when all the good womenâre taken by the worst men I ever met.â
âAinât ever heard of a brothel?â
ââŠI ainât eager fer payinâ to be lied to âbout how the dick I ainât gotâs bigger than anyone around.â
âOh, they ainât all like that. I can introduce ya if yerâ shy.â
âI ainât shy,â Ty said, blushinâ, like a liar.
Pan grinned at her, showinâ her canines off. âYâknow, you donât gotta find a woman who wants you, Tiger. Or even pay one to pretend at it. You just gotta show âer sheâs already been wantinâ you every lonely night aâ her life. Donât need to worry about whoâs taken when theyâre givinâ themselves to ya.â
âYerâ dreaminâ.â
âYou think Iâm a blushinâ virgin, Tiger? Thought I told you to watch yer tongue.â
âAinât ever heard you talkinâ âbout showinâ a woman how lonely her bedâs been all her life.â
Panther bared her teeth and slammed her bottle on the log beside her. With a snarl, she darted her hand out to grab a tight fistful of Tyâs shirt, half-standinâ to stare the arrogant brat down. âNow yerâ pissinâ me off.â
âHey, come on, Iâm just teasinâââ
âI told you whatâd happen, Ty.â
âWhaâ?â
Tyâs stammerinâ confusion was cut short by a shout and a grunt when Panther yanked her hard to drop her to her knees.
She stood tall in front of Ty and nudged Tyâs cheek with her knee, then presented the toe of her boot.
âFuck off, Panther, I ainât gonnaââ
In an instant, Pantherâs fingers had a tight fistful of Tyâs greasy, scruffy hair â to correct the girl:
âWhen Boss ainât around, Iâm the boss. Now what dâya say to yer boss, Tiger?â
ââŠYes⊠boss.â
Pan shoved Tyâs head down with a sneer.
âGood girl. Now lick the dirt off real nice. Make âem shine and Iâll even give ya somethinâ nice to wash it down.â
Pan watched with smug satisfaction while Ty lowered her eyes, face all flush red with shame, knowinâ her place. And she couldnât help the grin spreadinâ across her face with every inch Ty sunk toward her boot.
Tongue out.
Furious.
Obedient.
Pan bit her lip in anticipation. Somethinâ stirred in her. A rush of heat and need.
There might be some use for the brat after all, if Pan could whip her into shape.
So she thought, for a moment.
But then, in a blink and a yelp, Pan wasnât lookinâ down on an obedient little kitten of a Tiger anymore. Instead, Pan was shoved and stumblinâ back off her guard, and suddenly facinâ off against a stubborn snarlinâ beast with her fangs bared.
âTy. You get back in yer place, on yer knees fer me, now, or Iâll beat ya black and blue until yer bruises remember yer place for you.â
âNo. No. For her? For what she did? Iâll eat fresh shit outta the pasture. But I ainât grovelinâ fer you.â
Fightinâ words thrown. Nothinâ for it then but to fight.
Pan lowered her stance and raised her fists with a sneer. âI warned ya.â
Pan was supposed to be in charge here, but Tyâs eyes were damn intimidatinâ, Pan couldnât pretend they werenât. Especially all lit up from below by the flame â and set a couple inches closer to the stars than hers. But Big Cats donât back down, no matter how tall and terrifyinâ whatever theyâre facinâ might be.
And sheâd never live it down, limpinâ away from a brat like Ty.
Both of them were swayinâ, but Ty was worse, lightweight kid she was. Her first lunginâ punch swung wide, leavinâ her stumblinâ forward, facinâ wrong. Panâs counter, though, tryinâ to bury a fist in Tyâs exposed kidney, ended up with her stumblinâ forward too. Her knuckles slipped right off Tyâs back, and she ended up holdinâ herself up clutchinâ at Tyâs shirt, while Ty tried to twist herself out of Panâs grasp.
In a mad scramble, Pan tried to get Ty in a headlock, but Ty managed to duck out of it and scramble away herself, turninâ to face off again. Both of them were already pantinâ from the poundinâ of their hearts and the rush of the fight ahead.
A grin crawled across Panâs face. She ainât had a good bout in months.
Tyâs lips curled into a grin herself.
Pride.
Arrogant fucker.
âYou fight like a pissy little drunkard,â Pan teased.
âYou too.â
âSay that when yerâ winninâ, Tiger.â
âYou think yerâ winninâ??â Ty laughed hard at that before she charged Pan, aiminâ to bury her shoulder in Panâs chest, tryinâ to topple her. But Panâs feet were planted too well, and Tyâs were still stumblinâ â like a pissy little drunkard.
Pan scrambled to grab the back of Tyâs shirt, tryinâ to pull it right over her head, but the two of them ended up just spinninâ âround and âround, grabbinâ each otherâs chest for balance, barely keepinâ their boots out of the flame, tearinâ seams and poppinâ buttons off into the dark and fire â until their swellinâ chests were bare in the firelight, tits out â and all their scars on display for the milk and glitter above. And â hunched forward there, breathinâ heavy, a lifetime of beatinâ and abuse on display and still standinâ strong and spiteful despite it all â Ty was startinâ to look a lot more like a wild beast than a spoiled kitten.
Pan couldnât help admirinâ âem â her scars. The map of her upbringinâ. Sâposed to harden ya up, gettinâ cut so many times. âŠSo howâd she end up so damn soft and useless? What was all that spite for if she wasnât gonna use it to serve the gang?
Pan grinned mean at her and jabbed at her with a sharp tongue: âAinât you got just the prettiest tits, princess. Bet you whine like a needy little bitch when yerâ gettinâ milked.â
âShut yer mouth.â
âAm I right? Yerâ just a needy little bitch? All this talk of makinâ women swoon fer ya and all you wantâs to get put on yer back like a precious little ladyâ?â
Tyâs canines glinted bright in the fire. She was practically roarinâ when she charged Pan again, harder than ever, but still stumblinâ so drunk and stupid. Girl really needed to learn to hold her whiskey.
Pan managed to get behind her again, and managed to get Tyâs neck nestled snug and firm in the crook of her elbow this time.
While Ty struggled, desperately graspinâ at Panâs arm, tryinâ and failinâ to pry herself free, Pan whispered cruel in her ear, âIâm gonna make you beg, princess.â
âFuck off,â Ty hissed, breathlessly.
Pan just tightened her grip on her prey, though, silencinâ her proper, makinâ her flail, before she dared to reach around with her other hand and steal a fistful of Tyâs dignity.
When Pan pinched her nipple between her knuckle and thumb, Ty shuddered and stiffened up in an instant.
âOh you are a needy little bitch, ainâtcha?â
Again, Ty hissed breathlessly, desperate now, thrashinâ: âIâll kill you.â
âWhine fer me, bitch,â Pan said with a cruel grin, before she squeezed Tyâs tit like milkinâ a cow and slid her tongue up the back of Tyâs neck, lickinâ up the sweat of their fight, puttinâ a rush of heat in her own guts for it.
And Ty did whine so nice fer her.
Pan pressed her crotch into Tyâs ass to grind on her a little, to satisfy an itch, but that itch was gettinâ unbearable fast with every writhinâ moan and shudder she was milkinâ outta her prey.
She loosened her hold on Tyâs neck just enough to let her breathe easy before she whispered, sultry and cruel in Tyâs ear: âIâll show ya.â
âShow me whatâŠ?â
âWhat youâve been wantinâ every lonely night aâ yer life.â
âFuck off, Pan, I ainât⊠I ainât no bitch fer you to fuckâŠâ
âYou wanna know how? How ta make her moan yer name all hot and sweet and slow as molasses?â Pan lowered her voice and snarled the rest: âI know.â
With a fierce growl, Ty surged with a burst of rage and managed to drive a hard elbow into Panâs ribs, sendinâ her reelinâ back clutchinâ at herself and swearinâ.
And Ty didnât even have the kindness to give her a breath to recover before she shoved Panther right over one of the bench logs, topplinâ her over, flat on her back, and knockinâ her hat clean off.
Ty stood there swellinâ with rage, her back to the flame, tauntinâ Pan to get thâfuck back up and fight her. Pan couldnât see her face, makinâ it awful hard to tell if she was grinninâ for the thrill of it, or because she was ready to kill.
Pan, though, was very much grinninâ for the thrill of puttinâ such an arrogant piece of work in her place.
She cautiously approached, fists up, heart poundinâ, tauntinâ Ty fer her childishness:
âYa jealous Tiger?â
âHa!â
âYeah. Yerâ right. Ainât even a competition, is it? Outclassed in every way, ainâtcha? âYou donât have what it takes to make her happy.â
Ty laughed cruel at that and taunted Pan right on back. âAnd you do? That why yerâ sleepinâ alone every night, Panther? âCause you make her so damn happy?â
Pan scowled at her and bared her teeth. âShut yer mouth.â
âWhy donât you try anâ shut it for me.â
âOh my pleasure.â
Pan stepped up on Ty to take up that generous invitation. She dodged a hook by duckinâ and planted a tight fist in Tyâs gut â a tight fist that oughtaâve sent Ty stumblinâ back, but that ainât what happened. Instead, Ty stood firm as an oak and dropped an elbow on Panâs shoulder that nearly knocked her to the ground.
Pan quickly lunged at Ty from far down low, grabbinâ her thigh and hoistinâ her up, tossinâ her back on her back, givinâ herself a little space to breathe and recover from the daze of beinâ hit so hard â and hittinâ so weak.
Her arm was tinglinâ.
Ty got back on her feet and came back swinginâ again. Pan barely managed to block the first couple hits, takinâ em hard in her forearms. The third slipped through, heavy, like a damn horseâs kick, and cracked her right in the lip, sendinâ her back dazed and tastinâ blood.
Pan wiped it off with the back of her hand and stared at the bright red stain for a second. When she shook her head in a bitter fuminâ fury, a few more drops of blood dripped off her chin, staininâ her tits through her tore-open shirt.
ââŠYou⊠fuckerâŠâ
With a renewed fire in her eye, Pan charged at Ty, endurinâ another couple blows to tackle her right to the ground, before gettinâ herself planted on Tyâs hips and startinâ in on beatinâ the shit outta her face.
But she could barely land more than a couple grazinâ hits through Tyâs blockinâ, and it was only a matter of time before Ty was swinginâ back.
She even managed to snatch Panâs wrist durinâ a sloppy punch, and Pan managed to catch Tyâs just the same, forcinâ the two of them into a gruntinâ, sweatinâ, swearinâ grapple that neither of them could get any headway on.
Pan tried her best to smash her forehead right into Tyâs face, but that damn brat managed to raise her own forehead up to meet her, and the two of them ended up glarinâ each other in the eye, shovinâ each otherâs faces this way and that like two bucks tangled in each otherâs horns.
Even though she was pinned useless under Pan, Ty started grinninâ like an arrogant little fucker, tauntinâ: âThis how you fucked her? No wonder yerâ sleepinâ alone.â
âIâll show you how I fucked her, you bitch.â
Then Pan snapped her head back and forward again to crack Tyâs skull, dazinâ her enough to lose her grip on Panâs wrist â enough for Pan to bury a couple shots hard in Tyâs diaphragm to make her crumple limp and useless under Panâs weight. And just as Ty was graspinâ at Pan to stop, Pan took Tyâs wrist â both of them now, and hoisted them up over her head like a tied deer draininâ out.
But even defeated like that, fully defeated, Ty was still squirminâ, smilinâ mean, buckinâ her hips, tryinâ to throw Pan off â but all it was doinâ was rilinâ Pan up even more than all that spilled blood and steamy sweat was doinâ.
The force of it shoved Pan around until, once again, Pan found her forehead pressed hard into Tyâs, fiery eye-locked, pinninâ her to the Earth, breathinâ heavy, tastinâ the sweet dew of whiskey on Tyâs breath with every inhale.
Made her smile thinkinâ about lickinâ it off her prey after fillinâ her with it herself.
Smilinâ mean to herself like that, she spotted somethinâ in the fire of Tyâs eye. Mustâve been the same thing Boss saw in her Tiger:
Somethinâ fierce, but soft. Wild, but⊠tamable, she knew it. She could feel it in the dwindlinâ of Tyâs buckinâ hips under her. All that fire could be hers to control. But that fire wasnât for Pan to take. Ty wasnât for Pan. Ty was for Boss.
âŠWhich made it feel all the more⊠precious⊠when Pan took her first, smilinâ so cruel and possessive over her prizeâŠ
Ty fought back a few breaths, but every time she tried to pull away, Pan caught her lip between her teeth, trappinâ her and grinninâ mean at her.
She forced her tongue past Tyâs teeth and took her whiskey-flavored fill of the little brat, who got it in her head that she might find some victory wrestlinâ tongues with Pan, but she was just a blushinâ virgin after all and she didnât stand a chance of fightinâ back. Couldnât even force her tongue past Panâs lips.
That fightinâ Tigerâs muffled growls dulled into pathetic, mewlinâ little hums when she finally submitted to Panâs intrusion. The squirminâ in her wrists slowed until Pan could feel her fists flexinâ in a steady rhythm. And those buckinâ hips started grindinâ, all achinâ and eager up into Panâs crotch.
When Pan retreated for a breath, savorinâ the tickle of Tyâs tongue chasinâ after hers, she teased, âYou fuckinâ virgin⊠You want it so bad you look stupid for it. When was the last time you fucked yerself, huh?â
Ty looked away, and that was answer enough.
âYou ainâtâŠâ Pan laughed hard. âJesus Ty. You shy or somethinâ? Precious? Stop actinâ like a fuckinâ tourist. Itâs pissinâ me off. Thisâs yer home too, you fuckinâ princess. Make a mess aâ yer own sheets if itâs drivinâ you stupid.â
âWould you⊠just⊠stop fuckinâ teasinâ me and take what you want already. You won, you donât gotta fuckinâ rub it in.â
Pan grinned mean at her and let one of her wrists free so she could crawl her hand down under Tyâs belt to feel just how pathetic her prey was for her.
Girlâs cunt was slicker under Panâs fingertips than a chicken marinadinâ in oil.
âOh, Iâm gonna fuck you so stupid, Tiger.â
She slipped a finger inside Tyâs tight little hole and got a writhinâ, un-Tigerly whine out of her.
Ty nodded â a drunken, blushy stupidity all over her face.
Awful fast, wasnât it? Goinâ from fuck off to fuck me? And just fer the promise of a little tutorial â and a couple rough fingers provinâ the worth of Panâs expertise.
She released Tyâs other wrist and immediately started tearinâ Tyâs belt and pants off, still breathinâ heavy herself, heart poundinâ furious, wary Ty might have the idea to start beatinâ on her again any moment. But no, she was scared straight and compliant at last, after Pan had beat her down to the ground.
Tyâs pants were âround her ankles for Pan in a moment, layinâ on her back in the hot, packed dirt âround the firepit, and spreadinâ her thighs so eagerly for Panâs fingers to carry on fuckinâ her.
âGod yerâ quite the handsome fuckinâ beast to look at, ainâtchaâŠâ Pan said, caressinâ Tyâs trunk and digginâ her claws cruelly into Tyâs abs â to feel her tensinâ up from those fingers sloppily churninâ her insides up.
Her fingertips wandered about Tyâs tantalizinâ trunk, searchinâ out the ridges of her deepest scars, and tracinâ âem with her nails to make Ty squirm, rememberinâ her wounds.
She cupped one of Tyâs tidy little tits in her hand and pinched her nipple between knuckle and thumb to see if she could force Ty to break her silence, but all it did was make Ty gasp and twist around. When Pan started drawinâ Tyâs stiff nipples to the stars, tryinâ to make her squeal, Ty started raisinâ her chest, desperately chasinâ after Panâs hand as she tugged at her.
But still, not a sound.
âGood girl⊠You really ainât anyoneâs bitch, are ya?â
Ty shook her head no.
âGood. Thatâs what I wanna see. âŠTell ya what, keep beinâ good fer me, Ty, and Iâll show ya the good stuff.â
Ty gave her a curious look, but still she kept quiet.
âHow tâmake her cum fer ya, I mean. Make her moan yer name and dig her fingers into yer skull. âAinât special to her, mind. Itâs what all those women in townâve been waitinâ for all their lives. I got it, Ty. âAnd you need it.â
Pan rushed to strip Tyâs pants all the way off and tossed them into the dark beyond the circle, leavinâ her naked from the waist down under the stars and next to the cracklinâ embers, handsome scar-pocked chest all exposed with her buttons tore open like they were, wearinâ nothinâ else but her boots.
Then Pan hoisted the girlâs thighs up on her shoulders and dipped her nose down to drink in the perfume of Tyâs bush. Sweat. Sex. Beast. Panâs bed had been empty too damn long and Ty was too damn fuckinâ delicious a stolen treasure to stop herself.
She roughly sucked the salt and sweetness off of Tyâs cunt like she was a starvinâ toothless lunatic suckinâ the gristle off a bone â which set Ty buckinâ her hips wildly in the air and shudderinâ like mad, clawinâ out for Panâs head to try to push her away.
But Pan wasnât about to be kept from her prize. She trapped Tyâs wrists in tight fists whenever she got too close and just kept on. She dipped her tongue in that tight little hole of Tyâs and lord the heat of her insides was a savory treat Pan had forgotten how badly she missed.
The poor thing didnât last one whole minute of Pan sucklinâ at her clit before she started crushinâ Panâs head with her thighs nearly strong enough to kill her.
Pan was breathinâ heavy, wipinâ Ty off her lips and chin, when she teased, âYa gotta work on that, Tiger. I was just messinâ around there. Damn embarassinâ fer you to finish that fast.â
Ty tried her best to taunt Pan back, but it wasnât havinâ quite as much punch as she intended, through all the stutterinâ: âYâyeah? Lâlike tâto see how long you lâlastâŠâ
âWell, ainât that a brilliant idea. âHow about you get back on yer knees then, Tiger. Where you belong. Weâll see how you do.â
Ty only hesitated a moment before she did as Pan instructed her. Got sat on her knees next to the quiet fire, while Pan hastily fussed with the rattlinâ clasp of her own belt, grinninâ at the girl the whole time â until her pants fell to the ground with a clatter for her to strut out of, right on up to Ty.
She took a playful fistful of Tyâs hair and shoved her nose right up into her bush.
âDeep breaths, Tiger.â
Pan barely kept a sigh in when she felt Tyâs sultry exhalations, all warm and heavy on her cunt.
âGood. Good girl. Thatâs the way. Howâs that for ya?â
Tyâs eyes were taken over with a drunken haze that answered the question without a word. She was lost in her first taste of the heady musk of a woman. The little blushinâ virgin was born for this.
Pan lifted and dropped all the weight of one of her thighs on Tyâs shoulder and directed the girlâs mouth right where it needed to be â to lick up the fragrant juice of her cunt, just like Pan showed her to do. And she couldnât help shudderinâ herself when Tyâs rough tongue dragged its way from her hole all the way up over her stiff, throbbinâ clit.
She was hungrily gatherinâ every drop on the way â and swallowinâ it down too, all greedy for more.
Pan grasped Tyâs head with both hands and curled into her more lick after lick, tryinâ to hold her breath â and failinâ.
âFfffuck⊠Good girl⊠Now how âbout you wrap yer lips around that,â she said, shovinâ her clit right into Tyâs tongue as she passed over it, âand give it a good long lickinâ⊠Your womanâll thank you for it â and you can thank me fer that when she does.â
Ty gave her a jabbinâ sort of look for a moment. A terrfiyinâ sort of killer look. Then, before Pan could do anythinâ to stop her, she had the damn audacity to drag her teeth over Panâs clit â with a silent threat to pinch it between them.
âHey!â Pan whacked Ty upside the head for her stupidity. âNo fuckinâ teeth!! âOr do you want me tâbeat yer ass into the ground again??â
The moment the words left Panâs mouth, she felt an uneasy flutterinâ in her guts, because the moment the words left Panâs mouth, Tyâs eyes got that fire in âem again â and Pan was in a very dangerous position there to be starinâ down two fiery eyes like that â standinâ preciously on one foot as she was â back to the cracklinâ coals â tender clit between that Tigerâs fangs â held up only by what little balance the beast was grantinâ her with those hands of hers wrapped around Panâs ass and squeezinâ hard to keep her cunt right there where she wanted it. Trapped.
âNow⊠Haha⊠Now, Ty. Y-you behave now.â
The first cruel nibble made Pan yelp and spasm wildly, whackinâ Tyâs head again and demandinâ her to stop. The second one left Pan graspinâ Tyâs hair and yankinâ on it, but all that did was make Ty bite down harder and grind her teeth into Panâs tenderness until her guts were twistinâ in knots. Got to the point all she could do was freeze perfectly still and pray Ty would do the same.
Without lettinâ up her torturous little tooth-pinch, Ty parted her lips to make her terms as clear as she could, considerinâ: âSay b-lease.â
Pan swore to herself first, but she wasnât in any position to continue fightinâ on it.
âFine! You fucker. Please stop.â
Ty finally let go, havinâ the decency to speak properly this time: âThat ainât what I meant. Beg me for it.â
âFor⊠For whatâŠ?â
âTo make you cum like a little bitch.â
âI ainât fuckinâ sayinââNo!! Stop! Christ. Okay. Okay. Fuckinâ. Be a good girl for me and make me cum like a fuckinâ bitch, please. And thank you. And watch yer fuckinâ back âcause I know where you sleep.â
âThere ya go. Good girl.â
âYou donât get to fuckinâ call me thaâfff-uckâŠâ
Pan curled into Ty again when she finally did as she was told and got her lips wrapped around Panâs clit and her tongue slidinâ over it so fuckinâ nice. Pan was shudderinâ and shaky as a blushinâ virgin herself after that cruel, toothy assault left her so raw and tender.
And shit, Pan hated to admit it, but Ty was a little prodigy at it. Couldnât figure out a gun or a rope after weeks of tryinâ at it, but her tongue work was immaculate â and relentless. Pan kept expectinâ the kid to come up for air at some point, but she just wouldnât let up. No way in hell was Pan about to start begginâ again, but she was losinâ her breath and shudderinâ and gettinâ weak-kneed for it.
When she looked down at Ty, those eyes were lookinâ right back at her sayinâ, âCum fer me,â with the fire in âem. And Pan was awful sick of seeinâ all that the ego. She grabbed Tyâs head real firm with both hands and started fuckinâ her clit into Tyâs mouth, takinâ control of the rhythm, keepinâ Ty there even when she tried to pull away.
âThatâs the way⊠Swallow it all fer me⊠No chokinââŠâ she added with a mean grin.
Her cum was runninâ all down Tyâs chin and neck and on to her tits when she was done with the girl, staininâ her skin along with a fine sheen of sweat in the dim firelight.
Terrible job swallowinâ, but damn if she didnât look hot enough covered in Panâs mess that she could forgive it just once.
Pan stumbled right on back to fall on her ass there, laughinâ to herself in a stupid daze from how good that was, takinâ Bossâs Tiger fer herself. That woman had good taste, pickinâ out a girl like that.
In her stupor, she didnât realize until it was too late and Ty was already on her, forcinâ her down with a heavy hand on her chest, partinâ her thighs kneelinâ between them, and shovinâ a couple rough fingers in her hole to make her moan. Pan darted her hands out to try to stop Ty, grabbinâ her wrist, but she wasnât goinâ to be stopped.
âW-wait! Wait. Not here. Yer gettinâ my ass all filthy, you horny fuckinâ dog.â
âOh ainât you fuckinâ precious, hey Panther? Iâve been down here in the dirt this whole damn time. Itâs yer turn.â
âI ainât⊠gettinâ a mess all over me⊠when yerâ not even fuckinâ doinâ it properlyâŠâ Pan glanced over at Tyâs tent and told her they oughta take it inside. âI canât show ya how to do it right, fuckinâ rough on the ground like this. Need a good bed fer my lessons. âAnd I ainât staininâ my sheets fer a damn blushinâ virgin like you.â
Ty froze to consider it for a breath before she grinned and stood and yanked Pan up to her feet, shovinâ her towards the tent in a rush. And the moment Pan stepped over the threshold, she got shoved even harder until she tumbled onto Tyâs bed. Didnât even have a chance to get herself righted before Ty was already rough-handlinâ her thighs and throwinâ her around into whatever position suited her.
Got Panâs blood boilinâ again, beinâ handled so. She found the right angle to launch herself at Ty, surprisinâ her and pinninâ her shoulders to her own bed. Takinâ a cruel fistful of Tyâs hair, she yanked the girlâs head into position to take a tongue-fuckinâ kiss that melted her right into the sheets â or at least it melted her as soon as she stopped wastinâ her time tryinâ to claw at Pan to get off.
âYerâ a fuckinâ hot piece of work, Tiger, you know that?â
Ty didnât respond any more than to moan and writhe around in Panâs hands.
âMakes me wanna fuck you stupid. Which probably ainât too hard, considerinâ yerâ already a fuckinâ idiot.â
âWouldja shut itâŠâ
âPay attention now, Ty. Your womanâs gonna love this. âAnd try to last more than thirty whole fuckinâ seconds this time, wouldja?â
Ty clicked her tongue at Pan before spittinâ out a soft, breathy, and utterly sarcastic, âYes boss.â
Panâs technique was practiced and perfected on more women than she figured it was worth keepinâ count for. Most of âem from the town nearby that last camp, before the trouble came and force them all to pack up and run again.
She stroked Tyâs bush tender for a moment before pressinâ her palm into her there, and slippinâ a firm pair of fingers inside with her other hand, gettinâ a cooinâ little whine out of her.
âTy I ainât kiddinâ, you stay quiet or Iâm quittinâ.â
She nodded and covered her mouth, mufflinâ every grunt and moan for the rest of the session.
When Ty was sworn to silence, Pan got to work, feelinâ out Tyâs insides real slow and careful, pressinâ the tips of her fingers firmly through every tender nerve between Tyâs drippinâ wet hole and the sweat-drenched bush under Panâs palm. She was seekinâ out that familiar, hypnotizinâ whine she loved to hear from her women whenever she hit just⊠the rightâ
Ty hissed a gaspinâ muted âfuckâ when Pan got it â that precious tender treasure in her. The perfect x-marks-the-spot thatâd get Ty begginâ just like every woman Panâd ever taken since Boss showed her how.
âGood girl. Nice and quiet fer me now,â Pan said, then she dipped her head low to lick the juice off Tyâs cunt, lappinâ up what flowed outta her while her fingers worked her over at a slow and steady pace, churninâ away at that secret nerve, gettinâ muted hums and groans outta her â despite her tryinâ her best not to make a sound.
Pan had to wrestle hard against Tyâs clenchinâ thighs, but she wasnât stoppinâ until Ty got a proper lesson in what to do with her women. Boss deserved that much â a woman who knew how to treat her right without a whole fuckinâ hour of wastinâ time coachinâ her along.
Once Pan had the rhythm set, she started in on suckinâ tender and sweet at Tyâs pussy lips, and ruttinâ the tip of her tongue around in her hood to free the stiff throbby bundle of pleasure for her to kiss real sweet and suckle at.
Ty was shudderinâ again. Too fast. The fuckinâ virgin.
âTy you ainât cumminâ fer me that easy again. Get yerself under control or Iâm leavinâ ya like this.â
Ty shook her head wildly at Panâs threat, then started takinâ deep breaths, holdinâ them, flexinâ every muscle in her body â doinâ everythinâ she could think to try to bind her body into followinâ Panâs orders.
And to her credit, she lasted a hell of a lot longer than most of Panâs women did the first time around.
Might be hope for her after all.
While Ty was quiverinâ and shudderinâ and stutterinâ, Pan crawled up on her and started treatinâ her tits rough. Somethinâ so much nicer about another womanâs tits in hand than her own. The way they roll into it, silently begginâ. The way they need it so bad. The goosebumps. The buttery tender rouge âround those prickly peaks, so sweet on her tongue once she was done suckinâ the dayâs sweat off.
Pan buried her fingers back in Tyâs drippinâ wet heat to fuck her to another buckinâ climax while she milked the pleasure out of her tits. And before she could recover from that, she dropped another life-changinâ technique on the girl â fuckinâ her hard while rollinâ her thumb rough into her clit.
Pan made the right call pickinâ Tyâs bed. The sheets were a sweat-and-sex-drenched mess by the time she was finished breakinâ Ty in.
Before Ty could catch her breath, Pan kneeled beside her and impatiently clapped her palm into Tyâs cheek a few times to get her mind back.
âCome on Ty, donât keep yer boss waitinâ.â
âJ-just⊠one m-minuteâŠâ
Pan grinned mean at her and took a fistful of the whimperinâ girlâs hair in hand to turn her lips up and keep her still. She leaned down and whispered mean in Tyâs ear. âThereâs only two words you get to say back when yer boss tells you somethinâ, Ty. How many times I gotta beat this into you?â
âY-yes⊠bossâŠâ
But despite her words, it sure seemed like Ty wasnât gonna be movinâ anytime soon. Fuckinâ annoyinâ brat. Never fuck a virgin if you want any damn satisfaction out of it.
But Pan knew how to take her own satisfaction.
Still holdinâ Tyâs hair firm, she settled in on her knees, straddlinâ Ty with her thighs on either side of Tyâs head.
âTongue,â Pan said simply.
And Ty dutifully stuck her tongue out in a daze. Looked like she barely knew what she was gettinâ into â especially from the startled cunt-muffled moan when Pan settled herself into Tyâs face.
Even weak and shaky as she was, Tyâs mouth still worked just fine.
Pan frotted herself into Tyâs chin and nose while the girl tried her best to keep up. She quickly got lost in the rhythm of it â and in the soothinâ warmth of Tyâs tongue. She got to grindinâ harder and harder into her, until Ty was drowninâ in her, tappinâ her shuddery thighs. She was pleadinâ for the air that Pan was greedily keepinâ from her â and that she wasnât planninâ to give up at all until those taps started turninâ into desperate claws digginâ into her and drawinâ blood for it.
She grinned mean at Ty when she mercifully lifted her cunt up to ration out a few desperate, gaspinâ lungfuls of air. She left a sheen of a sloppy mess of herself all over Tyâs face that shone so nice â even in the dim light filterinâ through the roof of the tent.
Lord she looked good like that. Under her. Servinâ her. Savorinâ her. Pan started imagininâ makinâ a habit of all this, but then she remembered she was just stealinâ Tyâs first, gettinâ her ready, breakinâ in a wild beast for her owner. Put a shiver in her spine and another rush of heat in her nethers thinkinâ about it.
She teased Ty: âYou ready to deliver now? Or do I gotta keep takinâ it fer myself?â
Ty nodded in response, tappinâ Panâs ass meaninâ, âGet thâfuck off me already,â by the gesture.
Snarky little brat. Even without a word.
âŠSomethinâ kinda scaldinâ Panâs insides about that. Somethinâ growinâ on her. The feelinâ of shovinâ someone so⊠stubborn under her.
Ty wasted no time gettinâ her rough-fuck fingers in Pan, jamminâ âem in at all the wrong angles, enough to make Pan slap her wrist and tell her to get it together.
âI showed you exactly what to do and you still ainât gettinâ it.â
âWhatâd you do so special then, huh? Fuckinâ away at me.â
âI gotta hold yer damn hand?â
Ty gave her a stupid look with a shrug in it, so Pan did exactly what she said. Takinâ Tyâs hands in hers, puttinâ them right.
âGo slow until ya find it. I ainât givinâ you any hints. Youâll know or youâll be a hopeless virgin the rest of yer damn life.â
Ty got to rollinâ the tips of her fingers around inside Panâs cunt, searchinâ and lookinâ consternated the whole time. âHowâm I supposed toââ
Ty was suddenly interrupted by Pan gaspinâ and dartinâ her hand out to hold her wrist perfectly still.
She couldnât help herself grindinâ into Tyâs fingers there, bitinâ her lip and whininâ a little for it.
Ty put her weight into pressinâ into Pan there and her eyes lit up with revelation, watchinâ Pan writhe around for her when she got it right.
âOh. Oh⊠wow⊠Lookit thatâŠâ Ty grinned stupid, slippinâ her fingers out and back in, firmly dragginâ them along right where they oughta go. She was pressinâ her hand firm into Panâs belly to hold her still while she did it, which was drivinâ Pan extra mad not beinâ able to move. âYouâre⊠damn needy fer it⊠ainât ya? Practically fuckinâ my hand yerself like thisâŠâ
Pan was sick of all the tutorializinâ, so she just wrapped it up sharply tellinâ Ty, âThatâs what I told ya⊠Thisâs how yaâsssh-it. Ty. Thatâs⊠Thatâs real fuckinâ⊠nice⊠Donât you stop that âtil I say soâŠâ
Pan was still holdinâ onto Tyâs wrist, fuckinâ herself into Tyâs fingers while Ty fucked her right on back so, so fuckinâ nice.
Wasnât a minute of that before Pan started graspinâ after Tyâs hair, guidinâ her head down to start in on suckinâ her off properly. Hard to find anythinâ in life felt better than gettinâ sucked and fucked all at once.
Once Ty was makinâ Pan moan and writhe around for her, lettinâ her gushinâ cunt juice spill onto the sheets to mix with Tyâs, Pan closed her eyes and started fillinâ her mind with thoughts of who she really wanted to see between her thighs.
She squeezed her own tits rough, imagininâ instead that she was handlinâ the tits of all the prettiest girls she ever had â until the roulette wheel of her mind settled on the fantasy that inevitably got her off every lonely night in her own bed.
Takinâ Boss again.
Beinâ taken.
Gettinâ summoned again to serve at the pleasure of the most powerful woman in the Great Basin â like she never had been summoned again after that first and only nothinâ-at-all â no matter how low and stupid and drunk Pan managed to get her.
Instead, she gave Ty a teasinâ little grin and half a compliment for all her hard work there. âGood enough, Tiger,â she said, with a little pat on the head. âBut if ya want to be ready fer her? You better keep on practicinâ.â
ââŠWhat, right now? That werenât enough for ya?â
Pan grinned at her and told her that a woman ainât ever satisfied. âYou donât stop for anythinâ. Not until sheâs passed out, curled up, smilinâ stupid fer you.â Pan took Tyâs hair in her hands and guided her back to the unfinished meal of her throbbinâ clit and drippinâ hot cunt. âSo. Go on. Knock me out if ya can, Tiger.â
Pan sighed dreamily when Ty sunk her fingers back in her. Wasnât so bad beinâ taken by a woman like her after she had the right coachinâ. Maybe it wouldnât be such a mistake keepinâ her around. If that fumblinâ virgin could figure out a woman, she could surely figure out cleaninâ a gun and usinâ a fryinâ pan â with enough patience.
Pan hummed cheerfully to herself while Ty fucked her stupid. She even moaned the girlâs name a few times before finally fallinâ asleep, shudderinâ and buzzinâ pleasantly between cumminâ hard for the girl.
When she woke up, Tyâd already left, leavinâ her alone in the tent to drink in the scent of the reckless fun the two of them had. The evidence of it was all soaked into Tyâs sheets â and caked all stale and intoxicatinâly fragrant to her own skin.
Looked like Ty even had the decency to leave Panâs pants at the foot of the bed for her. What a gentleman that woman was.
Tent was as bare and clean and tidy as the day Boss taught Ty how to put it up. The only sign Ty lived there at all was an extra shirt of hers, folded neat on the chest.
Wasnât right.
Wasnât a home like that.
And how the hell was Ty supposed to find her place here if she couldnât even figure out her home was a home?
Pan got dressed and returned to her own tent to dig around her chest for somethinâ â an old belt with a fancy stolen buckle Pan never liked much but couldnât sell since it was all scratched up. Had some luck in it, though. Served her damn well. Pulled ladies in like a peacockâs regalia when she used to wear it âround town. And Ty⊠Ha⊠Well, sheâd need all the luck she could get out there.
Pan gave the thing a little spit shine before sneakinâ right on back to Tyâs tent to hang it up on one of the posts inside.
Pan was cominâ back from relievinâ herself when she was stumbled upon by Ty on the trail â who was suddenly all blushinâ and scowlinâ and hidinâ her eyes with shame.
Pan grinned wide at her and told her good-morninâ and not a word more about the night before.
Ty mumbled a little good-morninâ right on back. Then she stood there, fidgetinâ, holdinâ back, wastinâ Panâs time.
âTy get on with it. I ainât got all morninâ, and I sure as hell ainât missinâ breakfast over you.â
Ty rubbed her bicep uneasily, squeezinâ it real hard before she finally found the guts to speak:
âI ainât⊠readyâŠâ
âOh. No, you surely are not. But at least you ainât a useless virgin anymore, huh? Thereâs some hope fer you yet.â
ââŠYou didnât show me⊠I mean⊠I⊠I need ya to teach me the rest, Pan.â
âWell, ainât you greedy. How the hellâd you get so spoiled, huh?â Pan tried to smile and tease it all away, but lookinâ Ty over, she just wasnât gettinâ the hint.
Pan sighed about it and dropped the grin. Apparently, that good-morninâ wasnât enough to make it clear. Seemed like Panâs blushinâ not-a-virgin needed a clap on the shoulder to set her right about what happened last night.
ââŠAinât got anythinâ left fer ya, Tiger. Yâainât half bad though. Ainât half bad. Go find some lonely women to woo. Get yer heart broken some and break some hearts. If ya just keep on practicinâ at it, when the day comes that she comes for ya, youâll be ready.â
Tyâs eyes fell then. Her nails dug into her palms. Lips parted lookinâ fer words that wouldnât come, then closed again in a bitter grimace.
There wasnât a thank-you in the gesture, not quite, but somethinâ in the way Ty turned away and walked off, kickinâ gravel like a spoiled child scorned, Pan figured she got the point:
That was all Pan had to give.
That was all Pan ever had to give.
Just afun little nothinâ-at-all.
And if Ty had any sense in her â if she learned anythinâ from it â sheâd give every woman she ever lied with the very same.
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Couldnâtâve been more than a month later that Ty managed to shoot all ten of her cans off the fence â and lassoed one of the slowest, stupidest, stolen cows in the corral. Was a start. And that stupid fawninâ look on her face had been rarer and rarer, too. Turned into somethinâ else. Somethinâ proper.
Reverence.
Seemed like Ty had found her place. Stopped actinâ like a guest, and started carryinâ herself like she oughta â like she was carinâ for her home â a home that needed her even more than she needed it.
Was around then Pan heard the first rumblinâ of a rumor â while wanderinâ the market in town â about a mysterious woman with a rugged scar on her face and a big manâs buckle on her belt, just as scarred.
Seemed like sheâd been caught by a gossipy servant while pleasinâ another woman â in that womanâs marriage bed â and better than any man in town, so the servant said, who apparently watched the whole thing while longinâ to be in that bed herself.
A Tiger in the sheets, they called her, while blushinâ and titterinâ about it and swearinâ to give themselves over to the Tigerâs claws should ever the opportunity arise.
Why take a woman when sheâll just give herself over to ya?
Pan couldnât help smilinâ, knowinâ at least that fun little nothinâ-at-all of hers was beinâ put to good use.
And maybe, if she kept at it, Ty really could be ready when Boss finally came to call fer a taste of her nothinâ-at-all.