Joel Chevon

Joel, 21, Unemployed and on the lookout for work. "So if you see anything or need anything done call me. Seriously anything... I'm not picky... well I mean I do have my boundries. Let's just say I'll do any respectable thing. Alright?"

[kindlyspareadollar]

Among the Chaos I Post Earthquake I Joel and Estelle

[odette-warren-blog]

Estelle watched him with a blank expression. She blinked a few times and looked up at the ceiling, trying to stop herself from tearing up. She turned back to him, misty eyed and shaking her head. “She knows. She already knows that you love her. But she doesn’t deserve you.” Estelle stood up, brushing off her dress while she took his cup of water. “I’ll be right back.” Estelle walked into the kitchen and dropped the cup into the sink. She pressed her hands against the counter, trying to think through her next move. Automatically she crouched down and opened the liquor cabinet. Her hand wrapped around a bottle of vodka, once it was in front of her she twisted off the cap and stared at it. Slowly the woman brought it to her lips and took a few swigs off it before she left it on the counter and walked back into the living room. Her fingers moved to the buttons on his shirt, slowly starting to undo them. 

[kindlyspareadollar]

Joel froze, looking at her. "She- what? How could you know if she-" He paused, unsure what to say. "That's bull." He decided on. "She doesn't understand-" But she'd already walked away. He watched her go, pushing himself up and wincing as he pushed himself up on his hands. "What are y-" He stopped, realizing then what was going on exactly. He hesitated for a moment, unsure what to do. Estelle. It was Estelle. He took a breath then ever so slowly began to help her. 

[kindlyspareadollar]

The Silence is Deafening I Joel and Estelle

[odette-warren-blog]

"We’ll have to see how things work out." She smiled while shrugging, it didn’t really matter to her. She just wanted her baby. She wanted to hold the baby in her hands, to feel the being that was growing inside her. "I wish I had her now." 

[kindlyspareadollar]

"Me too. I wish we could hold her-him." He smiled and glanced down at her stomach. "She's going to be so spoiled. I can see it now." 

[kindlyspareadollar]

Among the Chaos I Post Earthquake I Joel and Estelle

[odette-warren-blog]

Estelle swallowed hard, her eyes moving to meet his, she understood perfectly, yet she was confused at the same time. Deep inside her she knew exactly what he was trying to say to her, but she needed to hear it. She needed to hear the words so she knew what he really meant, what he really wanted to say to her. “You could tell me, I can pass on your message. I’m sure that she wants to hear it. She’ll want to know what you needed to say to her.” 

[kindlyspareadollar]

"Could you- could you tell her that I love her. Tell her I've always loved her since before I can remember." He paused then laughed. "I guess this is better in a way. I mean now I don't get to see her reaction or face the consequences. It's ridiculous how I feel. I mean I know she deserves so much better and that she couldn't possibly look at me that way but... I do. I look at her that way. She's the best thing that's ever happened to me and nothing could ever change that."

[kindlyspareadollar]

The Silence is Deafening I Joel and Estelle

[odette-warren-blog]

Estelle didn’t comment while he spoke, she was over the disappearance of her father. It didn’t matter to her anymore. It was the past and that was something she didn’t spend time worrying about, not anymore at least. “She.” Estelle commented while looking at him once again, “She will only make it better. We’re having a girl. I already told you that. Didn’t I? I can feel it.” 

[kindlyspareadollar]

"Hmm.... I don't know." He said teasingly. "I can see us with a boy but either way I'll be happy." He grinned. "I can imagine a little girl that looks exactly like you with your curls and your smile and your eyes."

[kindlyspareadollar]

Among the Chaos I Post Earthquake I Joel and Estelle

[odette-warren-blog]

Estelle leaned against the arm of the couch while she listened to him ramble. She had a feeling that anything she had to say to him at the moment would be ignored or overlooked. Even if he did listen he would never be able to understand. “Maybe being over protective is his way of showing that he cares.” She mused while giving him an amused look. “Oh there’s none taken. I’m not an angle though. I can promise you that.” She sighed when he started talking about her dating history, and she crossed her arms over her chest. “Maybe you’re putting her up on too high of a pedestal. Maybe she’s dating exactly who she deserves and you just can’t see that. Besides I’m sure that the guys weren’t all that bad. Some of them could have been really good for her. Maybe she just didn’t stay with them for other reasons. The ones who left her probably left her for really good reasons.” The gypsy shrugged, watching him while she shook her head, “Joel, I’m not an angle and I feel like this isn’t all things that you want to tell me. Maybe you should just go lay down. Get some sleep.” 

[kindlyspareadollar]

"No. It's not that. She doesn't get it and I don't think she ever will. I wanted to show or to tell her before but I guess- I mean it's too late now. Plus she would have never believed me. She's stubborn that way but I mean that's what I liked about her." He smiled slightly. "She was so... smart and driven and she made me laugh." He looked over at her. "I was in love with her from the first day I met her but... I guess.... it's too late now, isn't it?" He laughed wryly. "I was such an idiot. I should have told her but..." He took a breath. "I mean it might be better in some ways. Now I won't have to deal with rejection or the reality of the situation."

[kindlyspareadollar]

The Silence is Deafening I Joel and Estelle

[odette-warren-blog]

"Joel, I spent my entire life growing up with Kellan’s parents and I love them. Don’t get me wrong, I love them so much. They took me in when no one else did and raised me like I was their own child, they put up with all my shit and loved me no matter what, but I also spent half my life wondering why they were. Why they had to screw up their entire lives to take care of a girl that wasn’t their child. I couldn’t understand why my father didn’t take care of me, I didn’t know who he was or why he didn’t love or want me and it was so confusing to me. I couldn’t let my baby grow up like that. If the mere thought of that happening to my baby is enough to make me see, to make me understand how I really feel about you, then so be it. Joel, I want to spend the rest of my life with you. You, me and our baby. I have never in my life been so sure about anything. This is the one decision that I haven’t second guessed. I know that this is right choice. This is the life that I’m meant for." 

[kindlyspareadollar]

Joel wasn't sure what to say. "Estelle, your father missed out. He made the wrong decision and if he doesn't regret it than he's a fool and unworthy of even a minute of your time." He hesitated, collecting his thoughts. At first upon hearing her words he was completely silent, even his thoughts went quiet, every part of him was in shock. "Estelle, I couldn't imagine a life without you. You are the best part of my life...and this baby. He will only make it better." He grinned. "We have no where to go but up." 

[kindlyspareadollar]

Among the Chaos I Post Earthquake I Joel and Estelle

[odette-warren-blog]

"How long has it been since what?" Estelle watched him curiously, trying to figure out what exactly was going on. It occurred to her that someone like Joel probably should have only taken one pill, not too. "How are you feeling?" She asked while gently pressing the back of her hand to his forehead. Her bracelets jingled with every movement of her hand, but the sound was slowly becoming background music to her. She was used to the noise, the weird part was the quiet coming from her ankle. The usual anklet that she left on had been removed for the ball, but now she felt naked. The gypsy sat beside him, carefully tucking her dress underneath her while she did. "Joel you’re not dead. It’s just the pain medication. I’m right here. You’re not dead. Joel look around you, this is not heaven, heaven is so much more beautiful. It’s filled with light and happiness, no one is hungry or sad. It’s perfect. You’re still on earth with me. Fighting desperately to make this world as much like heaven as we can." Her expression shifted as she smiled and shook her head, "And why would Kellan have killed you? He’s fairly reasonable, I can’t imagine him stooping to murder, not without great reasoning." 

[kindlyspareadollar]

"Better." He said simply. "I mean I guess it's easier up here where pain isn't real and where you don't have to face your mistakes and what you've done or how you feel." He looked up at the ceiling, transfixed for a moment on the panels on the ceiling. They were so pretty. "Have you ever noticed that?" He whispered, not listening to her anymore. "How the panels connect? How they-" He paused a moment. It was so quiet that you could simply hear their breathing. "You should paint them. It needs more color." He looked down from the ceiling and made eye contact with her. "But that's the good part about being dead. You don't have to fight anymore." He stopped momentarily, staring at her bracelets and listening to the jingle they made as she moved. "I had a friend who fought to change those things. To fix the sorrow in the world and she will. Just you wait and see. She can do anything she puts her mind to." He paused for a moment then burst out laughing suddenly. "Oh you don't know Kellan. He's so overprotective and I think maybe he hates me. This would have set him off the edge. See he had this sister right? She was the most special person I've ever met and ever will meet," He paused, looking at her. "No offense, Angel. Anyways, she was smart, kind, beautiful and she was the one that I was talking about earlier, the one who's going to fix the world. But she always went out with these losers. I guess they just didn't understand her, didn't understand what they were screwing up." He paused, thinking. "I read this book once where a character said something about people accepting the love they think they deserve and I think that's what it was but-" He stopped suddenly, lost in his own thoughts then he looked up at her. "But she deserved so much more than that. She didn't even know her own worth but she- she deserved the world." He looked up at her a moment, analyzing her expression. "I guess I shouldn't keep going on like this. I'm probably boring you."

[kindlyspareadollar]

The Silence is Deafening I Joel and Estelle

[odette-warren-blog]

"Time is moving remarkably fast." She commented while grinning at him. Him knowing was a huge weight off her shoulders. There was no more lying or hiding or avoiding. They could just happily coexist once more. Whether or not they could go back to what they before was beyond her. She didn’t get to decide that. If they become something more than she would accept it. She would never love anyone the way that she loved Joel, but was that enough? Her entire life was already changing, her future was unreadable, even tomorrow was a mystery to her. "I’m glad you’re happy." She whispered while giving him a small smile. "That’s all I want." 

[kindlyspareadollar]

Joel smiled. "But are you happy? That's all I want." He smirked as he spun her own words around at her then his expression grew serious. "I don't want to force you into anything just to preserve something or because you feel obligated to, Estelle. I do love you but I don't want you to feel any pressure to humor me or to pretend to feel the same way simply for my benefit." Perhaps he was saying this because he was conscious or perhaps it's  because he couldn't believe it was real and that she could possibly, maybe, even just a little bit feel the same way. "I just want to make sure you're sure about this... about me." Even if she didn't he would still take care of the baby with her. That child was equally his and he wouldn't let another child grow up without a father. 

[kindlyspareadollar]

Among the Chaos I Post Earthquake I Joel and Estelle

[odette-warren-blog]

No, I’m not sure. Estelle nodded at him, ignoring the pulsing pain in her wrist while she watched him. “I’m fine Joel, don’t worry about me. Let’s just get you fixed up.” Her hands moved gracefully over his shoulder, removing the ice packs and placing a hand on each side of his shoulder. “Take a deep breath, you’ll feel pain on the count of three, brace yourself for it. One, two, three.” The last number was whispered while she applied pressure to his shoulder and squeezed her eyes shut as she moved it just so, causing it to pop back into place with a sickening sound that caused her stomach to turn. “There, you’re all set.” 

[kindlyspareadollar]

Joel closed his eyes tightly, waiting for the pain. He flinched slightly and cried out but it wasn't nearly as bad as he thought it'd be. He kept his eyes closed for a minute then opened them. The light was brighter than he remembered and it hurt his eyes but for some reason he couldn't will himself to close them because right in front of him stood an angel. She wasn't the traditional pale faced, blonde, blue eyed angel that he was used to seeing on T.V. but in his eyes she was better. So much more beautiful than any other angel he'd ever seen. "How long has it been?" He whispered, staring at her, his eyes wide. Then he hesitated. "I guess I'm probably not supposed to ask that." He looked down at his hands, avoiding eye contact. "I mean- I guess I wasn't ready to go." His eyes wandered back up to her. "Though I'm not sure how I could have died of a hurt shoulder... maybe it was an infection? Or maybe I'm just weaker than I thought I was." He got quiet for a moment, pensive then he sighed loudly. "Shit," He muttered under his breath. His fingers reached up and he ran a hand through his hair. "There was so much I wanted to do- so much I wanted to tell people. Now, they're never gonna know." He chuckled slightly after a moment, thinking about it. He was going to tell her. He always said he would. But he figured he had time. Oh, how wrong he was."It's just as well." He whispered after a breath. "Kellan would have killed me anyways."  

[kindlyspareadollar]

Among the Chaos I Post Earthquake I Joel and Estelle

[odette-warren-blog]

"Nothing." She replied calmly while she continued to get his water. "Why are you asking so many questions? Just leave it be and do what I say." The words were said softly, but her tone left no room for argument. Her eyes flicked to the clock on the wall before applying a small amount of pressure to one of the ice packs. "I need you to take them quickly so that I can try and fix your arm." 

[kindlyspareadollar]

He hesitated, wanting to say something else but stopping himself. He sighed and swallowed them. "Okay. I'm good." He paused a moment, glancing back down at her wrist. "Are you sure you're good?" 

[kindlyspareadollar]

The Silence is Deafening I Joel and Estelle

[odette-warren-blog]

"Yes, I guess so. I don’t know how they tell, but I haven’t been told anything is wrong. They said that she has a really strong heartbeat, but I could barely hear it. My womb nugget is not going to be a boy, so I wouldn’t get your hopes up." Estelle just nodded at the question, "He knows and you’re going to live just fine. You’re not just a person, you’re not just my best friend. You are the father of my baby, you are the father of his niece and you’re the person that I am in love with. He’s not going to hurt you." 

[kindlyspareadollar]

"Good." He said simply, glancing down at her stomach. "I just can't believe that it's in there. I mean a few weeks ago it was just us and-" He paused briefly. "It's all happening so fast." He looked up, catching his mistake. "A good fast though." He raised an eyebrow. "I guess we'll see, won't we?" He said, his tone jokingly challenging. He froze, hearing her say that. He looked up, making full and complete eye contact. "I love you too." Then he smiled, pulling her close and hugging her tightly before pulling away and kissing her. "I'm so happy." He muttered, smoothing some hair behind her ear. "I don't think I've ever been happier. I just want to make sure you're happy."

[paintspeckledcarson]

Gallery || Joel and Bria

[paintspeckledcarson]

"We’re twins, so just imagine me with blonde hair and you’d know her." She laughed. "Her names Brooke." She forgot sometimes, that not everyone who knew one of them knew the other… Whoops. "Yes and no… kind of wish I’d gotten here without the casualties." 

[kindlyspareadollar]

He laughed. "Then no I haven't met her." He smiled. "Well I'll be sure to say hi if I see her." He shrugged lightly. "I guess the important thing  is that you're here, right?"

[topsyturvykyrie]

New Year, New Hair || Kyrie and Joel

"I forgot how freeing having short is! …I think I look like cotton candy now." She giggled, she was just missing the pink and otherwise it was pretty similar. Brighter,maybe. But that’s it. She ruffled her hair before letting it fall back into place like it should.

[kindlyspareadollar]

Joel laughed. "Well it looks nice." He smiled. He hesitated, unsure what to say. They hadn't talked one on one since Estelle had told her the news. She didn't seem mad but he wasn't sure. "So... how have you and Kellan been?" He settled on, figuring it was the easiest option.

[kindlyspareadollar]

Among the Chaos I Post Earthquake I Joel and Estelle

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Estelle took a few bags of frozen vegetables before starting to walk back to her place. The bags stayed on her wrist, hoping that she’d be able to numb the pain at least a little before she got to Joel. As soon as she entered the house, she walked over to him and carefully took his hand in hers before looking up at him, “Grit your teeth… Okay?” She asked him while she slowly lifted his arm and placed one bag under it, before lowering it once again and placing one on the top of his shoulder and moving the one that had been there before to the side. “Hold this with your other hand.” She told him while wiping at her forehead again. “I’ll be right back.” The woman moved into the bathroom and pulled out a first aid kit, as well as an old bottle of medication. It’d come from a woman a few doors down, after she’d finished with the pain killers she’d left them to Estelle to deal with some soreness. They were a little old, but they had to still work at least a little. “Take these.” She told him while walking over and placing two beside him on the table. “I’ll get some water.” 

[kindlyspareadollar]

She strolled into the room, bags laid on her wrist for a moment too long. Was her wrist hurt? He narrowed his eyes slightly, zoning in on it. How was he so oblivious? "What happened to your wrist?" He asked, moving to look at her eyes. He nodded, momentarily distracted by her taking his hand. He took it in his hand as she walked off. He picked the pills up from the table gently, examining them. He didn't recognize them. "Hey um.... where'd you get these?" He asked. 

[kindlyspareadollar]

The Silence is Deafening I Joel and Estelle

[odette-warren-blog]

"Yeah, a kid. We’re having a kid. A baby." She gave a small laugh and nodded at his question. "Yes, I’m… Er… We’re keeping the baby. It’s ours. Who would I even give it to? Getting rid of the womb nugget is out of the question. Not even on the table, so what else is an option?" She gave a small nod and bit her lip, "Yeah, sorta. I got to hear her heart beating, I think she’s going to be a girl." Nodding again she ran a hand through her hair, "Kyrie and Kellan both know, yeah…." She frowned at the second question, it was slightly harder to answer. "Um, it’s complicated."

[kindlyspareadollar]

He smiled. "So she's healthy." He breathed a sigh of relief. "When's your next visit? I want to be there." He glanced back down at her stomach. "Hmmm.... I'm not too sure. I see you- us- with a baby boy." He laughed. "Does Kellan know..." He swallowed. "-that it's-" He gestured to the both of them. "Ours. Because if he does then I'm surprised I'm still living." He laughed nervously, reaching to rub the back of his neck. He hesitated. "And why is that?" 

[kindlyspareadollar]

Among the Chaos I Post Earthquake I Joel and Estelle

[odette-warren-blog]

Estelle swore under her breath, when she realized that she couldn’t see it in the dark. “Come on, hurry. You go straight to ours, get the ice from the freezer and I’ll go take whatever frozen shit Kyrie has back at her place. We’ll stay away from Kellan’s just incase one of them needs it.” She turned towards Kyrie’s without a word, knowing that it would be open. Most of the houses around here were always unlocked, just in case someone needed something. “I’m fine Joel, we just need to fix your shoulder.” 

[kindlyspareadollar]

Joel nodded, unsure what else to say and walked towards their trailer. He opened the door with care, careful not to move his arm too much and slipped inside. He pulled open the freezer and pulled out some frozen peas before digging around for anything else. He found a few things and lifted one to his shoulder. He winced at the contact. His sleeve was so cut that there wasn't fabric to shield his skin from the pea's freezing touch. So much for returning to suit. He wondered how much of a fine there'd be. He pressed the peas on his shoulder harder. He didn't want anyone to see him like this... weak, vulnerable, in pain. Especially Estelle.  So he grit his teeth, keeping a brave face. She couldn't know how much it hurt. 

[kindlyspareadollar]

The Silence is Deafening I Joel and Estelle

[odette-warren-blog]

Estelle looked at him for a moment before laughing and shaking her head. “It did.” She shifted her position so that she was facing him. “Joel…” She took in a deep breath and lifted up her shit, running her hands over her stomach. “I’m not just storing weight for winter Joel. There is a small, little, er… Womb nugget growing inside me. Yes, it’s yours. No I don’t expect anything from you, no I’m not asking you for anything. I’m just telling you.” 

[kindlyspareadollar]

He froze, unsure what to say for a moment then stared at her stomach. "Thats... woah.... we're- we're having a kid." He looked up at her. His look of bewilderment turned into a huge grin. "We're having a kid!" He said again. "Wait- are you going to keep it?" He paused. "I know you must be having your doubts but I think we can do it... raise the kid. Have you been to a doctor? Gotten an ultrasound or anything?"

He wanted to place a hand on her stomach but he held himself back. "Have you read up on what's supposed to be happening? Have you even told anyone? Kyrie?" He swallowed. "Kellan?" Then he paused, his eyebrows narrowed slightly in confusion. "Wait... why didn't you want to tell me?"