Apo thought heād had enough of the light - the deception of warmth, of comfort. the spotlight could claim him as its own again and again, but he would keep his distance.
ā¦
After wrangling each of his coworkers into a bubbly goodbye hug, Apo leaves the live viewing venue in high spirits. It had been a fun night - one of the best - spending time with his fans and friends who had become a second family. He wouldnāt take back a second of it, even if he had felt a tangible absence the entire time. Itās not until he sits in the silence of his car that he starts feeling untethered. Now, the absence is all there is.
āāā
Feelings that might have been had after the KPTS finale.
Basic Info āāāāāāāāāāāāāāāāāāāā-
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: ąø£ąø±ąøą¹ąøąøąø£ąø£ą¹ąø²ąø¢ąøŖąøøąøąøą¹ąø²ąø¢ą¹ąøąøąø£ąø£ąø±ąø | KinnPorsche: The Series (TV) RPF, ąø£ąø±ąøą¹ąøąøąø£ąø£ą¹ąø²ąø¢ąøŖąøøąøąøą¹ąø²ąø¢ą¹ąøąøąø£ąø£ąø±ąø | KinnPorsche: The Series (TV)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Mile Phakphum Romsaithong/Apo Nattawin Wattanagitiphat
Characters: Mile Phakphum Romsaithong, Apo Nattawin Wattanagitiphat
Additional Tags: Happy Ending, Feelings, Angst and Feels, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Fluff, Sick Character, Internal Conflict, Introspection, Crying, Ocean and Stars Imagery, Hurt/Comfort, Metaphors, If you find meaning in my metaphors please let me know
After a number of hours days I do not dare to count, i have compiled the links to ALL the artworks this fandom created (and i could find) and posted on tumblr.
I have also looked for art on other platforms but this is not, of course, as exhaustive as the tumblr list. I have indeed compiled the links to the different arts of more than a hundred artists. I explain my goal later in this post so please keep reading before reblogging^^.
Anyway the result of this work is :
"The damn good art doc"
Two excellent docs have been made to create an archive for the kinnporsche fandom:
-The "Damn good meta doc" (curated by @luckydragon10 )
-The "Damn good shitposting doc" (curated by @happyminyards)
I have decided to echo those ideas and to create a doc collecting links to all the art this fandom has created.
This document will change and grow as people send me new links to new art so do not hesitate to contact me privately on my tumblr blog or tag me in the comments of your art with : @gouinetteparletrop.
I accept links from all platforms (tumblr, instagram, twitter, deviantart,weiboā¦) as long as this is not a repost but the original creator account.
I will not accept any art that has been stolen.
Iām making this doc art in the hope that people will give more visibility to all artists.Ā
On tumblr this means reblogging art you like in order to help the post reach more audience.Ā
On other platforms it would be leaving a comment under the post to encourage the creator.
The fandom is only alive thanks to content creators, help them keep it alive by supporting them.
I've decided to build this doc as it follows:Ā
1-Big categories corresponding to the platforms where the art has been posted on.
2-Under those platforms sections, I will separate traditional art and digital art.
3-Under those categories i will categorize the art under the following sections: ship / characters / actors (i will add the ships, the characters, or the actors as soon as there is art made of them. If no art exist for them, they will not be listed)
4-Under those categories, the artists will be listed alphabetically.
5-Under each artist name will be links to all the art posts they made.Each link will have a short description of the piece.
Tip: When you're looking for something I recommend that you use the sidebar of the google doc that is divided in chapters.
If youāre one of the artists listed here and you donāt want to appear, do not hesitate to contact me privately and I will remove the links to your art from the doc.
Under the cut are listed alphabetically the @ of all the artists from whom i shared the links to their different art
However, the list on the original post is not complete because tumblr only allow me to tag 50 people at a time...
I will tag the rest of the artists in reblogs of the post.
If you want to reblog the post with the complete list of artists, wait for the reblog that i will be titled "artists list completed".
I will also pin the post with the reblogs and complete list to my blog.
Apo thought heād had enough of the light - the deception of warmth, of comfort. the spotlight could claim him as its own again and again, but he would keep his distance.
...
After wrangling each of his coworkers into a bubbly goodbye hug, Apo leaves the live viewing venue in high spirits. It had been a fun night - one of the best - spending time with his fans and friends who had become a second family. He wouldnāt take back a second of it, even if he had felt a tangible absence the entire time. Itās not until he sits in the silence of his car that he starts feeling untethered. Now, the absence is all there is.
āāā
Feelings that might have been had after the KPTS finale.
Basic Info ---------------------------------------------------------
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: ąø£ąø±ąøą¹ąøąøąø£ąø£ą¹ąø²ąø¢ąøŖąøøąøąøą¹ąø²ąø¢ą¹ąøąøąø£ąø£ąø±ąø | KinnPorsche: The Series (TV) RPF, ąø£ąø±ąøą¹ąøąøąø£ąø£ą¹ąø²ąø¢ąøŖąøøąøąøą¹ąø²ąø¢ą¹ąøąøąø£ąø£ąø±ąø | KinnPorsche: The Series (TV)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Mile Phakphum Romsaithong/Apo Nattawin Wattanagitiphat
Characters: Mile Phakphum Romsaithong, Apo Nattawin Wattanagitiphat
Additional Tags: Happy Ending, Feelings, Angst and Feels, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Fluff, Sick Character, Internal Conflict, Introspection, Crying, Ocean and Stars Imagery, Hurt/Comfort, Metaphors, If you find meaning in my metaphors please let me know
AITA for not informing my sonās K(27) boyfriend P(24) that his mother is not dead?
I know the title sounds crazy, but please hear me out before you make your judgement. My son K(27) has been dating P(24) for a couple of months. They moved in together shortly after they started dating even though I wasnāt very happy about it.
Last week, while having lunch together, my sonās boyfriend was reminded of his parents. He continued to quietly eat his lunch but afterwards he confronted his uncle about some things I wonāt disclose to respect their privacy. His uncle must have lead P to believe that I was the person with all the answers to his questions.
While P confronted me about his parents and how I knew them when my son wasnāt there, I answered his questions truthfully but decided against telling him that his mother isnāt dead like he believes.
So, AITA?
EDIT: Many of you asked me in the comments why I chose to keep that information to myself. Well, P is going through a rough time. He lost his job fairly recently, his little brother got in trouble after Kās ex-boyfriend got in touch with K. It was all too much and I thought that me telling him would just overwhelm him more. I wanted to give him some time to process all that happened.
EDIT 2: I see that you keep questioning the authorities and why they chose to disclose the information about Pās mother to me rather than her own son. You see, I forgot to mention that Pās mother is my adoptive sister - something I actually did mention to P when he came to me with his questions (after he went to see his uncle). He was a bit shaken up when he found out, which is another reason why I didnāt tell him. P believed he was orphaned at the age of 11 and I thought telling him about his mother a decade later right in the middle of a stressful situation would not be the best.
EDIT 3: For those of you calling me the asshole, I think you are incorrect. I acted in Pās best interest. Pās memories of the time he was orphaned are scrambled at best. He doesnāt remember the accident and the aftermath, as the whole experience was a bit traumatic for a child his age.
EDIT 4: For those asking if P and K grew up together and then started dating - the answer is no. My sister moved out of the family home and separated herself from the family business to raise her children. P and K met for the first time when P was 23, right as P started working at my company. I recognised P immediately, because of his striking resemblance to his mother. I chose to not disclose my familial relationship with Pās mother, because at the time he was simply an employee and I did not see the point of doing so. When he started dating my son, there simply wasnāt a good time to bring it up.
EDIT 5: Questions about the accident itself have been raised: I canāt disclose much, for legal reasons but: my adoptive sisterās N(48) husband died in a very unfortunate accident - there was a gun in the house without the safety on and during a heated argument the weapon accidentally fired, hitting my brother-in-law in the back, killing him instantly. P was present, hiding in one of the cupboards playing hide and seek with his younger brother at the timeā¦ which we found out about later. My sister N was absolutely inconsolable about what happened so I took her out of the house (while the rest of the people present dealt with my brother-in-law and the kids), back to our family home. While I went to call our family doctor, she tried to kill herself in my bathroom. We managed to save her, but her memory has been affected. She canāt remember who she is, who her sons are or what happened that day. I thought it would be better to not tell P that his mother is alive because she canāt even remember him and I thought it would only cause him more pain.
UPDATE 09/07/2022: Thank you to the few of you who actually read all the edits and my reasoning for not telling P, saying that I am not the asshole. For those who voted that I am the asshole, saying I should come clean about what happened (telling me itās Pās right to make decisions regarding his own mother and his relationship with her), I have an update: P now knows his mother is alive!
UPDATE 2 10/07/2022: Some of you wanted to know how it went.
Two days ago, during a heated argument, my son K and his boyfriend P stormed into my hidden office at home and discovered my adoptive sister N there. P recognised her instantly, he screamed at me for ruining his life and hiding his mother from him, threatened to kill me (the boy is a bit emotional, I must say). My son stopped him from doing so. P proceeded to hug his mother and tried to reunite with her, but she did not recognised him. I revealed the whole truth about the accident and explained to P why I chose to hide N and the fact that she was still alive. Itāll take some time to adjust to this new reality, especially for P and his younger brother P(17). But on a lighter note, I gave my son one of our family heirlooms (a ring) to give to his boyfriend as a way to show him he is part of the family. P accepted. Theyāre now on their way to take over the family businesses (symbolically for now, as I am still the one in charge). So, in the end, all turned out well!
Not for nothing, the representation of Porscheās bisexuality means a lot to me as a bi person who didnāt figure out my identity until my early 20s. The journey that he goes through in the first half of the show, from a presumed straight man to a bisexual man in love with another man, is written and acted with so much empathy and grace. Porscheās feelings about his identity and presentation of self are allowed to be confused, hesitant, and complicated without him being homophobic or misogynistic. The result is a more subtle arc of self-discovery, but such an important one. Porsche may not have deep-rooted internal prejudices but he still exists within oppressive structures that shape all our lives whether we want them to or not. Even though he doesnāt deny or dislike his feelings for Kinn, he does quietly struggle sometimes with the discomfort of being queer in a world that sees queer as āother.ā
I think part of why this hits so hard is Apo himself. Now I donāt really follow the actors very closely and I try hard to separate the art from the artist, so I donāt want to place too much weight on this. But I do think Apo really brings a particular level of empathy and nuance to Porscheās identity that deserves appreciation. Apo has spoken a number of times about how much he struggled with homophobic treatment in the Thai film/TV industry through the course of his career. He was often asked invasive questions about his sexuality, made fun of for the way he dresses and presents himself, and demeaned for being feminine or not masculine enough. It seems to have been a key factor in his decision to leave the industry (and even Thailand) entirely.
To be clear, heās never made any public statement about his sexuality or gender identity, and itās no oneās business to presume or ask about how he identifies. The problem was that, regardless of how he actually identified, homophobia had a big impact on him personally and professionally. Homophobia (along with all other forms of hate and violence) doesnāt hurt just queer peopleāit hurts everyone, because it confines and regulates peopleās lives/bodies, and punishes deviations, big and small, from the norm.
Apo has some pretty incredible gender vibes to be honest. Something about his mannerisms, his face, his fashion choices, his presentation, just strikes keen envy in my nonbinary bisexual heart lol. And he brings that nuance into Porscheās character so beautifully. Porsche gets to be tender as he is tough, someone who cares for his loved ones and shows affection without being demeaned for it. Heās allowed to be this strong, tall, muscular guy without it being prescriptive of his internal feelings and personality and how he presents in his voice and mannerisms. No one (least of all him) is policing his body and gender in the way queer people, particularly queer men, so often deal with. He gets to just be.
The freedom in that, for me at least, feels like a revelation. I feel loved when I watch Porsche, because his journey as a bisexual man isnāt rooted in his own repression or external prejudice. Even when he identified as straight, he didnāt behave or present in a way that was engineered to convey heterosexuality or even masculinity. He was already comfortable in his skin, and figuring out his sexuality was more of an internal journey than one centered on his body and how the world perceives it.
Obviously thereās nothing wrong with identity crises/questions/discoveries that do involve repression or homophobia (mine certainly does, thanks Catholic school š). But I think itās really neat that Porscheās arc doesnāt, because it brings up questions that often get buried under the avalanche of homophobic/misogynistic/transphobic shit that unfortunately we so often have to wade through to come to our own queer identities. And thatās why I mentioned Apoās experience, because I really think that as someone whoās had such a hard time in the industry in the pastāprecisely because he does step outside rigid gender normsāhe really gets how homophobia shapes a personās understanding of their own body. And consciously or unconsciously, he created in Porsche a character who could be free, for fucking once, of that heavy weight around his neck.
So basically, I hope he knows how much that means to a lot of people, not just me. And I hope that playing Porsche has given him some amount of comfort or healing or validation. He gave homophobia and misogyny a massive middle finger through this character, and I hope that and his continued outspokenness about his experience make everyone think twice before policing peopleās gender and bodies.
So I know that the popular/accepted fanon is to believe that when Porsche finally realizes literally anything about whatās going on with Porchay and Kim, heāll be angry and protective and distrustful of Kimā¦
BUT. Hear me out. I would like to propose a funnier alternative.
What if in the aftermath of everything Yok shows Porsche the CCTV from her bar, and Porsche, who, let us not forget:
1. is a former professional street fighter
2. has spent his life taking care of his little brother
3. itās worth saying again: a former professional street fighter
is not instantly upset or distrustful but is instead like, āKinn. Kinn. I love you. But why the fuck didnāt you tell me that your younger brother is by far the coolest member of your family.ā
Kinn is horrified. Khun is horrified. They both believe absolutely that Porsche should think they are the coolest member of the family. Littlest brother doesnāt even deserve a place on the ranking. Porsche, for his part, cannot believe them. He is so offended they have been hiding the only cool member of the family from him! And heās annoyed that Chay never introduced them, until Chay very awkwardly explains what all went down, at which point Porsche, who is also, let us not forget:
4. basically gay mafia married to a problematic violent mafia prince of his own
is like, āYeah, that was uncool of him, youāre right, that was bad, super badābut like you saw this, right? Did you see this shit?ā And forces Chay to watch the CCTV footage from the bar as well, and is clearly already imagining doing Kimās fighting moves himself, and Chay has flashbacks to all the times he had to watch Porsche practicing fighting moves in the yard, and he realizes he needs to move to Antarctica because his life is about to get extremely annoying.
And when Porsche and Kim finally meetāproperly, while nobody is shooting at anybody or kidnapped or whateverāPorsche punches him (Kim dodges and blocks the first two, but Porsche lands the third and lands it well) and says, āThatās for breaking his heart, and also for leaving him alone in a room full of bodies. Donāt do it again.ā Then he gives Kim a hugāwhich Kim is absolutely not prepared for and cannot process at allāand says, āAnd thatās for protecting him.ā
Then Porsche challenges Kim to spar and Kim, stunned but still a master of emotional avoidance, jumps out the window to escape.
My friend @destimushi had a great take on Pete's behaviour at the beginning of this episode. And she interpreted it as sub drop and because it's a great take I think other people should read it.
