it's me, jun!

URL is still rokko since, not gonna re-link lots of stuff again. she/her. 30. trans woman. japanese/white. ΘΔ https://ko-fi.com/rokko i have autism & dissociative disorder. pan. part of the @ArceussWish crew. This blog, when not reblogs, will usually contain me going on about my mental problems or stuff related to my special interests, which include pokémon, kamen rider, and more.

[dragongirltongue]

Hey, could a bigender transfem get a little help, need money for food if any of yall are willing. It's not like, desperate yet but I know it's gonna be pretty damn tight, if yall could help it'd be greatly appreciated.

blue pay option

[dragongirltongue]

Hey could someone get me £50 to help with balancing grocery and phone bill? It's not quite pressing yet but if we can keep things topped up it'd mean a lot!

[kitsunerokko]

once again, been a hot minute since i last used tumblr (mostly because i noticed in general social media kind of leads me down my own worst mental tendencies... in fact the reason i'm here today was because i was noticing the cycle starting again with a different place i was posting stuff. who would've thought that people would once again only care about the art & not when i need reassurance about an insecurity!? me, dumbass, thinking "this time it'll be different!")

anyway uhh, for the 2, 3, people who missed me, i am sorry to report this probably isn't indicative of me being active here again, more just, an explanation for my briefly using the site since i'm sure it's surprised somebody who follows why i was suddenly reblogging stuff for a spell.

got a new alter in the past month, no she does not have artwork done of her. yes we are self-conscious about the fact that not having art of her yet means less likely people will know she exists.

my birthday's coming up and yet all the fear with the US election (I unfortunately live here... in the United States, as a trans woman, a very dysfunctional one) is sucking any joy out of it. And Halloween too.

i suppose it's like it's always been really, my tumblr is a record of when i'm having a bad mental health time and need to put it into words lest i explode but also don't don't to tell anyone in specific, just the void.

[venonomnomicon]

the only good parts of twitter have been ripped away so now theres nothing but ragebait and circlejerking, tumblr has gotten markably edgier and more like the worst parts of twitter over the last ~6 years, reddit is as it's ever been, public discords are impermanent and infested with terminal levels of insincerity, bluesky is the darth vader funko pop of websites, forums are fading away, mastodon instances combine the triteness of short-form social media with the tiny userbase of a forum, and DIY website communities are painfully infested with libertarians. what is there. what's just cool

[sarkavonsy]

the past, i guess. and even that is probably at least partly nostalgia.

[venonomnomicon]

i don't think it's particularly nostalgic to say the reason i'm not happy with the state of online communication is a combination of complete triteness (both of subject and depth of communication), the abundance of irony and specifically the absence of sincerity, and the distinctly libertarian musk of hyper-individualism present in all proposed alternatives. these are material conditions, not the vague "things used to be better back then..."

infact none of these are inherently locked to the past, and were present in past forms of online communication. it'd be ridiculous to say that, for example, the common forum trend of "extremely in-depth, non-literary arguments about minute details of a fictional work's universe" was any more nuanced or less guilty of ragebaiting

currently the only place you can have any kind of interesting discussion with people is in your PMs with them. there's nothing that should make that the case, having substantive conversations with people should be at least somewhat possible somewhere. i don't really think it'd be that controversial of me to say the social media framework actively discourages it and everything is a social media right now. a lot of people seem to have nice things to say about cohost but i hated that it was attempting to "solve" the issues with social media while using the exact same format, and obviously it just ended up having all the same problems because they're inherent to the format

tumblr is one of the closest we get format wise but it's still a vague purposeless hyper-platform with social tooling and that just means any kind of outreach is going to cause friction by introducing you to, potentially, hundreds of people who all use the site in completely different ways, expect completely different things out of that experience, and are going to approach the site with the exact same detached whatever-ness that's encouraged by twitterlikes

[soup-mother]

menstruation horror but it's about how people with "trans women are women" in bio get in the comments when a trans woman dares to describe her experience as a period.

[soup-mother]

wow haha imagine experiencing something painful and not only do people not believe you but they actively belittle you for believing in it. that'd be crazy!

[numbersareimaginary]

(via @pandamugger) what they said!

[charl0ttan]

discord server youre trying to be more active in would benefit from a wiki describing the most active members and major server events and injokes and such. unforchies this is insanely autistic thinking

[adz]

every discord should have a bestiary & a heavily sourced + localized knowyourmeme index, at a minimum

[koboldgirltummy]

Hey did you know it costs zero dollars to not be terrible to trans women? Wild right? It costs literally nothing to give us some basic respect and not shove us under a microscope and track our every action and overly moralize about it.

[koboldgirltummy]

Btw, if you think this is about That trans woman, whoever popped into your head as the example of the one who's an exception to this, yes it is about That trans woman no matter who the fuck she yipping is.

If you think there is an exception to this you are not only part of the problem, you are how the problem sustains itself. You cannot simply decide that these horrific tactics are okay for your chosen villain who happens to be a trans woman. Until you get the fuck over yourself this will never fucking end.

[kitsunerokko]

woke up from an overdose-induced hell sleep to find out cohost is shutting down so uh... back here, for my social media presence... what little of it there was

[schizoetic]

Being permanently mentally ill doesn't mean you'll be permanently unhappy

[mousegirlheart]

[kitsunerokko]

i accidentally re-opened some old wounds today. i wonder if i'm really healing, by being less reliant on my DID system than before, or if i've pushed them away, in the name of just chasing a haze of vague pleasure

every year since i got out of "the situation", it feels like it's still the same distance, and yet, how little braintime my other alters get compared to when the escape was still fresh...

but i don't think i'm actually cut out to run the show on my own, despite my best efforts. I'm just, distant... from everything, and everyone... all the time. I feel like I'm trying to belong, to a group, with others, through a window. No, through many windows, and I can't tell which pane of glass is the one I can walk through, if any.

[taqoou]

donate an esim for a coloured sketch!

hey guys!! im one of the artists for this round

click here for the full thread of the tutorials and how to request for a coloured sketch. help us spread the word! 🇵🇸🍉

[dragongirltongue]

Hey so photographicmat 6locked me today, if my 6log vanishes any time soon you know why, make some noise if you don't see me after this post, okay?

[dragongirltongue]

Also remem6er, love each other, protect those of us who are targetted and never trust a rich 6astard who thinks they know what it's like to live like us. Hell never trust a rich 6astard period.

Hoping my signature sticks through any possi6le deletion I get, I want my vore mouth to remain even if everything else is gone.

[dragongirltongue]

Finally, follow me on cohost and add me on discord at haven_sea6126, if I knew you I'll accept. I love you all, and I hope my icon never turns to the anon face.

[kitsunerokko]

i doubt i'm in much danger, given my sheer obscurity (also like, my camera aversion meaning i don't really have transition pics to share) but gosh yeah

recent events... cohost... can't post there yet but it is there, for like, hopefully can keep in touch with mutuals from here

[dragongirltongue]

Holy fuck

Okay, whatever the fuck you think of this situation. Matt is personally harassing predstrogen across other websites. This is a 40 year old CEO hounding a fucking diabled trans woman after personally discussing the choice to ban her for life from the website he bought. This behavior is fucking disgusting and cannot be allowed to stand.

Do not forget his actions here, do not let him forget them either.

[nyans-habit-of-despair]

whatever was your position on this before, this crosses into a personal conflict, into harrasment. this unprofessional idiot has no place here. also for someone supposedly fighting missinformation, all of those blogs were blank and did not contain any content, let alone one that would break TOS.

[senilthesynth]

I made an archive of the asshole's tweet, too, if anyone wants: https://archive.ph/PXYc5

He is not beating the lawsuits coming this way. "Queerest place on the net" my ass.

[violottie]

🇵🇸: The ICJ Hearings on the Legal Consequences of Israel in Occupied Palestine is live now!

Watch on Al Jazeera Live or

on the International Court of Justice's live stream

Today we will be hearing from:

South Africa

Algeria

Saudi Arabia

Netherlands

Bangladesh

Belgium

Belize

Bolivia

Brazil

Canada

& Chile

[syn4k]

"who radicalized you" ever since i was a child i wanted other people to be treated nicely and fairly because i didnt understand why theyd deserve otherwise and it fills me with disgust seeing how people treat their fellow human beings sometimes

[sharkface]

They'll threaten to call the FBI on a trans woman for saying she hopes the CEO of this site dies in a looney tunes car hammer explosion but they won't even terminate the blog of the person who was proven to be a pro-contact pedophile running a forum website for other pro-contact pedophiles to congregate with children who self identified as "adult attracted minors." Which they were advertising on this website. Okay.