Insanity

“I need to break free from the anger that is constantly inside of me.”

[midnight1bloom]

When every time my anger feels like I’m being torn apart from the inside.

Only thing that can calm me down is self harming myself in any way until I feel that unbearable pain. After that I feel like a monster.

I get mad at everything. Everyone. When I’m mad, I think of the worst scenarios which I would never think of normally. I wish all those things to people in my mind when I’m mad.

But the thing is. I really cannot control anything. I can’t control my mind, my self harming. Anything. I hyperventilate. I scream. I throw things.

After any anger attack I feel so disgusted with myself. Like I have let someone completely different take control of my whole body. My whole mind.

Anytime I say something to my friends out of anger I regret it the second I’m calm again. Why would I say that? Why couldn’t I stop?

My skin. My body aches of the thought of my anger. No one will ever fully understand me.

“I need to break free from the anger that is constantly inside of me.”

[kittyangelsworld]

No matter how much I’d want to explain anyone how I feel they won’t understand me. All this just feels like I’m doing it for attention but actually I wish I would at this point. I just want all of this mess to go away

[kittyangelsworld]

If I’d have a choice on how I die I would chose drowning. Maybe then in another lifetime I’d feel clean again.

[kittyangelsworld]

I never want to have kids. Not because I don’t want to, but because I can’t imagine my future kids being scared of their own mother.

[kittyangelsworld]

The urge to sh not out of pain, but out of anger is genuinely driving me insane.

[kittyangelsworld]

Every memory you make is useless because you’ll still eventually forget it.

[i-would-die-for-you]

"You look tired" im literaly going insane

[kittyangelsworld]

Will this actually ever end?

[kittyangelsworld]

I hate everyone. Why do I have to be the one to feel this way?

Every time I’m mad I wish death to people. I never mean it. I just lose control of my anger a little more every single day.

I’m tired. If that’s how my life is going to look like then I won’t survive long.

[kittyangelsworld]

It’ll never get better. It just gets worse and worse. When will be the day I will finally find peace again?

[bl00dfroma-fairy]

I run and I run and I run but it

always

runs faster

[marimania]

when someone says "anger issues" people seem to think of loudness, screaming fits, throwing things, punching things, cursing out etc. and that is a form of what anger issues are, yes. but it's not always like that.

sometimes it's silent. it boils inside of you. you feel like screaming until you taste blood in your throat but you force yourself not to. you clench your jaw and fists and try to keep your face as neutral and plain as possible. internally, your head is overwhelmingly loud and you're too upset and pissed off to stop it. it feels like you have something inside you, tormenting you constantly. the smallest things set you off. the smallest negative things set you off. the smallest things make you feel like you're going to set something on fire. you don't know how to feel anything else but this. it comes natural to you, like breathing.

as far as anyone knows, you're the calmest person they've ever met. but they don't know that everyday, every minute, everytime something bad happens, you feel like biting someone's head off. you feel like bashing your fists until they're covered in blood.

this is why it pisses me off when people say that people with anger issues are out of control. have no self-control. you don't know HOW MUCH self control we can have

[kittyangelsworld]

When I close my eyes, all I see is you. I didn’t want to feel this way, but I feel like I never had a choice. Every time when you walked past me I felt like the happiest person on earth.

But now you’re gone. I’m all alone without you. Everyday I imagine a new story with just me and you. I don’t know why I feel this way.. It’s been almost a year. I just want to see you one last time..

[kittyangelsworld]

People think that anger issues is something quirky and often joke about it until they actually meet a person with anger problems.

[kittyangelsworld]

I hate it.

I hate that I’m so disgusting. When I look at her all I am filled with is jealousy. Why couldn’t I look like her? Why do I have to be so ugly? Why life is so unfair?

Looking at her photos all I ever do is cry.

“Omg I look so ugly today” no you don’t. You never did.

I hate that I never had a boyfriend. I hate that I only feel pretty with a bunch of filters on while she can be the most beautiful person without doing anything. I want to finally end it all.

[kittyangelsworld]

It’s all your fault.

It’s your fault that I’m like this. I never wanted to be the angry daughter. But it’s you who made me like that. It’s draining from me the point of life every single day. I’ll never forgive you.

[kittyangelsworld]

Anger issues are like fighting with yourself. It’s a battle you never seem to win. No matter how hard you try, it’s inside of you and it will destroy you a little more every single day till the end.