Aiko is gone
my baby is gone
my heart is broken
if only loving you was enough
Aiko
12/22/2009 to 7/30/2024
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Aiko is gone
my baby is gone
my heart is broken
if only loving you was enough
Aiko
12/22/2009 to 7/30/2024
hey its another sad ass update from my life woohoo
i dont know if its seasonal depression or if my life just kinda sucks ass rn
i feel like i cant talk to no one about this stuff except my boyfriend cause he has to live through this with me. And maybe i just find it more comforting to type this out where no one can really be concerned or judge me too much in a way I would know. Who knows??
anyway. thanksgiving is coming up. its my favorite holiday because I get to feed my little angel girl, Aiko turkey and she would be sooooo happy. But shes dead now and its gonna suck ass.
and I knew it was gonna suck ass. So i already planned for this because I was gonna make all her favorites and cry as I did. I asked my parents weeks ago if itll be okay if we dont invite my aunts or uncles and they said it was alright.
come this week, my mother decides that we have to invite the aunt that my father hates and no one likes because her own kids dont like her so much that they would rather go to Korea than spend Thanksgiving with her. And I tell her not to do that and my mother tell me “ Who am I to decide who gets to come to Thanksgiving?? Not everything is about your dead cat”
And I cant. I dont know why but that just broke me. My mother will never choose us her kids, her family that she made herself over my extended family. There is no point in trying to have her choose us. Shell never change her mind on anything. She voted for Trump despite all the bad things we told her he said he would do. And not for even lack of believing us!! It was just because she had to have her own thoughts and conclusions that she had to come to by herself. No one can ever sway her.
Side story that still sticks with me and still hurts me: once when I was real little, I pleaded with my mother to stop smoking and that I didnt want her to die. And she told me point blank if I wanna die Ill die.
Anyway I had to go. So I went and I feel bad for my dad. He didnt want any of this. Now he has to spend Thanksgiving alone with my mother and my shitty aunt.
And to add insult to injury, my boyfriends car broke. So now we have to struggle to get the groceries to make the Thanksgiving meal. And im sick.
And it finally got cold and rainy.
I know I still come from a point of privilege but I really dont want to exist right now.
I just want to be with my cat but I cant.
Cause shes fucking dead.
the girlfriend stare
The first time i watched Eraserhead, Aiko was there. She looked with her big eyes and I looked into hers. She didnt care but was still such a calming presence.
cam I was loyal to throughout middle school & high school (:-3)
this gif portrays the feeling of going to bed so well
they want to take everything away from us
can't have shit in this house
the new invader zim episode looks good
jhonen vasquez and richard horvitz playing invader zim fangames (???) together is very very good
saying something you know will make people laugh. And they do laugh.
Just continued saddess but no real update
Aiko keeps vomiting up her food
I accepted yesterday night I am most likely going to have to put her down
Aiko has stage 3 kidney disease which is not a death sentence
But she also has a blocked bile duct and according to one vet it looks cancerous
I can barely afford the surgery to unblock the duct but I dont think I can afford that and cancer treatment and then daily kidney disease stuff
And to be frank her quality of life would just be in the pits
having stage 3 kidney disease which would mean shell have to eat food she would hate and have to be administered IV fluids often
Shell just keep gettinf weaker and frailer and it would hurt
Shes already gotten so much weaker
She still got a fight in her tho
Shes still eating and loving and beautiful
Im so scared to put her down
I feel like she still has so much life in her but I know she is suffering
She keeps vomiting after eating
She sleeps extra lightly because I know shes nauseous after eating
Shes drinking so much water
Shes been having diarrhea
But she still has so much life in her
I just cant
if heart had burger