gabriela 𝜗𝜚˚⋆

[knockingonheavensdoorr]

hi this is a vent blog i feel like tumblr is more open abt this so u have been warned

[dankmemeuniversity]

[spilling-my-guts-to-you-guys]

I have a lot of hw to do but instead im doomscrolling and narrowly avoiding the chances of a relapse

[knockingonheavensdoorr]

does anyone else feel like everything is just so mundane

to me the only reason i have to do anything is because i have to because i’m alive and i don’t have a choice

there is no purpose in anything i do it’s just routine and i hate that i don’t have a choice i feel like i sound so coddled i feel like i’m going crazy i feel like i’m losing my mind and i feel like i’m trapped and every time i feel like i’m over this feeling it always lingers in the back of my mind

[knockingonheavensdoorr]

if i don’t get a job or learn how to drive any time soon i think i’ll just start cutting myself again

[sad-gay-loser]

Inside you there are two wolves…

[knockingonheavensdoorr]

wow i didnt even realize but tomorrow i’m 2 months clean !!

[knockingonheavensdoorr]

anyone have any tips on how to hide sh scars in the summer? i plan on not going swimming even thought i’d like to but i live in the desert soo 😭

mine are on my thighs and they’ve raised and red so it’s very noticeable :/ i’ve tried concealer but it doesn’t cover it nearly as much 😞 oh and if anyone knows how to make them less raised and dark that would be great too ty!

[purrfectdollie]

I WANNA RELAPSE

[carrioncorner]

parents when you show signs of mental disorder (they're the reason you have one)

[knockingonheavensdoorr]

i miss cutting but why is it so much work to hide ughvhhh

[knockingonheavensdoorr]

any else’s like deeper healed scars change color? LOL like it’ll be red/purple and then the same color as my skin ik it’s probably normal but it’s just interesting lol

[knockingonheavensdoorr]

i deadass hate my mom so much rn like she literally KNOWS about me being depressed and that i cut cus my therapist TOLD HER and she acts like she doesn’t know what’s going on and is acting like i’m just misbehaving and acting like this for no reason and literally deliberately makes things worse like oh my god i cant wait to never talk to her and then have kids and never ever be like her

[knockingonheavensdoorr]

“you’ll regret cutting” i literally wouldn’t care if i died tomorrow

[chiyeko-kurea]

My last breath will be a sigh of relief.

[gyustellations]

how i sleep after slicing my legs open

[knockingonheavensdoorr]

getting my phone taken for being depressed?? 😭 i was gonna try and be clean but fuck it. if they think this is a solution imma just get worse cus fuck this. i won’t be able to sleep either cus i’m like a fucking insomniac or something and can’t gts if i can’t read or listen to music b4 bed so ig that’ll get worse too. won’t be able to talk to anybody either so genuinely how can this possibly be good for me.