Welcome to my house!

I'm Olivia and welcome to my page! I post random stuff mostly cute things and weird things. I am 26 years old living with Lupus, DVT( a blood clotting disorder.. Probably from the lupus), Anxiety depression and Autistic. I am aa bullying survivor too.

[konstargirl]

Seriously

What person who hates you so much that they are now making faces at you after they find out that you reported them for bullying you for being Autistic? This person use to be good friends with me until Marchand all I did was behave like myself just like I do to everyone else that I talk to. What I get in return from her was her discriminating against me and pretty much being two face.

I am so done with my life right now. I'm so done. I'm tired of getting bullied just for being me.

[butterflyinthewell]

[autisticadvocacy]

Medicaid is popular. So why are Republicans still trying to cut it?

The flawed assumptions of the House GOP’s revived plan for work requirements.

“Medicaid spending cuts are deeply unpopular with both the American public and lawmakers. Two-thirds of Americans now say they oppose cutting Medicaid’s spending." 

[konstargirl]

So the one thing I wanna share today on day 5 of #AutismAcceptanceMonth is my communication. Although I am fully speaking and don't really have a lot of issues talking anymore there are time that if someone asks me a question I would have a hard time verbalizing it in words.

I also feel that part of the reason that I was bullied even at the work place was because of this and because well I just exist. I'm not most 30 year olds and I don't even look or sound like an adult. People would mistake me as a teenager especially strangers that don't know me.

I was in speech therapy for a couple of years because my twin sister and I did not talk as well as kids our age did. My sister got out of speech therapy before I did. Part of the reasons that would have meltdowns so often because of the lack of communication that I had.

Sometimes I had thoughts of using some kind of AAC device or some sort text to speech talk thing because I am much more express and honest via typing than in speech. I strongly prefer texting because of this reason and I would only call someone if I know them really well.

And when I talk to people now it would be simple sentences unless if it's a topic that I am really interested in or if we are talking about my cat. I wish folks especially my ex friends and bullies would understand that I may say things that sound old or hurtful but really It is just I have a hard time thinking of what I wanna say.

So just because someone is fully verbal like me does not mean communication is great. You have no idea how far I had come to be where I am today. I still struggle with certain things and communication is one of them.

[wtf-fun-factss]

Vehophobia is a fear of driving and other things car-related. Click to read the full fact.

[butterflyinthewell]

Sent a message from the church choir loft today, it was visible on my church’s livestream.

My folder has Autism Acceptance written on it.

[butterflyinthewell]

[konstargirl]

Meet the new family member Spock aka Spock Joseph! He is 3.5 months and was born on March 23, 2015

[konstargirl]

Aaaah

[konstargirl]

‘Stay pawesome merchandise’ by Olivelupusgurl

When you buy this adorable tshirt your donation will also go to non profits like ASAN and Lupus Foundation of America • Buy this artwork on apparel, home decor, and bags.

I have a red bubble! I am advertising it all month for Autism acceptance month and all the money that I make(minis what red bubble takes out) will go to ASAN @autisticadvocacy. Please share!

[konstargirl]

CW mention of death

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I'm struggling and need a ear. It's killing me hard to see my best friend struggle and I'm seriously of afraid of dying of a broken heart.

This picture is a few months after she came home. It's my all time favorite picture.

[konstargirl]

I just got through editing a Lupus awareness video! It will be up tonight.

[butterflyinthewell]

If you compare autism to the coronavirus and claim autism is worse, fuck you and I hope you get a pebble in your shoe.

[konstargirl]

This

[konstargirl]

Hey Everyone

Can we please stop sharing memes of people drinking bleach. As someone who attempted suicide from drinking bleach, this is triggering and to me to look at everyday. Also y'all are mocking People who actually done it.

Also Parents of Autistic child gave been doing it for years and this is also triggering for those people who were abuse by their parents because of this.

[theplantqueer]

if ur ever considering making a post being like: “when you’re x kind of disabled you get treated well but if you’re the kind of disabled I am you get treated poorly”, please consider: they hate all of us.

[konstargirl]

I wanna die

Who here can send me some liquid cyanide so I can drink it? I dont care if it's tasteless. I

[timebomb271-deactivated20220512]

No one cares anyway

[konstargirl]

I feeling suicidal again

Tw suicide ideas, depression

I'm a mentally drained at the moment. Trying to get an evaluation+work+life+me not sure if I am really am Autistic= I want to just take some sleeping pills and not wake up. I still believe that self dx is valid.