“I thought You loved me” (JB X READER)
I DON’T KNOW HOW YOU WANTED ME TO END IT SO I THINK I ENDED IT HAPPY? if its not what you wanted please feel free to request again as i feel as if i went off topic a bit whoops, anyways i hope you enjoy!
Word Count: 1554~
Relationship: Jaebum x Reader (boy x girl) {Got7}
Category: Angst (with happy ending?)
Warnings: may be triggering?
YOUR POV
‘I thought you loved me’
Shit I shouldn’t have sent that text. I had no choice but to answer the call that came through my phone that same second.
“What the hell do you mean I don’t love you?!” I could hear the anger in his voice.
“I don’t know…”
“You know I love you with all my heart, right? What in the world would make you think I don’t?”
“Well, we’ve, kind of, just ah, been drifting apart lately. And its scaring me.” The words managed to slip my mouth, I couldn’t sound any needier.
“You know I’ve been busy with my schedules. Half the time I can’t even have my phone on me. I might be exhausted and just want to sleep and I still try and call you. Do you know how hard that is for me?”
As soon as those words left JB’s mouth my heart dropped.
I am in the way.
“Well just finish your Schedule and then we can talk, enjoy your time in Japan.”
I hung up and regretted in straight away. I expected him to call back, I looked at my phone, waiting for his name to pop up on my screen, but nothing. Nothing but the minutes passing away with the tears falling from my eyes onto the bed.
I managed to pull myself out of bed and get ready for work the next day, it was hard, but I had no choice. When I walked into work I could feel all eyes on me, they could probably tell I’ve been crying with my cheeks stained red. I tried covering up with make-up, but it was no use.
“Are you okay? Do I have to kill him?” My friend Mazy walked up behind me and grabbed my shoulder.
“OMG what? Oh...”
Mazy managed to drag me into the bathroom before my tears started again.
“That’s it, I’m killing him! Do you want him to feel pain? Wait he has no choice after he hurt you like this, bastard.” She said bringing me into a tight hug.
“You don’t have to kill him, he did nothing wrong Mazy.” I pulled away wiping my tears and laughing so she would at least believe my half lie.
“I’m just feeling lonely because of his schedule, don’t worry.”
“Are you sure? I can give him a warning punch?” Mazy started to swing her arms around the bathroom before one of the other staffed walked in.
“Yes, I’m sure, don’t worry.” I gave her a reassuring smile,
“Okay, well you… um… clean yourself up I guess, Day6 need their hair done pretty soon they have a show at 12.” She patted me on the Back and left.
As I washed my face I thought about all the times I use to see JB at the JYP building, I hated to be selfish but whenever they didn’t have a comeback was my favourite time, I got to see him, and be with him. Work was hard, we couldn’t talk to each other, no more than a couple sentences, nobody knew we were dating except Mazy and Mark. I could trust those two, Mark was like an older brother to me.
That’s it, I’ll call Mark, maybe he’ll know what’s going on.
“Hey... Um... Hey.” Well Mark was acting normal so that was a good start.
“Hey are you busy? I understand if you are, we just haven’t talked in a while.”
“Um nah, we are just in the green room we have an interview today, in like an hour. But I can talk, hold on a moment.” I could hear the muffling of him telling his manager he had a phone call then the door closing, he was stepping outside, he probably already knew what I was calling about.
“So, what’s up with you and JB?” He straight out said it.
“Well that’s the reason I’m calling. Has he said anything to you?”
“He said that you said not to contact him until were back. Is it true?”
“Well. I mean...”
“Why would you say that?”
“Mark you’re meant to be on my side!” These tears should be gone by now.
“Are you crying? Don’t cry OMG.”
“I’m trying not too! But, it’s hard.” More tears fell, can’t they just go away?
“Hey, I gotta go they have to do my hair and make-up. I’ll text you later bye.”
Great, all that phone call did was make me cry and not solve anything at all. Shit, Day6! I ran out of the bathroom, phone in hand praying that Mark would text me later.
JB POV
Fine I see how it is. I stared at the phone questioning if I should call back, but Jackson’s hand on my shoulder meant I couldn’t.
“We have to go in ten minutes JB.”
“Let me just grab my stuff, I’ll be out in a minute Jackson.”
I knew she was right. We were drifting apart. I could barely call her and all I wanted to do was just hug her. I know she didn’t say it, but her thoughts were about us breaking up. She probably thinks we are. I mean she thinks I don’t even love her anymore. But no matter what I tell her she won’t believe me. I miss her just as much and it is hard on both of us.
Sighing, I got up and held back the tears before stepping outside my room to see the manager and the rest of the boys.
“Okay, let’s go.”
As we were walking to the car, I was walking behind the boys. It’s different for me. Usually I’m up the front with Jinyoung, walking next to the manager.
“Hey what’s up with you guys?” Mark slowed down to where I was walking and walked next to me.
“Huh? Oh, nothing. Don’t worry.”
“Miss her? I know times are tuff but were only here for two more weeks then you two can see each other again.” Mark put a hand on my back.
“I know but it’s so hard. And now I can’t even talk to her.”
“What? Why?” Mark seemed slightly shocked to what I said, but then again so did I.
“She said not to contact her until we get back, then before that she accused me of not loving her anymore.” That was it, I stopped dead in my tracks and broke down. I couldn’t hold it in anymore this was having a toll on both of us and this couldn’t be the reason I lost her. I could never lose her.
Mark didn’t say anything but instead walked off, wow what a great friend he is. What I didn’t realise is that he ran off to the manager and bought him back.
“So, are you sure this is what you want to do?”
“Yes, I have no choice, I’m sorry, it’s taking a toll on me, even just for three days? Then I’ll come right back?”
“Well we have the interview tomorrow then we don’t have anything the next day, but a fan meet the day after that. Preferably I would like it if you didn’t miss it, but if it’s necessary then I guess we can try and work around it.”
“Yes, please that would mean a lot.”
The manager walked off pulling his phone out his pocket, probably business.
“Get off the floor you mutt.” Mark laughed pulling me off the parking lot floor. “Are you happy now?
“Well I mean I’m thankful I get to go back to Korea for 1 or two days I really need to see her our relationship is breaking, and I can’t lose her Mark.”
“I know Jaebum, just try and get through the next two Days okay?”
“Yeah I’ll try but hey Mark? Promise me you won’t tell her anything, like if I can’t get those days off it will only make things worse.”
“Yeah sure JB. We better catch up to the others.”
YOUR POV.
I walked into work for the third time this week. Why was it so hard? I guess it just reminded me of everything. I mean behind that practice room door we had our first kiss. That staircase he asked me out on a date. I needed to distract myself. I decided to walk into the practice room Day6 were practicing in. They sounded amazing like usual so just sat and listened. They were always one of my favourite bands. It wasn’t as weird with me watching because Twice were having a break and watching as well. Day6 had their last concert for the year this weekend and then I would be working with a new group JYP wanted to debut next year. He wanted me to design their first comeback then train some of the new hair stylists and let the clothing department know my ideas. I honestly never thought I would have this job, it was the best thing in my life before JB…
I walked out of the practice room and bumped into a man
“Umm sorry I didn’t see yo-“
Before I could finish lips planted on mine, that was the last thing I needed right now.
“Hey! I have a- JB!”
“Yes, you do have JB.” He giggled.
He hugged me, and I couldn’t believe what had just happened.