Pairings: Kim Taehyung/Reader
Genre/au: songwriter!au, college!au, cutie tae, cheeky tae, songwriter!taehyung, professor!yoongi, bandmate!jin and bandmate!jungkook, roommate!jimin and roommate!jungkook, some namjin, also some sope.
Tags: fluff, angst if you squint, e2l ig
a/n: i wrote this years ago on wattpad and thought about āre-touchingā it in a different way and changing the characters ig haha. sorry about the delay but im currently working with college applications and loads of examns ughghghhghg
Summary: You were a music major college student and part of an infamous local band. You were running late to a class when someone bumps into you and knocks all your stuff down. Little did you know that that encounter would change your life forever.
I feel like Iāve been blindsided my whole life. I canāt seem to focus on anything. Iām getting late to every class, Iām skipping meals without my own knowledge, I try to get home as early as possible just to avoid seeing Jimin. I donāt know what to do if I see him. I donāt know how Iāll feel when I see him. Itās all so confusing. All I want to do is for things to go back to normal, when Jimin was just my best friend.
I enter the cafe and I immediately see those big brown eyes full of stars looking back at me. I stumble a little bit with the door and I see Taehyung giggle at my actions. He stands up as I get closer to the table and slightly bows at me. I smile and sit in front of him, my cheeks are probably very red.
āI ordered you some hot chocolate because I like sweet drinks and Iām hoping you do as well.ā He giggles while covering his face with his hands. I raise my eyebrows and grab the cup in front of me. He glances at me through his hands with a curious look in his eyes.
āThanks, Tae.ā I smirk and take a sip while looking at him. Taehyung hides behind his hands and I can hear him giggle again. Heās so cute sometimes. āLooks like you really got me figured out after all.ā He looks up at me and tilts his head. He nods to himself.
āAnd I would like to continue...ā He looks at me all serious.
āYou know,ā He sips from his cup and licks his lips. āLike a really good book.ā He smiles and my heart begins to run laps. āExcept itās blank and the parts keep filling in with time.ā His smiles fades and he removes his stare from my face to his hands. āThe chapters get longer and more emotional. I want to read all of those parts... and get to the point where Iām part of the narrative as well.ā
I couldnāt understand what he was saying because the beating of my heart was too loud for me to listen to his words. Never has a guy made me feel like this. I couldnāt gather anything to say, my hands started trembling so I grabbed the cup and took a big long sip.
āYou donāt have to say anything...ā I look up at him and heās already smiling at me. I open my mouth to say something, but nothing comes out. āI just wanted to let you know my true intentions and that no matter what happens with you, with us...ā He grabs my trembling hand. āIām here to stay.ā I look at his hand caressing mine and for a moment, just a moment, I forget where I am. I stare into his eyes for so long that I can finally see clearly. He retracts his hand from mine and rests his face on his hands. I swear that for a moment, just a moment, I forgot who I am.
This week Iāve been a walking ghost. I still feel dazed from my last encounter with Taehyung. I havenāt seen Jimin since that night. I really miss him...
āOh... youāre alive?ā I turn my head to the sound. Itās Jungkook searching something in the fridge. I look at him seriously and his smile immediately fades. āIām sorry, I just havenāt seen you that much lately.ā He closes the distance between us and offers me some chips. I shake my head while smiling and take some chips.
āIāve just been... busy.ā I look up at him and shrug my shoulders. He sighs and places the chips on the counter. He steps even closer to me.
āI donāt know what happened last week, but I can notice when things arenāt the same anymore. I donāt know, Y/N, Iām just worried about you.ā He tilts his head and his eyes search for something around my face, maybe a reaction.
āThereās nothing to be worried about, Kook. Itās just something stupid, Iāll be fine.ā I search for his gaze but heās just looking at his feet. I grab his shoulder, āKook-ā He looks up sharply and removes my hand from his shoulder.
āItās not stupid, Y/N!ā I step back, slightly surprised. āIām sorry, I didnāt mean to yell...ā Jungkook looks at his feet again. āItās just neither you nor Jimin look happy and I donāt like that. You guys are very important to me. I canāt stand seeing you guys suffer all alone. You need each other.ā He steps closer to me.
āKookie...ā I shake my head trying to find the right words.
āYou need to talk to him, Y/N.ā He caresses my arm. My eyes immediately search the touch. I look at Jungkookās eyes and I can see just how young they are, how innocent. Jungkookās hand travels down to my arm while he smiles slightly at me. Suddenly my breathe is matching his. My eyes unintentionally searching for more.Ā The roughness of his fingertips sensitive on my soft skin. I lower my head and shake it. I shouldnāt be thinking these things.
I look up at him and I can see his eyes watering. I grab his face and bring it closer to mine. āIāll talk to him.ā He nods and sniffles. I caress his face with my hands and bring his forehead to mine. āI promise.ā I close my eyes and we stay like that for a few seconds, our breathes perfectly in sync.
We hear a door slam shut and immediately retract from each other. I look towards the door and see Jimin nodding to himself while his arms are crossed looking at us. āJimin-ā He walks toward his room and shuts the door loudly.
I rub my temple and look at Jungkook. His face is all red and his gaze is stuck to his feet. I sigh and walk towards Jiminās door, I open it without knocking. I see him in the same stance he was before, as if he was waiting for me to go to his room.
āJimin, I can explain. Itās not what it looks like, I promise... I shouldnāt even be explaining this to you, I donāt want to-ā I start walking towards him and his expression softens.
āLook...ā He puts his hands in the air. āI shouldnāt even get jealous, youāre not my girlfriend. And I expected you to date other people because I canāt expect you to feel the same as I do, and Iām not going to obligate you into feeling the same. Itās not in my place.ā He places his hand on his chest and sighs. He bites his lip and shakes his head. āBut Jungkook... Really?ā
I look up at him and his eyes look hurt. āJimin...ā I step closer to him and he lowers his head. āI donāt know what Iām doing. Jungkook was sad and I was just trying to comfort him.ā I grab his hand and I can feel my lips starting to tremble. I take a deep breathe. Jimin looks up at me and I can feel his blood rushing through his veins. āAll I know is that without you,ā I close the distance between us and look up at him, our hands still intertwined. āIām lost, and I donāt know what to do. I need you, Jimin. I need my best friend back.ā He pulls me towards him and hugs me while we both cry. For a second, just a second, everything felt right.
Everything felt like a dream. I would wake up, eat, go to class, eat, then go back to the apartment. Now I would wake up, think about Taehyung, eat, think about what he said, go to class, talk with Taehyung, walk with Taehyung to my next class, eat again, think about Jimin, text Jimin, hang out with Jimin, go back to the apartment, find Jungkook, hang out with Jungkook, try to go to sleep not knowing how I really feel. I donāt know why all of this is stressing me out. I finally have a nice friendship with Taehyung, Jimin and I are on good terms, and Jungkook is well... Jungkook.
I even tried doing a pros and cons list but I ended up with all pros and no cons. I mean, Iām obviously attracted to all of them since my heart doesnāt know how to function around them. Deep down I know whatās truly right for me, I think.
I mean, Jungkook is really nice and always makes me laugh but I think my heart races when Iām with him because I find him really really attractive. I can fix that.
With Jimin, everything just feels light and right. He makes me happy in every way. But I donāt know if what I feel for him is just love or in love. Heās great for me in many ways, but Iām afraid of losing my safe house. I want him there with me through every step of my life, I just donāt know how I want him yet. I canāt imagine myself having a relationship with Jimin.
Taehyung, he consumes my every thoughts and breaths. My heart is always racing when Iām with him, and heās just like a hint of fresh air in my life.
I felt a tap on my shoulder. I look up and see those warm brown eyes. āHey. What are you doing here?ā I smile as a scoot over giving him some space to sit down next to me.
āI was wondering about the stars tonight, and I heard about this cafe with windows that look directly to the stars and I just came.ā I giggle. He looks up at the sky and smiles. āI came to see the stars in the sky, but I found something much better to look at.ā He look at me and the hairs behind my neck perk up. āThe stars look way better in your eyes, Y/N...ā My breath heightens and I can feel the electricity of his hand next to mine.
That moment of ecstasy your body goes through right before youāre about to hold hands with someone you really like, thatās what I was feeling right now. That wonder of, is he going to hold my hand or is he going to look away, engraved at the back of my mind. Thereās so much I want to say and do, but I feel that if I move, Iāll forget this moment forever.
Taehyung smiles to himself and turns his body towards me, in the process grabbing my hand in both of his. āI really like you, Y/N. Iāve read all the chapters that I needed, to know that I want to include myself in your narrative.ā He brings his other hand towards my face and caresses my cheek.
āTae...ā I look down at my lap. āI...ā I stare at him and immediately forget my words. How can a man look at a woman like that? Heās looking at me and giving me all his attention when what he initially came for is at the other side of the table. In this moment I just knew.
āIāll give you time, if thatās what you need.ā He smiles. āI promise. Iāll always be here for you.ā
āI donāt need time, Tae.ā I remove my hand from his and turn my body towards his. His other hand still playing with my hair. āI just... I...ā I sigh and shake my head. He grabs my face and moves his thumb through my cheek.
āItās fine. Iām listening.ā He smiles and places his other hand on my knee.
āI need you...ā His eyebrows perk up and his hands stop moving. I laugh and place my hand atop of his. āI just, I really like you. I canāt spend a single moment without thinking about you. And every time Iām with you, my heart doesnāt even know what itās doing. I never know what Iām doing when Iām with you.ā I laugh and he smiles at me, his hand playing with my fingers. āBut none of that matters because when it comes to that, itās just you and me, and nothing else matters.ā I tilt my head toward his hand and close my eyes.
When I open my eyes I see Taehyung just staring at me and smiling. I surprise myself when I close the distance between us. I place both my hands on his face while his travel to my waist. In this moment, this kiss, everything is perfect. I feel like Iām on top of the world. I didnāt know I was starving until I tasted him. His skin so soft against my touch. Thereās no distance that can satisfy my longing for him. I have never gotten so lost in a kiss before. My heart finally accepting itās final beat. Right here, where itās just me and him, thatās just perfect. And for a moment, just for a moment, I wished this would last forever.
