A Cosmic Mess

Just passing through

[kosmischfrau]

I'm back and ready to be silly

[happyheidi]

[cottaqecore]

olivia pierce

[happyheidi]

[peachblushparlour]

Flower Teapot, Strawberry Teapot, Roses Teapot, Cabbage Teapot, Pink Roses Teapot, Lemon Teapot, Grape Teapot, Strawberry Basket Teapot

[kosmischfrau]

So much has happened today. I feel so awful. I'm trying my best to be strong but I can't. I wish things were better. I feel like everything I ever loved is now gone

[wilwheaton]

I see you, and in you, I see myself.

I’m so sorry. You are enough.

[kosmischfrau]

Yes, and this should also be spoken about way more than it is. I can't even count the number of times I've been ridiculed for apologizing multiple times and for having breakdowns. I wish for everyone to understand that this is an issue that many people in the world experience

[opemain]

reblog if u need a hug

[catchymemes]

Credit: @pet_foolery

[salted-delights-deactivated2021]

I think I already reblogged this but im gonna do it again because this is a good reminder on how toxic gatekeeping it.

[bowling-with-skulls]

I’m reblogging this for the amount of thought that was put into figuring out the necessary configuration for a mertaur wheelchair.

[shoelace-and-friends]

MMMMM, the LAYERS to this. 

She’s technically a monster too. She might not look it at first glance and seems mostly human, but it isn’t deniable even despite her looks compared to the other monsters. 

But she realizes that she is still not like the rest of the monsters either and may not have entirely the same experiences as them, which is why she feels that she might not belong to or deserve to go to the support group. By sometimes passing as human, she feels she isn’t worthy of the space. 

The sad reality though is even though she’s mostly human in appearance, that tail she has undeniably would still cause her some struggle. Humans are still gonna look at that tail and think she’s a freak. There are probably still accommodations she needs because of the tail that she may still struggle to have access to. Even if it is just the tail, that tail is still enough to other her from humans and cause her problems and discrimination. 

She should get to belong in that support group even if she gets told she’s not monster “enough”. She still shares some of the same struggles as them that are caused by being a monster, and needs support. 

This is an excellent demonstration of the flaws in the concept of passing privilege. Bravo to the artist. 

[skwerlly-squirrel]

NOW I will reblog this.

[kosmischfrau]

I cannot sleep, so I decided to write a short poem about desiring warmth from another person. I have concentration issues, so writing might be a good exercise to help with that:

Warmth This den has suffered at the hands of my bones, forlorn far too long Warmth is blind to me if my heart cannot open, till now I had no care Hug my chest, kiss my neck, caress my face, but end there Warmth beside me, sing me a song

[traumasurvivors]

You are allowed to grieve for what you lost when you went through trauma. You are allowed to mourn. You are allowed to be angry. You are allowed to feel. 

[kosmischfrau]

I wish my friends understood this sometimes, I want them to understand why I act the way I do

[mrspider-deactivated20221213]

y’all please remember your parent’s being abused by their parents does not excuse what they did to you, even if it “wasnt as bad” as whatever they went through. your dad getting hit as a kid did not give him the right to scream at you till you cried and just because he didn’t hit you doesn’t mean it wasnt also abuse. your mom invading your privacy and betraying your trust in her and trying to get you to do things out of guilt for her lost childhood is still abuse. you are not responsible for fixing something you had no part in causing and im sorry anyone ever made you feel that way.

[kosmischfrau]

I'm actually wanting to talk to them about it. However, I think I might get screamed at again.

[metapianycist]

autistic self diagnosis is valid

[actingnt]

a person: i’m autistic. i don’t have a professional diagnosis.

a neurotypical: you can’t! self diagnose! autism!!! onLy a dOctor can do that!!!

most doctors: don’t know what autism looks like in people other than nonverbal white cis boys

most doctors: recommend abusive therapies for autistic kids and teens

most doctors who specialize in diagnosing autism: refuse to evaluate adults

an autism evaluation for a minor teen who wants one: requires having supportive parents who understand that autism is not a tragedy and looks different for every autistic person, and that many autistic people can talk, have friends, do okay in school, and otherwise fake looking neurotypical

an autism evaluation for an adult: very expensive and often not covered by insurance in the U.S., also extremely difficult to get in France

an on-record autism diagnosis: can be used to deny you custody of children, to have your kids taken away, to forcibly institutionalize you

autism advocacy orgs that actually help autistic ppl like ASAN, AWN, AANE: Here are some resources for figuring out if you could be autistic. Professional diagnosis is a very personal decision and is not required for knowing that you’re one of us. We support you as an autistic person even if you don’t have a paper diagnosis.

a sincere autism self diagnosis: harms no one even if it’s incorrect, enables the person to feel part of a community of people with similar issues and learn more about autism, a gateway to learning about autism acceptance movements, often the first step toward self acceptance and self esteem

[zaroke-xelke]

What happened in Berlin was so scary to me. It rlly showed how far the right wing is willing to go.

People of color and ppl who aren't ethnically German(like me, I'm half turkish and half Kurdish) are scared to go outside.

And the media is definitely trying to cover this up, please educate yourself on what's happening in Europe- especially about what just happened in Germany.

Ppl rlly forget what happened just 80yrs ago.

And sure "lEfT wInG iS wOrSe tHaN rIghT wINg" literally shut the fuck up

I am fucking scared to go outside.

[addieclo]

I don’t know what’s going on but I had to share this. I’m trying to look into what’s happening right now, but lord knows I’ll get any info since I’m an American and not every thing is available even if I’m living in the “freest” country of the world.

[zaroke-xelke]

If you know what these flags mean- you know

[zaroke-xelke]

Don't you fucking ignore this post

[zaroke-xelke]

Reblogging again so it lands on ur dash

[zaroke-xelke]

I will keep reblogging this again and again.

[mango-pickle]

Could someone please explain this? I really want to understand what is going on. In the meantime, I'm reblogging so that it spreads.

[zaroke-xelke]

Right wing nationalists in Germany (aka n@zis)and covid deniers went to on a protest without masks and all the safety rules and, then decided to spread anti semitism, propaganda et cetera. After that they stormed the German parliament with n@zi flags and symbols.

I've seen tweets of poc and ppl who aren't ethnically German(like me), being scared to go outside. There's lots of footage especially on twitter please educate yourself on this and spread the message.

Nationalism is on rise again.

Also- the "Hanau shooting" happened in February and our Memorial "demonstration" got canceled.

The Hanau shooting was the killing of bout 10 ppl. The shooter was a n@zi and killed them simply bc they weren't German. He then killed his own mother and committed suicide afterwards.

[lady-charinette]

Also, protests against said neo nazis and those against the covid restrictions, not all the protesters wear masks nor keep any safety distance between each-other either, its counterproductive and only causes more uproar.

For those who wanna read further on it, some links in English:

Hundreds of Arrested in Anti-Corona Protests

Protesting against Corona Virus Measures

Germany's News in English

Far right extremists attempt to storm Bundestag after halted 'anti-COVID' rally

[ladykyriaa]

PLEASE REBLOG.

I'm disappointed to say i don't know the full details of what's going on but I'll make sure to do research on it and spread the word.

In the mean time i hope you're okay.

[kosmischfrau]

I don't like it when I make a post like: "I'm back and I'm feeling better now" then I feel the need to delete it because I realize was wrong

[sunflower-cane]

Oh and can we please talk about how in hospitals, interrogation rooms, psych wards and even schools the symptoms of mental illness are considered hostile/disrespectful/deserving of punishment

Refusing to make eye contact, grabbing at yourself, shaking, stuttering, twitching, whispering to yourself, fisted palms, pacing and so on are all considered “things bad kids do” or “things dangerous people do”

When really it’s just some the majority of mentally ill/ND people do?

[kosmischfrau]

Right. I do all of those things all of the time. It makes me upset when a teacher will keep saying "look at me" "look at me" when I'm upset, causing my shaking to get worse. When I had to go to mental hospital, a staff member screamed at one of the patients for crying in the corner and shaking. I wish teachers and people who work with mentally ill or ND people would not shame people for doing those things

[kosmischfrau]

A vent:

My IRL friends make me feel like a burden for needing to reach out. My family does the same by calling me an attention seeker for telling people what's wrong. The worst part is when I do speak up about how I'm feeling I just get screamed at and get told how bad of a person I am by family. I can't tell my school counselor because she would be required to tell my family which leads to more screaming at me. I wish I could talk to my counselor without her going to my family. I know that's required when a student feels that way, but I wish it could be kept between us. I won't speak to my friends anymore unless they reach out to me first from now on. This will prevent me from being a burden. I will end this post now because as I write this I'm getting screamed at from another room. I really want to be happy again like I was before 2017