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Mar 17

Back to the old ways? - Short Bang Chan fan fic

Pairing: Bang Chan x you, Chris x reader

Warnings: some cussing, kissing. 17+

Hope you enjoy this short story, it's been sitting in my drafts for a while now. 😊🤗

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Sitting comfortably on the soft, dark brown couch in the hotel room, you were watching your favorite show from when you lived in South Korea, while eating a bowl of ramen when your phone blinked on.

You curiously started down at it wondering who sent you a message when your breathing stopped when thinking who it could be.

"Oh shit!" you sat straight up, setting your bowl down next to your phone on the wooden coffee table, picking up your phone.

Your heart was beating fast, while your mouth dropped open, wondering what he could want. It was strange to see his fake Instagram account pop up on your screen again.

You didn't think he would message you after ruining into him while you were out today in Seoul for business. You thought him inviting you over to eat was just a polite thing he was doing because you know how he is, always the sweetest.

You pressed the notification, opening up his message that was sitting in your DM:

Chris: Hey, it was really great to see you today! I was talking to the guys and was wondering if you would like to come over for dinner tomorrow, to see everyone? If you can't it's no worries. 😊

'Well, shit...what do I do?? Do I go? No...I shouldn't....but it would be great to see all the Kids again and see Chris...no...no...I can't bring my heart to see him one more time,' you thought before picking up your remote and pausing your favorite show.

You stood up and began pace the small living room in your hotel, back and forth, trying to determine on how to respond. 'I could tell him no thanks but it was great to see him too or I could just say yes that would be fun because I really do miss all of them.'

You picked up your phone, staring at the empty box waiting for you to respond, your thumbs ready to type. 'I'll tell him that I can't make it but it was really great to see him.' You began typing your message when you stopped mid-way, thinking how you've missed him and them so much.

You would watch their videos online to still feel connected to the guys and the only reason you're only saying you don't want to go is because of how afraid you are to spend time with a man you had to walk away from years ago. Someone you wish you were still in a relationship with. 'I need to grow up, seriously I can't believe I'm thinking of back out.'

You retyped your message, sending it off to Chris, who was working on some songs at the JYP building with Han and Changbin in his office.

"Yeah, we could add this part here and-" he saw his phone blink on, stopping him from talking when seeing your name.

His heart ran up to his throat as he felt the ends of his lips twitch with happiness. He kept his head low so his friends couldn't see his smile that finally broke through.

"What's wrong?" Han asked, sharing a worried look with Changbin.

"Y/n sent me a message back..."

"She did?!" Changbin was excited, trying to look at Chan's phone to see what you sent. "Is she coming over??" He was hoping you said yes because he's missed you so much! Only seeing your photos on Instagram was doing no justice.

Chan opened the notification, taking him to his DM's on Instagram.

You: Hey, it was really great to see you too! I'd love to come over just let me know where and what time. 🤗

The smile he had became larger as he could feel butterflies in his stomach, the same ones he felt earlier when he saw you.

He was out getting a drink before heading to the JYP building when he walked into the cafe to see you sitting there. He didn't think it was actually you, making him do a double take, almost bumping into someone that was standing in line.

He stopped himself short as you looked up in time to lock eyes with him, your stomach flipping as you lost breathing. Couldn't believe it was him.

He couldn't help feel his heart pounding with excitement as the guys were reading over his shoulder, happy to see that you were coming.

"We should tell the others! I'm so happy to see her again!" Han's words made Chan break out of his thoughts/feelings, bringing him back to reality.

"I'll send a message now. Changbin, go ahead and add the part we were discussing."

Chris, still with a smile on his face, messaged the others that you were coming over tomorrow to his and Innie's place. He wondered if 7 would be a good time for everyone to come over to see you and eat dinner.

Felix: Y/n is here?!? YES, 7 works for me!!!

Lee Know: I'll help cook! I can't wait to see Y/n again!

Seungmin: I haven't seen Y/n is forever! 😭😭 Yes, seven works.

Hyunjin: My Y/n is back here?!?! How are we just finding out!!😭😭 Yes, I can do seven.

Jeongin: YAY, I can't wait to see Y/n again!! The place is spotless already but I'll start cleaning it again.

He couldn't wait for the next day to come, to see you once again. But the next morning came way too fast, making you groan in annoyance because of the lack of sleep you got. Your thoughts kept you up, tossing and turning throughout the night. You kept thinking how it might go, wondering if you would be afraid to slip up and tell Chris you still miss him.

You tried to focus with the new partners you were meeting with today for work, the whole reason your in South Korea. You would smile and speak to them, politely laugh but in the back of your mind you kept thinking about Chris and the guys. It was more excitement than anything, although the nerves were there.

And as the clock kept ticking away, the more the excitement rose. The last hour you had with your clients was taking the absolute longest. It felt as if you were watching paint dry every time your eyes looked at the clock on your phone.

When you said your goodbyes, you rushed home, seeing it was already 6:30. 'Fuck...' you touched up your make up when getting out of the quick shower you took; fixed your hair and put on something cute but casual.

You: Hey, Chris I'm running a little behind, I'm heading over now. I'm so sorry work went longer than I expected!

Chris: It's okay, you don't want to come over😭😂 That's fine, we'll be here. Foods ready when you arrive.

You couldn't help but chuckle from his playful joke, hearing his voice in your head. Quickly, you grabbed your purse, locking the door and making your way out of the hotel to their apartment that you had to order a ride for since it was a bit away.

The closer you got, the less excitement the more nervous you became because you haven't seen them in years.

You've finally came to terms with Chris, kept telling yourself to treat him like the rest of the guys. 'But we were in love...' you shook your head out of that thought and wondered if the guys would be excited to see you too.

You loved all of them and when you left the country after finishing school, you remember how sad you and them were when telling each other goodbye. Feeling bad for lying to them because they told you to keep in touch when you really didn't.

You would like their photos on their public accounts and private. You were too afraid to message them because you didn't want to be a bother.

"Here you are miss," the nice driver said when stopping the car in front of a tall building. You notice the sky becoming dark, expecting rain soon, 'and I don't have an umbrella it case it does...great...'

"Thank you!" You did a small bow before exciting the car and standing outside to see the tall building as if it ouched the sky.

'Here goes nothing,' you walked into the building and as soon as you entered you saw a man at the front desk, looking at you, wondering why you were there.

You cleared your throat when walking up. "Hello, I'm here to see Bahng Chan."

"We don't allow fans up, sorry. You may leave," he said in English even though you told him who you were seeing in Korean. You reached for your phone and messaged Chris the situation.

Chris: I'll be right down.

You walked over to a siting area, waiting for Chris, hating how the front desk guy wasn't letting you up but knew he was just doing his job, which you respected.

"Miss I'm going to have to ask you to leave again, if you don't I'll call the police," he said from behind his desk.

You sat a bit up and cleared you throat, "I'm friends with Chan, it's okay, his coming down right now."

"I've heard it all before, please," but when the elevator dinged you and him looked over to see Chris walk off. "Y/n, come on!" he waved you over with a big smile on his face, happy you finally made it.

"You know her?" the man at the front desk asked in disbelief.

"I do," he simply stated as you walked by, joining him on the elevator. "Sorry about that, I should have been waiting for you down there," he said once the elevator doors closed.

"It's okay, he was just doing his job. You guys probably get tons of crazy fans here."

"It's a lot worse now..."

"Worse??" But you know what he's talking about since you see it talked about on Twitter.

"Oh yeah but that's another story for another day. I'm glad your here though. How was work?"

"Long! But so glad to be here! I can't wait to eat!"

"Good, there's plenty of food, Lee Know and I cooked."

"Ooooh!! I loved when you guys did, I remember how good of a cook you were."

You realized what you said and it was too late to take it back but luckily the elevator stopped and the doors opened. "Follow me,"

He lead the way to his and Innie's place, making you ask why they don't live in fours anymore. "We moved into two last year but it's been fun living with Innie. He's been going to the gym with me."

"I saw a photo of him recently, I can't believe how musclar he is now!"

"He's growing up too fast," he pretended to fake cry, making you laugh as he stopped in front of the door, opening it to see the guys standing right on the other side waiting for you.

"Y/n!!!" They all yelled with excitement, happy to see you again. You barley got out the word hello before being crushed by all the guys hugging you tightly, especially Changbin. But after being passed to Hyunjin, you couldn't believe the muscles on him now.

"When did this happen?" you said when being let go by Lee Know.

"What?" Han wondered.

"When did you all get muscles?? And how are you all handsome?? Am I in the right place??" you laughed making the guys laugh with you.

"You think we look handsome or just one of us?" Felix joked, wiggling his eyebrows as you couldn't help but feel yourself blush.

Innie's eyes darted over to his roommate who had his head down, his hands in his pockets, backed away from the group. He could see a small smile on Chris' face, Innie knowing his roommate's heart never stopped beating for you.

"Come on, we have tons of food for you," Changbin pulled you along to the kitchen to show off of the food, your stomach grumbling once the scents entered your nose.

"This looks delicious guys! I can't wait to try it!" Everyone got a plate and helped themsleves, placing the different foods on the plate or in bowls.

You went to go sit down at the kitchen table, seeing extra chairs, squeezing everyone on the tiny table. "Y/n, why are you back here?? Are you back permanently?" Seungmin hopefully asked before taking a bite of his food.

All the guys got their hopes up with Seungmin's question, starting at you with large eyes. It made you giggle but also made you sad since you have to explain to them that's not the case.

"No, I'm actually here for work, I leave in a couple days." The guys were all upset, started to boo you while Lee Knew threw a piece of his napkin at you.

"You can't go back. We'll keep you here!" Innie said with his mouth full but not too full that you understood what he said.

"I wish I could stay but -"

"Just means you have to come back and visit us," Lee Know noted, turning towards your right to see him with a smile but when you turned you notice Chris sitting close next to you. 'I didn't think he would unless the guys did this on purpose.'

And you weren't the only one thinking that because when Chris walked up with his food, he saw that was the only remaining spot, 'conveniently.'

"I would love to but for vacation not for work."

"Yeah and you can hang out with us, every day we'll do something fun!" Han said after taking a drink of water, making you remember all the fun you use to have with them but hating how you had to dress up like one of their staff members so you could hang out with them in public. Chris and you would hands when no one was looking.You were lost in the memories when you heard Hyunjin speak up.

"But how have you been? How's your life after going to college here??" He wondered, turning towards you.

Chris was listening to you talk but he was too deep in thought to fully pay attention. The moment he clicked on your Instagram he kept debating to ask you to come over, afraid you were going to say no, but happy he ended up DMing you.

Having you over felt like old times. 'I missed Y/n so much....' He couldn't take his eyes off you when you spoke, loved your voice and how beautiful you are. It made him happy but especially to see his Kids ecstatic to see you again.

After dinner everyone gathered in the living room to watch a movie that Chris picked. It was one of your favorite movies to watch when you lived in South Korea, couldn't believe he remembered it.

"Of course! I'm the one who showed it you, remember?" Chris nudged you lightly on the arm, making you smile while feeling butterflies in your stomach. 'Be cool, be cool,' you kept telling yourself.

"That's right! We didn't feel like going anywhere because it was raining and you put this on."

The thought of how close you got to him that day for the first time, laying your head on his shoulder while you two shard a blanket on the couch. He even placed his hand on your upper thigh, making you freak out but kept it together.

"Yeah, it was a great time," he couldn't help but remember the memory as well.

Everyone was deep into the movie but were slowly falling asleep because Changbin turned off the lights, saying how it would make watching the movie better.

You could feel your eyes become heavy and and it didn't help that Chris gave you a blanket, cuddled up in, smelled like him - honey and citrus. You rested your head on Felix's shoulder, trying your best not to fall asleep but your eyes ended up closing as you shared the blanket with him.

But, you didn't know when you felt movement, your eyes flicked open to see Chris walking to a door, assuming it was his bedroom.

You were going to close your eyes again but your bladder said otherwise.

Slowly, you lifted your head off Felix and carefully walked over Seungmin, who was laying in front of you, to head to the bathroom. Ever-so-gently, you closed the door behind, turned the light on, your eyes squinting, trying your best to adjust to the light.

After washing your hands, you opened the door to see the guys still asleep but not seeing Chris until you walked out and bumped into him. You quickly covered your mouth to not make any nosie to wake anyone up. "Sorry," you whispered.

"Can't sleep either?"

"No, well, I had to use the restroom."

"Ahh."

"I'm guessing you can't, per usual?"

"You know me too well," you both smirked before Chris spoke up, "I never showed you our place, um want to see my room?"

"Sure," you didn't think twice about it, following behind him to enter his bedroom that was super clean. 'Typical Chris...' you laughed to yourself seeing how neat everything was placed on his shelf behind his bed and his shoes lined up perfectly next to the door.

He closed the door behind you, seeing his hats hanging on it, seeing one he use to wear all the time. Then your eyes caught one you didn't think he would have kept. "You still have the hat I gifted you?" You asked, turning to him.

"Of course, I wasn't going to part with it," you don't know why that made you smile, why you felt giddy all of a sudden. "But this is my room, welcome," he smiled, showing off his dimples.

"It's cool in here, clean as ever," you smirked, walking over to the shelf above his bed, looking at the cool stuff he owns. "You still have you the bottle of sand?"

"Always, I may have a second bottle from the last time we went..." he awkwardly smiled as he scratched the back of his neck.

"Have you gone home to visit your family recently?"

"Oh yeah a few months ago actually." You knew, you saw the videos and pictures they posted. You really adored the Berry pictures/videos, missing her so much since you met his family twice when traveling to Australia with him and the Kids. "How are they doing?"

"Good, good, everyone is doing well," Chris had his hands in his pockets, watching you look at his stuff.

"Good, I'm glad!"

"And your folks, doing well?"

"Oh yeah! Family is still doing good, drive me crazy sometimes still," you laughed as you sat down on his bed, looking up at him.

He joined you, tried to keep a distance as he felt a bit nervous and couldn't fight the feeling off. "That's good."

"Oh he's cute, WolfChan, right?" you said pulling the little stuff animal from the shelf.

"Yup, so you do stay updated with us?"

You met his gaze, could see how he was excited that you were still in the loop with them somehow. He thought you would have gave up listening to their music and keeping update with the group.

"Maybe....Just a bit..." you couldnt help but giggle as you as you played with WolfChan, keeping your eyes away from Chris. "Some music here and there."

"Did you like our songs, are they good?" He asked feeling like when you guys were younger. He would play you the music, to make sure the beat was good, if it went with the lyrics.

"Yeah, of course. I really liked Megaverse and LALALALA, those have been fun songs. And, oh, Cover Me, Leave were good ones too. Oh really liked the ATE album, I Like It was good."

Chris could feel his stomach turn when you brought up the songs, I like it and Leave, knowing that you were the reason for those song. "Glad you liked the music so far."

"Yeah, you guys are amazing, what can I say?"

"You always said we would make it big." He grabbed a pillow and nervously squeezed the sides as he recalled the amount of times you would always tell him they would be super famous one day.

"You're welcome," you looked up at him this time, sharing a smile, feeling your body shake with his eyes on you.

Silence finally filled the room. You nor him didn't know what to say next. But finally, he blurted out. "Why did we break up?"

Caught off guard, you didn't know how to respond, frozen on his bed while holding his plushed toy. "Um..." you noised as you tried to think of words. "I thought it was a mutal thing?" You set WolfChan back on his headboard and turned back to him.

"It was but," he squeezed the pillow a bit harder this time, titling his head down to stare at his hands, his brackelt. "It seemed as if it happend so fast. I called you and the next thing I know, you're asking if this was really going to work."

"And you said that I was right and -"

"Yeah but it seemed as if you really wanted it...."

'But I didn't, I wanted to stay together,' you wanted to say but instead you said, "No, I just thought it wasn't going to work out...." you bit your inner lip as you turned your body fully towards him now, sitting cross-cross on his bed.

"There has to be another reason, Y/n." He titled his head up to meet your gaze, could see/ hear how serious he was being. He sounded hurt.

You only shrugged your shoulders but there was another reason you just didn't want to tell him.

"Please tell me the real reason, was it something I did or said?" You stared at him, seeing him flex his jaw, knowing he does that when he fustrated or angry. Letting out a deep sigh you shifted uncomfortably in your steat, "Are you sure you want to know?"

"Please."

"Well..." you started as you played with the hem of your left sock, "I wanted to end it first before you ended it with me, it was the only way to protect my heart."

Chris flinched a bit in his seat, taken back by your confession. He was confused why you felt that way. "You didn't think we would make it? Did I say or do something to make you think that way? If I did, I'm so, so, sorry sorry, I-"

"It wasn't anything you did," you put your hand up to stop him from his worries. "At that moment, time, I didn't feel as if I should be dating you. Didn't think we would make it because of you being an idol and me not one."

You didn't think to ever have this honest conversation with him, thought you would take it to the grave. You would see stories about him dating and tried your best to not look or not care but it was hard.

You were making Chris' heart break all over again, he wished you would have told them this years ago so he could have said something to comfort you. "Y/n...you were my everything. There was nothing, nobody that was going to stop me loving you. I wish I could have told you back than, maybe we could have stayed together." 'Or married with a family.'

"But if you think about it, there's no way we could have. I had to hide as a staff memeber to hang out with you guys. And all of our dates consisted of being in the dorms or at the JYP building. And if we wanted to go do something in public, we would have to invite the guys. There was no way we could do this."

He sat there, listening to you, knowing what you were saying wasn't wrong...he just hated that you both couldn't find out if it would have worked.

"Plus, I didn't want you to get in trouble with your fans. I know how they are."

"Only some...well there's more good than bad."

"I couldn't bare the repercussions you would have gotten."

There was silence again, Chris and you thinking over everything. Your heart was cracking and you could feel the tears starting to form. You tried your best to blink them back so he couldn't see.

"I think we could have made it work...I truly think we could."

"What and get married?"

"You didn't think about it?

"I'd be lying if I said no but we were only together for two years, in hiding if I might add."

"Yeah but -"

"See Chris, I'm not use to being in the public eye, there was no way this was going to work...." you felt as if the conversation was going no where. You wanted to leave before you told him how you still love him. "I have to go, it's getting late."

You got up and headed for the door; Chris sprung up, knocking the pillow off, and followed behind you, grabbing your right hand.

"Y/n, wait!" You stopped right in front of his bedroom door, staring at this hats, not wanting to turn around but your heart made you.

"Yeah?"

"Please don't go," you and him locked eyes, could see the desperation in his. "I still think about you, never stopped actually. You were my whole world and it hurt so much when we broke up. Is there any way we can try again, since we are older this time?"

You almost broke, 'YES, I WANT TO BE WITH YOU!!!' you thought as you pictured yourself saying it, seeing him get happy. He would bring you in for a kiss and tell the guys you are back together. Date from afar then move here with him. But it was all a fuzzy dream that you had to throw away. It was mainly for him, to protect him from his fans, you were doing this for him.

"Chris....I...." then, without even thinking, you crashed your lips on to his. You felt as if the world stopped, feeling your heart racing as he placed his hands on your hips bringing you closer to him.

Then your lips began to dance with his, feeling how plummped and soft they were. You melted into him, wrapping your arms around his neck as the familiarization took over.

You felt at home, you felt safe, all the feelings you had when you were with him.

He couldn't believe he was kissing you again but was not questioning much as he slid his tongue slowly into your mouth, knowing you use to like that. But as you were allowing him, something in your mind made alarms go off. 'What am I doing?? NO, NO!!!!' "Chris," you said, quickly pulling away, feeling out of breath. "We can't, I'm sorry, I'm sorry! We can't be together!"

You freaked out, swiftly turing around and opening the door. You made sure to not make any noise as you grabbed your stuff, put your shoes on and head out the door, shutting it quietly.

Chris stood in his spot, confused what happend. In a blink of an eye, he slid his shoes on and ran out of his room to try and catch up with you but when he made it to the elevators you were gone. 'Stairs!' He thought, running over to them and taking them all the way down, thinking it would be quicker.

The second you stepped outside, the light rain hit you as you tried to book a ride back to your hotel. You were hoping he didn't follow you, wishing the ride came sooner but knew it was going to take longer since it was raining.

"Y/n," Chris called as he walked out.

'Fuck...no..' you turned around to see him.

"Chris, you making this harder. We can be friends but that's it."

"Why can't we be together??"

"This is to protect you!"

"What from my fans? I don't care because I love you Y/n."

You didn't know what to say, you stared at him, trying to find the words when he got closer and gently grabbed your hands. He looked deep into your eyes. "If you don't love me, I'll understand but you'll have to tell me that you don't."

The tears were now messing up your vision. You knew you couldn't say that but you had to keep strong. "Chris...I...."

He kept staring at you as he watched a single tear slide down your cheek. He brought his hand up and gently wiped the tear off.

"Guess that does no good when its raining."

You and him couldn't help but share a soft laugh as you tried to keep the words from falling out but it couldn't be contained much longer. "I do love you."

Chris got excited until you said but, "I'm scared."

"Don't be...I'll always protect you no matter what."

"You mean it?"

"Y/n, you're my future, I'm going to marry you."

Your heart melted, Chris pressed his lips against your this time as the rain fell down. You didn't think this work trip would have ended with you kissing Chris again.

~ The End~

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