current mood: hungry
which is why the box of pineapple tarts beside me are depleting at an alarming rate.
hehe
honestly all i've been feeling recently is confusion.
confused as to why im always hungry
confused as to why im feeling so down when life is FAB
confused as to why im worried as fuck for results when i know nothing's gonna change
confused as to why LIFE IS SO FUCKING SHORT YET WE SPEND THE BETTER HALF OF IT SLUGGING OUR ASSES OFF IN FRONT OF DESKS.
argh. could go on for ages on how fucked up society's definition of life is. yet at the same time all i've ever thought of doing is conform to society??? these past 2years (jc + groupies) have kinda made me realise i conform. ALOT. and i guess it's just this part of me that's like... go with the flow rather than try to be different cos what fucking difference can we make/???
all those inspirational people like MLK, LKY are great stories (and people) (obv) but it always feels so... out of reach like they were born for the extraordinary yet time and time again im just reminded of how ordinary i am??
much confused.
i would like to blame it on hormones and puberty but im pretty sure im past that haha. it's weird that this is the first time in my life i've begun thinking about things this way. i never used to see a problem with me going with the flow and sticking to the status quo.
guess we all cant be Gabriellas
