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aleksander

[kryolf]

introduction

my name is aleksander, am an adult & from eastern europe. i live in an area with forests, fields and mountains around it.

i am a person who enjoys historical knowledge and the past, counting to that; art and music, literature. Since forever, i show big intrest in mythology - especially greek and norse- , astronomy and science.

i grew up not fitting in, being an outcast and the weirdo, in my younger teenage years i thought that i was a wolf or fox but i am not sure about that since i experienced 'switches' with other types over the years + am not sure which were just kith or kintypes... I'm just very confused with myself and been trying to figure out since i can remember.

thats it for now and probably enough information. i do appreciate interactions

[wolfb3ck]

paws :3

[kryolf]

writing my essay, that takes huge part in my grading, on wolves ! 🙌

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btw i have finished it a while ago already, its in german tho so i am not sure if i should post it here

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wolf in the city, pretending to be

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[wretcheddthing]

everybody give it up for this brand of green. round of applause for most under appreciated green

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I'm feeling so sad but also free at the moment, I've been thinking that maybe it's the right time to just go in peace.

I always thought it would get better and even tho life goes on and things move, mentally I stay the same.

I don't think it's enough to feel happy.

[kryolf]

sunsets have become my favourite thing, especially if you experience them every evening at another place just a bit different than the day before

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experiencing the tides and st(r)anding somewhere in the ocean

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Bought her like a week ago but forgot to post.

She's just so pretty and I am so happy I finally found a figurine that resembles features in a non grotesque way

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" living "

It's hard to explain the urge to just run into the woods and never turn back. I wish it was this easy. I wish it would be easier to be closer to feeling like I belong. I don't think I'll ever fit in with the world around me if I don't escape modern life. Living somewhere alone or maybe even together with someone, some day in a cab or just in general a rural area, with little population and close nature, will be my forever dream. Moving somewhere north, leaving family behind- even if it's van life- sounds not like a idea but a need to me.

I'm doing bad with mental stuff at the moment because I am constantly in my head, longing for something i can never get a crasp on or live out in my current situation.

I know that my current life is just wrong. Its not who i am. Its never going to make me happy. Its not my place to be in or to be around. The people even sometimes can be worse. I don't know anyone that I feel right with. No one that alarms my urges to stay, that makes me long for staying in touch with life.

Maybe it's because of that loneliness, that makes it harder to move on in life, since I am still a social creature that is simply just not meeting the right surroundings. I'm really hating the society I live in, it's scratching and loud, telling me to resist my nature.

I simply can not be.

[kryolf]

hate how judgemental I've become of myself, I can't even wolf out without thinking I'm mental for actually living it

[kryolf]

I've been absolutely hating myself and life the last days, I feel like I'm falling into such a depressive episode again. Been thinking too much about killing myself and can't get up and gain motivation to overcome these thoughts.

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found her shot dead in a river

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I hate not being able to capture the atmosphere of the forest while taking pictures

[kryolf]

I've been feeling like a total maniac the last days, I am shivering at every sensory issue and been seeing myself as fog everytime looking in the mirror.

I barely can feel human and pretend to act like I fit in.