see the things no one else can ☁

A little bird with a big mouth and an even bigger heart. ✿ ✿ ✿ ✿ ✿ ✿

[ksxsiyu]

headcanon #1

Despite the lack of a relationship with his parents, Siyu still talks to his grandfather. His grandfather comes to Korea at least once a year to visit him and during that time is the only time he goes without smoking weed or drinking for a long period of time. He doesn’t want the only family member he still cares about to see what kind of mess he’s become.

[ksxsiyu]

there for you ;; suki

[ksxsiyu]

kssuki:

“if you insist,” suki mumbled from the other side of the tree. a small smile played on her lips as she rested her head against the trunk, staring at her legs splayed out before her. siyu had been too absorbed in his own misery to even sense when she had walked past him, and something about that had caused her to stay back to observe him. even then siyu had barely comprehended her presence; it was clear that he was in a world of his own.

“i’m joking,” suki added for clarification, adjusting herself so that she was closer to the leader of the stoners. “i know you weren’t talking to me. but seriously, i’ve been sitting here for a while.” she studied the canopy of leaves above them. from her peripheral vision she could see siyu’s shoulders shaking, and with a sigh she dug into her pocket, pulling out a package of tissues.

“i know we’re not really friends or whatever, but i’m here if you want to talk,” suki told him lamely. she glanced at the empty bottle in his hands, raising a brow curiously. “and it’s pretty obvious that you’re wasted, so i’m not about to leave you by yourself. come on, just talk to me. i’m curious about what has the great leader of the stoners looking so pitiful.”

At first he thought the voice was just in his head (it wouldn’t be the first time), but then it kept going and Siyu realized that it was coming from beside him. He lifted up his head from his knees and looked over to see who was sitting there. The tears still blurred his vision, so it took him a while, about a minute of staring blankly, to realize that the person beside him was actually Suki. 

If this was any other time, Siyu would just brush off his pain and act like it was nothing. Why bring anyone else into his problems right? But right now he was way too drunk to hold back his feelings. His pain felt like a giant hole inside of him, the memory of his sister slowly eating away at him until there was nothing left. “Fuckk.” He slurred as he scooted closer to Suki, resting his head on her shoulder and putting an arm around her. Touching another person made him feel more grounded, and it was like this that he just broke completely.

His lips trembled so it made it a bit hard for him talk, that and the sobs that kept escaping his mouth, but eventually he was able to form actual words. “Today is a very s-special day, didn’t you know?” A hysterical laugh bubbled up in his throat, “Five years ago today, exactly. Time flies doesn’t it.” He paused as another wave of tears hit him. He tried to breath in and out, but his stupid body wasn’t cooperating with his brain. “I lost my sister.” He whispered between gasps. His face morphed in pain and he nuzzled his head closer to Suki.

[chickeebabe]

[ksxsiyu]

flying saucer ;; taejoon

They smelt divine. The cookies sat on a pink plastic plate (one of Siyu’s own from his dorm) in a pretty little display, only disrupted by a space of a cookie that he had already eaten after baking the lovely goodies. This is exactly what he needed today, a good plate of cookies and a disney movie marathon on his laptop in his pjs. A gleeful grin stretched over his lips and made his face look so bright (and a bit crazy). He walked back towards the dorms at a leisure pace, slow enough so he wouldn’t trip on anything, and thought about what movie he should watch first. Frozen was always a good choice, but Sleeping Beauty was just such a classic!

Siyu almost tripped on a small crack in the ground and dropped his cookies when he noticed another person near by. He did some very careful hand movements to keep the plate balanced, and let out a sigh of relief when his cookies were once again safe. He looked up and blinked a few times (making sure he wasn’t just seeing things), before his lips lifted back up into their bright grin and he stretched his plate out. “Do you want a cookie?” 

[ksxsiyu]

there for you ;; suki

The sliver of light hitting the leaves of the tree made their green color so vibrant, like it was popping out of darkness in defiance of the missing sunlight. It broke Siyu from his train of thought for a few moments. He sat there in the grass patch, just staring up at that bright green and wondering how his life got to this point. It wasn’t necessarily a bad place, but very different from how things were barely five years ago. Back then things had been shit, but at least he had Lihwa.

Rolls of tears dripped down from his eyes, running along his face and down his neck into the soft cotton of his purple shirt. One of his hands were clenched tightly around an empty bottle of fruit loop vodka and the other was fisted in his shirt. Normally Siyu wasn’t the kind to just down half a bottle of vodka alone late at night (while already quite stoned), but today was a special occasion. A ghost of a smile crossed over his trembling lips, cold and very different from his usual bright grin. He lifted the bottle up to his lips for another drink, but when nothing came out he made a disgruntled noise and threw it weakly beside him. 

He curled in on himself and tried to stop his body from freaking out, but Siyu had no control over himself anymore. His limbs shook violently as soft noises of pain crawled up his throat, only barely muffled by his closed mouth. He probably had snot and tears all over his face, but he didn’t care. All he could think about was Lihwa. Her face. Her smile. The stupid way she used to sing songs terribly with him when their parents were out of the house. The reassurances that she was fine. All of the times he caught her crying alone. The images kept coming and they wouldn’t stop. 

“God dammit, leave me alone!” He whimpered and rubbed at the never ending tears that clouded his vision. Why did this still hurt? After all this time? 

[pomodorinis]

wow..

[ksxsiyu]

Hello everyone, I'm Beth~ ! I’ll delete this later but I just want to say I’m super excited to play Siyu, but I’m away from home until either tomorrow night or Tuesday so I won’t be very active until then! I’m totally down to start plotting stuff though :D