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~ Kat FKA Katrina

[rottingfacade]

i love those blinking red lights they put on top of radio towers and windmills and skyscrapers etc, theyre like electronic flowers or something to me

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[enslavedbyfaeries]

In honor of our summer heatwave and the electric grids pleading for mercy 🔥 🥵

Paper: Arches 100% cotton/ cold press

Brushes: Isabey mop/ Silver Black Velvet rounds/ Rosemary & Co detail brushes

Paint: Daniel Smith/ HWC Holbein/ Poems About You

[ktrnwllsrry]

I miss tumblr and when the internet was fun </3 should I come back be fr

[ktrnwllsrry]

Oh cool, you go to the gym and love horror movies *looks around for literally anybody else to talk to*

[ktrnwllsrry]

I hope Marianas Trench knows how goddamn thankful I am for them. I hope one day I can meet them, and tell them. I probably won’t get to tell them, but holy shit I hope they know.

[ktrnwllsrry]

I got to tell them this year btw 🫶

[ktrnwllsrry]

I wish I could be back on tumblr but I actually have a full time job and have to feed myself several times a day so my schedule is actually pretty packed right now

[ktrnwllsrry]

Back to tumblr because I need to tell everybody that will listen that I hurt my foot at work from walking too much and nobody else seemed to think it was that serious but I really thought it was a stress fracture. I brushed off my concerns because I know I can be a hypochondriac and just slowly chased it up with a doctor convincing myself it was a sprain or something.

It’s a stress fracture.

I should have been sent to the hospital 4 weeks before I was.

I was walking around on a fracture feeling like a baby for complaining about the pain

[louisegluckpdf]

his ass is NOT getting away from the sound of the woman that loved him 😂

[ktrnwllsrry]

Should I come back to my tumblr book era? I’m back in my bookworm ways after losing it for years 😭

[ktrnwllsrry]

Honesty I stopped using tumblr a lot because they deleted porn blogs but somehow I have at least 100 spam follows from porn bots

[ktrnwllsrry]

My least favourite thing about online book reviews from people who have mad it their job is when they say “yea I just skimmed through it and it wasn’t very good”

OF COURSE YOU DIDNT FIND IT GOOD IF YOU JUST SKIMMED THROUGH IT

[melanocetuss]

a few days ago i woke up thinking: snails are cute, but what if they had legs?

so i made this, and i was like "aww yeahhh such a funny animal"

and then a second image popped up in my head

what if they acted like dogs?

YEAAAAHHHHH HAPPY PUPPY SNAIL

[hotvampireadjacent]

[blue--folder]

The Man Who Lost His Way, me, procreate, 2020

[totallyfubar]

get okay with being some level of burden on others, seriously

[totallyfubar]

you know what’s a real burden? a person that is so scared of leaning on other people that they try to be completely self sufficient and you end up either having to help them indirectly to save their ego or they have to break down in order to receive help, both of which are so much more heavy to the person that loves them than just being leaned on casually

[coldturkeyham]

How do I stop being like this...? :/

[totallyfubar]

You keep asking yourself that question, and that will at least lead you in the right direction. You can’t fix a problem until you see it, and you’re seeing it, so you just created the potential for a solution right here.

[coldturkeyham]

I’m telling you rn I have already figured that out so now what am I supposed to do :|

[totallyfubar]

And that’s what I’m telling you, that asking yourself that question in different contexts, not just right now looking at the big picture, will give you perspective.

Going “why am I like this” in the moment when you’re resisting reaching out and being honest with yourself about things like “I’m afraid they’ll do X” “I don’t want to look like I’m X” “if I ask for X will they expect Y of me?” will give you a mountain of insight.

By doing that you will have broken this big boulder of a problem into like 10 big rocks. Then you take those newly identified concerns and repeat until the problems are small enough to actually solve with the tools you have now.

Once you start solving pebble-sized problems, you’ll find that you have more tools to work with, new beliefs and skills that you can use to actually break down the big rocks.

The whole deal is a descent into analyzing what is actually causing the pain and unrest in your life, pulling more and more bad shit into light until you finally find something the right size for you to overcome and snowballing from there.

[ktrnwllsrry]

Sometimes I wonder how I ended up so differently than how my parents raised me and then I remember they didn’t raise me, I did that myself. I got the basic “don’t kill anybody” from them but other than that, it was me.

[ktrnwllsrry]

Catch me at the local charity store buying clothes in plus sizes because I’m also broke and I also deserve to own clothes that I like 🤷🏻‍♀️