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𓆝𓆟𓆝𓆟 "Introduction!" 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟

Hello!! im Kuawawa, Call me Kua or kuwa 0:)

Pronouns: They/Them

Im a author who writes in their free time, and here is my libary of fanfictions on Ao3! Updates on fics might be a little slow...

English isnt my first language, so i might make lots of mistakes here and there!

I dont usually like to write sexually explicit things(since im a minor) though i will and would imply it if i have too, it will be a very rare occurrence to see me write it in full detail...

please tell me if you find any grammer, spelling mistake or if a phrase/sentence feels off^

My Fandoms:

ORV (omniscient reader viewpoint)

Arcane

Alnst (alien stage)

the song of achilies

bsd (Bungo stray dogs)

Thgll (The hunter is gonna lay low)

The S-class Hunters i raised (only caught up on the manwha)

PHM (Project Hail Mary, Movie)

Also! you can find me almost anywhere(like Twitter/X and discord) with the same username 'Kuawawa' but im more active here on Tumblr and on Ao3

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Answers:#KuaAnswers

Drabbles:#KuaDrabbles

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thanks for reading!

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟𓆝𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝

#introduction #about me #ao3 writer #ao3 author

vacationtown

It's talked a lot about KDJ's low self-esteem. How he doesn't think he's worth anything, how he can't accept that people care about him, how he's always putting himself down. And that's, well, undoubtedly true.

But.

I feel like there's another side to this coin that doesn't get acknowledged or noticed much—his supreme self-importance masked as self-deprecation. He genuinely believes that only he can save YJH, that only he can understand YJH, that his death is the grand, necessary price for everyone else's happiness. He frames it as self-sacrifice, but underneath it, there's this unshakeable fucking belief that he's the only one who can carry the weight in that "messiah complex dressed up in self-loathing" way. He sees himself as the protagonist of YJH's story in his own head and I don't think he even realizes that's what he's doing. And I think people ignore this because it complicates the "poor sad boy KDJ" narrative that's so popular. It's easier to infantilize him and treat him like a victim of circumstance who just can't help but sacrifice himself, than to acknowledge that he's actively making choices. And some of those choices are rooted in a deeply held belief that he knows better than everyone else. He's not just doing what needs to be done, he's doing what he thinks needs to be done, and he doesn't really care what anyone else thinks about it.

It's also not that he doesn't know people care about him. He does, he's not actually that oblivious. The text shows him understanding that his party wants him around and that they'd miss him terribly if he was gone, but he waves it off because acknowledging it would mean actually having to face the consequences of his choices. It's easier to keep the pity party going than to actually sit with the fact that people love him and he's hurting them a lot. He's dense about some things, yes, but he's not fucking blind. He just chooses to ignore it because looking at it directly would mean he'd have to stop running away.

The unreliable narrator aspect is a big thing here too. The narration tries to frame his actions as selfless, but he's also the one 'creating' the story. His way of doing that fools many readers (and himself, because he lies even to himself) by making him seem like the tragic hero who has no choice, while the story literally gives us more than enough context to know that he does have choices—mf just doesn't like the alternatives. Choosing to sacrifice himself as problem-solving is easier than trusting other people to handle things. He tells himself it's because he's worthless, but I think part of him actually believes the opposite—that he's the only one who can fix everything, and everyone else just doesn't realize it. KDJ is not a victim of fate, he's a victim of his own refusal to let go. Doomed by the narrative? More like doomed by himself, smh.

clairedflg

Snippet from chapter 4 of 'the cannibal and the violinist'!

which is cannibal! kdj X violinist/yandere(?)! Yjh

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Yoo Joonghyuk, A name.

유 (yoo) meaning to kill, 중 (jung) meaning a group of people and 혁 (hyeok) meaning shine/bright.

It was gibberish in a sense, it had no particular meaning whatsoever.

Who was I meant to kill? The stars shining up above? Was I supposed to conquer them like I did to everyone else? Even when the myths tell me they're untouchable; I wholeheartedly wished that I didn't have to conquer them, that, despite my nature, I won't kill the very things I was meant to.

I was supposed to rise above everyone —quoted from my parents.

I was immaculate, unreachable, as if i was a freshly polished statue for display.

Yet, like a statue, I did not have autonomy. I was controlled by the same hands that raised me.

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Yoo Joonghyuk...my baby.....

Okay he might be ooc here(kdj would slime me out for this), but tbh this is HIM in the past, before his regressions and he is a teenager(i havent read the SS yet shhh) and we barely know anything about him in the past... i tried my best...

#dokjoong #joongdok #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #ao3 fanfic #ao3

petitgame

every time i comment on an ao3 fic i'm pretty sure it's incomprehensible gibberish. but if i can bring joy to one (1) author's day or make even just one author feel inspired, i am happy.