Ah. . .
I apologize for any grammer errors I may have done while writing this in zone out mode. Thank you for spending your time to read this. So. . . Honestly, I have been thinking about this decision for a while.. Just couldn't find how to say it. I've started to write it down…
Life keeps on giving dough, wanting us to knead it and carefully bake it into a fresh pastry. The dough gets harder the longer it waits, till it becomes nothing but a piece of inedible stone, then life gives you another one before you could get rid of the stone. It will keep on building up, keeping up this pressure that slow us down. You could try to turn it into pastry before it is too late. Well, it never is too late to start now. The problem is, you may keep on failing the cooking, looking at others, it seems like they handle it better than you. Seems like zero efforts they show, turning in a beautifully baked cake. You may feel like you just won't be able to do any better whatever you do. It's suffocating, the dough is sticky, tastes like dirt… Piece of mud nobody likes to eat. Eventually you start to leave the kneading, focusing on frostings. The frostings? Oh well they are quite the delicacy, making you want to eat this instead of repeating the whole troubling process. They bring you away from the rough dough, those sickening flavours, natural looking colours… Soon you realize you forgot the dough, again. Would it matter that much anyway? I mean, you can always do the cooking with the next dough right? For now, frostings is pretty good enough, you say. Every single time, you rather tend to ignore the dough… Till one day waking up to piles and pillars of hardened rock. You've messed up, big time. Soon the frosting doesn't taste that good anymore. But you cannot just leave the frosting? You feel like you are gonna crumble under the piles of rock if you do that.
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But maybe, Just maybe you could actually start cooking?.. It doesn't hurt too much to give it another go?.. One by one, sometimes it will burn, sometimes it will be salty. But you can always try, Gain some experience from mistakes, Then try again.
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There is a lot of road ahead, It feels like it never is going to end. Still, take it a mile per day, Small steps, Small steps for now, till you'll have big steps one day.
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Slowly, but surely, You will able to make better pastries in the future. Not as extraordinary good as other's cakes, Pretty simple, baked dough with cacao seeds crushed into a sweet delicacy. But one thing you know, is that you will enjoying this cookie you baked, all for yourself. Then maybe you can think of adding some frosting to your cookie from time to time. Never too much though, you still have to get up and get to cooking.
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Life is still going on about cooking something. Shitty life isn't it? Complaining all the time. Not even waiting a second for you to take out the burnt. Ah. I should get to cooking as well.
Of course, this isn't a goodbye, Just a little break off this virtual place and back to what life awaits for me behind the screen. Where there is me, a real me. I just need to get myself up from these mess from over the time dumped on me. Bit by bit.. I will be coming to have quick visits sometime as well, We can always find the time to eat frostings, don't we? Wishing you all a very joyful year of 2026
thank you. . .
