Took this screenshot of a fic years ago when I first found kurofai and was devouring fics. If anyone knows it please send me the link
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I don't know if you'll see this but I need help finding this fic. I took this screenshot in 2017.
Major character death discussed -
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Kurogane closed his eyes at the soothing way Fai's voice surrounded him, but then he opened them again and let out another wheezy sigh. "I'm sorry." This wasn't what he wanted. He never wanted to leave Fai behind, but they both knew it was inevitable, and they both had been tiptoeing around the subject for years. It wasn't until Kurogane's body started to fail him that they really had to address it.
And it became even more prevalent when Kurogane no longer had the strength for an artificial arm. Even a simple one. It was much more comfortable without it. And so it was his only hand that Fai was burying his face in, and his wrinkled, bony hands twitched against that soft, smooth cheek. "Forgive me..."
Fai swallowed around the sour lump that was forming in the back of his throat. "Kurosama." Fai playfully allowed those bright clear eyes to poke through his ashen fingers. "Remember what I said." He shifted himself so he could crook his other arm down and allow his fingers to play with Kurogane's salted hair.
"Don't ask for forgiveness when you've given me a lifetime." Fai's jaw tensed when he met his lover's ruby eyes. They were barely dulled by age and gods they were still so strong! They sparkled with so much of the life he'd lived, and Fai wanted to make sure Kurogane knew there was not a damn thing he should regret.
"You showed me how to live. Please, don't ask me to forgive that."