[ID: Chainsaw Man fanart of Kobeni and Angel Devil. Kobeni, standing behind a counter, nervously says, "I-I'm sorry, sir... Our ice cream machine is broken..." Angel, surrounded by a dark aura to indicate his anger, shouts, "You better fix it then!!!" His hair is distressed, halo askew, and sleeves rolled up. /end ID]
kinda dangerous but i was reading hare-kon and now i have an au idea for my selfship but combining the selfships for with ayato and albedo into the one with childe,,,, 💔💔
i could be wrong but i like imagining capitano being very gentle with you :0 like in general he’s very soft for you but he treats you so delicately as well, always opting to carry you and such <3
Hello *Kicks the door down* I SEE YOU'RE SEARCHING FOR REQUESTS. You know how snezhnaya is kinda based on Russia? Imagine the the harbingers teaching darling Russian. Reading stories for columbina, pantalone pressing his chest to your back while holding your hand to teach you how to write a letter you had problem with, sitting on Pietro's laps and read him his reports,.. yeah just that. Feel free to ignore this ofc! Have a nice day :] ~Raven anon
the harbingers’ little darling ♡
♤ OMG HELLO !! JAISJWJEJ okAY I AM ABT TO SLEEP BUT I CANNOT STOP THINKING OF THIS AKDNWJSK THAT’S FR SO CUTE??? also i hope u don’t mind but i branched it out a little more and made the language more general like hinting at several if that’s alright ! ;0 it’s ,,, also this is part one (maybe), since i was getting tired and i wanted to post this alr😭
♤ unedited because it’s 4:40am
you’d be unofficially known as the harbingers’ darling. they all kinda almost don’t trust each other and don’t really agree on anything with each other outside of work, but they really start to get along when it concerns you! i’d imagine like they all have a meeting, and sadly, because you aren’t a harbinger, you can’t take part in it. but that’s okay! you fr have your own little waiting room they made for you. it has comfy seats and a nice view of the outside, and it’s got bookshelves and a small fireplace. it’s really near their meeting room too!
after their meeting (of course, this being a given that it’s not like they have an immediate mission they have to go to at once), the doors immediately open, and this was your sign that you could now enter since their business was now finished.
of course, this isn’t limited only to spending time with all of them at once! each and every one of them at one point, depending on their schedules, love to spent time with you one and one or with a few others as well (though they really would prefer if it was just you two…).
columbina, i like to think, is the one who actively searches for you the most. she loves to hold your hand as you two walk around either at the palace of anywhere for that fact! she also loves it when you two are just in her office or in the garden, sitting around while you two chatter with each other. sometimes, when you two are in her room, she makes you sit down and fixes your hair while she sings for you or you read her a story! after which, she’ll dress you up in clothes she bought the day before or so because they reminded her of you! she also sometimes teaches you new songs to sing in new languages.
if not columbina, then it’s dottore who also actively searches for you as well! he’s always excited to bring you with him when he’s doing his little experiments (though maybe the less extreme ones), and he loves it when you ask him all sorts of questions! it ranges from asking what he’s doing to who’s he doing it to to why he’s doing it. sometimes he doesn’t give you a proper answer on why, or it’s a really plain answer like he felt like it or something, but you liked how excited and fired up he got from doing them, so you liked it when he did them!
whenever you bump into childe, he always asks you how you are! he asks who you were with before you two bumped into each other, and he asks you if you want to hang out with him. he likes to sometimes asks you if you want to practice sparring with him, or he asks if you want him to teach you some new tricks and moves he learned. capitano usually is who opposes this. capitano likes to spoil you and he treats you the gentlest out of all the harbingers, handling you like you were a doll that might break if handled too recklessly. that’s why he’s so against it whenever he’s walking around and he sees you sparring with childe and the 11th is getting a little too worked up. immediately, capitano will pull you aside and say it’s his turn to be with you.
a lot of the time, you find yourself wandering the palace whenever the other harbingers are out. you love it here! it’s so pretty and big and you love to explore! however, sometimes when you do, you find yourself in the presence of the ninth, who for whatever reason, is one of the few who stay here the most.
truth be told, you just love listening to pantalone! you always found his voice so soothing and relaxing, and he always greets you with a smile even when he’s busy with the finances in his office. he’s one of the busiest, having been tasked with dealing with all the finances and so of the fatui, but the few times he’s free for you, he loves to spend spoiling you! pantalone also has a habit of asking you to help him out a little bit in terms of getting him certain books and whatnot. this sometimes leads to him asking if you can understand the language it’s in, and if you can, he praises you and if not, he’ll smile and pat your head, saying it’s okay, and if you’d ever like to learn in the future, he’ll teach you.
of course you go with learning-
learning how to read in those new languages proved to be useful whenever you were with pierro! whenever he’s busy with paperwork or so but you just insist on spending time with him (which, he can has a hard time refusing sometimes), they prove to be useful when you’re reading some reports to him while he’s signing or checking other works! he doesn’t like having any other chair in his office (except for the couch he placed inside for you), so often times, he lets you sit on his lap while you read to him, and he strokes your hair!!
Bestie I just wanna drop by and say ILY YOUR FICS HAVE BEEN AMAZING (I think abt the Pierro one alot he my fav but thats besides the point) THANK YOU FOR SHARING THE MASTERPIECES!!!
OMG HELLO?? THANK U SM BESTIE OMG U HAVE NO IDEA HOW😭😭 NWKDNWKDK THAT MAKES ME FEEL ILYT IM GLAD U ENJOY MY BRAINROT <33
note: this is actually from my old blog (mrschisaki) that i’m just transferring here bc i might get rid of that blog ;0 + this was from july 2021 btw omg my writing idk
three times.
three times during your current existence do you remember what it was like to never be the first choice, regardless of the reasoning.
you didn't know when it was that it started. you didn't know when it was you opened your eyes for the first time and you realized something was wrong, that something didn't feel right, that something about you was off. you didn't know when it was that you realized you had opened your eyes in the world as something the world despised and antagonized; you were a devil.
everything after that went by in a flash; it started out not the best, seeing as you were practically nude and walking around aimlessly trying desperately to find shelter and clothing.
you didn't know how long it took, but eventually you found yourself on the doorstep of a couple who had found you, passed out behind the alley near where they lived. they were kind enough to give you food and pants and a shirt; clothes they claim belonged to their late son.
it was loose, but it fit and that's what mattered. they had fed you, clothed you, and allowed you to stay under their roof for the night.
again, you didn't know how long it took before you awoke to the sound of their screams as you wake up to blood staining your clothes and your face.
a devil that took in a human form stood in front of you that day. that very same day it knelt down in front of you and raised it's hand gently but before it could do anything, it's head was sliced off cleanly, and it fell to the ground with a soft thud, and you looked up to see a young man standing there, his hair tied into a topknot and his blue eyes stared down at you.
you'd remember that day as the day you met aki hayakawa for the first time.
there was something both right and wrong about makima when you met her for the first time but you couldn’t place your finger as to what.
maybe it was the fact someone as frail looking as she was, had such a high position as a public safety devil hunter (or so they called themselves) and for whatever reason, she had allowed you to live, despite knowing exactly what it was you were.
almost immediately, you were clothed once again, this time in much formal looking clothes similar to her as then you were introduced to aki, someone who apparently was in makima’s special squad, and your initial thought of him wasn’t anything special.
he wasn't any different than any other person you've met.
he looked at you with a blank face and didn’t say much to or about you, but he did show a variety of emotions when she had said that you were to live with him for the time being.
disbelief, shock, and dread…? were the emotions that flashed through his face once makima uttered out those words, and added a; “that’s an order.”
the walk to his apartment was both awkward and uneasy. the feeling of dislike he had for you wasn’t that much obvious but it was clear that he wasn’t that pleased with the new living arrangements.
you couldn’t blame him.
at first, you thought nothing of him. clearly, he didn’t like you, and you had no feelings towards him. living with aki proved to not affect your life at all, but waking you up for work was something you felt grateful for.
you thought it was going to be like that forever and you didn’t mind.
you began to talk more when you helped him cook breakfast. you were terrible at it, and you messed up even the simplest tasks he asked of you.
"why did you ask if you could help if you've never done this before?" aki asked once, getting a band aid from the drawer since you had sliced yourself by accident.
"i wanted to make it easier for you." you replied sheepishly.
he chuckled at that, and it confused you.
you two started interacting more after that, and it wasn't as bad as you thought it'd be.
many things happened since then. nights you used to spend alone in your room or in the balcony were now often spent in the couch as you stayed up late having conversations or watching television and commenting on that damn cat commercial that played almost every hour. it only escalated and became more chaotic once makima decided to dump some people named power and denji on aki once again.
they were... interesting individuals to say the least.
you didn't think anything would change but you were sadly mistaken when you met himeno.
That was the first time.
she was apparently "buddies" with aki from way before you were even in the picture, and she was a nice person, but when she'd wrap her arm around aki's shoulders or give him a cigarette you felt weird.
you didn't know why though.
she'd always try to talk to you but you'd always reply with one worded answers, giving it no room to further grow as a conversation.
when you were made aware that one time that she had kissed aki (actually, kissed everyone in the room present for that occasion), you hated it. the feeling was weird, and you had avoided contact with anyone that night. they just assumed you were feeling out of it due to the alcohol.
maybe they were right.
when himeno died you felt nothing.
she was always nice to you, bringing you food and asking how you were but you wouldn't exactly call her someone you were friends with.
it was different with aki however.
he was devastated, you picked up, and you gave him his space. he was alright after a few days, and you knew why. he was well aware of the risks when he took this job in this specific department, so mourning was either non existent or had to last a day. most cases it was the first, but he was the latter.
even if you didn't like himeno that much, you knew how much she meant to him.
power and denji were out cold on the couch and knowing them, they wouldn't wake up even if an earthquake shook the whole damn building.
you and aki were sitting by the balcony and he was enjoying a smoke and you were just there, enjoying the night breeze.
it had been a while since you two enjoyed a night to yourselves, just the two of you.
"you know that's going to kill you one day." you say as he looked at you, only to see that your eyes weren't even on him.
"i don't believe that this," aki motioned to his cigarette, "is what's going to kill me."
"yes, it is." you looked at him with a pout, "you're going to drop dead one day right in front of me, i swear."
"that's not how cigarettes kill a person, y/n." he replied, slightly amused.
a moment of silence passed you both until he asked;
"what are you going to do if i'm the last person you see?"
you didn't think twice about your answer.
"i'd rather die with my eyes closed then." you huffed in reply as you heard him he laughed lightly.
it was a pleasant sound.
the second was when aki was to have to contract with a new devil, and that was the highlight of your life. ever since you were brought to his care, you always felt like you were extra weight. that you were a burden since the only reason you were dumped on him was so he could babysit but maybe, now you had a purpose.
you were fairly strong and you believed you could be useful, so why?
why was it that when you saw him enter through the door with a devil with pretty hair and a halo above their head, you already knew who they were before aki introduced you to them?
why?
why why why why why?
you were right here.
were you not enough? were you weak?
you barely said anything apart from a small hello that day and you walked back into your room, slamming the door in the process.
it's been a while since then, and two things were realized by two people that day.
aki hayakawa was confused.
the most he's been all year, surprisingly, and it was because of you.
you acted strange ever since meeting angel, and he couldn't understand why. he didn't know why there was such a nagging feeling in his brain and in his chest that begged him to ask what was wrong.
for you, it was when you realized you weren't brought here for a purpose. you had no meaning and had no value, that there was no specific reason you were brought back, here, of all places.
what were you doing here if clearly you weren’t good enough for anything?
"y/n?" aki's voice was gentle, as it's always been and he stops in his tracks when he realized you’d stopped following him.
he turned around and furrowed his brows in both confusion (and what he speculates is concern, though he'd never openly admit that) as to why you'd suddenly stopped.
"are you alright?" you looked up from the ground and looked up only to lock eyes with the man who was suddenly a lot closer to you than you last remembered.
it caused you to tense up and your cheeks turned red at the close proximity between you two, despite it seeming to not bother him at all.
in fact, he looked confused as to why your reaction was the way it was.
"is something wrong?" he asked, his hand reaching towards you. to pat your head, or cup your cheek, you wouldn't know. you gently slapped his wrist with the back of your hand before you could find out, causing him to cease action.
"why do you care?" you asked, your voice soft and flat.
why do i care? aki didn't know why he was so affected by the sudden change in your tone. it wasn't like it had been these past few days, in fact, it sounded like how it did when you two first met.
it sounded like there was no progress between you two— wait, progress?
"i don't know."
you can't remember when it was that that interaction with aki took place, but it felt like yesterday. it felt as if you were new to living with him again and denji and power weren't with you both yet.
not that you disliked them, of course.
back when he wanted nothing to do with you but had to put up with it, only this time the roles were reversed, and this time, aki really tried. he tried to subtly get you to talk to him again but it always ended up the same: in failure.
conversations between you two were minimal and awkward and you had little to no physical interaction unless it was absolutely necessary.
Everything passed by in such a blur and suddenly you found yourself walking to a place you had only dreamt about mere months ago.
and that was the third time.
the beach. was it a few weeks ago? that you stayed up late talking with denji and power talking about places you wanted to visit. denji obviously spoke of that trip with makima, and power rambled on and on about numerous places she had heard other people mention but you. you heard of the beach from the elderly couple who first took care of you and ever since then you've wanted to go.
shouldn't you be happy? you were heading there right now.
you should be excited. grateful.
but no. you couldn't ignore the sinking feeling in your stomach that ate you up inside night after night and being with who you were with at the moment just made it worse.
aki and power were having a conversation you didn't bother listening in to. you drowned them out the whole time and you wanted to go home, but you couldn't.
you had to take the role of a babysitter.
"i'm good." aki replied, "here, i have denji, power, y/n-"
i'm included in this? you wanted to smile. your interest was caught momentarily.
"-and makima-san."
oh. never mind.
"makima?" angel asks, turning his head and tilting it slightly in a questioning manner. then he got the hint. "oh... you like makima, huh?”
your eyes moved from the ground to look at aki. and it wasn't like you were hiding it either, angel turned to glance at you, and what you could only assume as pity were on his features before he returned his gaze to the black haired male who walked next to him.
aki didn't even turn to look your way, even though he could feel your gaze on him.
"why'd you start liking her?" angel asked.
"because..." he couldn't finish what he was saying, seeing as they had arrived at their destination, and somehow saw the silhouette of someone in a long black dress standing on the sand near the water.
what gave her identity away was the light red hue of her hair.
makima’s smile as she raised her hand to wave at aki, and it made you feel uneasy for reasons you couldn’t explain.
when you all approached her, aki and makima began conversing and you drowned them out. you wanted to leave, but you couldn’t.
angel noticed this.
all you could think about was how you wanted to stay in bed all day, maybe read that manga you found in aki’s room that seemed interesting—
“i’ll do everything.”
aki’s voice made you perk your head up from the ground.
“so please… lend me the power.”
you turned your head to look at aki and you felt your chest tighten again when you saw the desperation on his face as he looked at makima.
something’s wrong.
“hayakawa.” the redhead spoke, taking a step closer to the man. “contract with me.”
what?
“hayakawa, give me your everything. and i will give you the power.”
you went to reach out for aki’s wrist but angel used his body to step in between you and him quicker as he pushed you back behind him. “don’t move.” he said, not sparing you a second glance.
“w-what do you mean…?” aki was just as confused as the two of you were.
“hayakawa.” something about makima’s voice as she spoke now seemed wrong. it made you feel uneasy and gave you a sense of automatic fear and you didn’t know why. “this is an order. say that you accept the contract.”
something in you clicked. you suddenly knew why you involuntarily felt afraid of makima even from the very beginning.
“aki!” you spoke as you pushed past angel (much to his obvious distress, but he couldn’t pull you back) “don’t say it. don’t listen to her!”
“y/n?”
this was the first time in a while that you called out to him, and that made him turn his head around to look at you.
it made your chest hurt to see how lost he looked, but it hurt even more to see the evident glimmer of joy plastered on his face from when you called him.
why? why did it hurt?
“what are you talking about, y/n?” makima’s gaze was now on you and it made you want to shrink back. “don’t you want denji and power to live happily?”
“aki, please.” you ignored her. “don’t listen to her. she doesn’t want what you want— she’s gonna use you!”
“i need to make sure you all live peacefully, y/n.” aki said, turning to face you with a sad smile, “i want to see you happy.”
he wasn’t lying. all he wanted was to see you, denji and power live carefree. to live a life where you weren’t tied down by anything or being afraid or being hunted. aki wanted to see you smile, and laugh and enjoy breakfast in the morning, and laugh at the stupid tv commercials with cats in them.
he wanted to make that a reality.
"i'm asking you now to trust me." your voice was wavering and your smile was strained as you extended your hand out to him. maybe, just maybe if you could prevent him from doing this now, you could fix things.
maybe this was why you were sent back here.
just maybe.
he smiled back at you.
“i’m sorry, y/n.” he averted his eyes off of you to face makima, “i accept the contract.”
angel suddenly pushed you to be behind him, and your body collided with aki's, making you fall to the ground as he stood in front of aki, acting as the wall between you two and the contract devil.
“makima!”
“oh? angel. did your memories return?”
“ten year’s use!” angel yelled out as a sword dropped down from his halo.
ee bit the hilt and dashed towards makima, aiming the blade towards her throat.
“lie down.”
at that simple command, angel suddenly dropped to the ground. his eyes drifted from the ground to yours in a silent plea.
save aki.
"say that you'll give me your everything."
everything went by in a blur.
you watched angel repeat the words makima had told him to say, and you watched as aki walked away from you and stood behind the woman— no. you watched as he stood behind the demon that now stood up and looked down at you with one of her signature smiles that sent such an unpleasant feeling in your stomach.
"what's wrong, y/n?" her voice sickened you.
behind her stood two people you considered your closest friends, but you knew they weren't them anymore. they looked the most relaxed they've been in such a long time— but that wasn't them anymore. you didn't know them.
"don't you want to join aki and angel?" makima extended her hand to you, "come here."
"what are you?"
"wouldn't you like to know?" her voice was still calm and you loathed that. you used to think she was pretty for a human, and yet you couldn't stand to look at her anymore. "don't you want to join your friends?"
"i'd rather die." you spat out, narrowing your eyes.
makima thought this to be amusing. this was the most emotion she herself could pull out of you.
what an accomplishment.
"if it can't be helped..." she sighed, her face flashing into that of disappointment for a split second as aki stepped forward and began walking up to you.
you didn't know how angel's sword got into his possession. you didn't even see him bend down to pick it up.
but you watched as he stood in front of you with that same relaxed yet lifeless expression staring down at you, and you knew you could take him. you could take him and angel, and stall makima as long as you could but you couldn't find it in you to move.
you were so tired.
you were so drained and all you wanted was to rest.
i'm sorry angel.
you couldn't grant him his last wish.
save aki.
he was long gone before you were.
you watched as aki raised his arm and your lips curled upwards just a bit. "kill me." you whispered as you closed your eyes.
maybe aki hayakawa being the last person you see wouldn't be so bad.
note: moment of silence to remember that when a devil is killed, they reincarnate in hell without any memories so even if u die, u won't be reunited with aki
unedited.
hi hello i am still resting i will reply n get back to writing i sWear but i see sum of uall liking this n because im rereading csm im reposting this bc i put my blood sweat n tears into this fic
