Beautiful Chaos

Books are what keep me sane, update: i hardly get time to read anymore so guess how much sanity remains.... not much

[unpretty]

i always thought of a king sized bed as being a bit bigger than a queen, but now that i have one, i can tell you that a king sized bed is an absurdity. i can sprawl out, and my husband can sprawl out, and the cat can sprawl out, and none of us are touching. i reach out in the night, and find only pillows and plush walruses. i reach further and eventually find his elbow. he rolls over the comforters to try and find me. “i have crossed oceans of bed to be with you,” he says. there is a vast expanse of bed untouched, unmapped, unexplored. the cat is still trying to sleep on my face.

[frillypinkdreams]

On positivity

I haven’t written any text post here in a while, but there’s something I’ve been thinking of lately that I felt like sharing… a lot of my friends think I’m a very positive and energetic person, and they wonder how I’m so chipper all the time! Little do some of them know that I’ve been struggling with extreme depression, and continue to struggle with it sometimes, but it doesn’t show that much anymore, I think… so here’s the recipe for that: change your attitude and view on things. I believe we can choose to be happy and that we should choose it every day if possible! If your default mood used to be sad, why not just tell yourself your default mood is now happy? If you decide on that resolve, I believe you can do it. That’s what I have done! Now, you might think, “but there’s nothing special going on in my life right now? What have I got to be so happy about?” To that I say…Do you really need a reason? If you need a reason, then make one :-) It doesn’t have to be a big thing: “I’m meeting a friend today!” Or “I’m listening to a new episode of this podcast” or even “I’m taking a shower” or “I’m going for a walk later” can be perfectly good reasons to be happy and excited about your day! So why NOT be that?? I’ve come to a stage of doing this that makes me think you really don’t need any other reason than wanting to be happy, and most importantly knowing that you can BE that RIGHT NOW, you don’t have to wait for something to happen first, like “I will be happy when I get this new job”, “I’ll be happy when I loose weight”, “I’ll be happy when I get a significant other” NO! It doesn’t work like that! It might not be fun to hear, but you really DO have to decide how you respond to life yourself and no one is going to magically make you happy if you’re sad. Things and people can definitely help a lot on the way, but changing that core emotion of negativity into positivity is something you have to take responsibility of yourself.

I know a lot of people on tumblr embrace and romanticize sadness and depression to a point where it almost becomes their whole aesthetic. Please don’t do that. I have been one of those people myself so I completely get it, but it just creates a black hole that sucks you in and it reinforces the sadness you’re feeling. For me, it was a lot about not taking responsibility for my life, so I hid behind a sad mask and let people pity me. True, I was very sick, but I also was very afraid also! You get extra attention and pity and care from people if you’re sad, and the mistakes you make in life have a sort of excuse behind them so it’s not so bad if you fail, but it’s really not a healthy attitude to have, and it makes your life really miserable. Depression was my base-mood for ages, but since choosing to be healthier and taking more responsibility for myself, I realize there really is no reason to just be sad as a base. It’s possible to decide to be happy just because you want to be happy.

I choose to let all my mistakes and hard-learned lessons through life be part of what is building me up an making me stronger. They say the saddest people are also the kindest, because they know what it’s like to be hurting, they learned it the hard way, and I believe that is true! So these days, instead of waking up being depressed as the base mood of my day, I start off by thinking “wow! This is a completely new day, it’s un-used and SO full of potential! I could create so many new things today and do so many things! I could talk to so many people and so much stuff could happen, I am so lucky to be alive to be able to experience this!!” And then I go about my day trying to focus on that. It’s not easy, it’s a conscious choice I have to make every. Single. Day!! But I’m making it! I don’t want to be depressed, so I’ve decided to be happy :-) Because you know what? Life IS amazing, and the fact that we get to go to bed and wake up for a fresh day every single day is mind blowing if you think about it, there is SO many things we could do and learn and explore and experience! It’s truly an adventure out there, just waiting for us to LIVE IT!!!

So, even though there might be shitty days, and hard stuff to get through, I’ve decided to never let that become who I am anymore. This negativity should not be allowed to rule my life because it sucks out everything and leaves you with nothing. Try to rather think that instead of “why is this happening to me?” When something bad happens, try to think “I will surivive this, I have survived every obstacle in my life so far and I can get through this too, and even though it sucks right now, by the end I will be stronger for gaining this experience” It will teach you something and you’ll be stronger for it and more capable of handling life. Life never get’s easier, we just get tougher. It’s up to you to make your life as amazing and wonderful as it can possibly be, because life is so mindblowingly beautiful and vast and there are endless possibilities, we just need to open our hearts and experience it all. I hope all of you have a wonderful day ahead of you❤️

I’m here if you ever need to talk with someone :-)

[apriljinxed]

Every morning

I carve myself

Into my most acceptable version

Don’t cry, smile

Hide how you feel, be pleasant

Ignore anxiety, play it cool

Suit up for the war

With you it was different

Even on those ugly days

You would hold me in your arms and

Rub my back

Until the daggers hurt a little less

Soothe a softness back into my bitter soul

I wish you would stop apologizing

For the pain you caused

And acknowledge

The parts of me you healed

You helped me survive

Over and over

With your own two hands and pure heart.

[aesthete-astrology-blog]

Experiences of the Five Senses that Remind me of the Signs

Aries

Taste: Pop rocks exploding in your mouth

Touch: Fur of a puppy 

Smell: The aroma of funnel cake wafting through the air at a carnival

Hear: Screaming at a concert

Sight: Watching a hummingbird at a hummingbird feeder

Taurus

Taste: Indulgent dark chocolate

Touch: A velvet robe

Smell: The scent of a candle after it has been blown out

Hear: Soft classical music in the background at an expensive restaurant

Sight: Looking through a glass case at a vintage ring in an antique shop

Gemini

Taste: A watermelon flavored chapstick

Touch: A melting ice-cream cone, dripping all over your hand

Smell: Popcorn at a movie theater

Hear: Someone tapping their fingers on their desk before a test

Sight: Watching someone figure out a rubik’s cube

Cancer

Taste: Homemade sugar cookies straight out of the oven

Touch: A warm and worn quilt

Smell: Your mother’s favorite perfume

Hear: Subtle rainfall on a metal roof

Sight: Watching a vintage movie for the first time

Leo

Taste: Fruit salad at a summer barbecue

Touch: Hovering your hands above a fire, close enough to feel the heat, but far enough to not get burned

Smell: That fruity body spray you used way too much of in middle school

Hear: Your friends and family singing happy birthday to you off-key

Sight: A disco ball above the middle of a dance floor

Virgo

Taste: The best peanut butter and jelly sandwich you ever had, made with the perfect peanut butter to jelly ratio

Touch: Braiding your friend’s hair

Smell: Scent of a brand new book

Hear: Listening to an audio book where the narrator has absolute perfect diction

Sight: Sunlight shining through a freshly cleaned room

Libra

Taste: A latte from your favorite coffee shop

Touch: Writing notes using multiple colorful gel pens

Smell: Scented shampoo and conditioner

Hear: Listening to your old voicemail recording

Sight: Watching a ballet

Scorpio

Taste: Letting an ice cube melt in your mouth

Touch: Goosebumps you get from a sudden chill

Smell: Musky cologne

Hear: When its so silent you can hear your own breathing

Sight: Looking at yourself in the mirror after you put on red lipstick

Sagittarius

Taste: A slice of pizza during pizza day at elementary school

Touch: Paint on your fingertips as you finger paint

Smell: The mint scent of the stick of gum your friend gave to you

Hear: A TED talk that you actually find interesting

Sight: Looking at random places around the world on Google Maps

Capricorn

Taste: The caramel drizzled on top of a vanilla ice cream sundae

Touch: Putting cold cucumber slices on your eyelids to de-puff them

Smell: Freshly brewed coffee

Hear: The crackling of a fire place

Sight: A marble statue in a museum 

Aquarius

Taste: The mystery airhead flavor

Touch: The yolk you get on your hands when you try to crack an egg

Smell: A freshly squeezed lemon

Hear: A fly buzzing all around you and in your ear

Sight: Watching a Venus Flytrap plant eat a fly

Pisces

Taste: Licking the drop of nectar inside a honey suckle

Touch: Playing with the foam soap before washing your hands

Smell: The lingering scent of ocean water on you after you left the beach

Hear: The laughter of your best friend

Sight: Looking down at all the pennies in the mall water fountain.

[kwailabear]

“I dont know what I’m trying to say. I don’t know what any of this is really about. Why we bother. Why we’re here. Why we love.(…) I’m not a church kind of person, not when it comes to praying. To be honest, for me it never gets past hoping. But I know this, and I want to say it. And I really hope someone will listen. There is a point. I don’t know what it is, but everything I’ve had, and everything I’ve lost, and everything I felt-it meant something. Maybe there isn’t a meaning of life. Maybe there’s only a meaning to living. That’s what I’ve learned.That’s what I’m going to be doing from now on. Living. And loving, sappy as it sounds.”

— Beautiful Redemption

[kwailabear]

Follow my puppy he super cute

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[mrspider-deactivated20221213]

y’all please remember your parent’s being abused by their parents does not excuse what they did to you, even if it “wasnt as bad” as whatever they went through. your dad getting hit as a kid did not give him the right to scream at you till you cried and just because he didn’t hit you doesn’t mean it wasnt also abuse. your mom invading your privacy and betraying your trust in her and trying to get you to do things out of guilt for her lost childhood is still abuse. you are not responsible for fixing something you had no part in causing and im sorry anyone ever made you feel that way.

[durnesque-esque]

You can have compassion for their struggles while still holding them accountable for their actions.

[kittyknowsthings]

You can have compassion for their struggles while still holding them accountable for their actions.

[kelpforestdwellers]

and compassion doesn’t mean you abandon ur boundaries. holding people accountable while having compassion can mean ending all contact, if you’re able to and feel it would be best.

[kwailabear]

“anxiety. you say it quietly, testing it out, letting the bitter taste slip past your lips. you say it like the name of your enemy, like the name of a disease, a parasite that’s crawling beneath your skin, worming its way into your brain. you say it like it is ruining you. no. try again. anxiety. this time, you say it with confidence. your voice says, “i can defeat you.” it says, “i am not scared of you.” it’s the bile in the back of your throat, and you just swallow it down. anxiety, locking you up and hiding you away. anxiety, holding the gun to your head, asking if you have any last words. anxiety, telling you that you’re weak, that you’ll never make it through this. wrong. you’re stronger than these seven letters, these four syllables, this illness rooted in your brain. this time, when you say it, it’s stressed, italicized. you’re angry, you are the caged animal thirsting for blood. you will not let it escape, you’ll hold it down, get back every second that it took from you. when you say this word, you let everyone know that it did not break you.”

— e. m. (via prouvairie)

I love Elizabeth’s writing. This is perfect

[hellochameleon-deactivated20161]

So my boyfriend did a thing.

My boyfriend of over 2 years sent me a game over skype. He said he wants to try and make Pokemon games since I play them so much. I opened it up and was super excited.

It seemed really well done and was super ready to start on my adventure!

He left a lot of cute notes and tips around town.

He remembered my favorite Kanto starter.<3

I was surprised it ran pretty well. I went on my journey and leveled up my Pokemon!

He showed me support and encouragement through a ton of NPC dialogue.

Then as im ending the game I come across this.

;u;

[imaginarybatman]

That is the most adorable thing ever.

[gay-irl]

gay🍆irl

[kwailabear]

One of these things is not like the others

[kwailabear]

Hi guys, this is a close friend of my man's and a really nice girl that deserves a long healthy life. I'd appreciate if you guys could share and raise awareness for the event and her situation.

Or if you can donate, she is TYPE O

[not-so-swagittarious]

Libra: *sighs* I-

Anyone who's spent 5s with her: Yes, I know. You're the pretty popular girl who has a crush on the nerd. You feel like your life has turned into a reverse-highschool chick flick, and you can stand 2 minuted without thinking how in love you are with Capricorn, Mr Nerd. The love of your life. I KNOW

[ahzodiac]

Unique Couple Pairings

Aries x Virgo: This couple can probably low-key rule the world because they bring out the best in each. Such as determination and overall intelligence. Outside people probably think they hate each other because of all the sarcastic comments. This is the couple that constantly has to one up the other. Aries is VERY protective over Virgo. When they are alone you can find them on the rooftop cuddling while watching the stars.

Taurus x Sagittarius: This is the couple that is traveling the world together and enjoying the sights and tastes. Taurus is the one writing about the adventurous while Sagittarius is the one taking photos. These signs benefit from each other because Sagittarius helps Taurus out of their comfort zone, while Taurus helps Sagittarius be less reckless.When they are alone you can find them outside exploring.

Gemini x Scorpio: This couple you can sense from a mile away. Some might call this toxic love. Each desperately wanting each other yet not knowing if they are trustworthy. They both crave security,which they can give each other. Gemini is the one that does the talking in the relationship, while Scorpio makes the decisions. When they are alone you can find them lying on the bed telling each other their secrets and dreams.

Cancer x Aquarius: This couple wants to better the world together. They benefit from each other by becoming emotionally strong together. Aquarius might not seem like they care but they care so much, and will always be there for Cancer. This is the type of couple that doesn’t need to speak to one another but to just look and know. When they are alone they listen to music and slow dance.

Leo x Pisces: This is the type of couple you see walking around holding hands, and then having tickle fights. You can see that they love each other because of the way they look at their partner. They would do anything in order to make the other happy. Leo is VERY protective over Pisces. When they are alone you can find them building a pillow fort only to destroy it in a massive pillow war.

Libra x Capricorn: This couple is the shy couple that you know they like each other but each one is afraid to openly admit it. Libra is the more romantic in the relationship, while Capricorn is the supporter and motivator. They see the world together as what it should be not what it is.They could talk for hours each of them enticed by each other’s knowledge When they are alone you can find them in a garden playing hide and seek.

[kwailabear]

Holy

[powerfulviolet24]

“I want all of you. Your body, your heart, your soul.”

Aries x Pisces Taurus x Scorpio Gemini x Cancer Leo x Saggitarius Virgo x Aquarius Libra x Capricorn

[astro-luv]

Underrated friendships

Aries x Scorpio

Taurus x Virgo

Aquarius x cancer

Pisces x Gemini

Leo x Sagittarius

Capricorn x libra

[kwailabear]

Love my cap

[duskianfae-deactivated20210319]

I just saw these news that this brazilian 15 years old boy made a fake profile pretending to be a 14 years old girl

And with this profile, he baited a creepy old dude

And so they agree to meet at a nearby park during the night.

And the old dude goes there, expecting to find some naive girl to be preyed upon

only to find the 15 years old boy

dressed as SPIDER-MAN

AND DRESSED AS SPIDER-MAN

THE BOY KICKED THE DUDE’S ASS. LIKE. LEGIT KICK HIS ASS

HE HAD BRASS KNUCKLES

Of course, the creep wasn’t happy with it, and called the police on the spiderman kid. And when the police found the kid, you know what he did?

He said “that guys a pedo lol” and gave them a drive with all the evidence he collected thru the profile

Thank you, Spider-man. Thank you for your service.

[summery-captain]

YOU GO FELLOW BRAZILIAN SPIDERMAN

“Teenager dressed as spiderman beats up a suspect of pedophilia in Joaçaba”

“With great powers come great responsibilities”

[thicctails]

Im pretty sure this is the legit Spiderman of our dimension

[thegoodvybe]