MY SEOUL IS IN KOREA

Warning: May contain references to drug use and gdragon

[kwontotheluna]

Unicorn vibe

[kwontotheluna]

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Last night a Tarot spread saved my life. A glimpse of a future my soul knew was there but my heart believed I could never touch. In those moments when it feels like all hope is abandoned, the voice of the universe breaks out of the dark. Last night it said: Pull yourself together. You've got this.

For months I have felt like I'm dying, a feeling I couldn't shatter or shake. Breathing and sleeping toward death, betrayed by the big dreams of my soul; never alone but always lonely.

The depression takes hold in waves. It comes in bouts of desperate crying, sparks of I MUST followed by long, listless stretches of I simply cannot. Its shameful face shows up in patterns I recognise - when it shows its hand, I can shut it down. It brings anger and self loathing twofold: I hate the mirror, the mirror hates me back, and I fight with myself about where the love went. I wonder, how long have I been in this relationship with myself?

I struggle to want to get better again; the familiar demon reminds me it knows me best. There's no chance of it taking my life from me, not really, no chance of it winning - but sometimes it feels like it could. Sometimes it feels like it might.

A cliff, faced with the tumult of the sea, will eventually wear away.

[plutothewitch]

september will be kind. september will be magical. september will bring the missing energy. september will be working towards our goals and self. september will be a month full of growth.

[kwontotheluna]

I sit up in my room to cry

and everyone thinks I'm stressed but fine

[mercedesbenzodiazepine]

8/12/18

[runwaydoll]

📷 by Morgane Martini

[kwontotheluna]

And that was the moment I knew; if you are the first thing I see every day, I will always be happy.

[kwontotheluna]

[kwontotheluna]

[thegoodvybe]

[peaceiscannabis]

[purplebuddhaquotes]

“…One day—preferably when we’re both blind drunk—we can talk about it.”

— J.D. Salinger

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