kylosam

big fan of star wars, my chemical romance, & literature. also expect lots of 911 and mcu stuff! writer / anxious person.

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joined a crossfit gym for a trail month that came with a personal trainer consultation and the personal trainer made me feel so bad about my body that i am just not even going to bother with their crossfit program :/

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proof of life

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feeling super super depressed today. everything just feels so impossible.

[maroonpascal]

THE SCREAM I LET OUT WAS NOT HUMAN

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me thinking about the mcu: time travel was invented to save someone the world doesn't remember existing

them: um, this is a wendy's.

[nemo-me-impune]

Ravi: Doesn't it bother you?

Eddie: What?

Ravi: The fact that Buck is insane. Like actually insane. He talks about you like a crazy person. If I didn't know him I'd be worried for your safety.

Eddie (offended): Buck would never hurt me.

Ravi: I mean he did sprain your ankle because you made a new friend.

Eddie (smiling): ...Yeah he did do that.

Ravi: Why are you smiling about that??

Eddie: Ok. Look, Ravi, the thing about Buck is - yes, Buck is insane. He's been insane about me specifically since literally the day we met. But it's not - he isn't doing it on purpose. He can't help himself. He just... feels so much, you know? And sometimes the way that comes out is... less than healthy, sure. But he does it because he cares that much. And I mean so much to him he can't control himself. I never have to question how Buck feels about me. Honestly, it's one of my favourite things about him.

Ravi:...

Ravi: Oh my god. You're both insane.

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LMAO i love these freaks with all my heart

[its-not-nothing]

When you're down bad for your wife

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had a dream that there was a whole other world underground and my basement had an entrance. One way led to a dark labyrinth of never ending hallways and the other lead to a wonderland-esque world that was equally as difficult to navigate. I started out by writing the names of each neighborhood on my wrist so I could find my way back but every time I looked down the ink would be smudged.

[becherdireinen]

bastille is correct. how AM i gonna be an optimist about this?

[shangheists]

well if you close your eyes

[ghost-cassette]

No good. It almost feels like nothing changed at all

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I’m really sad and feeling really alone lately. it’s hard being so invisible all the time.

[hihuddy]

happiest pride from me to them (and you!) artist: pyuarism (posted with permission)

[caroandcats]

Buck & Eddie || 2015-2025

[2well2water]

i think we need to bring back calling people internet famous instead of calling them influencers like there needs to be something borderline derogatory injected back into it

[kylosam]

I had to stop being depressed on insta bc someone kept reporting me as a self-harm threat so now I’ve stopped using it as my personal diary lmao

[kylosam]

sorry I’ve missed two weeks of my weekly Buddie 9-1-1 song of the week. I’ve just been kinda super depressed and keep pushing it off. I have been working on a fanfic tho 🤘