RFA coming home to an MC who woke up panicking/ crying from a nightmare and didn’t know that they left while she was asleep??
Time to pour all of my inner angst into this
You saw everything so vividly
There he was, the damn hacker from several months ago, holding Yoosung within his grasp and in the other hand, a knife
“Maybe I’ll take both this time…” he manically laughed at you with that same twisted grin on his face
And with that, you were forced to witness the knife raise to blind your lover, one eye at a time
You were forced to hear the deafening pleads for you to save him, and yet you never moved
Right before the knife touched the second eye to be blinded, your body jolted up to wake you from your nightmare
In the panic, your mind hasn’t yet registered that in this reality, Yoosung was fine
“I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry,” fell shakily from your lips over and over
Realizing that Yoosung was gone, you cried out for him
It was only a few minutes later that you hear a door closing and frantic footsteps going towards the sobbing noises
Yoosung immediately laid you back down and held you tight in his arms
“You’re okay,” you sobbed into his neck, “You’re okay.”
“Everything’s alright, I’m here, MC, I’m here,” he soothed
Needless to say, neither of you were leaving the bed anytime soon
The events played out just like when you were crushing on Jaehee and it felt so, so real, it was like reliving the memories
You have been Jaehee’s bestfriend and closest friend this whole time, and it was the night where you finally decided to confess how you felt to her
The confession was said word for word just like you did before
But your face fell when you saw her discomforted look
“I’m sorry, MC, it’s just…I don’t like you in that way, I thought you wanted to be my friend,” her eyes fell to her feet as she awkwardly shuffled, “I think it’s best if we stopped seeing eachother outside of RFA business.” and with that, she walked away
Did…she think that you were her friend just because you wanted to get with her?
You would have been fine with just being her friend, but she thought that that was all you wanted from her
Your eyes snapped open, but you didn’t have the energy to sit up, so you pulled the blanket over your head and cried
Time passed and the bedroom door opened to the sound of a concerned voice, “MC, are you on here?”
Your crying was a clear indication and she sat down on the bed with you
Mama Baehee scooped you into her arms and rocked you slowly, hushing you, and soothing your fears away
Your worst fear was coming true
Zen had finally risen to stardom, but that wasn’t the bad thing per se
His ego rose as he forgot about you more and more, and eventually he sat you down for a talk
“You’ve changed, MC…I don’t think you can give me what I want anymore.”
You froze, tears bubbling up in your eyes as he continued, “I just…don’t think I love you anymore.”
Upon saying that as if it were nothing, you felt a very sharp jolt of pain sting your heart and it hurt so, so badly
Immediately you bolted awake and fell off of the couch, onto the floor, and proceeded to cry
The deafening voice in your mind tried telling you otherwise
‘Zen wouldn’t do this, Zen wouldn’t do this, Zen wouldn’t do this’
Of course he did, that’s why he’s gone, right?
When the front door closed shut to the sound of Zen calling out, “Babe~ I’m home~”, he immediately noticed the strained whimpers and your curled up form on the floor
He wasted no time dropping his things to hurriedly hold you, “Did someone hurt you?”, his tone of voice was on the verge of sounding angry
“N-no,” you managed to whisper, “Just a bad dream…a really bad dream. I dreamt that you didn’t love me anymore…”
Once the tears began bubbling up again, he cradled you into his lap and pressed kisses everywhere from your neck to your forehead
“I’ll never stop loving you, princess,” he softly said before finally pressing a gentle kiss upon your lips
And before you knew it, a quiet song was lulling you back into a more peaceful slumber
“We’re sorry to inform you that the plane that Mr. Han was on has crashed. Our condolences for your loss.”
You said nothing, obviously still in shock
This…this wasn’t real, this can’t be happening
Jumin always paid for the safest and most luxurious flights, how could the engine have malfunctioned? There was…no way he was dead. He said he would come home. He wouldn’t lie to you. Jumin always came back.
Your hand, pale from clenching onto your phone so hard, was thrown harshly against the wall across the room along with a loud scream from you, the device now donning cracks all over the screen
Loud scream crying echoed through the empty house and your knees gave out under you
Even with Elizabeth cuddling up in your lap, the penthouse still felt far too empty without him
Suddenly you were jolted upward, heavily panting and tears still running down your face
The first thing you noticed was the lack of a body next to you on the bed, and your loud sobbing resumed
A loud thud came from another room, and a disheveled looking Jumin barged into the room, “What happened?!” judging where the thud came from, he must’ve been in his office
You quietly uttered ‘nightmare’ and that was all he needed to hear before slipping into bed next to you
His arms wrapped tightly around you and the sound of his beating heart were all you needed to feel to know that he was still there with you
Nightmares came often to you
They were really about anything that could traumatize you
Today’s nightmare looped you back when Saeyoung was pushing you away, but instead of eventually softening up, it got worse
He constantly ignored you, snapping at you more often and more harshly compared to what happened in reality
Your stubbornness would not relent, having you stand there and take whatever words he threw at you
It wasn’t until phrases like, “I never cared about you!”, “You’re a waste of time.”, “I’ll never love someone like you.” started spewing out of his mouth
“Why am I even bothering with you?”
You sobbed as Saeyoung gave up, packing his things early and leaving out the door without so much as a single word
It was like a timeskip had happened when you woke up in bed and realized that Saeyoung wasn’t there
You began to cry once again, body shaking furiously and air becoming very difficult to breathe
It seemed like an eternity had passed when the bedroom door was nearly dehinged by a frantic looking Saeyoung
His eyes landed on your panicked form and immediately enveloped himself around you, as if he was a shell of protection
You were barely able to form words, but he knew that another bad nightmare had plagued you
“Shhhh…I’m never going to leave you, I love you, you hear me? I love you so, so much.”
