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im l00m or durge
i use it/he/she pronouns and masc / nonhuman terms but i dont mind feminine pet names, compliments, insults, etc
im bigender and bisexual + polyam
i am a boy and a girl and a thing please don't think of me as exclusively a boy or a girl no matter what terms i use
UNLESS you are sexualizing me, then im whatever you want me to be
sadomasochist + switch
this blog is run by a polyfragmented DID system
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just a dirty thing covered in blood and mud
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"wire play is so weird it's basically like ripping out organs" yes and if i couldn't feel pain or die of blood loss/infection i would also moan if someone played with my organs. next question
One of my favorite moments with having a partner into hypnosis w/ me was when we both actively had physical drop triggers (for me hand on cheek, and for her hand on shoulder). After a long date, we were both clearly in the mood, and were slowly wrestling to see who could make the other their submissive little plaything that night.
We would be making out, and I'd feel her reaching her hand towards my cheek, and I'd move it to my hip. I'd slowly brush her arm, making my way to her shoulder, when she would swiftly move her hand to grasp mine. Slowly wrestling eachother to see who was more willing to claim their dominance over the other. It was so fucking hot.
It ended with her slowly walking us over towards a chair, pushing me into it, pinning me down by sitting in my lap, and using that brief moment of surprise to reach up towards my cheek-
"Sleep"
And... I was made to do a lot for her that night~
Oh doctor, it's sort of embarrassing but this is my first procedure where I'll be put under... I know your schedule is probably full, but would you take extra time to explain everything when the time comes? I promise I'll try not to get too anxious, I'm just very curious about the equipment and things. I'll be good, really I will.
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There’s no need to be embarrassed, everyone’s first time going under unique. Some people are scared, some are just curious about what each piece of equipment or drug does and how they all come together to result in the amazing medical marvel that is anesthesia. I can spare some time to explain everything as I go, just slide on over to the OR table and we can get started, now lie back. Good job.
First things first, I need to attach all the patient monitors. These are very important to keep you safe and alert me and my team if anything goes awry. Let me just roll down your gown to hook up the EKG, just a handful of sticky electrodes on your chest. Then connect the wires to each one. Next the blood pressure cuff and pulse oximiter, those are easy. Last touch is a temperature probe that just sticks to your forehead.
Many of my colleagues prefer a Propofol induction nowadays, and there’s certainly nothing wrong with that approach. However, I prefer the somewhat more old school method of a Sevoflurane/Nitrous oxide induction. For the depth of surgeries I am doing most days the gas suffices with less risk, and it is such a wonderful smell, a little sweet, as you’ll find out shortly. You might have heard of Nitrous as ‘laughing gas’ at the dentist, it doesn’t really make you laugh but feels quite nice, hence the name. You will still be receiving some intravenous medications though so now we will have to place an IV, just a quick poke. All done, that wasn’t too bad, was it? To avoid excess movement causing any issues I’ll just secure this arm to the arm board with a couple of straps.
Now onto the fun stuff! Here is the mask, there’s different styles and sizes but this is a pretty basic clear blue plastic mask. It’s connected to these two thicker hoses, one for Sevoflurane, which is a fast acting anesthetic, and the other for Nitrous Oxide which helps you stay asleep while requiring less Sevo. Nitrous is also an analgesic meaning it numbs pain. Then there’s the third skinny tube, that one provides all the oxygen you need. You might be surprised to hear this but the air we breathe is only 21% oxygen, so there’s plenty of room for added gas. I’ll be giving you much more, closer to 30% oxygen so there’s really no need to worry.
Are you ready to go off the dreamland? Next thing you know you’ll wake up back in your patient room like nothing happened. The mask comes down on your face, just like that. Then I’ll tilt your head back to open up your airway. Right now you’re just breathing air but I’m going to start adjusting the dials on my machine to administer the medicine. I’ll titrate up slowly since you’re so interested in how it all works, this way you can take it all in and savor the new experience. Although if you start fighting me I won’t hesitate to knock you out quickly, but I don’t think you will. Your eyes are already looking glassy… Hey, can you hear me? There we go look at me, it’s hard to focus isn’t it? Oh, is that a smile I see under the mask! It’s quite the enjoyable sensation, isn’t it?
Hey, hey, I know you’re trying to look around but keep your head centered for me, don’t make me apply too much force to hold you in place. There we go. Alright you’ve had a couple minutes of fun, I’m going to up the gas again and you’re going to take a really good nap, okay? It’s cute that you’re trying to fight the gas and stay awake, but it’s not going to happen. Your eyes keep fluttering, just let them close. Shh you’re okay, focus on my thumb rubbing your cheek and relax… There we go.
I’m going to give you a couple deep breaths to help you out… Alright, no lash reflex, I’ll get an airway in then we are ready to go. Nurse, can you please start draping and prepping the patient?
i hate insects because they have no appreciation for anything. insects don’t enjoy this beautiful world of ours. their lives are frantic misery from beginning to end. i see them out and about and they’re just eating each other. fuck you i have to keep my window closed because of you? at least fly in my house and watch tv with me. no you want to come in and vomit on my food and then die in my bathroom. i have no respect for that kind of thing
You literally have to understand that ur closest friends and loved ones may very well have kinks or fetishes that gross or freak you out and they simply won’t tell you because they know it grosses or freaks you out. Like you have no way of knowing if your best friend is into necro roleplay if she doesn’t wanna tell you. Sometimes you date someone for years before finding out they have a thing for incest. Maybe your coworker likes ageplay and diapers. Who gives a fuck. Nothing changes between you knowing and not knowing except your own constructed moral outrage.
usually people overreact with hyping up stuff on the internet but one thing that can never be hyped up too much is men moaning and whimpering and gasping and breathing heavily and stammering and grunting and huffing and—
free use is kind of a funny kink bc it relies on the idea that everybody wants to touch you and have sex with you but what if they don't. what if you tell everybody at the party you're free use but they all ignore you and mind their own business