Sex.
I lost my virginity a day ago. Yay. I had wanted to for a while then, and he was a good friend of mine whom I had known for long. We met and drank alcohol. Mutually decided that we both wanted to do it. Was not at all very romantic, though, not much after care, either. We just smoked after and both had to go home since it was becoming late. And once I got home, it suddenly hit me that all I am grateful about, regardless of a very bad experience, that I consented to it. It was mutually decided.
It took me a day to process that this had no linkage between my abuse. Not at all.
Finally I felt like a ''normal'' teenager after a long time.












