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[l0v3rsreck]

Sex.

I lost my virginity a day ago. Yay. I had wanted to for a while then, and he was a good friend of mine whom I had known for long. We met and drank alcohol. Mutually decided that we both wanted to do it. Was not at all very romantic, though, not much after care, either. We just smoked after and both had to go home since it was becoming late. And once I got home, it suddenly hit me that all I am grateful about, regardless of a very bad experience, that I consented to it. It was mutually decided.

It took me a day to process that this had no linkage between my abuse. Not at all.

Finally I felt like a ''normal'' teenager after a long time.

[l0v3rsreck]

Sex.

I lost my virginity a day ago. Yay. I had wanted to for a while then, and he was a good friend of mine whom I had known for long. We met and drank alcohol. Mutually decided that we both wanted to do it. Was not at all very romantic, though, not much after care, either. We just smoked after and both had to go home since it was becoming late. And once I got home, it suddenly hit me that all I am grateful about, regardless of a very bad experience, that I consented to it. It was mutually decided.

It took me a day to process that this had no linkage between my abuse. Not at all.

Finally I felt like a ''normal'' teenager after a long time.

[l0v3rsreck]

Just had sex. It was NOT like how yall write about it in fanfics :(

[soleilinfini]

mary oliver, staying alive

[4agonies]

I once asked my mother if we could become gods. To which, she answered no and proceeded to say that gods lived inside of us.

As a kid, I believed her and from the day on, kept god inside my heart and took him everywhere I wandered.

Although the memory of abuse has faded and only shows itself in the faintest of flashbacks, dreams and my depressive episodes, I shall never forget the exact moment when my belief in god shattered.

If god truly existed inside of me, my innocence would not have been lost at the age of 7.

And if I could truly become god, he would have never laid his filthy hands on me.

[an0neemouse]

Don't use adverbs. Said is dead. Always show, never tell. Avoid cliches. Never use the word 'very.' Don't use alliteration. Don't use boring descriptors. Use unique words.

For fuck's sake, what can I use? Seriously y'all, I don't know about you, but all the advice on how to write does Jack shit for me other than make it really fucking impossible to tell a story.

Write what you want to. Fuck the rules.

[witchobssessedbitch]

This is fiction you are writing, the universe is ours to bend.

[kosmogrl]

don’t take my defeatism too seriously I will always begin again and again no matter what

[kosmogrl]

I might sound miserable most of the time but at my core I’m a very hopeful person

[frayed-wind]

[l0v3rsreck]

Achilles did not die a hero, he died a wounded soldier.

He killed for vengeance and died for love.

His grief was so astonishingly immense that even the gods feared it.

His sorrow made him drag Hector’s deceased body around the walls of Troy while his longing made Patroclus appear to him in fragments of dust particles.

He was killed the moment that arrow hit Patroclus but died in the battlefield.

[golden-letters]

bitch this is all you’re gonna get. this life, this face, this body. you better not ‘maybe in another universe’ your way out of everything. sit your ass down and face this. go make tea and have a picnic and read a goddamn book. kiss your loved ones, send that damn text, and hug your siblings. this is all you’re gonna get.

[iluvjewells]

Posted this on ig the other day

[golden-letters]

bitch this is all you’re gonna get. this life, this face, this body. you better not ‘maybe in another universe’ your way out of everything. sit your ass down and face this. go make tea and have a picnic and read a goddamn book. kiss your loved ones, send that damn text, and hug your siblings. this is all you’re gonna get.

[l0v3rsreck]

And today, I am gonna dance with the part of myself that misses everyone and everything that is lost. The part of myself that could have been but didnt. As the wind knocks onto my window and reminds me, I promise to it that in my next life, I will. But for now, I am sending it off with love and nothing more. Goodbye.