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I have so much hurt inside of me and I don’t know where to put it. How do I put it down. It’s so heavy.

#tired #all alone #demons #mental health #tw #isolated #fat #sad #hurt #broken #alone #heavy #I’m hurting #I’m so sad

I wake up as the day nears the end

I go to sleep when the sun peaks through the clouds

I eat when I’m not hungry

I starve when my stomach growls

Vodka takes water’s place

Showers seem pointless

Changing clothes becomes unnecessary

My once soft curls are brittle and knotted and frail

Clumps of hair litter my sheets

Bleeding gums vandalise my once white teeth

Flavoured air replaces replaces oxygen

Tears have become permanent residents, staining my cheeks, inflaming the skin beneath

The past feels like a fever dream

It feels impossible that her and I were once the same person

Is this love?

How can such a pretty word unleash something so ugly and cruel

#sad #hurt #broken #depressed #alone #lonely #upset #crying #mental health #poetry #poem #all alone #demons #tw #ed #she’ll #numb #I’m sick of this #tired #too tired

My mind is numb

Ignorant to the world around me

My body encased in a duvet

Curled upon an air mattress with an unpatched hole

The irony

My eyes glued to a screen

A distraction

A different world than the one I’m ignoring

Commitments and promises and stress piling around me burying me under this refuge of comfort and 4 walls

Why return to reality

What good will it do me

I lie here

And I can’t get up

Even if I wanted to.

#poetry #poem #sad #lonely #isolated #alone #depression #mental health #hurt #broken #cry #demons #numb #sick

tryworks

what they dont tell you about growing up as a very lonely little girl is that you grow up and still a part of you remains that very lonely little girl

Loneliness has a tendency of creeping back in

#sad #hurt #broken #depressed #alone #lonely #anxiety #overthinking #suffocating #demons #cry #not slay #all alone

i-will-recover-tomorrow

nyctofilic

agoraphobia-anxiety

To the point where you stop living.

7nvk

i dont know what its like to not be in pain anymore

homunculus-argument

Anyone else have that thing where you get stressed out when someone else is in a bad mood because now it's your responsibility to make them feel better, but if you're in a bad mood and someone tries to cheer you up you get stressed out because now it's your responsibility to pretend that it's helping to make them feel better.

homunculus-argument

Oh so this is probably a trauma thing too. Bitches have one terrible childhood and then make it their whole personality. I'm bitches.

Stockholm syndrome

My minds the captor

my soul the captured

The cruel thoughts tear apart the once full self

Nights are never ending

Over thinking, over analysing details and expressions and tones

Messages are read and read and read again

Finding non existent reasons indicating hatred

Isolation mixed with codependency

Surrounding oneself with anyone but herself