I donât really need to explain as to why I am moving, but it is something I wanna get off my chest.
People who knew me from my previous blog (and in this blog too tbh) knows how much I hate/despise/loathe Endgame. Iâve spent months venting about that hate with a burning (and boiling) passion.
But I am very tired.
And frankly, quite sad with what happened to the fandom.
I don't really need to explain as to why I am moving, but it is something I wanna get off my chest.
People who knew me from my previous blog (and in this blog too tbh) knows how much I hate/despise/loathe Endgame. I've spent months venting about that hate with a burning (and boiling) passion.
But I am very tired.
And frankly, quite sad with what happened to the fandom.
I haven't been with the fandom very long. Just about a year and a half. But prior to Endgame, I can say that I enjoyed being in it. I can even say that joining the fandom was one of the best moments of my life. I get to be around people who share the same love and passion over characters and ships as much as I do.
Then Endgame happened.
It devastated the fandom. Not only the Stucky fandom, but various fandoms within the MCU. We were all angry, frustrated, disappointed, and felt so many other emotions we can associate to unhappiness.
We were all unhappy for various reasons, and we had every right to feel that way!
Not even as shippers, but as people who love the characters greatly. Characters, who we as fans, identified with/admired/aspired to be/cared for/etc.Or even as fans of the MCU in general.
The fandom came together. Comforted each other. Made new content to make each other happy.Â
But over time, I witnessed ugly truths about some parts of the fandom come out one by one. Truths I have been desperately denying that exists for a time. (I won't state them anymore. Iâm not looking for a fight.)
It made me felt unsafe in the fandom I am in. And it broke me even more than Endgame did.
Everyone has their own pace in recovering from something so disappointing. This is something I understand greatly. There are days when I can say I am already okay. Then within the same day, I will feel so much anger, sadness and grief about what happened that Iâd have a hard time doing anything but cry or lie down because I'm tired and angry.
But I don't wanna associate something that I enjoy and love so much with so much hate and negativity to the point that I donât think itâs justifiable anymore.
I acknowledge that I have contributed to the chaos as well. I canât say I regret it since I met new friends through it. I also know that it was a process I had to go through to recover. However, I am sorry to anyone who got hurt because of it.
I am now drawing a line. For my own well-being, and for those who are as tired as I am about the chaos. For those who just wanna enjoy what they love again.
I will be over at @lyricayed starting on October for a new environment and fresh start. This was also the reason why I left my old blog. But I guess I wasn't ready to move past the hate when I did, so it still happened on this blog. And this is something I won't let myself repeat on the new blog. I donât wanna lose sight of who I am anymore.Â
I still and will always hate Endgame, but I wonât talk about the movie anymore in general. The new blog will be an anti/hate-free zone.
I would love to follow blogs who love Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes both as individuals and as a relationship (platonic/romantic/etc.) So if you are one, I hope to get to meet you there and bond over stuff within and even beyond the MCU (especially since I wonât blog about future MCU projects post-Endgame)
To the friends I've met in the fandom, I love you all! Our friendship grew beyond fandom-related stuff and I hope it will continue to grow. See you there <3
To the Stucky fandom (former and current members), thank you! Weâve comforted each other through dark times, but I want to move past the dark. I hope we find the kind of love we all once shared, no matter the fandom we are in or end up in <3
âVillainy was not simply the red raging glory of inflicting (âŚ) pain; it was also the curdling knowledge of having inflicted injustice. A villain simply did not care. Only the victims did.âÂ
                          - Meredith Duran.
This scene honestly fucked me up. Scott loves his daughter SO MUCH, and he tried SO HARD to be there for her â from doing his best to get and keep parole after doing his prison time so her could have visitation, to taking a deal and living under house arrest after the Sokovia Accords so he could see his daughter and be present for her childhood.
And then he misses it anyway.
He misses five years and in that time his little girl grows into a teenager and he didnât get to be there for any of it, and he doesnât get those years back. He doesnât get to be there for her like heâs tried so hard to be and has always wanted to be, and thatâs one of the cruelest things you can do to Scott Lang.
Cassieâs alive, but in a way he still lost his little girl. Thereâs a profound relief here that sheâs alive, but thereâs a deep grief too, and it hits me like a gut punch every time.Â
Y'all remember how in the Avengers Assemble cartoon Steve wanted to draw his father but couldn't remember his face and then by the end of the episode when Clint gave him this photo.... He started crying!!!
âThis is all wrong. I shouldnât be up here. I should be back in school, on the other side of the ocean. Yet, you all come to us young people for hope. How dare you?
You have stolen my dreams and my childhood with your empty words, yet I am one of the lucky ones. People are suffering. People are dying. Entire ecosystems are collapsing. We are in the beginning of a mass extinction and all you can talk about is money and fairy tales of eternal economic growth.
AND FOR FUCKâS SAKE, ITâS NOT âSIKEâ; ITâS âPSYCHâ. AS IN âI PSYCHED YOU OUTâ; BECAUSE YOU MOMENTARILY MADE SOMEONE BELIEVE SOMETHING THAT WASNâT TRUE.
To my followers who speak & write in English as a second language: the caps locks and the frustration might come across as scary or even personally pointed, but all the information is valuable, even (and lbr ESPECIALLY) to native English speakers & writers!
What you are doing here is exactly what you donât want done to you: stereotyping people based on their sexual orientation. Way to be just like the people you hate. Congratulations, you too can be a bigot and an asshole.