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β¦..not even six hours later i got an offer of a well paying full time long-term job with free room and board in queens in nyc, allowing me independence and a way to escape an abusive situation and an unhealthy environment
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the last time I reblogged this post right before I got a great job, in a permanent work-from-home position, with benefits, retirement, and a salary literally 3x what I was making before, doing something I really like.Β
Junior year rolls around and ohh has highschoolsweetheart!Eren changed.
You hear him before you see himβhis voice cutting through the morning hum of students catching up after the summer break. Itβs familiar, unmistakable, and yet, when you turn around, your breath catches in your throat.
Oh.
This was not the Eren Yeager you left behind in sophomore year.
Gone was the lanky boy who used to trip over his own feet during gym class, the one who wore those wrinkled short-sleeved button-downs with the same rotation of black skinny jeans and scuffed Converse. The Eren standing before you now was⦠different.
Taller. Broader. The summer had done something to himβhis arms, his shoulders, his entire build had filled out in a way that made your brain short-circuit for a moment. His hair, once perpetually messy but in a boyish kind of way, had grown out just enough to curl at the ends. He still had that same wild energy, the same excitement in his eyes as he grinned at you, but there was something undeniably new about him. And he was pretty. Not that he wasnβt always attractiveβhe was, and youβd never denied it to yourself. But this? This was unfair.
βy/n!!β He reaches you in a few easy strides, completely oblivious to the way your brain is currently buffering. Before you can even react, heβs throwing an arm around your shoulders like itβs nothing, pulling you in for one of those classic Yeager side hugs, all warm and familiar and way too casual for the internal meltdown youβre having.
βDude, I havenβt seen you all summer!β he exclaims, ruffling your hair in that annoying way he always does, like youβre still kids and he doesnβt look like he walked straight out of a teenage coming-of-age movie. βWhyβd you ignore my texts? I was about to file a missing person report.β
You blink. Heβs looking at you like he hasnβt changed at all, like he isnβt standing there all tall and golden, like he isnβt suddenly one of the hottest guys in school. And you? Youβre still standing there like an idiot, trying to piece together a response.
βIβ I was busy,β you manage to say, and itβs only half a lie. You had been busy, but youβd also needed space. Space to sort out the mess of feelings that being best friends with Eren Yeager had turned into over the years.
Eren, being Eren, doesnβt notice your internal crisis. βPfft, busy. You mean ghosting me?β he teases, nudging your side. βI shouldβve just shown up at your house.β
You scoff, regaining some of your composure as you roll your eyes. βLike my mom wouldnβt have loved that. Sheβs still convinced weβre secretly dating.β
Eren barks out a laugh, shaking his head as he tosses it back. βSheβs been saying that since middle school. At this point, I think sheβs just manifesting.β
Your heart lurches at his words, but you shove the feeling down. This is Eren. Your best friend. The same guy who used to perform Justin Bieber songs in the middle of the quad for you. He might look different now, but heβs still him. Even if the way people are starting to stare at himβat you two togetherβis making your stomach twist in a way youβre not quite ready to admit.
The first day of junior year had barely started, and yet, you already felt like you were walking through some alternate reality. Eren was still draped over you, arm slung around your shoulders like it was the most natural thing in the world, completely oblivious to the way people were looking. Correction: the way people were looking at him. It was impossible to ignore. You could hear the whispers as you walked down the hallway together, the way heads turned when he passed.
You roll your eyes, scoffing as you nudge him off you, but the warmth of his arm lingers on your shoulder. βYeah, well, sheβs gonna have to give it up eventually. Weβre not dating.β You don't know if you say it to convince yourself that there is no possibility it would become reality.
Eren grins like a bad little kid, his eyes glinting in that Eren Yeager way that usually spells trouble. βNot yet.β
Your heart does this annoying little skip in your chest, but you quickly shove him with more force this time, scowling to hide the smile that forms against your own will. βShut up.β
He just laughs, dodging your next attack like the menace he is. βDamn, I missed you,β he grins, and thereβs something about the way he says itβcasual, easy, genuineβthat makes your stomach flip. You hate how easily he gets under your skin. How he annoyingly burrowed his way into your heart.
Before you can retaliate, a group of girls passes by, whispering not-so-subtly behind their hands. You recognize some of themβvolleyball girls, cheerleaders, a couple of girls from your English classβbut they barely spare you a glance. Their eyes are all locked on Eren. And he knows it. The worst part? You know he knows it, too.
One of them, a tall blonde with perfectly curled hair, flashes him a bright smile. βHey, Eren,β she says, twirling a strand around her finger like it's a damn high school movie. You're usually a girl's girl, but right now you were shooting daggers at her.
Eren, to his credit, doesnβt look phased. He just tilts his head, grinning in that annoying way that makes your blood boil. βHey.β
Thatβs it. Hey. And yet, the girl giggles, and you want to die. Itβs like some cruel joke. Last year, nobody would have given him a second glance. He was your Erenβgoofy, loud, a little dorky, always getting himself into trouble. Now? Now heβs on the varsity football team, his arms are looking a little too good in that fitted black tee, and suddenly heβs the guy every girl is looking at.
You hate it. You donβt even know why you hate it, but you do.
Eren barely acknowledges them, turning back to you like nothing happened. βAnyway,β he says, slinging an arm over your shoulder again like itβs nothing, like he doesnβt know what heβs doing to you. βWhat class you got first?β
You shake yourself out of whatever weird haze youβre in, clearing your throat. βUhβmath. Mr. Moblit.β Your eyes scan over the salmon pink piece of paper that held your class schedule, and Eren leans in just a little too close to read it.
He groans, dramatically throwing his head back. βUgh, lucky. I got stuck with Mr. Shadis.β
You snicker. βThat sucks.β You can't help but smile when you see the same characteristics from Eren. Even if he did look fine ass hell, oh so different from last year, he still acted the same.
βI know, right?β He sighs, dropping his head onto your shoulder in fake despair. βIf I fail, just know itβs because Shadis has it out for me.β
βYou fail because you never pay attention,β you remind him. You've had plenty of classes with Eren, with him always sitting next to you. He would be doing anything but pay attention.
βOkay, but, like, who even uses calculus in real life?β Eren squints his eyes, and you can feel every little movement he does as his head rests on your shoulder.
You roll your eyes, shoving him off you for the second time, ignoring the way your skin tingles where his head was resting. βCome on, dummy. Weβre gonna be late.β
He groans again but follows after you anyway, falling into step beside you like always. Like nothingβs changed. Except everything has changed. And youβre starting to realize you have no idea what to do about it.
Lunch rolls around, and you find yourself dragging your feet through the cafeteria, still processing the weirdness of the morning. Youβre not sure what to make of Erenβs sudden glow-upβor the way your chest does this annoying little flutter every time he looks at you like nothingβs changed. All the effort of trying to get over your little crush on Eren was wiped clean, the boy really had a grip on your heart now.
You end up at your usual lunch table, the one you share with Ymir and Historia, Sasha too but she was going to the culinary club's welcome party because duh, Sasha isn't going to miss out on extra free food. The two of them are already sitting, bickering about something stupid, but the moment you drop into the seat next to them, itβs like they both sense somethingβs off. They can feel the energy radiating off of you, the look on your face when something is bothering you. Ymir eyes you with a raised brow, and Historiaβs gaze flickers to the door, where Eren is walking in, looking effortlessly cool, chatting with Armin as they make their way toward your table.
βOh, boy,β Ymir mutters under her breath. βYouβve got that look on your face. Whatβs going on with you and Yeager?β
"How do you know it's something between me and Eren?" You raise an eyebrow, a little frustrated that she knows you so well.
"It's always about Yeager," Ymir and Historia say in unison, giving you that look of obviousness.
You roll your eyes. βItβs nothing. Weβre fine.β A deep sigh still escapes your lips as you open the bottle of apple juice your lunch came with.
βMmmhmm,β Ymir hums skeptically, but she doesnβt push it. Historia, on the other hand, flashes you a concerned smile. Her brows perch up with sympathy.
βYou sure? Youβve been actingβ¦ different.β Her voice is soft, almost too knowing, but itβs enough to make you squirm.
βSeriously, Iβm fine,β you say, the words coming out a little sharper than you intended. But itβs not like theyβre wrong. You have been acting weird. And itβs all because of Eren, damn that boy.
Your thoughts are cut short as Eren plops down next to you, his familiar arm slinging around your shoulders like itβs the most natural thing in the world. βYo! Whatβs up, guys?β His voice is as loud and cheerful as always, but thereβs something in the way his eyes linger on you that makes your stomach twist. Ymir raises an eyebrow, but Eren doesnβt seem to notice. Historiaβs gaze flits between you two, but she stays quiet, focusing on her lunch.
βHey, y/n,β Eren says, his voice a little softer now, and you feel your heart race. βYou doing okay?β Your eyes flicker to him, seeing his pretty face in a concerned look as he stares at the side of your internally panicked face. It's enough to make your insides ache, enough to make your heart beat a thousand times faster.
βYeah, justβ¦ tired,β you reply, shrugging it off like itβs no big deal, even though your mind is anything but calm.
βYou sure?β His expression softens, and for a second, itβs like the world fades out, leaving just the two of you. His hand, warm against your back, feels like itβs burning right through your shirt. βYou donβt look fine.β
You canβt help the heat that rises to your cheeks. βIβm fine, really.β
Eren nods but doesnβt look convinced. He leans in a little, lowering his voice so only you can hear, βIf you say so. Just know, if you need anything, Iβve got your back, yeah?β
Your heart stutters at his words, the genuine concern in his voice tugging at something deep inside you. But the moment is interrupted by the loud cackle of a voice from across the table.
βYou hear that, Historia?β Ymir teases, her grin far too knowing. βErenβs looking out for y/n. Makes me wonder if youβve got competition, huh?β
Eren laughs, unbothered, and flicks Ymirβs ear. βShut up, Ymir. You know itβs justββ He looks at you for a moment, his grin faltering, then shrugs it off. βJust what we do. We're best friends. Nothing weird.β
You feel your heart drop a little, but you brush it off. βRight. Nothing weird.β It's almost as if you're trying to reassure yourself, which, let's be honest, you really were trying to. Trying to convince yourself that it's all in your head.
But the way Erenβs smiling at you, like he knows more than heβs letting on, makes your pulse race. His eyes linger a little too long, and you wonder if heβs trying to figure something out, too. The tension is palpable, thick enough that even Ymir and Historia seem to sense it. They share a glance, but neither of them says anything. Instead, Ymir kicks you under the tableβhard enough to make you wince.
βAye, stop thinking too much,β Ymir's expression says, clearly reading you like an open book. She doesn't even have to say anything for you to understand what she's trying to say βJust enjoy the moment. Erenβs not going anywhere.β And for the first time today, you almost believe her.
The conversation drifts as you try to settle back into the easy rhythm of lunch. But the moment is short lived. The clatter of trays and the loud chatter of students fills the air, and before you can catch your breath, a new wave of noise arrives.
Reiner, with his usual cocky grin, leads the pack of jocks toward your table. His broad frame and confident swagger draw attention the way Erenβs used to, but this time, you canβt help but notice the way the girls at nearby tables watch Reiner too. Heβs got that easy, good-looking charm, but there's something about Eren that just hits different, even now, when the jocks are slowly taking over the cafeteriaβs social pecking order.
βYo, Yeager!β Reiner calls, leaning over the back of your seat, making you jump in surprise. βYou ditching us for the weirdos?β
Erenβs arm drops from your shoulders as he shifts his attention to Reiner, but not without a small, teasing grin. βIf youβre calling them weirdos, I think youβve got the wrong table, man.β
A few of the other guys laugh, though itβs more because itβs Eren, and heβs got that goofy, unpredictable humor. The girls now huddled around your table all stand up a little straighter, their eyes darting toward Eren, and you feel a sudden, sharp pang of frustration deep in your chest. You try to ignore it, to keep the casual mask in place, but somethingβs different now. The subtle tension between Eren and youβitβs like itβs palpable to everyone but the two of you.
Reiner, not one to let Eren off easy, takes a seat beside him, shoving his shoulder lightly. βCome on, man, weβve got practice in an hour. Iβm dragging you back, and weβre gonna talk strategy, not... whatever this is.β His eyes flick over to you, and you swear you catch a hint of amusement in them. Itβs like he knows something you donβt.
Eren glances back at you, his expression a little unsure, like heβs debating whether to stay or go. For a brief moment, his eyes soften, but then, in typical Eren fashion, he shrugs and grins, looking more at ease than you feel. A part of you hopes he'll choose to stay, just to reassure you that things really didn't change.
βAlright, alright, Iβll go. But only because youβre begging.β He stands up, brushing his hands off as if heβs wiping away the conversation, like he doesnβt even see the way your heart drops when he stands a little too far away from you now.
You open your mouth to say somethingβanythingβbut the words get stuck. All that leaves your mouth is a disappointed huff of a breath. Eren turns back toward you, like heβs about to say something, but then his attention shifts to the group of jocks calling him over.
βLater, y/n!β he calls, throwing a casual wave over his shoulder. βDonβt miss me too much, alright?β
Youβre left frozen, your hand still halfway raised as you force a smile, though it feels more like a grimace. Reiner slaps Erenβs back in that overly friendly way he always does, and Eren just laughs, falling into step with him as they make their way to the other side of the cafeteria. You hate the way your stomach twists watching them go. Itβs like theyβre speaking an entirely different languageβone youβre not part of. The table around you is quieter now. Historia looks at you, her expression sympathetic, but Ymirβwell, she looks way too smug for your liking.
βWanna talk about it?β Ymir teases, but itβs not unkind.
You sigh, dropping your gaze to your lunch. βThereβs nothing to talk about.β
βUh huh,β Ymir replies, that knowing smirk still lingering on her lips. βIβm pretty sure Erenβs just trying to keep his cool in front of the jocks. Youβve seen the way heβs been around you lately. He likes you, trust me.β
You frown, not sure how to respond. Eren might be acting like nothingβs changed, but everything has changed. And the worst part? Youβre not sure if he even knows it yet.
βDonβt worry,β Historia sympathetically adds, her tone reassuring. βHeβll figure it out eventually. Youβll figure it out.β
You give a noncommittal hum, not sure if you're ready to figure anything out just yet. But as you glance across the room, watching Eren laugh with Reiner and the others, you can't shake the feeling that somethingβs coming. Something big. Some type of shift. You spend the rest of lunch pushing food around your tray, pretending not to notice the way your eyes keep flickering toward the jock table.
Eren looks goodβannoyingly, frustratingly good. Heβs leaned back in his chair, laughing at something Jean said, that lazy grin plastered across his face like he doesnβt have a single care in the world. His long fingers drum absentmindedly against the table, and when one of the cheerleadersβAnnieβs friend Hitch, you thinkβleans in to whisper something to him, your stomach twists.
You snap your gaze away, cursing yourself. Why are you even watching? Youβre not his girlfriend. Youβre his best friend. And best friends do not sit there like jealous exes just because other girls are realizing what youβve known for yearsβEren Yeager is stupidly, effortlessly attractive.
βYouβre making it too obvious.β Ymirβs voice is flat and teasing. You donβt even have to look at her to know sheβs smirking.
βI donβt know what youβre talking about,β you mutter, shoving a bite of food into your mouth just to have something to do.
βMm. Right. And Iβm straight.β Ymir leans on her fist, watching you with open amusement. Historia sighs, nudging her in the ribs before giving you a softer look.
βIf it makes you feel any better,β Historia offers, βhe hasnβt actually looked at her once.β
Your eyes dart up before you can stop yourself, andβ Historiaβs right. Erenβs nodding along to something Reinerβs saying, but his gaze keeps drifting. Heβs scanning the cafeteria, like heβs looking for something. Or someone. And then, just like that, his eyes find yours. For a second, time stutters.
Erenβs lips part slightly, like he wasnβt expecting to catch you staring, and for a fleeting moment, something flickers across his face. Something unsure. Something vulnerable. But then Reiner nudges himβtoo hard, probably on purposeβand Eren snaps out of it, laughing as he shoves him back. And just like that, the moment is gone. You exhale sharply, turning away. You hate this. The push and pull, the way he makes you feel like maybeβjust maybeβthereβs something more, only to act like nothingβs changed the next second. Maybe nothing has changed. Maybe the only thing different is you.
βYou should talk to him,β Historia says gently.
You scoff, picking at your food. βAnd say what? βHey, Eren, just wondering if youβve realized youβre hot yet and if that means youβre too good for me now?ββ
Ymir cackles, hands drumming on the lunch table as she childishly kicks her feet. βI mean, I would pay to see you say that to his face.β
You groan, rubbing your temples. βThis is a nightmare. It's never been this complicated with Eren before.β It had always been complicated, but not this complicated.
Historia opens her mouth to say something else, but before she can, the cafeteria doors swing open, and the familiar screech of a whistle pierces the air.
βFootball team! Practice starts now!β Coach Smith stands at the entrance, arms crossed, his stoic expression already promising death if they donβt get to moving. The jock table groans, but they all start standing, grabbing their trays. Eren stretches as he gets up, his shirt riding up just enough to show a hint of skin, and you swear you hear one of the volleyball girls sigh dreamily. You roll your eyes so hard it almost hurts.
Eren turns, catching your expression, and grins. βWhatβs that look for?β
You school your face into something neutral, a deadpan almost. βNothing. Just wondering if youβll survive an entire practice without getting distracted by your fan club.β
He blinks, then laughsβlike really laughs, loud and unfiltered. βPfft, fan club? Yeah, right.β
You open your mouth, ready to argue, but then you stop. Becauseβheβs serious. He really doesnβt see it. All the stares, the whispers, the way girlsβentire groups of themβare looking at him like he hung the damn moon. He doesnβt even notice. Erenβs still just Eren, in his own head. You should be relieved. Maybe you are. But mostly, you just feel confused and overwhelmed.
βWell, try not to get tackled into the ground,β you say instead, grabbing your drink to take a sip.
Eren grins, nudging you lightly as he starts to walk away. βAw, you worried about me, y/n?β
The drink nearly chokes you, the cooing tone of his voice making you feel uneasy and bashful. βNot even a little.β
He just laughs, throwing one last lazy wave over his shoulder before jogging after Reiner and the rest of the team. And you? You watch him go, stomach twisting, hating the way his absence already feels like a weight pressing down on your chest.
The late afternoon sun hangs low in the sky, casting long shadows over the football field. The team is mid-drill, running play after play under the sharp bark of Coach Smith. Eren is breathless, sweat slicking his skin, but his mind isnβt really in it. Not fully, anyway.
Because youβre sitting on the bleachers, and youβre laughing at something Historia just said, and itβs distracting as hell. His gaze keeps flickering toward the bleachers, toward where youβre sitting with your friends. You look relaxed, leaning back with one knee pulled up. He canβt hear a word from this far, but that doesnβt matter. He knows your expressions by heartβevery little eye roll, every laugh, the way your lips purse when youβre pretending to be annoyed but arenβt really.
Heβs staring again.
βYeager! Focus!β The loud shout of Coach Smith jolts him out of his trance, but itβs too late. Whooosh.
Eren barely ducks in time to avoid a pass he wasnβt paying attention to. Jean groans in exasperation, throwing his head back and smacking his hands on his pads. βDude, wake up! What the hell are you even looking at?β
Eren shakes his head quickly, clearing his throat. βNothing,β he lies, trying to mask the way his heartbeat kicks up. Grabbing the football that he failed to catch, slackly tossing it back to Jean.
Jean, of course, is already following his gaze, his eyes landing exactly where Eren doesnβt want them to. The smirk that stretches across Jeanβs face is almost unbearable. βRight. Nothing.β
Eren scowls, shoving Jean as he jogs past. But before he can settle back into formation, something shifts near the bleachersβmovement that immediately snags his attention. Someoneβs walking up to you. Erenβs brows furrow as he squints. The guy is tall, lanky, his bright red hair messy in a way that seems purposefully unkempt. Heβs wearing a ripped band tee, chains dangling from his jeans, andβoh, great. Floch Forster.
The guy moves with a swagger that makes Erenβs teeth grind. Ripped jeans, faded punk band tee, chains dangling from his belt loopsβhe looks like he just crawled out of a basement concert. Floch has always been a talker, a surprisingly smooth one at that, and judging by the way he leans in, heβs in full flirt mode. Eren watches, growing tenser by the second. He expects you to roll your eyes, wave him off, something. But you donβt. You tilt your head slightly, a small, amused smile tugging at your lips. Why arenβt you moving away? Erenβs jaw tightens. Then Floch takes another step closer. Thatβs it.
Eren doesnβt even realize his feet are moving until Jean grabs his jersey. βDude, where are youβ?β
βIβll be back,β Eren mutters, ripping himself free and jogging toward the bleachers before anyone can stop him.
You hadnβt expected company, least of all from Floch Forster. Historia had just nudged you, muttering something about incoming trouble, and before you could even react, there he wasβFlorian βFlochβ Forster, king of misplaced confidence, leaning against the railing like he had all the time in the world. You donβt hate Floch. You donβt like him, either, but heβs harmless enough. Heβs always been a little too flirty, but in a way thatβs more for show than anything else.
βWell, well,β he drawls, his signature gaudy smirk already in place. βIf it isnβt the prettiest girl in the bleachers.β
You exhale through your nose. βOh, god.β
Floch grins, clearly unfazed. βWhat? Thatβs a genuine compliment. Youβre breaking my heart here, y/n.β His tone is cocky, almost annoying.
You tilt your head, unimpressed. βDo you even have one?β A grin forms on your face, it felt kind of good to banter and maybe knock him down a peg.
βOof.β He presses a dramatic hand to his chest, cheesing way too hard. βHarsh. But hey, I like a challenge. Yβknow, if you ever wanna find out, I could show youββ
βYou couldnβt,β you cut in. It's a little abrupt, shocks Historia a bit at the snappiness, but it just comes out.
Floch laughs, plopping down beside you with zero hesitation. βAlright, alright, Iβll cut to the chase.β He leans back on his palms, eyes flicking toward the football field before settling back on you. βHow long are you gonna keep pretending your best friend isnβt in love with you?β
You choke on your drink, sitting up straighter now as you sputter a cough. βExcuse me?β
Floch just raises a brow, looking entirely too smug for your liking. βCome on, y/n. The guy stares at you like you hung the goddamn stars. Itβs actually painful to watch.β
Your face burns, but you force a scoff. βYouβre delusional.β
Floch shakes his head, watching your reaction closely. βAm I? Heβs been in love with you since, what, forever? But the dudeβs an idiot, so I get why youβre waiting. Heβs probably still convinced youβre out of his league.β Out of his league?
Something about that statement makes your stomach clench. Thatβs not true. Right? Floch doesnβt miss the flicker of doubt in your eyes. His smirk stretches a little wider, sensing an opening.
βBut yβknow,β he continues, shifting closer, voice dropping just slightly, βif heβs not gonna make a move, maybe you should let someone else have a shot.β
Your lips part, caught off guard. βWhat?β
Floch leans in just enough for the air between you to thin, to start smelling like his axe cologne. βIβm just saying,β he murmurs. βMaybe you should let someone who actually sees you take you out sometime.β
Oh, you think, heartbeat stuttering slightly. Although your mind was still half focused on what he said about Eren. Before you can formulate a response, something shifts in the airβsharp and tense.
βOh, hell no.β
The voice is unmistakable. Your head snaps up just in time to see Erenβsweaty, breathless, and looking pissedβhopping the railing in one effortless motion.
Floch doesnβt move. He just smirks. βWell, speak of the devil.β
Eren doesnβt respond, his fists clenching at his sides. His green eyesβusually filled with something bright, warmβare now dark with irritation.
βWhat the hell are you doing here, Forster?β
Floch tilts his head, all mock innocence. βRelax, man. Just having a friendly conversation.β
Erenβs jaw ticks. βYeah? Well, have it somewhere else.β
The tension is thick, electric with an almost uncomfortable tension. You glance between them, unsure if you should intervene. Maybe you should, but all you can do is look up at Eren. The way some strands of hair stick to his forehead, the way his thick brows are furrowed. The way he almost seems territorial over you.
Floch exhales, shaking his head like this is all some kind of joke. He shifts his gaze back to you. βReally? Youβre just gonna let him chase me off like that?β
You hesitate. And that hesitation is all Floch needs.
He incredulously chuckles under his breath, standing up and dusting himself off. βMan,β he mutters, shaking his head. βYou really donβt see it, do you?β
Erenβs jaw tightens. βSee what?β
Floch flashes one last cynical smirk before turning to leave. βNothing, man. Nothing at all.β
And just like that, heβs gone, his chains jingling as he strolls down the metal steps like he hadnβt just stirred up a storm. The silence he leaves behind is suffocating.
You exhale, crossing your arms as you finally shake out of your daze. βThat was so unnecessary.β
Eren scoffs, finally looking at you. βHeβs a dick.β
You narrow your eyes. βHe wasnβt doing anything wrong.β
Eren looks at you then, really looks at you, and for a split second, something unreadable flickers behind his eyes. His lips part like he wants to say somethingβsomething importantβbut instead, he just shakes his head.
βForget it.β
And with that, he turns, hopping back over the railing and jogging toward the field without a second glance. But you know better. It wasnβt nothing. And now, you donβt know what to do about it.
Eren doesnβt look at you for the rest of practice. Not once. Itβs infuriating. From your spot on the bleachers, you watch as he throws himself back into drills like heβs got something to prove, pushing harder than necessary, muscles taut with tension. His jaw is tight, brows furrowed in concentrationβbut you know him. You know when heβs actually focused and when heβs just using the game as an excuse to run from something. You also know whatβor whoβheβs running from.
You exhale, frustrated. Itβs not like you wanted Flochβs attention. Hell, you wouldβve been fine never speaking to him again. But Eren had stormed over like he owned you, like it was his problem to handle, and now he wonβt even look at you? It was all too confusing.
Eren misses a catch from Bertholdt, taking off his helmet and throwing it to the ground with an audible 'fuck!' that echoed around the football field. Running a hand through his sweat drenched hair, the frustration in his face is super evident.
Historia, sitting beside you, hums in amusement. βThat was deliciously messy,β she murmurs, sipping from her water bottle. "The whole situation. Possessive Eren, the little bicker, everything."
βItβs annoying.β A scoff leaves your lips and you can't help but stare at Eren with a confused and irritated expression.
βOh, itβs both.β
Ymir snickers, her sunglass covered eyes looking at the way Eren is still pouting. βDumbass is jealous.β
You roll your eyes. βHe is not jealous.β
Ymir glances at you with an expression so patronizing you want to shove her off the bleachers. βRight. He just lost his entire mind over Floch flirting with you for no reason at all.β
You open your mouth to argue, but nothing comes out. Becauseβyeah. The thing is, Eren isnβt the jealous type. Heβs never been possessive over you before, never given you any reason to think he cared about who talked to you. Heβs always been the annoying oneβflirting playfully, ruffling your hair, teasing you about your nonexistent love life like it was all some big joke. And maybe it was. Maybe he was just messing around, just playing into the dynamic youβd always had. But today felt different. And that scared you more than anything.
You wait for him by the locker room. Itβs a stupid idea. You know itβs a stupid idea. You couldβve gone home, couldβve ignored the way your pulse has been pounding ever since practice ended, ever since he stormed off like you did something wrong. You couldβve pretended it didnβt bother youβthe way he looked right through you for the rest of practice, the way his body went stiff when you so much as moved in his direction, the way he threw himself into drills like he was trying to hit something that wasnβt there.
But youβre still here. Waiting.
The late afternoon sun is sinking lower in the sky, drenching everything in a honey-gold glow. It should be pretty, peaceful even, but the knot in your stomach makes it hard to appreciate. The air is thick, humid from the lingering heat of the day, and your skin feels sticky, uncomfortable. The locker room door swings open in intervals, groups of players filtering out, laughing, talking about parties, weekend plans, things you canβt bring yourself to care about.
Thenβfinallyβhe steps out. Eren.
You feel his presence before you even see him, your body going still, your heart stuttering in your chest. He looks good. Unfairly so. His hoodie is loose over his shoulders, damp hair falling into his face, a few strands curling at the ends. His skin is still flushed from exertion, the glow of the sunset catching on the sharp lines of his jaw, the hollow of his throat where the collar of his hoodie has slipped down just enough. Heβs effortlessly attractive, in a way that makes your stomach twist with something you donβt want to name.
He notices you immediately. Stops in his tracks. Something flickers across his faceβsomething unreadableβbut then itβs gone, replaced by a carefully neutral expression, like he wasnβt just throwing a damn fit over you and Floch thirty minutes ago.
Your arms cross tightly over your chest. βYou ran off.β
Eren exhales, looking past you, jaw tight and thick brows furrowed. βDidnβt run.β His voice is flat, clipped. You know him too well to miss the way his fingers twitch at his sides, the way his shoulders are tense even though heβs trying to look casual.
You take a step closer. βEren.β
His jaw ticks. βWhat?β
Thatβs all he saysβshort, sharp, like a blade cutting through the space between you. It makes irritation flare in your chest, a spark igniting beneath your ribs. Heβs the one who lost his mind over nothing. Heβs the one who got weird. And now heβs acting like youβre the problem?
You grit your teeth. βAre you seriously mad at me?β
His head snaps toward you so fast it nearly startles you. βMad at you?β He lets out a dry, humorless scoff, running a hand through his hair, making the damp strands even messier. βIβm notβJesus, y/n. I just donβt get why you were even entertaining that guy.β
Your stomach drops. The word entertaining rubs you the wrong way, makes your irritation flare into something hotter. βI wasnβt entertaining anyone,β you snap, voice tight.
Eren exhales sharply, shifting his weight like heβs trying to hold something back. βHe was all over you.β yeah, he was dragging it.
Your lips press together. βAnd?β
His eyes darken, flickering with something upsetting, something raw. βAnd I didnβt like it.β
Itβs barely above a whisper, but it slams into you like a physical force. Your breath catches. The words linger between you, heavy, charged with something neither of you can name but both of you can feel. Your heartbeat is erratic, hammering against your ribs. Youβre staring at him, searching his face for answers, for clarity, for anythingβbut heβs already looking away, already forcing his expression into something unreadable, like he didnβt just say something that made your entire world shift on its axis.
He knows. You know he knows. And that terrifies both of you.
He inhales sharply, like heβs about to say something elseβbut then he stops himself. A muscle in his jaw twitches before he shakes his head. βForget it.β
βNo,β you say quickly, stepping forward, voice urgent, desperate. βErenββ
But heβs already turning away. Already walking. And this time, you donβt try to stop him. Because the truth isβYouβre just as scared as he is.
You donβt know how long you stand there, staring at the space he left behind. Minutes? Seconds? It feels longer than it probably is, but the weight in your chest doesnβt go away. You donβt get it. Youβve had arguments with Eren before. Dumb ones. Stupid ones. Heβs annoyed you a million times, and youβve annoyed him right back. But this? This hurts in a way you donβt know how to process.
Because it felt real. Because it felt like something cracked open between youβsomething undeniable. And because deep down, in the part of you that youβve tried to shove away for years, you know the truth: You donβt want him to be okay with other guys flirting with you. You donβt want him to treat you the same way he treats every other girl. And if today proved anythingβif the way he reacted, the way he looked at you was any signβmaybe he doesnβt want that either. Maybe he never did.
Erenβs hands are clenched into fists as he walks, barely registering the conversations around him. His heart is still pounding. His body is itching with leftover adrenaline, but it has nothing to do with practice. What the hell was that? His own words play back in his mind, over and over. "I didnβt like it." What the fuck was he thinking, saying that out loud?
Heβs been reckless before. Heβs flirted with you for yearsβalways playfully, always in a way that he could pass off as a joke. But that? That wasnβt a joke. That was raw, unfiltered, stupid.
Because he canβt have you. Because you donβt see him that way. Because even if you did, heβs not good enough for you. Youβre y/n. Youβre his best friend. The girl who somehow makes everything in his life feel a little easier, a little lighter, just by being around. The girl heβs been in love with since he was old enough to understand what love is.
And you deserve someone better. Someone who isnβt just figuring out his place in the world. Someone who isnβt Eren Yeagerβimpulsive, reckless, always getting himself into trouble.
But even knowing thatβEven knowing he should stopβHe still turns around, just for a second, just to look back. Just to see if youβre still standing there. And when he sees youβarms crossed, head slightly bowed, looking like youβre caught up in your own spiralβIt fucking kills him. Because if he wasnβt such a coward, heβd tell you the truth. That he doesnβt just like you. Heβs yours. Heβs always been yours. But itβs too late now. And itβs all his fault.
synopsis: whatβs the difference between friends and βfriendsβ?
Terushimaβs a little miffed when you ask him for a ride home from the party. Partly because youβre a little bit tipsy and he doesnβt want to risk getting vomit on his new seat covers, but partly because he doesnβt like spending time alone with you.
Well, thatβs a lie. Heβd love to spend more time alone with you, actually. But itβs dangerous. Real dangerous.
βYou okay, there?β he asks, watching you out of the corner of his eye. Youβre leaning your head out the window, letting the night air wash over your skin like aloe over a burn β deliciously cool.Β
βIβm good, Yuuji,β you say, words nearly swept away by the wind. You duck back into the car and roll the window shut. The tension inside the car immediately thickens. βYou?β
βIβm fine,β Terushima says, voice breaking. He chews on his lip, making a sharp turn onto your street. All he has to do is get you home without blowing his cover. βI think this is you.β
βYou remember my address?β You turn to him with a surprised smile, unbuckling your seatbelt. βYouβve only been here, like, twice. Maybe not even that.β
βI have a good memory,β he says with a wooden laugh, trying to avoid looking anywhere below your neck. Your dress is a little too short, a little too low cut, to guarantee his emotional safety. Plus, βfriendsβ donβt look down βfriendsββ necklines.Β
hey this had been playing on my mind so i was wondering if i could request a eren x fem reader. so what do you think about a scenario where eren is tutoring the girl and she is sitting on his lap while they study but she accidentally keeps shifting around and he gets hard and then things progress from there β¦
anonnie. you're killing me. tutor eren = my dream man
bjhTHIS IS AAHHH' THIS IS AAHHHH
okay lemme stop losing my mind n here you go....
content warnings: unprotected sex(WRAP IT BEFORE U TAP IT!!!), degradation, praise, choking, creampie.
word count: 6.2k
edit: so this actually turned into a whole fic ummmm my bad. i heard tutor eren and got a little carried away.....
if anyone asked you, chemistry was the thing you hated most in this world. frankly, in your opinion, it was unnecessary and it made no sense! no matter how much you studied, the material seemed like another language to you.
inevitably, and much to your dismay, you were forced to get a tutor. you had never struggled so much in a subject before, so this was a first to you.
you needed a tutoring session as soon as possible, hoping to boost your grade in the class. when you had gotten the notification on your school email that you were assigned a tutor, you quickly opened it.
to: y/n5411@edu
from: chemistrydepartment@edu
Thank you for contacting us about enrolling with a tutor. This email is meant to notify you of your assigned tutor and provide you with their contact information. If you have any questions or are unable to view any contents of this email, please email us back or contact this number 913-470-8999. If you have any trouble getting in contact with your tutor, please also refer to the contact information just stated. Thank you!
URL to tutor information
you quickly opened the url, navigating the chemistry department website. once you logged in, your eyes widened when you read the name.
Tutor: Eren Jaeger
Contact Information: Phone - 913-875-9022
Email - erenjaeger4113@edu
this was just your luck. of course your tutor was the TA that you couldn't take your eyes off of when you were in class.
eren was a TA for your class section, so you saw him every monday, wednesday, and friday. for some reason, those were always the days you decided to ditch the sweatpants and put on light makeup.
eren was....hard not to notice. with his height and sea-green eyes, you couldn't help but glance over at him about 100 times throughout each class.
maybe that's why you were failing chemistry.
if he was your tutor, how were you meant to focus? you were convinced the universe was playing some sort of sick joke on you. either way, you had no choice but to play with the cards you were dealt. your next exam was at the end of this week, and there was no way they'd assign you a new tutor before then.
also, what reason were you meant to give them? you couldn't exactly send the chemistry department an email saying you had the hots for the tutor they assigned you, so you needed a new one.
you decided you could be civil enough to control yourself, and really focus on the material. you were here to get your degree, not to get heart eyes over some stupid boy.
you quickly drafted an email to eren,
to: erenjaeger4113@edu
from: y/n5411@edu
Hi Eren, my name is Y/N L/N. You were assigned as my tutor for chemistry 110, and I was wondering if you'd be open to go over material sometime this week? I'm really hoping to clarify some of the content before the exam on Friday, so it'd be great if you'd be free for a tutoring session. If not, I completely understand. Either way, thank you so much and have a great rest of your night.
Best,
Y/N L/N
you sent the email before you could stop yourself, and quickly shut your laptop. god, what were you getting yourself into?
when you had woken up next morning, eren had emailed you back.
to: y/n5411@edu
from: erenjaeger4113@edu
Hi Y/N! I'm actually free tonight at 6 if that works for you? Would you be okay with meeting at my dorm? I live in Mckee Hall. We can study in the common room. You can come with some example questions of what's been confusing you. Take some practice problems from the lecture slides that you didn't understand and we'll work through them together. Let me know if tonight works. Have a great rest of your day!
Sincerely,
Eren Jaeger
you had to stop yourself from blushing at his message. he was simply being polite and doing his job but for some reason you were smiling. you quickly drafted a reply thanking him and letting him know that tonight works and you'd see him then.
you shook your head, chastising yourself for getting all worked-up from a simple message. you closed your laptop and got ready for the day.
you don't know why you were so nervous. it was 6pm, exactly, and you were standing outside the main door of Mckee Hall, where eren had told you to meet him.
the door opened, and there he was, a pretty smile on his face. "y/n, right?"
you nodded your head, unable to form words. eren had on a simple brown sweater with a white shirt underneath, and khaki pants. his hair was done up in a half up, half down style, a bun tied at the back of his head.
"here, come on in, s'cold," he said, holding the door open for you. you thanked him, walking inside. eren led you to the study room, asking if you were able to find the dorm alright, to which you said yes. you thanked him for "being able to schedule so soon," to which eren smiled, saying it was no problem.
once the two of you were settled in to the study room, eren asked if you had gone through the lecture slides. you stuttered out a "y-yeah," pulling your notebook out of your backpack, opening up to the page where you had written down the problems.
eren stood up abruptly, startling you slightly. he laughed softly, grabbing his chair and moving it to your side of the table, directly next to yours. "sorry, just thought it'd be easier if we were next to each other," he spoke, looking right at you, "is that alright?"
"yeah s'alright m-makes sense," you said, smiling softly before looking back down at your notebook. your cheeks felt so hot, and you felt embarrassed getting nervous simply due to his proximity.
as he got closer, a vanilla, woody scent waved by your nose. it must be his cologne. god, he was pretty, he could dress, and he smelt good! how were you supposed to focus for the next two hours?
"mmkay," eren mumbled, looking at your notebook, "you have really nice handwriting," he said, smiling over at you. you gave him a quiet, "thank you," as eren read the first problem.
"okay, okay, so walk me through this first one. how would you start it?"
you grabbed your pencil and started by writing out the variables you knew, "mhm, good," eren assured you as you continued. you made a mishap with your first calculation, and eren stopped you.
"okay, hold on," he said softly. "d'you mind if i steal your pencil real fast?" he asked. "oh-oh! yeah yeah of course," eren laughed at you softly. your fingers brushed his as you handed him the pencil, and you swear your heart skipped a beat.
"okay so when we have heating curves like this one, it's important to recognize which equation we need to use." you nodded your head.
"you already started off really well, by writing what variables you have, that was really really great," he said smiling. you swear your cheeks were growing hotter by the second.
"so there's 3 possible equations we can use and we can find the right one based on the variables we know we have. first, deltaH minus the specific heat capacity...."
the two hours with eren seemed to go by in minutes. you were surprised that you were actually seeming to grasp some of the content. it helped how encouraging eren was, smiling and praising what you did correctly, and helping you re-route when you did something wrong.
he actually cheered when you did the last question correctly without any help from him, getting a "shh!" from another person in the study lounge. you giggled softly at his embarrassed face.
as you began to pack up, eren's voice caused your ears to perk up, "did you want to meet again this week to go over the study guide? and i can help with any questions you have as you work through it."
"u-uhm, yeah! that would be great, thank you so much," you smiled at him, eren returning an even bigger smile.
"does tuesday at 7 work?" eren asked, slinging his backpack over his shoulder. "that's perfect," you said, zipping yours closed. "o-okay, i'll see you then," he said, an almost shy demeanor taking over. "see you then," you copied, eren grinning at that. he held open the study lounge door for you, letting you walk out first.
you both paused, "well, uhm, thank you again, eren, this was really helpful,"
"of course, anytime, and i'll see you on tuesday," eren said. "tuesday," you smiled. "tuesday." eren said in a joking-serious tone causing you to giggle softly, his grin widening at the sound.
you started to walk away, giving eren a quick wave. eren gave you one back, smiling before he turned to walk up the staircase.
you couldn't help but grin the whole walk home.
tuesday came, and at exactly 6:58pm you were walking towards the main door of Mckee Hall, surprised to see eren sitting outside on the bench, waiting for you.
he looked up from his phone, smiling when he saw you. he stood up, putting his hands in his pockets, "hey," he said softly, "hi," you said back, in the same tone.
"ready to get your chemistry on?" eren joked, causing you to laugh softly. "please never ever say that again," you joked, eren giggling.
eren scanned his id card to get the two of you into the building, holding the door open for you.
it was cute that he had waited outside for you, backpack on and everything. the two of you walked to the study room, eren asking about how your day had been.
your conversation came to an abrupt end when the two of you entered the study room, to see there were no tables open. you looked at each other with a sort of "what now?" look.
eren's cheeks flushed slightly pink, "well uhm, w-we could study up in my room, o-only if you want! i-i just figured since we're already here, and like if you don't want to that's completely okay because.." he began to ramble on, unable to hear your "eren," as you smiled.
"i-i only suggested it because the lounge s'full, n like n-no funny business or anything, like obviously! and i uh..." you began to laugh, eren's rambling coming to a pause as he looked over at you.
he smiled, thinking to himself how pretty you were when you laughed. "eren," you said, once you had caught your breath, still smiling. "i'm more than okay with studying in your room"
"yeah?" he asked, his cheeks still a pretty pink. "yeah," you smiled, eren smiling softly before looking down at his shoes.
"u-uhm okay, alright, follow me," he said, leading you out of the study lounge and up to his room.
eren's room was nothing like you expected. being in his room let you take a little peek inside his brain. in looking at eren, you wouldn't expect it, but he was actually quite the nerd.
the top of his desk was lined with books, and funko pops from different animes. you smiled softly at the little nanami kento funko pop.
his walls were lined with posters and canvases. "you watch cowboy bebop?" you said, smiling at the poster.
"yeah, s'one of my favorites," he said. "me too," you replied turning to look at him with a soft smile.
eren watched as you explored his room, smiling at the way you were so intrigued. "these canvases," you started, "did you paint these?"
"uhm yeah," he said, coming to stand next to you, "my mom's actually an artist, so i kinda get it from her i guess."
"they're beautiful, eren," you complimented, eren trying to stop his cheeks from getting any redder.
eventually after you had your fill, you had asked eren where you should sit. "uhm, you can take my bed, o-or the desk if you want! whichever one you prefer."
you plopped up on his bed, eren laughing softly at your jump. he grabbed your backpack for you, setting it next to you on the bed. "thank you," you said, eren smiling at you with a "mhm".
eventually, the two of you had gotten into the content of the study guide, eren helping you work through problems you were confused on, and explaining them to you.
at around 10pm, you guys had finished the study guide. "eren, i actually understand chemistry, it's a miracle," you joked, eren laughing softly. "seriously though," you continued, "thank you, you don't understand how big of a help you've been."
"well, you're a great student so s'not hard," eren smiled, and there came that fluttering feeling in your stomach again.
"have you eaten?" eren asked, catching you off guard. "i-i just realized, we kinda spent dinner time studying, and i was gonna go down to the kitchen n make some mac n cheese if, uh, if you want some?"
"y-yeah, i could go for some mac n' cheese."
"i'm convinced you're gordon ramsey or some shit," you said as you took another bite of mac n cheese. eren laughed, "don't boost my ego like that."
as the two of you ate, you continued to converse about random things. the conversation initially started with you asking eren what his major was, which you found out, was biology. you laughed asking him why he TA'd for chemistry and not biology, and eren was quick to joke,
"i guess i'm just that multi-faceted, you know it's a struggle just having so much genius in my head," "oh shut up," you giggled, eren smiling over at you.
the conversation eventually drifted into anime, which the two of you bonded over. you were ranting about jujutsu kaisen,
"and i just don't get how people are complaining about this season's animation! like i'd like to see you do it, mr. i live in my mom's basement," eren snorted at that, causing you to laugh loudly.
it was a dinner filled with laughs and smiles, and that warm feeling in both of your chests that just would not go away.
and to be honest, neither of you wanted to let go of that feeling.
since eren was a TA, he was also a proctor for the exams. he smiled when you came to the front to grab your scantron. he handed it to you, with a soft whisper of, "you're gonna do great, don't stress."
you smiled at him, walking back to your seat. and for the first time this year, the questions on your exam didn't look like a child's scribbling. you still struggled on some questions, but you mostly understood what you were doing.
for once, you finished the exam with a feeling of hope instead of impending doom.
and when you got your score back the next day, you had gotten an 85!
your first thought was that you couldn't wait to tell eren.
"an 85!" he yelped. you nodded, biting your lip with a big smile. "holy shit, y/n!" he cheered, his arms wrapping around you in a big hug.
it caught you off guard, but you quickly melted into his embrace, hugging him back. after 10 seconds, eren pulled away, awkwardly putting his hands at his side.
"s-sorry!" he apologized, "just got really excited," he said softly, his cheeks that pretty shade of pink that they often turned.
"s'okay," you smiled, "thank you," was all you could say.
"i'm....i'm really proud of you," eren said softly.
that sentence had you on top of the world.
" i couldn't of done it without you, eren."
december had quickly approached, and with it so had snowstorms and finals week. eren had continued to tutoring you, helping you cover content that had confused you during lectures, and providing you with weekly quizzes to help test your knowledge on each chapter.
now that finals week was here, you and eren had been in cram-mode. eren was intent on helping you ace this final, and he knew you could do it.
the two of you were in his room, as you usually were. after that first study session in his room, you asked eren if you guys could keep studying in his room. you said, "s'just nice in there. feels comfortable, i think it helps me focus," and who was he to say no?
if anything, the image of you on his bed, pencil in between your teeth was more than enough motivation for you guys to have your study sessions in his dorm room.
like now, you were sitting on his bed, in spandex and a big T-shirt. you had came in sweats and a sweatshirt, with your big winter coat over you.
when you had asked eren if you could take your sweats off, he was at a loss for words, just looking at you with wide eyes. "i-i have shorts on underneath," you promised, eren sputtering out words, "uhm, uh yeah, of course! s-sorry,"
when you had said shorts, eren wasn't expecting spandex that clung to your figure. he was trying his best to respectful, but, oh my god, he couldn't take his eyes off you.
and then your sweatshirt came off, revealing your big T-shirt, and he couldn't help but imagine how you'd look in one of his shirts. how you'd put it on in the morning, and the way it would drape over your figure. that combined with the image of you sat atop his bed, had him shifting in his pants.
he was doing his best to not pop a boner right now.
regardless, he was here to help you study! and that's what he was trying to do, but...you seemed distracted. your pencil was between your teeth as usual, but your eyes were glazed over with something he had never seen in you before.
you hadn't written anything in your notebook for the past 5 minutes. eren cleared his throat, causing you to shake your head slightly and let out a shaky breath.
"you good?" he asked, to which you gave a simple, "mhm."
eren didn't believe you.
"c'mere," he said, causing you to look at him, with raised eyebrows. "y/n, c'mere," he repeated. you listened, getting down from the bed.
he pushed the chair he was sitting in back from the desk slightly, "sit," was all he said. "h-huh?" you spoke softly, trying to stop your thighs from clenching together.
"y/n, you seem distracted up on the bed, so just sit n' i'll keep you focused. you can't do good on the exam if you spend our whole study session chewing on your pencil."
your cheeks were getting hotter, "o-okay," was all you said, sitting down on eren's lap.
eren was convinced he like to torture himself because the second you sat down on his lap, he was trying his best not to run his hand over your thighs.
eren let out a soft, shaky breath. "a-am i too heavy? m'sorry i-i can get up," you said, lifting yourself up from eren's lap. eren's hands came to your waist, pulling you back down, "mm mm s'not it, jus hot n here s'all."
"o-okay," eren stuttered, "walk me through problem 6," he said referencing to his open binder on the desk. "u-uhm" you said, your voice shaking, "so it's asking a-about dihedral angles."
you could feel yourself getting wet and you were beginning to curse yourself for wearing such thin spandex.
eren listened as you spoke, "so it's either psi, phi, or omega." "mhm, keep going," he said, voice low.
eren's eyes widened as you continued to speak. he doesn't think you notice how you're slightly rocking your hips over his lap.
fuck. he couldn't stop it even if he wanted to. his dick was starting to twitch in his pants, getting thicker as your pretty hips started to rock over him. the slightest whimpers were slipping out in between your words and eren swears he must of died and gone to heaven.
was it okay to put his hands on you now? could he? god, he wanted to so badly. would you be okay with it? fuck, if the way you were moving over his dick had anything to say about it, he thinks you'd be okay with it.
fuck it. eren brought his hands to your thigh, humming as you continued. you paused what you were saying, hips stuttering in their movements. "s'this okay?' eren asked. "y-yeah," you said, cringing at the whimper that accompanied your words.
"okay, keep working through the problem for me," eren sighed, his hands resting on your thighs. "uhm, so the psi angle is from the alpha carbon to the carbonyl carbon, and the, uhm.." you words began to drift off as eren's hands began to trace over your thighs.
"c'mon y/n, focus," eren said, resting his chin over your shoulder as he watched your hand shake as you held the pencil. "m'trying, i'm sorry," you said voice shaky, your hips still rocking over eren's lap.
"don't apologize, pretty girl. just finish the problem for me and then we can take a break," eren promised, his hands rubbing over the inside of your thighs now.
pretty girl. he was trying to kill you.
"o-okay, ren', i-i'll focus," you said softly. "u-uhm this angle, though, is from the alpha carbon to the nitrogen, w-which would uhm," eren's fingers were lightly rubbing over your clit through your spandex.
"c'mon baby spit it out. what would it be, you're s'close," eren hummed softly. "i-it would be t-the phi angle, p-please eren,"
eren was grinning at how desperate you had gotten, your hips were rocking with fervor now, and you had thrown your head back to rest on his shoulder, leaning your body into his as he rubbed over your clit.
"mmm good job, baby, so smart, hmm?" eren's dick was throbbing, you just looked so pretty for him. he couldn't take his eyes off of your face, the way your eyebrows scrunched together, your pretty lips open in an o-shape.
"c'mon baby tell me how smart you are," eren said, rubbing over your clit more intensely now. "i-i'm smart," you said breathlessly, rocking your hips into eren's hand. "yeah you are, angel," eren said, placing a soft kiss on your shoulder.
"n i think you deserve something for being so good, huh? whaddya' think?" "yes, yes, please ren', need it," you whined.
eren laughed at you softly, removing his hand from over your clit, and tapping at your thigh, "stand up, baby," he said lowly.
you whimpered at the loss of his touch, but listened nonetheless, standing up and turning around to face him. eren sat up straight, bringing his hands to your thighs once more.
"so, so pretty," he murmured to himself. "wanna take this off for me, angel?" eren said, tugging at your shirt. "mhm," you hummed, lifting your shirt over your head.
"fuck me," eren sighed. you had on a pretty, lacy pink bra. eren was convinced he was the luckiest man on earth. "shorts too, baby," he said, and you were more than happy to oblige.
eren swore his heart was going to beat out of his chest. pretty pink underwear with a little bow in the middle. you were pure perfection. "oh my god, c'mere," he said pulling at your waist, having you straddle him. you giggled as he pulled you on top of him, the both of you smiling at one another.
your hands looped around his neck, and eren's hand came up to your face softly stroking your cheek. "you're so pretty, y'know that?" he said, his eyes entrapped with yours.
you couldn't take the attention, looking down. "mm mm, look at me," he said, his hand falling to your chin to force your eyes back on his. "so so pretty," he repeated, pulling you in for a kiss.
it was everything you had imagined and more. the way eren's lips moved against yours had your hips rocking in his lap once more. the soft sounds the both of you were making being muffled by the other's lips.
eren's tongue slipped in to your mouth, brushing against yours. eren pulled away, lips slick with spit. you were breathing heavily, pouting as you looked at eren.
"w-wanna see you too," you said, your hand bunched into his shirt. eren smiled at you, "yeah? help me take it off.""
your hands came to the bottom of his shirt lifting it up, eren grabbed at the neckline of his shirt to pull it over his head, but not before it got stuck slightly, causing the two of you to laugh.
he finally got it off, grinning at your pretty smile. your hands came to trace over his abs, looking back up at him and back down at them.
"let's get on the bed, hmm?" eren said, his hand coming back to rub softly at your cheek. you looked up at him, nodding. eren wrapped his arm around you, standing up. eren tossed you softly on to the bed, before joining you atop it.
you were laying down, head propped up on his pillow. eren hovered over you, leaning down for a kiss. what started off soft and slow, quickly became more desperate.
eren's hands were running over your body, yours arching into his. he took the chance to reach for the clasp of your bra and undo it. after feeling it come undone, you slid the straps over your arms and let it fall down slightly.
eren pulled away from your lips, grabbing your bra and tossing it down onto the floor. he looked down at your breasts, moaning at the sight. your nipples were stiff from the cold air.
eren didn't know what he wanted to do first, but he knew he had to have his lips on you. he kissed you once more, moving to your cheek, then your neck. he kissed down your shoulder, to your collarbone, finally landing one on your breasts.
he looked up at you before sucking a nipple into his mouth, evoking a soft whimper from you. his right hand began to tweak at your other nipple, rubbing the bud between his fingers, pinching and twisting softly.
he loved how reactive you were, the way you moaned and whimpered at each touch. he needed to taste you.
eren kissed down your stomach, right to the bow on your panties. his hands came to the hem of your panties as he looked up at you. "s'this okay?" he asked, wanting to make sure you were comfortable.
"s'more than okay, please touch me," you begged so sweetly, eren couldn't help but smile. he landed one more kiss right below your belly button before pulling your panties down your legs.
your panties were left dangling around your left foot as eren spread your thighs apart. you were dripping, your arousal evident as he took his fingers and spread you apart.
you were hiding your face in your hands when eren looked up at you. "getting shy on me now?" he asked, voice low. "there's no reason to be," he said, breathless as he watched you clench around nothing.
"s'so perfect," he muttered, before landing a kiss on your clit. his lips quickly wrapped around your clit, suckling softly at the bundle of nerves.
you were a mess, legs kicking, thighs trying to shut close around eren's head. he just put a hand around each thigh, and kept you spread open for him.
"ren', ren!" you whine, sounding like a broken record. eren was in heaven. there's no way he was letting you go anywhere after this.
he brought a finger down to your entrance, softly licking at your clit as he slid it in. his finger was reaching depths that yours never could. he curled it slightly, feeling that gummy, sensitive spot that had you losing your mind.
your hips bucked when he first touched it, eren laughing softly at your reaction. he continued to push his fingers against that spot, and you were going dumb, whining absolute nonsense, "mm oh my! oh e-eren oh fff-please!"
eren needed you to cum on his face, needed to see how pretty you looked when you reached your peak. he hadn't taken his eyes off of your face as he analyzed your every reaction and expression.
"r-ren', i-i'm gonna! gonna-oh!" you were trying to tell him you were close. eren understood, and sucked at your clit even harder, lightly grazing his teeth against it. you were so loud, he knows his dorm neighbors probably hated him.
"c'mon baby," he said, words muffled by his face pressed into your clit. your hips were grinding into his face now, your hands coming down to grab onto his hair. eren moaned at the feeling, the vibrations making you haywire.
you were so, so, so close, and with one final press of his fingers, your orgasm was washing over you, juices pooling out of you and into eren's mouth.
"mmmm" he hummed as he worked you through it. eren pulled away, his chin wet with your arousal. "ren', p-please kiss me," you said softly, your hands coming to his cheek as you pulled him up towards you.
his lips were on yours once more and you could taste yourself on his lips. "taste s'good, huh?" eren grinned at you. "w-wanna make you feel good, too," you said, your hand coming down to softly palm at eren's cock through his boxers.
"oh, fuck," he sighed, his forehead resting against yours. " can i, ren?" you asked so sweetly, your eyes boring into his. "y-yeah," he choked out.
you told him to sit back as you two swapped positions.
you were on your knees in front of eren, who had spread his legs enough to make room for you in between them. you pulled his boxers down along with his shorts, eren helping as he lifted himself off the bed so you could get them off.
his cock sprung out, hitting his stomach softly. he was so big, your mouth started to water. the tip was a blush red, his cock curved slightly. he was so thick, you didn't know how he was going to fit inside of you.
the second you wrapped your hand around his cock, eren was a goner. he was watching you so intently, and when your pretty lips opened to take his tip into your mouth, eren threw his head back with a soft groan.
he looked back down, watching as you sucked softly on the tip. when your eyes looked up to stare into his, eren whimpered. "d-doing so good, baby," he praised you, his hand coming to softly rest on your head.
you took his cock out of your mouth, looking up at him ever-so-innocently, "what do you wanna do to me, ren?"
you were stroking his cock, the pre-cum leaking from his tip helping you as your hand slip up and down. "f-fuck, oh my god," he whined.
"want you to use me however you want," you said, your pretty voice sweet and soft. "f-fuck, however i want?" eren said, voice breaking.
god, what were you doing to him?
"mhm," you hummed, kissing the tip softly. "c'mon ren," you pouted, "don't you wanna use my throat?"
eren groaned, both of his hands coming down to rest on your cheeks now. "f-fuck, c'mon open up," he ordered, the change in his tone making your clit throb.
eren's hands move to your hair, wrapping around it. you opened your mouth, lips around eren's cock once more. "yeah just like that," eren said as he pushed your head down softly, forcing more of his cock down your throat.
"god, you take it so good," he sighed, his hips bucking at the feeling. you gagged softly, eren groaning at the feeling before pulling you off his cock.
you were breathing heavily, eyes watering slightly as you looked up at eren. "m-more, please," you whined, eren's thumb coming to play with your bottom lip.
"you're such a slut for it, hmm?" he said, his words causing you to whimper. "you like that too, don't you?" he spoke, voice gravely as he stared down at you.
"wanna be a good slut for me, yeah?" he asked, to which you nodded. eren softly slapped your cheek, "c'mon use your words for me,"
"y-yes eren wanna be your good slut."
eren was smirking down at you now, "then be good n choke on it," he said, bringing you back down to his cock. eren was moaning as you took him deeper, his hips bucking.
"f-fuck, oh y/n," he sighed, his hands falling from your hair. you took the chance to wrap your hand around his cock, stroking and sucking at the same time.
eren thinks he was starting to lose his mind. "g-god baby! go-gotta stop m' gonna cum," he was saying, his voice breaking in between the words.
you took his cock out of your mouth, still stroking him slowly. you looked up at him, smiling, and eren knew that image would forever be engrained in his brain.
"baby c'mere," he said, his hands coming to your cheeks as he pulled you in for a kiss. eren was smooth as he flipped your bodies over, hovering on top of you now.
"needa be inside you, pretty girl," eren said, his cock resting over your stomach. "h-hold on," he said, "i n-needa grab a condom."
your hands braced against his shoulders to stop him. "wanna feel you," you said, eren's eyes widening. "n, n i'm clean and i'm on birth control," you rationalized, as if eren needed a reason to be inside you raw.
"fuck, baby, are you sure?" "mhm," you nodded, pulling him in for a kiss. eren's hand wrapped around the base of his cock as he stroked the tip of his cock in between your folds. "f-fuck," eren moaned at the feeling of your wetness coating his tip.
every time his tip nudged your clit, you jolted, causing eren to smile devilishly. eren brought the tip down to your entrance, softly pushing inside. when the tip slipped in the both of you let out a soft sigh.
as eren pushed further in, you were whining. there was so much of him, so much to take. "you can do it, pretty girl," eren said softly, slowing pressing himself in further and further.
when he was fully inside, he just sat there, giving you a moment to adjust. he watched your face scrunch, getting used to the feeling of him inside of you.
he watched as your facial expression then relaxed, eyes opening to look at him. "s-so full," you whimpered, "p-please move," you whined, eager to feel eren more.
eren was quick to listen, pulling out till just the tip was in before thrusting back inside of you roughly. you both were reeling at the feeling, you from how deep eren was hitting, and eren from how wet and warm you felt around him.
"f-fuck, such a good fucking girl," eren moaned, his hand drifting up to rest on your neck. you took your hand and wrapped it around his rest, signaling you wanted more.
eren just grinned down at you before wrapping his hand around your neck. he couldn't help but think how pretty you looked being fucked stupid.
"god, the way you're squeezing around me baby, trying to milk me for all m'worth huh?" eren groaned. your legs were wrapped around him tight now, not wanting to let him go.
"please, please ren' want you to cum, w-want you to fill me up," you begged. if eren thought he was close before, he was right on the edge now, his hips stuttering as he spoke, "f-fuck, you want it inside?" eren asked, his eyes raking over your body, hand still wrapped around your pretty neck.
"p-please!" you whined, eren thrusting even faster now. "fuck, gotta cum for me then angel," eren said, taking his hand that was wrapped around your neck and bringing it down to your clit, his thumb rubbing circles on the bundle.
"f-fuck ren!" you were moaning loudly now, hips having a mind of their own, your wetness creating a squelching sound with each of eren's thrust.
"that's it baby, c'mon cum for me," eren was moaning too, so close, but he needed you to cum first. "show me how good you are," eren groaned, that being the final thing to tip you over the edge.
your orgasm triggered eren's, his warm cum filling you up as he moaned your name loudly, hips stuttering as pumped you full. "f-fuck" he sighed, as he came down from his high, looking down at your dazed-out expression.
"did so good for me baby," he said softly, pulling out of you. "t-thank you, ren," you said, your voice so soft.
"think after a shower n some food you'll be able to focus now?" eren joked. "mmm, i don't know," you said, turning to him with a smile, "think you may have to help me focus again."
thank you for reading! i sincerely hope you enjoyed the fic<333
also for anyone who's watched the finale can we talk about cabin eren. oh my lawd i am feral over him!!!
if you would like to, reblog or leave comment if you liked the fic! my requests are also open:D
also if there are any spelling/grammar errors, let me know!
sending you all lots of love, and happiness - angel (*o*)
sticking my head out of my grave to say i think fuckboys w tongue piercings (aka my favs) r super funny actually bc getting their tongues pierced means they had to walk around sounding like sid from ice age and barely being able to eat solid food for like a week
