lala vang .

Ia Vang . 28. Hmong.♥

[lalavang00]

It Was an Almost, But Always a Nothing

What hurts the most is that I’m still thinking of you,

knowing full well you’re not thinking of me.

My heart still aches at the thought of you,

and I dislike myself for it—

because I promised I wouldn’t let myself be hurt again.

I told myself I’d walk away first.

But it turns out I still have a lot to learn.

I should’ve walked away the moment you said

you couldn’t be that person for me.

I should’ve walked away

when you said, “It’s not you, it’s me.”

I should’ve walked away

when you said you just wanted to keep me

in a box—tucked away.

I should’ve walked away

when you said you’d think back someday

and smile at the memories we made.

I should’ve walked away

when you said you needed more time.

But then you talked about future trips,

dates, and plans together—

you called me yours,

you said I was your best friend,

and I believed it.

So I stayed.

Even when deep down,

I knew it was never going to be me.

And maybe that’s the hardest part—

knowing I stayed,

when I should’ve walked away.

It was an almost,

but always a nothing.

- yourstruly.iav

[thealfaguy]

[overclassy]

[chicamanson]

im so in love with being in love, i swear i have been put on this earth to love someone intensely and completely

[plutorichh]

[hvny-x]

i love bein on this app. dnt nobody know me. dnt nobody care what i be doin. peaceful

[remanence-of-love]

[maureen2musings]

Kuju Flower Park, Japan

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[dinosaurwithablog]

Spring has sprung!! Look at all those flowers!! They're gorgeous 😍 ❤️

🌺🌻🌼🌷🌹🪻🌸🪻🌷🌼🌻🌺🌹💐🪷🍀🌸🌷🌹🌻

[landsccape]

[pnglove]

[halflifesk666]

Is your soul okay?

[belmasworld]

no, next question

[silent-insanities]

Feeling everything and nothing all at once.

[lalavang00]

💔

[lalavang00]

Letting go with love. It was nice while it lasted. Now, it's time to move on fully. No regrets, no more thinking on what ifs or what could have been. I did hope we would meet again like we promised, but i guess it was better off this way. I'm closing and sealing this chapter. Thank you for the memories.

[lalavang00]

The only place where my inner thoughts and feelings are bare...

[lanndscape]

[lalavang00]

If We Meet Again

5 months have passed, the date we had set is drawing near.

Do you still remember our promise… or did it drift away with the silence?

Do you think of me from time to time, or am I already a forgotten melody?

Did you miss me like I missed you?

Did you have sleepless nights the way I did too?

Did you ever ponder on the what-ifs and what could have been?

With these thoughts and feelings, there’s only lingering memories and emotions left, unsaid.

If we meet again, what would I say…

Here’s one thing I know:

If we meet again, we’d probably awkwardly catch up and then talk like we normally did,

as if nothing ever happened.

But at the end of it all, I’d wish you the best and wish you well.

I’d wish you find happiness and never fall ill.

Let us not meet again unless it’s God’s will.

We’d part away, and I’d wish you a final farewell.

That's if .. we ever meet again.